I was looking to get out of my life and dig into a good book. I thought it was a good idea, at least until I finished it. Now I am just so sad. The books title grabbed my attention because it was in the romance section and across the cover read: Never too late. I thought, well this could be good. The main character was turning 40 getting divorced from a cheater husband. I thought maybe it would inspire me. Well they write the book like almost 40 is getting old but she still of course has a hot body and she has gorgeous hunky men after her. She ends up marrying an old high school classmate who is the love of her life.
I am sad. Thinking they say the main character is getting old at almost 40 I will be 50 next year. My body is not "hot" and at this age I have no idea how hot it could get. I look in the mirror and am kind of sad. I used to be attractive and now I just look old. I can still pull off an ok look when I really try but no denying age is affecting my body and face when I am at my most vulnerable. I want to feel attractive and had hoped to find someone someday but the clock is ticking. I haven't even gotten a divorce yet. I know I am not ready and would never jump into anything for a long while, and that's only if someone comes my way and if I could ever trust again.
I guess reading the darn book made me realize I miss feeling a good, strong, dependable man wrapped around me and I may never have that. I am sure I am not alone in this. I was just so tired of reading books about cluster B's, I thought it would be a good change. I guess I will try a nice mystery book next!