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In my last article, I wrote about things to consider before making the decision to divorce. This article deals with accepting and recognizing when it is time to "throw in the towel." Below are a few signs that you are dealing with a marriage that has gone past the point of my opinion.

Are you to the point that your spouse just can't do anything right, does everything they do get under your skin?

Shortly before my Aunt and Uncle divorced, I heard her say, "If he died tomorrow I'd have to peel an onion before I could shed a tear." Their marriage had gone on way too long. So long that she had developed feelings of animosity toward her husband. If you feel yourself moving in that direction, do yourself and him a favor and move on.

Are you tired of the trying, so tired you can't muster of the energy to even engage anymore?

Trying to solve marital problems can turn into a cycle of the wife trying to get her needs met and the husband stonewalling or dismissing her. A woman will normally try to re-engage her husband. Women are natural problem solvers who don't give up easily. She will eventually tire of trying to engage her husband in finding solutions to the marital problems. She will withdraw, stop expressing her needs; and once this happens, the marriage is headed for separation or divorce.

Does the idea of sex with your spouse cause you to shudder?

Does the idea of sex with your husband cause you to feel trapped, like you want to cry, pack your bags and never come back? If so, it is time to act on your feelings.

Has the love you felt been replaced by resentment?

Feelings of resentment come from being hurt by your husband. They stem from allowing someone to hurt you. There is nothing wrong with feeling hurt by the actions of another. The kiss of death to a marriage comes when we harbor those hurt feelings and do nothing about them. When you don't voice your feelings in a proper manner or stand up for yourself, hurt turns to resentment. From resentment grows bitterness and hostility, feelings hard to work through and more than likely mean the end of a marriage.

The above list is a small sample of signs that your marriage is dead. Many women live for years in a marriage where some or all of the above signs are present. They stay for any number of reasons...guilt, religious beliefs, the children, fear of change. They stay for all the wrong reasons. In my opinion, when it is over, it is over. It is time to stop peeling onions and throw in the towel.

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  • Comment Link Exahausted Tuesday, 13 March 2018 18:02 posted by Exahausted

    I just need to pull the trigger... I have felt all of those for years.... I have worked 2 full time jobs for 7 years.. it was suppose to be only 1. I have begged him to help... literally I have been on the floor crying that I just can't do it anymore... I have 3 teenage girls... I need to pull the trigger but fear of what my daughters might feel towards me and if I have the emotional strength to make it through.. I know what needs to be done... I just need the strength to do it.

  • Comment Link Who Knew Saturday, 10 February 2018 04:33 posted by Who Knew

    I will soon be 50 and my husband is 61. I am an entrepreneur (licensed realtor, insurance agent and tax accountant) and he works for our local school system (support staff). We are an interracial couple (me: Black and he: Puerto Rican). When we met, I met who he wanted me to see (musician, energetic, ambitious and a team-player) now that we're married, I see the real him and I don't like him very much. We dated a year and he proposed in public on one knee in front of hundreds including his family (father, sister, niece, etc.) a year to the day we met; it was beautiful. The fool that I see now has to know that I am not happy. Why? For 2 years I have been, without complaint, cooking (I mean really cooking), cleaning, running 3 businesses and meeting his needs. We're empty-nested and every now and then I might ask him to for once cook me a meal and let me lay on the sofa and wait to be served. I suffer seasonal allergies and for some reason in the middle of Winter I am dealing with runny nose, itchy throat, needles sticking me in my throat, nose burning, eyes watering, etc. My 22-year-old daughter (we share 8 children... him 5 and me 3 and all grown) runs to the grocery store for us and brings the groceries inside. I ask him if he can cook instead (it's stir-fry veggies and baked fish) and he ignores me. I begin fussing because I am sick and it's unhealthy to cook while sick and I complain that he has yet to cook and he says in a very nasty tone with his face all mean,"I don't cook and you knew that when you met me." I said, well, I always cook can you at least try and he said I'm not hungry anyway (he would eat if I cooked) so just cook yourself something. Angry and ready to explode, I fixed everything (enough for us both) but lost my appetite as the tears began and I realized that I married an asshole; an old fool (Nabal). I cooked, cleaned, stored the food, took a shower as I usually do with my gospel music and before I was done had praised and worshipped myself right into realizing that I want a divorce; not because he doesn't cook but because he's a fraud...not who he led me to believe he was. His sister tried to warn me and now, here I am. I removed my rings and left him a "You're a damned fool" note with my rings on the toilet as my marriage is shit to me now. I'm so angry at myself but, I am also relieved that I didn't invest years only to learn this.

  • Comment Link Charles Sunday, 31 December 2017 07:36 posted by Charles

    My ex wife and I stayed together after the divorce. I had to divorce her becaise when we seperated 2 summers ago every time she got mad she would keep our daughter from me so for my parental rights I had to file for divorce. It was real bad. She is an emotional trainwreck she litteraly has the emotional maturity of a 12 year old. She actually berated me for 3 days about leaving the milk out over night. Like 3 days for an eye roll or a sigh. She has parents that never told her she was wrong.
    Our marriage started off real real bad. During our reception my umcle who she asked to give the dinner commencent took our daughter over to my dad who she hates and she flipped out ran outside and stared screaming at me and threw her ring in this field i had to find it. I was able to calm her down or so i thought she went inside i had a smoke she went in and kicked out my uncle amd my mom my mom beacuse she didnt immeditly rip our 10 month old daughter out of my dads hands. My parents are divorced. It was the first time my dad saw my daughter. My dads wife and my ex wife got into it the christmas while she was my ex didnt want to take our daughter to my dads house she offered to meet my dad at a restuarnt but my dad demanded that we bring our daughter to his house only. So for the first 10 months i tried to show my daughter to my dad and he nor my wife would budge. My dad and I have a strained relationship. So the first time he held her my wife went nuts. She agreed that my dad could hold our daighter after dinner but my uncle made the mistake of taking her to my dad during dinner not after and my mom and uncle were kicked out and the rest of my family left my wedding far the worst day of my life. And i stayed with her for5 more weeks.until we seperated. She raped me on our wedding night i didnt know what to do i didnt know if i said no if she would flip out again. I mean a total flip out. The next night she kept going on about my mom and uncle and i said enough im done im done im done so she grabbed my pistol took the safety off and tried to hand it to me and saod if your done kill yourself. 10 min later she demanded sex. I stayed for the saftey of our daughter. Anyway i filed for divorce in nov of 15 finalized april of 16. She got a bit better with hormone treatment but she is still out of her mind. She finds fault with everthyting for periods of time. Then for some periods we are great together.

    Shes mentally ill and tells me that I am. We can have 6 weeks of just amazing time together and then 6 weeks of hell that started over something simple as me being 10 min late then she will make up issues that arent.
    For the past few months i have been staying with her 3 days a week and 4 at my moms. We havent li ed together since we got divorced. But we have spent time and gone on vacations and stuff.

    I promise you i could write a book on our relationship snd her insanity. Im just torn cuz the good times are real good but the bad are real real real bad. Now shes playing games with my daughter because 2 weeks ago i pointed out she told our daughter becuse she said so and shes the parent and what she says goes. I pointed out to my ex that she absolutely hated hated hated hearing that from her parents growing up and now shes saying it to our daughter. Well she went from calm to insane in the blink of an eye and she grabbed my collar and raised her fist at me. I oushed her away. Well she cant understand why i havent been staging there since that incident and is now playing games with our daughter and not letting me take her on my court ordered days. Called the cops they said yea we arent getting involved evwn though i handed him the court order. I know i need to leave i just need to find good woman friend to be there for me. I know im a moron but my heart still loves her and always will. But her mental illness needs to be treated but she wont because im the only one in her life that has ever told her shes wrong. Her parents enable this behavior from her so she is convinced everyone else is wrong not her. I could go on about her parents for a very long time. Sorry for my rants folks jist going through a rough time and i honestly only scrateched the surface here. Like if the whole story was a mile o tokd you about 6 inches .

  • Comment Link Mymy Thursday, 21 December 2017 23:25 posted by Mymy

    I get so fed up with my husband sometimes ... - he never does anything to make me feel good, only help I get is him drying the dishes, I do everything else from hoovering to ironing, shopping, cooking, making the bed, phoning for takeaway, etc... he likes to be served with the excuse that his job is more physical than mine but we both work full time and he’s really not much help, sometimes I feel if one of us had to go to hospital he would struggle more than me, he needs me more than I need him. And at the weekend he likes drinking and every other time he’s abusive and he disgusts me when he’s drunk - but he doesn’t want to give up because it’s only 2 nights out of 7 so I should just accept it (that’s what he thinks!) but I am less and less patient with him when he’s drunk and I end up hating him as he treats me like shit. The next morning he says sorry but he binge drinks nearly every weekend and I now don’t care about having a drink myself as I’m too aware of him and what could happen... Sober he’s fine but I feel it’s a matter of time before I just get fed up with it... Sometimes I even feel I stay with him because we have a mortgage and a cat together (no, no kid!) and I feel I also miss my freedom being with him. Sometimes I wonder if I’ve not made the wrong choice but it’s too easy to stay together for convenience - the passion feels gone... not sure if it’s the same for everyone but after a few years of marriage the spark is kind of gone and you just wonder...

