Has anyone felt the sheer terror of suddenly realizing the man you married – in my case a narcissistic monster? I feel the sickening feeling of panic that strikes like a lightening bolt, like I can't escape fast enough. Does anyone feel the same, like the world is collapsing all around you, and the husband is sucking the last breath of air from the room you're in?
I'm just realizing how all alone I truly am in this marriage, and planning my financial future to leave. I'm scared to be on my own now, I lived alone when I was younger, but never really stopped being so desperate to be part of a couple.
My goal is to be able to live alone and be content and happy. Does the all-consuming feeling of being alone dissipate over time? Does it truly get better once you mourn the death of the dream of what you thought you had and move out on your own?