  • Comment Link K.S Wednesday, 06 December 2017 08:06 posted by K.S

    Dear all,
    I feel all your pain, and I am in it myself. Please don't stay and waste your life. Move on. I am waiting for the holidays to be over and then just be honest. Don't be miserable, believe in yourself and your abilities. You are all smart, capable, women and men. Let go of materialistic things. At any age you can figure it out. You can be on your own, even with children. Your life is a previous gift from God, and if he is true and real, he would not want this on you. He will be there for you, but you must be true to yourself. Live your life being authentic and honest. Don't let finances be an excuse to hold you back. I promise hard work, even being tired, will feel better than being trapped in this prison. Marriage should not be that at all.

  • Comment Link Tfree Thursday, 16 November 2017 12:27 posted by Tfree

    This comment is both general and for Hank. Hank leave. I am a married woman. I behave much like your wife. It's wrong by all accounts, no excuses for it at all. I have tried to leave my husband but financially and having 4 small children make it very difficult. Your children are grown. Hank leave. No bullets in the mouth, no horrible lonely days, no bitter with words or nasty looks. Hank leave. I am leaving my husband. I just can't be with him. Everything he does irritates me. He had a TBI a number of years ago and it changed his personality's. But instead of seeking help he refuses. I stayed out of obligation. Now I just can't stand him. You live once Hank. Sounds like your wife has been unhappy for a long time and it's beyond help. Hank leave.

  • Comment Link Tracey Saturday, 11 November 2017 09:34 posted by Tracey

    I just read what I’m living. My husband is done, but he won’t admit it. I want to work it out but he has no desire to even engage anymore. 27 yrs together, 3 kids, and I’m going to have to start my life over at 43. Thanks for this advice, it was very eye opening, sadly.

  • Comment Link Hank Boatsmith Wednesday, 27 September 2017 11:59 posted by Hank Boatsmith

    I'm a married man. Been married 30 years together 36. Over time my wife has developed a less than nice personality, she's very negative and belittling. I've tried and tried to talk with her about this and she always has an excuse. Her apology is like "I guess I'm sorry then". So it's gotten to a point where we went to a therapist and she was absolutely useless. Now after being shamed, belittled and on the receiving end of verbal abuse I'm done. My kids are grown and out, I'm financially very comfortable and own everything I have. I've been a punching bag so long that I just can't take it anymore. Twice I've loaded my gun and stuck the barrel in my mouth. She sees no wrong in what she has done to me. I avoid conversation and spending time with her because of how nasty she has become. I need help on how to leave. I'm tired of the abuse and her rants. I was a very good husband, provider and lover to her. No more can I take. How do I leave? I've already transferred money, moved my retirement account, my 401K and my stocks and mutual funds are all in my name. I'm thinking about just packing what I need from my closet and dresser and disappearing. Help me please

  • Comment Link Tammy Thursday, 14 September 2017 23:45 posted by Tammy

    I cant stand my husband any more!!! I have nothing but resentment for this man he always has an attitude and thinks hes always right ... I cant stand we he tries to touch me and the thought of sex with him anymore disgust me and we have only been married 3 years.. He doesnt work but yet he still buys things we dont need!! My money!! I have custody of my 3 grandbabies and he is ALWAYS picking on my oldest grand daughter she's 8 its like hes jealous of her or something ... I want him gone how can I get this man out of my house... There is absolutely no love left for this man and Im tired of him walking around here with an attitude all the time ..
    God please help me!!

  • Comment Link Cassanova Saturday, 09 September 2017 10:32 posted by Cassanova

    Hello Mercedes.
    Sending peace love and hugs to you. If it is meant to be, you two will find your way back

  • Comment Link Mercedes Sunday, 27 August 2017 21:02 posted by Mercedes

    Hello everyone. My story is long but if someone can read it and offer advice, I would appreciate it.

    I was previously married to a man that I know now was the love of my life for 22 years unfortunately I receive that we drifted apart so I left him I met another man who I will call Bob who was extremely good-looking and presented himself to be the man of my dreams he was always there for me he would help me in the house hole he would rub my feet when I came home from work he would do all the things that a woman would look for I asked him if he was this good of a man why was he not marrying he said it he came to live in my town because his father was dying of cancer and he wanted to take care of him after he asked me to marry him I told him no because I thought he was too good to be true and I hadn't known him long enough over a time of year he asked me several times to marry him I finally said yes it was the biggest mistake of my life the man that I married and the man that I met or two different people he turned into the meanest man I have ever met in my entire life everything and I do mean everything with him it's about money how to get it how to con it out of people how to steal it anyway he can we are from two different Lifestyles I was hoping that I could pull him up to my level but instead he has tried to drag me down to his he is not physically abusive but he has to be bipolar I cannot think of any other reason why someone would change in meds since the way he does I don't know what to do I feel trapped I don't really have a support system my family hates him and they will not help me as long as I'm with him and for some reason I cannot seem to be able to leave him I always said if a man cheated on me I'll be out the door well he cheated on me two years ago and I forgave him but it's all part of the hurt that he inflicts on me on almost a daily basis he's just mean and cold to me I want to leave but I have anxiety stopping by myself so I'm really not sure what to do can anyone out there please give me some advice. I try to be a good loving wife to him. He has even said so and that I don't deserve to be treated so mean but then he continues to be mean and cold and unappreciative. I miss my ex of 22 years. We still speak occasionally and we're friends but I hurt him deeply when I left him and he wont even consider getting back together (which I don't blame him). I sometimes feel that this horrid lice I'm now living is punishment for hurting my ex husband so badly. I just want to be loved and appreciated.

  • Comment Link Rita Crossthwaite Sunday, 27 August 2017 00:15 posted by Rita Crossthwaite

    And when you know it would crush him? Just months ago he hugged me and said, you'd never leave me eh? Clearly he suspects something. 33 years married. Every single one of those rings true for me. Not to mention, bankruptcy for both of us.

  • Comment Link Andrea Pentoney Thursday, 24 August 2017 13:11 posted by Andrea Pentoney

    Hi me and my husband have being together for 20 years and married for 12 years. We have 4 children 18, 17, 15 and 10. We don't do anything together anymore we get up in the morning and goes back to sleep in his chair. He spent alot of money changing cars and modifying them and he goes in a 1 when I say No he can't do it and makes me feel guilty. He doesn't get on with the 10 year old and can be really horrible with him shouting at him for no reason and ignoring him when he asks him something. When he wants sex I try and make an excuse why I don't want it but he won't talk to me for a day or is really arsey about it taking it out on everyone cos he don't get wot he wants sometimes I dread going to bed cos I know he is gonna try it on. We have split up every year for the past 5 years for a week or so but end up getting back together cos he says he will change and stop playing his PS4 all the time he does change for about 2 months then goes back to the same old person he is. I want to leave but I am scared of what he will do as last year he was pure evil trying to get me the sack at work and trying to turn my friends against me. Plus putting horrible things on social media about me he even through me out at 1am and got the kids out of bed to say bye to me. I have no money as he gets it all and when I do have some money he whinges cos he hasn't got any. I really want to leave does anybody have the same problem as I feel so alone

  • Comment Link Justine. Sunday, 20 August 2017 19:48 posted by Justine.

    No you're not stupid. Obviously he behaved in a way that made you love him. If he was insincere and changed afterwards that wasn't something you could be expected to predict.
    Finally you're only 48 years young, it's NEVER too late for a new start.

  • Comment Link Justine. Sunday, 20 August 2017 19:43 posted by Justine.

    You must go with your gut instinct.
    It doesn't sound good. You owe it to yourself otherwise one day in the future, you'll look back and wonder why on earth you suffered all of those years.
    If when you imagine a life without him you can imagine a relaxed better life, you have to do it.

  • Comment Link Justine Sunday, 20 August 2017 19:35 posted by Justine

    I totally sympathise. I've been marri d for 16 years, and have 4 lovely children ages 9,10,13 and 15.
    There is no intimacy in my marriage, no "we" no "us".
    We do not do anything together, other than when he needs sex. Then he hangs around me, then after a bit of mauling I very grudgingly give in. My emotional needs aren't met at all. This may sound very strange but there is no relationship between my husband and the children. He loves them, is a wonderful provider of food and whatever stuff we need BUT he gives nothing of himself. I don't know him any better now than when we first met and he certainly doesn't know me. I've given up trying to hold a conversation with him, he's opinionated in his views, won't really indulge in even a little small talk really, he will respond, but nothing meaningful. On the very rare occasion that we've gone anywhere together, there is no easy relaxed chatting that you'd expect between a husband and wife. It's the lack of binding with the children that upsets me the most, I can't help feeling responsible. I've decided enough is enough. I'm going insane thinking about it all of the time, things aren't changing and I've come to the sad conclusion that they never will. I'm just waiting for the children to return to school, then I'm going to tell him.
    It's so hard because he is essentially a good person, but just a person that seems incapable of showing emotion that comes to others so easily.
    All I know is that I can't live the rest of my life this way. It is an extremely lonely experience to be in such a marriage. I'm married and yet living like a single person.

  • Comment Link Karen Saturday, 19 August 2017 01:32 posted by Karen

    I love my husband dearly , we have been together 21 years. But the last two have been a complete nightmare. We have had ups and downs. THIS IS BEYOND WHAT I can handle. I've been patient. He is insecure, extremely . Since he lost his job. I've always fixed everything. I can't and won't fix this. I've tried to express I love him. He accuses me of cheating, making porn. Posting myself. Absolutely not true. I'm home at and night we live with our three boys, 23,19 and 13. Only the I leave once a week grocery shopping. My 19 yr old goes with. For the years he has called me a whore, slut, everyday for the last 2 1/2 years. I'm not perfect. We both have faults. I've never done things he says. I can no longer handle it. He won't let up and won't leave. We rent from my mom.

  • Comment Link Karen Allergo Monday, 14 August 2017 06:59 posted by Karen Allergo

    I have been married for 14 years with my husband and I regret it. I have two boys which I love an adore. My husband is 13 years older than I am and thinks he knows everything. He thinks highly of himself and assumes he knows how to effectively communicate with others, since he is a manager at his work. He does not understand me or even try. I am sick and tired of his insults. I failed the NCLEX numerous of times and it has shattered me. I don't show my hurt to others but I keep everything inside. As a result, this is great ammunition for my husband because he can constantly remind me how I am a failure and I cannot pass the NCLEX. All I get is more insults. For instance,he stated just two days ago, how can other working people with kids pass the NCLEX and you can't. Bottomline, its because I am stupid and not capable to pass this TEST. I just hate myself. He makes me feel dumb, stupid and not valued. At times, I wish I was never born. Usually, I am the one who compromises because I do not want to deal with his crap or I just remain silent. I am tired of constantly being blamed and I love how he uses my past hurtful experience to rub on my face. I tried many times to stand up for myself but the result was more insults and everything was my fault. I finally had it now. I don't want to divorce him because I worry about my kids and their future. I came from a divorce family and I remember how hurt I was because neither of my parents raised me. Thank GOD I had wonderful grandparents. I don't believe in love anymore or a relationship. I want to be a good mother to my kids and start only living for them. I am not looking or want another relationship as I have loss hope in love. When I dated my husband their was passion but once I said I do everything went down hill. The last time we were intimate it was five months ago. Last year we were intimate only four times. In 2015, we had sex only one time the whole year. I no longer have any expectations and now am giving up all hope. My husband feels spending time with me, is when he is on the loveseat with the laptop and me sitting on the other couch folding laundry. We have nothing to talk about except the kids and now politics, other than that NOTHING. I cannot say my life sucks because my life is my kids and I love them both. I dont know what I want in life anymore.

  • Comment Link Chad Sunday, 13 August 2017 17:26 posted by Chad

    How old must your kids be before you're no longer a SAHM and just a deadbeat who wont work?

    Of course a woman who has never worked deserves alimony. It is how the court systems help keep additional deadbeats off of welfare. They start being a SAHM.. then become housewife, then retired housewife.. then eventually just live off the alimony provided by some hard working sucker.

  • Comment Link G Friday, 11 August 2017 14:44 posted by G

    This article is so biased. A lot of times the hurt is also felt by the man. Except men, due to the fact that they reason instead of acting on feelings, tend to shut down a lot earlier than the woman. The woman, being so self centered, because she's had the privilege of being, in most cases, highly pampered by her now distant husband does not realise what's going on because of the abuntant lack of concern on her part for her husband's well-being.
    Believe it or not, a man may feel complete lack of desire to bed a woman for many reasons. Again, women think they are the center of the universe.
    This "cycle of the woman trying to get her needs met and the husband stonewalling" as far as I can interpret that phrase it's complete rubish. Men, once they make the choice to become a husband and a father, also have to sacrifice a great deal of themselves for their family. Since when in a responsible relationship is the man required to give in to his woman's every whim?!

  • Comment Link Debbie clark Wednesday, 09 August 2017 03:02 posted by Debbie clark

    All the above

  • Comment Link Slowly Wednesday, 02 August 2017 16:37 posted by Slowly

    After 40 years I cannot be with him anymore. The lies, the emotional abuse, the lack of affection, the non existent communication, the boredom because he wants to do nothing and go nowhere, it is making me physically ill and I need to go for my own wellbeing. At this time I feel as if I have wasted my entire adult life on trying to make this work. I cannot bear to be in the same room with him listening to his lies and nothingness. We have gone in different directions - he is so closed off that he has no idea no clue that I am about to walk away...

  • Comment Link jenny Tuesday, 01 August 2017 02:07 posted by jenny

    I'm afraid I'm here. We have so much water under the bridge its insane. Our marriage has gone through him cheating. ( a drunk fling with my friend) flirting with other women. A hooker. And lots and lots of alcohol. He is a highly functioning alcoholic. And I'm just sick of it. Tired of trying but scared to change my life. I dread sex. I dread evening when I know he's going to drink. But we've been marrie 26 years! I watched my mom get divorced after 35 and I couldn't stand to be alone like that. So confused.

  • Comment Link Sandra Wilks Sunday, 09 July 2017 05:59 posted by Sandra Wilks

    I can't say anything to him without him criticizing me or taking what I say personally. He's controlling, refuses to tell me details on important things, like finances, etc. Says I don't need to know the details. We lost our daughter to drugs and I feel he caused it because he didn't step up as a father and deal with it, discipline her enough. My son is gay, and I feel it's because my husband wasn't a good enough father figure and role model.

  • Comment Link Melo Saturday, 24 June 2017 05:37 posted by Melo

    I'm not sure if it's hate. But I love and hate him at the same time. We dated for 7 years before we got married. We married for only 4 months now. Unfortunately we married cop and my parents won't really be happy with the idea of a divorce. I'm always complaining but he doesn't know I complain. We have sex we dont make love. He wants it when he wants it and i must be willing. We basically built a house at his parents property. I spent alot of money on the house including the contents of the house (things that are permanent) Every time we have a argument he says I must get out of the house. He treats me like I'm a maid. I work Monday to Friday 8 to 4.30pm and earn a salary as much as him. I have more qualifications then him. I'm independent I have my own car as well. I don't rely on him for anything. He expects me to clean the house, wash dishes, cook, dish for him etc etc. He does nothing. He doesnt buy groceries. He doesnt buy breador milk when it runs out. I have to think like a man all the time. Im so fedup!!! But I don't want to leave coz I'm afraid of society. I'm also studying and he is not. I'm doing my honors. He doesn't give me the chance to study coz I have to always do things for him. He recently connected a wifi connection in his parents house hoping we will get connection in our oulet and we get nothing. So I complained about that and he got all defensive and angry. Tells me to sit in his parents house to use the internet. He is paying with our money but I must inconvenience myself. We have no kids. So if I want to leave I can. But I can't... what should I really do!! There is so much more he does to hurt me emotionally. In front of him I act strong but I'm crying inside. When I'm alone and not with him my top is wet from my tears. I don't know seriously don't.

  • Comment Link Catherine  Triplett Sunday, 04 June 2017 19:37 posted by Catherine Triplett

    I believe these are the medics that met us at the plane gate at MSP on 6/4.My daughter came down with a high fever in flight and they were sonkond ..making sure she was okay.

    Thank you!!

  • Comment Link Jomiami305 Thursday, 27 April 2017 14:20 posted by Jomiami305

    I am writing this while Im on break at my job (wirh tears). I am in a relationship with a man who is physically mentally and emotionally abusive. He is controlling and a hypocrite.  He has cheated on me multiple times and now he wants me to take a lie detector test.  I want to take it to prove myself but another side of me wants to grab my kids and run. I am starting to hate him with every fiber in my body. He has a child support case against I feel like he won't take a DNA test because he knows it is his child.  I hate that I stayed this long. I feel so worthless every day of my life. The only thing I am is a punching bag to him. I hate my life with him. If I had somewhere for me and my kids to go without him knowing I would take it in a heartbeat. He accuses me of cheating when he cheated 5 Times and he couldn't be a man and tell me he was cheating he had to get caught. I have let him get too much power. I feel stupid because iI allowed him to control me and put me in bad financial situations. My credit is totally messed up because of the things I put in my name. But his credit is fine. He has threatened me to leave me with bills that he helped create and abandoned his children.  Our children loves him but the hate his attitude. My son says he is scared of him because he constantly yells and curses at him. My daught has told me so MANY times to leave her dad. I hate my life sometimes I wish I dont wake up but I know my kids will suffer.

  • Comment Link Kyle Monday, 03 April 2017 14:05 posted by Kyle

    Total BULLSHIT. It's the man who is most likely to be abused. Most women are looking for a bigger, better deal. Change the women's perspective in the "piece" into the man's, and the real truth emerges. Best of luck to you ladies; because you will never find the happiness you seek. Your expiration date has come and gone. Even if you do ACT like you going for an Oscars and are on your best BEHAVIOR all the time, of course, and trap a guy into marrying you, he'll split in less than 6-8 months, maybe sooner, when he sees you for how you really are, unless he is really weak, stupid or a cheater or all three or combination of bad elements. This Japanese woman couldn't maintain it forever. She finally showed her true nature by making her new husband feel unappreciated, and her being un-empathetic, unmoving, and a money grabbing sack of inhuman refuse; beautiful on the outside, not beautiful inside. She HAD IN FACT found the one man on Earth that could overlook her faults and love her regardless. This proves my point of the last couple of decades, women have progressively become garbage (with a VERY few exceptions); garbage is what women have become. Selfish to a fault.
    EXAMPLE: I once knew a respected, decent airline Captain who was married to a beautiful Japanese woman from a good family, and had a family of their own consisting of two children together, she was still gorgeous and a bit younger than he was. They had it all. One day he advised her that the FAA had found a genetic disorder he had, through no fault nor preknowlege of his own, inherited from one of his parents that precluded him from obtaining an on-going medical certification to fly airplanes under his very expensive licenes. You see, you need all the licenses to fly AND a yearly medical certification from the FAA (which is comprehensive, from an FAA designated flight surgeon), and his abnormality was with the advent of the FAA's always improving tests, and discovered. He had no idea he had it prior to the FAA advising him his career was OVER, PERMANENTLY. He went home, advised his wife of his loss, sadness and determination to make the best of what would be a somewhat less energetic life and the loss of his 20 years seniority and pay and benefits. She would have to support the family, for a change, put her college degrees (of which she always lorded over the Captain), he'd take care of the young children and the home so he could rest as his condition worsened (which it did, though to look at him you would never know the severity of his illness), and that he'd have to try another, lesser paying line of work in deteriorating health for the rest of his 30 years of work, if possible. Sounds reasonable and wise, right? Well to this she relied, without ANY emotion whatsoever (bear in mind that truly, before the man's announcement, the Sun rose and set on the Captain and their children, according to her, and they DID make an almost absolutely perfect couple), she said without any emotion, except for a hint of disdain, "Well, I have no use for you now, I'm leaving you and taking it all". Now I know for a fact that as good looking and polished as she was, she managed to date a little and a while later actually married, for 4 months, a New York, Wall Street bBanker that made LOTS of money. Then she began to let her guard down, little by little, until he had had enough, and he dumped her, though she DID put on a good show for a while,l. She got NOTHING. She was cast away for a very young assistant to our wise banker. Our beautiful and now two years older Japanese "ladie", is now starting to look like she is forcing her looks and it is finally sinking in that there are MILLIONS of younger women coming of age every day now for her to compete against. She to this day remains alone and regrets to no end and sadness giving up on her former airline captain husband, the father of their children, and a good man that I know personally. He treated her with the utmost respect, honesty and not the least loved her with all his heart. He truly is a good man and put up with a lot of her endless "issues", like bad, hair trigger temper and those imperfections that I listed previously. Now she is looking forward to 40 years of true loneliness and false hopes with much older men of dubious scruples (as you know it can take a while to truly "know" someone); this is all that she will ever find. There was no pot at the end of the rainbow, just ugliness. The children have suffered. She has had a harsh wake up call to reality, and my friend, the former airline captain is now on disability due to his health. Had she been patient and loving, all would have worked out. HE promised to love her no matter what until death do they part when they married, and it is a promise he intended to have kept to his last breath.. HE was prepared, had the situation been reversed to stick by her no matter what. Now he is really quite happy, married to a very pretty, exciting and EMPATHETIC Korean bookkeeper. They are expecting his third child, now. Sure his home is tiny compared to before and he drives a new Honda Civic, but he lives in Hawaii, modestly and is happy and comforted in the knowledge that THIS GOOD WOMAN will ALWAYS be by his side, for better or worse, for richer or poorer, until death do they part. She, I know will keep her promise. She is my sister. 40 excruciating years of loneliness awaits Ms. Japanese ex-wife. She DESPERATELY wants to be married again and have a husband and it be the true father of their children. Activities, shopping and distractions and friends do not compensate for a real husband. She can't even find a good man at church that remotely meets her standards (alive, I guess). She is a tragedy of our day and age of our civilization. She also is a fool. She is the kind of woman who reads and takes to heart the kind of sophomoric drivel the above written "advise" espouses. Her unrequited loneliness is not a biased wish or curse from her victims nor myself, it is simply the truth.........REMEMBER.

  • Comment Link Monika Sunday, 02 April 2017 14:47 posted by Monika

    I am jobless and he always treat me like I am useless I am trying hard but not getting job whenever I need something I always have to like bag him and we don't have financial problems his earning is very good and he never communicat me deeply and I feel alone and lefted. I have to always ask for everything I am like totally in control of him and by the way he is a very good person for others and always ready to help others his problem is only with me and because of all these problem I had a miscarriage before. He have not any problem with my how lower the job is I.e it could be a helper in kitchen and I am well educated I don't know what should I do.

  • Comment Link Brigetta Thursday, 30 March 2017 05:47 posted by Brigetta

    Yes. Yes! YES!!!

  • Comment Link Jill Rowe Saturday, 18 March 2017 12:11 posted by Jill Rowe

    Oh dear that so sad Millie, that is abuse, is there no organisation whom could help? there are safeguarding laws for disabled people , please contact your local authority, best wishes and thinking about you Jill

  • Comment Link Millie Saturday, 11 March 2017 09:19 posted by Millie

    I feel sick being married. He's 52 and because of my illness he thinks I'm dependant on him and needs him. Yes I'm scared to be alone as i have no friends and close family due to him isolating me. I'm sure he has something wrong with him. He talks in a child voice and has child characteristics i find it repulsive. I have screamed and cried at him to stop it. But he carrys on.. he trusts to control me and sometimes i sob for hours. I am housebound and isolated and he won't even let me go in his car even for a drive to the postbox.he sickens me. I can't even look at him sometimes. I feel so trapped he acts his normal self and charm to everybody else but behind closed doors he changes into a child like mode to me. I feel so depressed and i just don't love him.

  • Comment Link exhausted Sunday, 26 February 2017 19:06 posted by exhausted

    I'm not even sure where to begin. we have been together for 20 years with 2 kids. 15 year old daughter and an almost 4 year old son. and we are divorced. that's right. divorced. we divorced when my daughter was in kindergarten. we were fully living seperate lives for about 4/5 years. he was awarded custody of our daughter because, as someone else said, he is willing and able to play as dirty as he possibly can and small town politics. i know what youre thinking believe me. why did i go back? i could not stand watching him and by him i mean his mother, raise our daughter and i felt responsible because of some of the choices that i had made. and the ole stand by excuse "i thought he had changed". and he had, for several years things could not have been better. he realized when i was gone just exactly how much he took for granted. but slowly, slowly he slipped back into old patterns and habits drinking, staying out all night, not helping at all around the house or with the kids. but in his mind he does. and i honeslty think he believes it! let me preface the fact that i did it all over again by having another child, with the fact that i had an IUD and i took the morning after pill so dont judge. things were not perfect but not near like they are now after my son was born. my husband (because what else am i going to call him? baby daddy?) was on cloud 9 because i stayed home with our son and he had constant knowledge of my whereabouts. now that i have gone back to work, and changing careers at 40 years old, its a whole new story. years before when we seperated i cheated on him. a bunch. i made alot of bad decisions that i still suffer for. but the day we got back together, imo, he forgave me. oh he says he does and he never brings it up until hes drunk. hes fighting mad about the fact that i have a job and 100% of my time, energy, and attention is not on him and this house. hes turning my 3 year old against me. im not sure how hes doing that exactly but he is. i work either at my job or in this house literally almost 24 hours a day. i do not start my work until everyone is in bed, house clean, all that so he wont have anything to bitch about. i sleep maybe 4 hours a night. i am locked in the bedroom hiding right now so i could gt on the computer a few min and when i started typing i typed my husband hates me and is making my son hate me. im tired really really tired. and i make sure i screw his brains out on the reg just to keep him from having any more ammo against me. when he bothers to come home that is. also, he went behind my back and got 8 hogs, 2 goats, 3 dogs and 11 chickens that he expects me to take care of. and i took it all in stride. didnt miss a beat. just added them to my routine. and a puppy that i BEGGED him not to get. i REFUSE to take care of the puppy and it makes him so mad! i dont ask for much. a little help around the house and a little acknowledgment that i am a human being with feelings. let me add too that while i stayed home with our son he never gave me money. for anything. my 73 year old mother took care of myself and my sons needs. hubby refuses to help me pay the babysitter (because those are the choices i made) he refuses to help me get him to and from the babysitters because he works 3 nights a week from 7pm-7am he comes home and goes right to bed. i am learning a whole new career and i LOVE MY JOB! ITS THE ONLY THING HOLDING ME TOGETHER. i have bald spots on my head because my hair is falling out so bad. im exhausted. im depressed. not to mention that hubby told me the other night when he was drunk that i should just go kill myself. if i leave he will take my kids from me. if i stay......? how much is enough suffering for my past sins>

  • Comment Link leslie Thursday, 23 February 2017 07:54 posted by leslie

    i have been married 22 yrs. to a man with an abusive autistic and his family who has caused us so many problems. I am brain-injured, seizures-he leaves me even when i having a seizure to on his 22nd vacation to sioux falls for vacation to be with his family. When i had open heart surgery at 52, he laughed at me. i've had so many surgeries and we also have a 19 yr daughter living a home. I wondered could i make it on my own, 58, with all medical problems, with disablity checks, and trust my husband won't bring his kid home? I use to love both the husban

  • Comment Link Gill W Monday, 20 February 2017 15:36 posted by Gill W

    I've been married for forty years! Women of my generation didn't give up on marriage, didn't believe they had a right to happiness and respect. My husband I now understand is autistic...has few or inappropriate feelings, no empathy, no desires apart from the basics. He considers no one but himself. He's not stupid- he's an academic- but nothing can get through to him that other people have feelings. My mother died and he spent a couple of hours making sure all his lectures were covered for that day before he bothered to come and tell me. Some men aren't completely human. If you're married to one get the hell out while you have time. My life is pretty well over, a total waste. Save yourselves.

  • Comment Link Phyllis Sunday, 19 February 2017 14:44 posted by Phyllis

    My husband and I have been together for 16 years married for 7. He says he loves me all the time but I don't remember the last time I told him that I love him. Lately I've been asking myself what it means to love someone other than my kids. I think I just tolerate him for the kid's sake. Don't get me wrong, my husband is very patient with me and I'm sure he loves me, he's hardworking, takes care of me and the kids...he's almost perfect. Even though I still feel I'm tired of the relationship. I've thought of leaving but I know I'll regret it as soon as I do. I think he too knows I'm not happy but he's probably too scared to say anything. I feel trapped

  • Comment Link Yvette Friday, 10 February 2017 17:17 posted by Yvette

    Good afternoon I am writing to you and confidence that I have been married for 38 years in July 2017 the problem is is I believe 8 years ago my husband was cheating on me some of the things that I found that he was and he will deny ever is soiled underwear locking the transport trucks of the business we own so I wouldn't read the log books or find anything unusual number three telling me that he always has to work and at nights come home when before he would always look for dinner and he doesn't I don't sleep with him he does not communicate with me I pick her with him he always says I'm crazy he tries to still call me dear and talk nice to me at times think that we have a good life when I have been living on my own in the same house as a roommate with him in a separate bedroom quarter for 8 years I have not had sex with him or intimacy we do not talk about our future endeavors he tells me nothing and he constantly is on after waking in the morning that computer before work and when he comes home I may not be there right away and I sometimes will come home and find he's on the computer or after dinner he will go automatically to the computer he has refused counseling he has not gone except once after I went twice I went to two different counselors for approximately 3 months the first time and one month the second he has refused all counseling saying that I am the crazy one he wants told me that he never loved me or he doesn't love me and that was in September when I asked him if he loved to me in front of my sister he couldn't answer and he said he cared about me to me that was good enough to say he's not in love with me I've caught him with a woman various women the one woman I went to see in the summertime he had on his phone which I found and sent to my phone a copy of her home address and picture of her house with a message saying I cannot wait to see you baby January 20th 2016.
    He denied everything with always a reason or changes the topic 200 did you know it's going to snow today or the weather. Or this person is coming by and I need to leave to go get gas for the lawn mower anything to get out of speaking about the truth or what I have come across constantly he is in denial with my feelings he talks at me not with me he shares nothing with me and I have been found last week on the week of January 2017 that he has allowed his driver to take his wife with him on a run meanwhile I have been part ownership of the business and I have been told by my husband of 30 8 years that I could not ride with him in the tractor trailer to the Toronto area as he says he is almost everyday am I being overly suspicious or should I have every indication that this marriage is over with I have not been with him physical contact in 8 years he continuously lies to me makes excuses he's narcissistic every time he is right he turns everything around on me I believe that the marriage is over with what do you think??
    He also has put me on GPS? Where I go who I'm with what I'm doing what time I'll be home he also has gone into my bedroom and looks through my lingerie doors he looks at my top of my closets if he can find any information on me he does he has even scoured my phone through the internet on a program you can purchase for 2495 and he doesn't even have to have my phone in his hand and he has called different men in the past and pulled them that they cannot afford me and without knowing if I was intimate with these men or just friends or high school friends or whatever the case maybe he automatically has called and he has railroaded me many many times he has also followed me years ago into a bar and watched me on the patio while people spoke with me and then when I went in to use the bathroom he finally left after a half-hour and people grabbed me by the arm and said are you okay there's this man that's been watching you and he lied about it the truck was hot on the hood when I came home and I knew with my description of him of what he had on in the morning was this description of what he had worn and clothes on the day that he approached the restaurant where I was and the people had admitted what he'd had on and that he was sitting in the party room watching me outside on the patio for an hour this man in the past has even gave me excuses that he got a blowjob with a woman in a parking lot at a windsor Raceway and he also has told me things that about other women he has befriended that he will deliver to on the loading dock at plants in the auto sector and I have called them and they have refused to speak with me they have even blocked me on LinkedIn I was very nice with them the one I went to visit this summer at her house and she said she needed to see a picture of him and then she said no she didn't know him but then she said well I have a friend that works at a bar where he might have gone and I could have met him through her and or she would say to me you know I don't know him maybe he knows of my husband and I said but why does he have a picture of you and your house not her initially but her house and the address and a message to her and that is her correct name and that is her correct address as I was there to confront her and she said I don't know maybe he got it from my ex-husband I said why would your ex-husband pass you along to my husband who's married man that does not make sense so I told the girl I left saying I'll take you at your word but I do not believe you I believe you have had intimate relationship with my husband I shook her hand and I left and I told her how old are you and she said 38 I said you won't be the first 38 and you won't be the last I'm 55 years old anyway I am so tired of all these things that are happening and I have wanted to leave him for 8 years but he's always using money as a factor in the relationship that were in debt for this or in debt for that I think he's just playing me out what do you think

  • Comment Link Tammie Thursday, 02 February 2017 13:41 posted by Tammie

    Yes to everything. We are having to raise our grandson and my husband does not like him. Our son that has been addicted to drugs and now alcohol is living with use again and my husband promise me that he would never let that happen again and he did. He takes up for my son he lets my son talk ugly to me and never stops him. My husband want do anything that i ask him to do like hang a clock up for me, tighten the belt on the trad mill. If i ask my husband to stay home form work with me one day or take off early and do something that is important to me, he always says i have to have a week notice i cant just take off just like that ( we have our own business ) so he can, but if there is something he wants to do like sale his truck he will stay home all day looking in the internet for a new truck and stay home to wash his old truck with a notice at all. He only has something to do with me when he wants sex so i got tired of that and he tells me i need sex. I don't give it to him because after he treats me like i'm not important after so much talk that we have had about it and he will say ok I know i don't show you any attention i will do better, he doesn't so i stop giving in everytime he wants sex so the other night i found him on the internet trying to find someone to hook up with to have sex with. We had a fight about that. He has a birthday coming up and I said what would you like to do for your birthday he looked at me right in the eyes and said to be left the hell alone. I said ok no problem. Then later he said I was just kidding you have no since of humor. I'm really so sick of him. I told him i have needs to and it is to fill loved i need time with you having fun. So on thursday night is our date night well last thursday he worked late and then went and got a hair cut, the week before that he forgot and he said oh i'm sorry i just forgot, but he never forgets about other things, just when it comes to me. I feel so unimportant to him. He may love me but he isn't in love with me. I'm starting to really hate him I have even told him that look I'm sorry but i am starting to fall out of love with you. Evertime i tell him something like that he just says oh yeah me to. I'm getting so depressed. He will talk to talk but not walk the talk.

  • Comment Link Lost Sunday, 22 January 2017 19:33 posted by Lost

    I'm not going to lie, I see a lot of people here saying that their spouse cheated, or hit them or anything along those lines. I have never been physically harmed by my husband, nor have I don't that to him. We have been together for 9 years (married for 5), we have 3 kids a boy who is 6, a girl who is 5 and another boy who is almost 3. When I was pregnant with my first, I was sure my husband was unfaithful. I had a strange feeling he was unfaithful to me during my pregnancy with my first, didn't feel the same at all with my second and didn't with my third. I have been sure may times that he has been unfaithful. I have also felt through each passing year (now if feels like each passing day) He just annoys the hell out of me. He is hot and cold with our kids. One day he loves them and plays with them, the next he picks one and plays favorites with them(I know he hates our oldest, he never hugs, kisses or acknowledges him) he adores our middle child and hates our youngest as well. Then you have the days that he is just laying on the couch and would rather stare at his mobile phone all day. If our kids touch him at all, hug him try to kiss him he will yell at them and tell them to go away because he doesn't want his clothes to get dirty. Even if he has regular kick around clothes on, he will yell at them for coming near him. My god, am I really married to one of those guys? Oh my god. Anyways, he will eat or drink something and then use the kids as his butlers to take his bowls, plates and cups to the kitchen for him. He never does it himself. He always tells them when they are in trouble "what the hell is wrong with you?! I have depression, bad depression and anxiety a couple of weeks ago he got mad at me for taking my medication and said that we never have sex when I am on it. Seriously? Having sex is better than your wives mental health? That is selfish! I dread sex with him, it is like having sex with somebody having a seizure not that I know what that is like, but I would assume that is how it would be. Every day I wake up, get tea write exercise tend to our kids, clean the house and somehow I feel like maybe I was just in a bad mood, he comes out and pulls his crap and I am back to being miserable. I would rather be a single mom having a tough time making ends meet rather than be with somebody who makes me miserable, while still having to tend the kids, being married and being miserable. I want out. Unfortunately, I have no money, we have no money, if I leave I know he will fight me tooth and nail for our kids (when though he works impossible hours and has no money for daycare) He just isn't a good husband or father. He was a great friend and in the beginning before pregnancy came into play he was amazing. He has turned into my worst enemy. We date, we do things couples do because I wonder if it will help, but at the end of the day I hate him. I hate everything about him except for our kids. Now after I am done here, I have to clear my browser history because he will eventually find this and scream at me for it. He would probably say he wants a divorce after it, but with the way he fights, I don't want him doing that like he normally does in front of our kids.

  • Comment Link Miserable Saturday, 21 January 2017 02:02 posted by Miserable

    I've been reading all these comments and thinking, thank God I'm not alone. I can't stand my husband, married almost 17 years with 4 kids. All he does is work, we have an son on the autism spectrum which is so stressful and he just compounds the situation by not being home and unwilling to do anything the therapist suggest. I cannot bring myself to be intimate with him he makes my skin crawl. I am a sahm mom so right now I have no means to live in my own. Everything he does annoys me, he has worked every weekend for at least 15 years leaving me sit home with kids. It's all I can stand to even be in the same house with him, I'm not sure who said they wish their his husband would die and that's what I have said, divorce isn't even enough I just want him out of my life.

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  • Comment Link Michelle Tuesday, 17 January 2017 05:16 posted by Michelle

    I am stuck in a miserable relationship. I have been for at least 7 years! Here's the thing though, it's not because I haven't tried to end it, he will not leave! If I try to end things he starts threatening me and he's so crazy he'll make up anything to ruin my life. So here I am forced to live in the same house with someone I can't stand. I guess in my head I know he won't leave so now I just try to make the beast of a horrible situation, I feel like a prisoner in my own home???

  • Comment Link hellodolly Saturday, 14 January 2017 18:23 posted by hellodolly

    Im such an idiot. I moved to the other side of the country to be with this man. I'm 48 years old with 2 previous marriages behind me, and I've given up everything to marry him. He's lazy, in every way, and despite my best efforts to try and tell him what I need it appears he thinks doing exactly as he pleases, nothing to help at home, getting his own way and not even trying to satisfy me sexually 90% of the time is fine, as long as he turns up with a bunch of cheap flowers once every 3 months. Im too old for another new start. My life is a mess. Im an idiot.

  • Comment Link Allie Varga Friday, 30 December 2016 03:32 posted by Allie Varga

    I never thought I would be on a website like this, much less replying but I am reaching my limits (though it almost seems limitless). I have been married for 16 years and we have two beautiful girls who are 13 and 14. I really dont want to rock the boat, but I am never happy or satisfied. I have been pretending for a very long time; pretending that I can deal with insults, and arguments, and working my but off only to be insulted more. Every time we have an argument it always comes out that I am a horrible parent; I suck at running our coffee shop; I am horrible at staying organized. I have been full time in our coffee shop which does great (but can always be better). I work 7 to 3 five days a week He has been working night shifts Tuesday through Saturday leaving at 2 and getting home at some late hour. We have no family around so it has been me and the girls doing this routine for a decade. I have made sure they get to all their after-school activities (of which there are a ton); they get together with their friends; all their needs are on me drs, dentists, orthodontist, specialists, all me. they are honor and high honor students. the biggest downfall for which I am to blame, they are snippy and sometimes mean (you think? teenage girls who dont like their dad) and they are on their phones too much. but they have chores and responsibilities. I do nothing but work, take care of the kids, the dogs and the house, i do little for myself. when I mention this he says it is not his job to make me happy. its my job. but I have no friends, because I prefer to hang out with men; always have. So I dont get out much.. I love knitting, reading, painting and my dogs, but often dont have time for projects. i am just ready to have an apartment and a little fun once in a while, but the thought of divorcing makes me feel guilty.
    sorry this was so long, I just needed to share...............

  • Comment Link Stonewhat Thursday, 29 December 2016 03:15 posted by Stonewhat

    My husband and I have been married for just over 1 year. I didn't realize I was marrying a man-child. He throws tantrums, spends money without a care in the world, drinks alcohol constantly, and would rather spend every waking moment with his friends. He has not helped once with household chores or with the pets. I have tried everything, and this week I just stopped trying. I have invested so much into this, and he just laughs it off. I feel like a failure, but in order for me to be happy again I need to leave my marriage.

  • Comment Link John Rivers Wednesday, 28 December 2016 03:14 posted by John Rivers

    Married for 25 years; separated one month - divorce proceedings ongoing.

    Funny thing is that during the first five years of my marriage the only thing in my mind was how to extricate myself from the relationship. I fantasized about all the things I was missing in life -- a life with other women. I was constantly reassured by a co-worker that if I was to stay for my child -- that my stay needed to be fully committed and if I could not do that, I should take the high road and move out and on.

    And so for 25 years I stayed. I became a full blown alcoholic. A functional alcoholic, but alcoholic nonetheless. The chaos and suffering was endless. My poor wife aged horribly and developed all kinds of psychological / pathological maladies during that quarter century.

    I cheated on her with no less than 35 woman. I never confessed nor was ever caught. Interestingly, while sex was much better with the other women, I kept going back to my wife. I could never explain, other than it was out of cowardice, that I kept going back to her when deep inside, I felt she could never fulfill me as a sex partner.

    Perhaps I became a co-dependent to her; or vice - versa. Perhaps we were/are both psychologically damaged.

    About a year ago, she decided to call it quit. She filed for divorce; placed our house on the market, and was determined to end the marriage. During that year, we lived apart in separate beds, then together, then she voiced that she wanted the divorce withdrawn.

    Unfortunately for me, I began to experience horrible nightmares, fear, sadness, guilt. The pain became unbearable. I sensed during that time that she, too, was experiencing serious psychological issues.

    When the house sold a year later, I determined that I was not going to permit her to withdraw the divorce petition. I felt that too much damage had been done, and that -- eventually, (she s 50 years old) when the kids left the nest, we would find ourselves dealing with the same issues.

    For this reason, as much as it pains --- a pain I had never experienced -- I strongly feel we are inevitably doomed to divorce.

    I constantly find myself now asking that, if for years (my good years) I wanted to end my relationship with this woman - why does it now hurt so much?

  • Comment Link Seren Tuesday, 06 December 2016 05:19 posted by Seren

    I would like to release this stupid belief I have about feeling guilty over the idea of divorce, and feeling like I failed if I did proceed with a divorce. I'm living my worst nightmare, married to a man who acts like a child.I never imagined myself being married to someone so needy, dependent, and insecure. I've been married for 7 years, and these have been the worse years of my life. I'm done with the talks, all I get is lip service, and promises that are forgotten in 2 seconds. I use to be such a vibrant, high energy women before I got married, and now, I hate who I've become. I don't know if it's possible for someone to drain your energy, but if it is possible, that is what I'll living. More like, my life force is being drained. If you are a mother who sons, please, teach them to be confident, secure, and self-reliance. I hear too many women complain about how childish their husbands are, do you ever stop to ask yourself why that's the case? I'll tell you. Because, the mothers did not do their job of raising boys to be men.

  • Comment Link Sabrina Friday, 02 December 2016 21:55 posted by Sabrina

    im tired of even trying now... He has been lying and staying out for days at a time.. He swears he's not cheating so after 4 months I changed the locks and he confessed he is on crack.. Never in my life have I ever done any drugs and it's hard for me to except that he chooses this addiction over me... He is not the person I met and his vulgar vocabulary.. The way he acts the weight loss and not helping and the lies... Just to look at him makes me sick... He has stolen my joy... I've exhausted all of me to try and help encourage him to get help.. I just wish he would leave.. I believe that my love has turned into hate...God help me but I want a divorce

  • Comment Link Hollie Monday, 28 November 2016 12:46 posted by Hollie

    My husband and j have been together for 11 years, married 4.We have 2 beautiful children aged 7 and 3, he loves them very much and they adore him. I wish I could say our problems started recently but that is not the case. I have always known I could do better since meeting him when I was 17 and he 21. We fell for each other very quickly but it was never smooth sailing. Out first 6 months together we didn't have a single argument and it seemed we were perfect together but I soon realised this was simply because I was so tolerant of his bad attitude and behaviour, I was (maybe still am) a push over. In our first few years together we had many break ups for various reasons all of which I now cringe over the fact I forgave him...he wasn't ready for a relationship, once because he wanted to try again with his ex, only to leave her again because he loved me. The naive teenager I was thought this was a good thing. He once declared his love for another ex to a pub full of people while I was home waiting for him, On all these occasions he apologised profusely and declared his love for me and I naively forgave him. In between these tough patches he was very open about the fact he loves me and I thought this was enough. Even though he was always a very difficult man. What his own mother calls 'self gratifying' he will do good things but always have to point this out and praise himself for it, and sulk like a child if I do not praise him for the most simple things. If I ask a favour of him no matter how small or big he without a doubt will say no. He will go as far as to cause an argument and let me get upset over it only to (sometimes)later point out he has already done what I asked or was planning to do it. This is such a regular outcome that the few (and I mean few) times my requests are answered with a 'yes' I am shocked and wonder if he really means it, it's exhausting. He has always enjoyed pointing out when I'm wrong, calling me an idiot if I do not know every little thing he does, dismissing my opinion on anything, basically he is right and If I tell him something I know, instead of believing me he will dismiss it as wrong, Google it to check if I'm right and then later re call it back to me as if he knew all along. He laughs it off and makes a joke as if it's no big deal. If we ever argue, he will just rant and shout about how wrong I am until I eventually give up fighting and he will later act as if nothing happened.
    Fast forward a few years and I was seriously debating leaving him, forward 24 hours and I find I am pregnant with our first baby boy. We were both over the moon and I saw this as an opportunity for him to grow up and be the family man he always said he wanted to be. I was wrong. As soon as we moved into our own house he bought a huge dog without talking to me about it, barely trained him and left me to train him simply so we had a pet that could be around children. Does little around the house and expects praise for the tiny things he does do. Don't get me wrong, he loves his sons and they adore him but he had very little patience with usOn top of the above mentioned down sides he is awful with money. We no longer have a joint account as I can't trust him with my money. We both have fairly well paid jobs and should be living comfortably but it is the norm in our house to be scraping pennies together just to be sure the kids have 3 healthy meals towards the end of the month. He earns almost 3x my wage yet I still pay out the same amount as him on household bills plus its up to me to make sure I have money left over or the daily essentials, plus clothes etc. Yet he always has new gadgets, model kits, pc games etc arriving in the post almost on a daily basis where I can barely afford to buy the kids new socks.He says he earns his money so he should be able to spend it on himself when he wants, he pays rent and does a big food shop when he gets paid and then he keeps the rest for himself-even thinking about saving a penny for a mortgage is laughable. To put it simply he is selfish. He clearly loves us very much and will constantly tell me this and has always been good when it comes to birthday, Christmas present etc he spoils us.That may be the problem. He is a very material man and thinks gifts help make a good husband. I have always told him that while I appreciate the money he spends on special occasions (pretty much the only time he will spend on others) I would prefer a caring husband and father who listens.This is something he has never done.
    It has been years going in a vicious cycle of us arguing, him acting like it never happened, getting drunk and apologising for being such an a** hole, telling me how much he loves me, saying he will change, even crying and begging me not to leave him (even though I had never told him I'd considered it) he just knew his behaviour was unacceptable and I was leaning that way.
    Only over the last year have I got to the point where I've given up on us, I no longer have the energy to entertain his childish behaviour. I now realise I started to resent him a long time ago but have been hoping for him to change. I no longer find him attractive, the little silly things he does that used to make me laugh irritate the hell out of me, I realise now his funny quirks were actually his way of distracting me from our problems. I dread him coming home and hearing him moan about whoever or whatever angered him by being 'dumb' that day. I have become addicted to reading just so I don't have to listen to his self centred, one sided conversations. I fantasise about having a man I can come home from work and think about hugging and talking to instead of dreading what mood he is in today. The worst thing is I think my husband has realised my change in attitude and is trying to fix it. Over the last 6 months He has actually cleaned the house on occasion, fixed household problems within a week or so instead of the usual year. Cooked dinner, offered to put the kids to bed occasionally, tried to be more attentive, asking me what's wrong etc and hugging me, he never used to hug me unless we were in bed and now it just feels awkward.(I have to get tipsy just to enjoy it in bed these days anyway. The problem is it's too little to late and he is still lacking the emotional availability I need. On top of these recent perks the above mentioned selfish traits are still there. II no longer feel towards him the way a wife should. I do love him, but I am definitely not in love with him. I know he loves me and it will break him if I leave but it is slowly breaking me to stay. I know if I mention leaving he will get angry. Am I being selfish still wanting to leave even though he is now trying to change his ways?

  • Comment Link Vicky Saturday, 12 November 2016 20:16 posted by Vicky

    That's just so wrong! Abbygayle you need some help right away. I would really like to help you. Could I ask what disability you have so I can contact the right people for advice? We will get your life better for you!

  • Comment Link Miserably Stuck Married Wednesday, 02 November 2016 15:41 posted by Miserably Stuck Married

    I feel like my marriage is over and that we are more like friends who live together at this point. I'm 31, hes 32 and we have been together 10 1/2 years, married 8 1/2 years. We have a 5 year old son and a 2 1/2 year old daughter. Since we had our son, our relationship has just went to crap. I almost died giving birth to my son and was laying on the couch feeling like death...come to find out (6 months after that day) that my husband was just feet away answering personal ads and sexting women. I felt trapped and didn't want to give up on our marriage so I forgave him and we moved on. Fast forward through the next 3 years....I caught him sexting on and off. He also would ignore me and push me away anytime I wanted sex. I never had any actual proof that he physically cheated, I just saw sexting text messages/emails. I spent 3 years wondering why he was acting this way and what I could do to make things better. 2 years ago I flat out got sick of being ignored and taken for granted, and I "left" him for a few months. I emphasize the "left" part, because I had developed a couple chronic medical problems since having our son and although the plan was always to go back to work, I am unable to so, so i had to still live in the marital home. Anyways I met another man(not my best choice I know, I just wanted to feel wanted again) and just wanted nothing to do with my husband. Problem here was I felt I had no way to truly leave and start over, no money, no place to my husband and I reconciled. He promised me everything under the sun in order to get me to recommit to our marriage and I did for the sake of our kids. I would never put them in a situation they didn't need to be in. It has been 2 years now and nothing has changed. My husband will try here and there but typically he comes home and is glued to his phone. He admitted that he can't stand the kids, hates being around them. I just found this out yesterday. He says he hates that he feels that way, but yet nothing ever changes. I do all the household chores and child tasks etc. He just doesn't seem to care at all, he cares only about what he wants. I'm not sure if he will ever change and I feel so bad for our kids. I still am unable to work, I do have a job but it is a substitute position and the hours are not steady. I'm not perfect by any means, but I do anything and everything i possibly can to make the effort to make things better. He just doesn't give a shit. My husband also is very protective of his cellphone still, I know that probably isn't a good sign. I'm just so stuck, and have no idea what to do at this point. I can't leave, yet I can't imagine living the rest of my life miserable.

  • Comment Link Abbygayle Saturday, 29 October 2016 07:29 posted by Abbygayle

    I am mostly bedridden (cannot walk further than 4-5 steps). It is very often a year between my bedding changes and 6 months between a bath or shower. I am not allowed to leave the house in the car without him but he is the one with an accident in the recent past. He does not allow me to dress in the clothes I bought but have to wear the same shirt and pants to every doctors appointment as that is my only outing. I can have chips and cookies, all I want, but usually only get one meal a day and if I am sleeping which I do when the pain is really bad, I miss that meal completely and have to wait until tomorrow to eat, if I am lucky. In the last 11 years he has laughed about only paying $40 a month child support for his two boys when his income is over $60,000 a year. When we married child custody fell to us decided by the court, until they graduated. They grew up and moved away and have never seen us since. Both of the boys told me right after we were married how he mistreated them and forced the kids to call all his girlfriends (10+) mom. Often times I do not have my medicine to take as prescribed, he has talked down to my physicians so they refuse to ever let him schedule an appointment or anything else, they will not talk to him at all. I am sure he called them the same vulgar names that he calls me all the time. I told him a few weeks ago that I think its time to end my suffering and pain in this life, and he replied, "Hmmmm guess I'll miss you, maybe." When he slammed me into the refrigerator while I was taking things out I went to the police and they said they could not do anything since abuse only happens when we are arguing. There is usually no argument when he hurts me, it comes out of the blue at about the speed of light. He made me get credit cards to take care of the house and kids because he defaulted on many credit cards, mortgage and auto loans that he cannot get a loan anywhere. He has since refused to repay those debts and decided when he was fired from two jobs within 4 years of us marrying, that he would not work any job that pays less than $26 an hour so we lost the car, the house and everything else and were homeless for years before I talked to my senator and wrangled a job for him of which he refuses to acknowledge my assistance. He now works at a place he cannot be fired from that the only way he would lose it if he committed a jail-able crime. He takes my disability income whenever he wants and has often left me penniless so I could not get my medicine or pay my $20 co-pay for the doctor. Being bedridden slams a lot of doors in my face when I have looked for help. Nobody wants to take care of me--to get help I have to be able to do everything for myself and I cannot do that anymore. I am doomed to this life and the abuse until I die. I hope that is soon, very soon.

  • Comment Link Brittany Saturday, 22 October 2016 04:04 posted by Brittany

    Me and my husband been separated for 3 years. How can I get a divorce with no money and no kids together and no property together. I no longer want this marriage theirs nothing about it that makes me happy. Since we been separated for 3 years I feel better not wanting it, and I feel better being single and happy living my life without trying to struggle with the marriage. I really want this divorce it makes me cry and break down cause I don't understand how to start.

  • Comment Link Peg Ring Wednesday, 05 October 2016 18:21 posted by Peg Ring

    My counselor told me men my husbands age,normal to look at porn to get an errection,I STOP going...we've been married 42 yrs...and I'm sick of the porning for almost 20 yrs...internet and his cell phone,facebook shit is killing me...I chopped my left thumb cause I found 2 videos on his cell phone..I stay cause I don't have a pit to hiss in..he killed every education attempt of the kids are gone,and I'm stuck...I often wonder how many wives die in a miserable marriage...

  • Comment Link Nobody Monday, 03 October 2016 04:03 posted by Nobody

    My wife is losing it wince we had kids . She dosent think kids eat when they have breakfeast lunch and dinner they somtimes dont eat it all but they do not eat. She thinks her kids arr stupid and says she wish she never had them. If u make a mistake with her she will tell u ur fucking stupid and her kids at the same time. She never picks up after herself lets her kids out anything in their mouth any toy dosent mater if its a chocking toy. Never brush their teeth unless i tell her two and will say its on when its not. Her mom is just as bad as her . Try my best each day i cook clean take care of kids she dont. If my kid falls when running she will cuss me out when my hands are full with bags and shes right nex to them. She says im a bad father i teach my kids everthing to write read spell and she hasent done any just spoil them. I know im a good father and dont know what to do with her. Cause talking to her is like a bricj wall that dosent think she is wrong on anything. She even lets are kids walk around bbq with the fire near them even if i say its dangerous also in the kitchen i say watch them and shes just on her phone and i see them going fir chemicals. She also thinks kids would learn best in day care then me. Also when i was sick in hosptial wanted to break up cause i was sick. And when my child was born she said i dont care if u leave me i have kids now. I never cheated on her and pay for her whole school

  • Comment Link Cee cee Sunday, 02 October 2016 20:16 posted by Cee cee

    I am all of the above. Our 10th year just past and I have no feeling of joy or pride. My husband cheated twice and gave me an STD which I consider a near death experience but, I must say I wasn't having sex with him maybe every 3 mos. Which I am totally not blaming myself. I can't stand when he walks around naked, sickened by his presence and never want to go in public with him. Never kiss but, a hug if he insists. I recently got over the thought of him being with some one else so, here I for 6 years of not loving him or respecting him anymore. Not caring how I look when he comes home. Compliments are shrugged off. I love time alone and am so disappointed when he returns home. This is his first marriage never had kids he's 64, I'm 60 yo my 3 children are grown and on their own. This is my 2nd marriage, 1st widowed now this. I tell him I want a divorce but he just laughs or says I not going anywhere, when are you moving? I guess I have to show him I'm serious!

  • Comment Link Hoosier Mommy Sunday, 25 September 2016 02:59 posted by Hoosier Mommy

    This article is right on. I feel every one of these scenarios, I've been married almost 10 years. The resentment I feel towards my spouse is horrendous. I feel completely unsafe financially in this relationship and I am the bread winner. The thought of touching him makes me sick, his narcissism suffocates the person I am. I've spent the past 4 years paying down my debt and saving money to get out of this marriage, there is simply nothing left here anymore. I know his reaction is that he will play the victim even though he has cheated numerous times and I'm essentially a single parent. Trying to stay strong and prepare for this battle.

  • Comment Link V Powell Monday, 19 September 2016 16:14 posted by V Powell

    There is a lot of reading in these comments. But to the one(s) saying why don't you "fulfill yourself and share that with loved ones", I will tell you why. Because you cannot fulfill yourself when you have to work overtime to meet the bills BUT get yelled at for working over; clean an office on the weekend for extra money; have to micro manage the finances to stay afloat but come home every day to a man with his hand out saying he needs beer or cigarette money; listen to someone yell about the lack of groceries and when you tell them you don't have the money they say "you have a credit card"; someone who wants me to charge and charge for them and refuse to even acknowledge the bill when it comes; then lets you know if you try to divorce him that he will take half of everything you have (this one has been in prison for 11 years so I raised my kids alone and obtained everything I have without him - we were married before he went to prison); I think I have gone above and beyond just by giving him a chance to make things right - he says I need to forget the past and get over it and wants to yell about my sending any money to my son in college who is living on student loans. This husband has told me has been offered several jobs in the past month or so - he either can't take them because they won't allow him to drink beer during work hours and "I am worth more money than that" or "that is beneath me". You cannot fulfill yourself when you aren't allowed to have anything for yourself - when everything is considered theirs for the taking so you haul yourself back to work to make some more.

  • Comment Link Chris g Monday, 19 September 2016 01:24 posted by Chris g

    Ladies. I am a step father to 2 kids. Father to 13yr daughter,work fulltime construction and take care of everything household. I wish i could meet a women that would do 1/4 of what i have to do because my other half feels entitled to do nothing for some reason. I cook,clean,baths,laundry. You name it and i do it. Im a very handsome caring man that over looks the cold shoulder an affectionless relationship im in. I trust in God to open her eyes to what she has but selfishness wont allow it. Im at a loss as to what to do. We been together for 6 yrs and i havent felt more alone in my life. Divorce isnt a option unless she cheats or dies. Marriage cant be broken by a paper. God tells you that. How can i make her realize what a great guy i am. She should know it but taking me for granted is taking a toll on me. I get compliments all the time at local park but i brush them off. I need help.

  • Comment Link Sussy Saturday, 17 September 2016 17:08 posted by Sussy

    Hi ladies,
    I married a good man almost 4 years ago, we have. A 4 year old and a 9 month old, he is the opposite of me but when we began dating he made me happy and we were good together, then I got pregnant and he swore he would do everything to keep us together and to give us the best life, we'll forward 4 years and things are worse than ever, he has no ambition, he does not have a future planed out or any plans together, He has never helped me out when I've needed support but yet I got him his green card, I signed the lease forñr our rental unit, I've furnished the place, dressed our kids, gotten health insurance, I am the one that would help him look for a job, make his resume, I am the problem solver and the one that would look for professional help for our marriage, I am the one that has savings, I have a good job I pay the rent he pays some bills, He does take care of our kids during the day because since I make more money it was more reasonable to have him quit his job, now he works a part time job on top of caring for our kids; Heidi older than me but had no credit, no savings nothing to offer and I feel like I cannot get ahead in life or and or grow financially, I have helped him pay for 2 cars I have lend him money but I never see anything back, he is not good at expressing his emotions and just looks for me or tries to be affective when he wants sex and I hate that it makes me feel used.
    I have tried in the past to make everything work, because he is the tile of guy that leaves everything to the last minute and is very disorganized, and I can't stand that!! He is faithful he is always with us and he deals well with my strong temper but I am here on this forum because I feel so frustrated, I am staring to reject him he is a good looking guy but does not take care of his image much, also is not into mentoring our four year old, I basically have to ask him to take out of the house the kids otherwise he would just watch tv and stay indoors with them.
    O am starting to look the other way I still love him and I have never been unfaithful to him but now there is someone at work who is a successful, smart gentleman who is interested in me and I am letting get close, we have not crossed any lines but he is someone who I could see my self with. And I hate the fact that I am stuck and can't have a true chance with someone like that. Marriage is hard specially when your husband does not know how to be a provider or at least meet you half way there. Sometimes I feel like I am alone in this marriage. Paying for my kids needs,classes, has, food for the family!! I am done!! I am only 32 and I feel like an old woman, I have no life but work and more work at home, we don't ever do anything as a couple or have time just for me!
    And I am with many of you, angry all the time, lack of patience!
    Best of luck to you all

  • Comment Link LJ Monday, 12 September 2016 14:13 posted by LJ

    I know this is very wrong, but I really hate or loathe my husband sometimes. He is a know-it-all and very controlling and demanding. He always has to BE RIGHT! Why? Because when men pull this garbage it is to cover up their deep rooted insecurities...whether they were abused as kids, ignored by previous girlfriends, cheated on, have body image issues, feel as men they aren't worth the ground they walk on unless they have CONTROL, CONTROL, CONTROL, and quite frankly I'm sick of it. They need to get over themselves, especially mine or I am point blank going to leave him because I can't take his put downs anymore, his overbearing attitude, and always having to be right or argue with people. If someone looks at him wrong he is ready to fight, if another man talks to me he wants to act all alpha and take over, if someone doesn't do something just the way he wants he acts like King Tut. I'm sick of his insecurities being made to make my life miserable. Sex is a complete joke with him. He thinks you just jump on a woman or shove it right in and fireworks are suppose to happen. He makes me sick. I do resent him for stripping my self-esteem and life away. Don't get me wrong, he is a good father and provider, but when it comes to being a best friend or husband or a good lover other than him thinking you just jump on it and get jollies off there is no understanding there. I've lost good friends because of him, jobs, opportunities, and a happy life because he has to have ultimate say so on everything. Well, I'm flipping fed up beyond all belief! Thanks.

  • Comment Link Mindy Wednesday, 07 September 2016 21:29 posted by Mindy

    Been together 18 years and married for 14. I actually cannot stand him. He has 2 kids from a previous relationship although 1 committed suicide almost 3 years ago. I have a daughter and we have a son together. He is constantly belittling me and I honestly feel like if he found someone else to cook him dinner and have sex with him, I wouldn't be needed at all.
    He will flat out tell anyone that he is an a-hole but won't do a thing to change it. I feel like I'm just stuck in a rut and that I'm not worth anything-like he could care less about me unless dinner is late and he becomes a major ass if he doesn't have sex.
    I obviously don't have money for a divorce or a new place to live. I dread when he comes home from work cause he's always go some rude thing to say. We've tried marriage counseling but that didn't help. We are both very stubborn so compromise is a joke. He keeps saying I'm playing games with him but I'm not.
    Side note- his previous wife cheated with everyone in the county so he still has major trust issues which is very frustrating. Any advice?

  • Comment Link Natasha D Wednesday, 07 September 2016 17:54 posted by Natasha D

    Thank you for this article...I have not been married even a year yet. First I sacrificed my odea of a wedding to suite his needs. He never has put us first. He neglects me and our children... Our baby boy has to constantly fight to get his attention especially away from his phone. He never has taken me on a date. We have lost everything including being homeless for 9 months. He refuses to work or he works for a few weeks and then gets. Fired and waits montha to persue a job. Tells me he wants 50/50. I am 81/2 mo pregnant with second child and many complications but yet I am problem... I want to punch his fing stupid face in. All he ever says is I need my needs met, never caring about our childrens or mine. Every bit of love I ever felt has now been replaced with hatred and I fond myself daydreaming of other men. Soooo ready for a divorce.

  • Comment Link Over this marriage Monday, 05 September 2016 21:37 posted by Over this marriage

    Omg I feel every single thing and I sometimes hope he's die tomorrow just to rid him of my life for good.

  • Comment Link Denise Friday, 02 September 2016 01:29 posted by Denise

    All of the above and then some.

  • Comment Link Jessica Wednesday, 24 August 2016 17:37 posted by Jessica

    Thank you for your article. It was helpful.

  • Comment Link Juliana Freeman Tuesday, 23 August 2016 22:08 posted by Juliana Freeman

    Yes after 3 years I have all these feelings

  • Comment Link minni Friday, 19 August 2016 16:04 posted by minni

    This is me. This is really me who wanted to divorce but trapped by the guilt trip my family lead me into.

    "Are you to the point that your spouse just can't do anything right, does everything they do get under your skin?"

    YES. YES. ABSOLUTELY YES. I can't even enduring having to be in the same room as him. Hearing his voice make me stressed out. Hearing his breath is make me shiver. Every time he tried to call me, I freak out. I'm depressed severely I want to kill myself every time I'm with him.
    I imagining myself killing him brutally in my head. Wishing him death. Every moment I keep asking why he is not death yet? I need to pray to calm myself and reminding myself not to do any of that, kill him or kill myself.

    "Are you tired of the trying, so tired you can't muster of the energy to even engage anymore?"

    I'm tired. I'm really tired. I can't forgive him anymore. He make me the evil ones in this marriage in front of my family. Every time I want to fix our problem he always seem easily giving up, to avoid my anger but then complain about 'the mistreatment' he get to my family. He always tried to look as miserable as he can, and then he can get what he want after my family forced me to do what he wants. I want to be angry, but no one let me too. My family loved my husband so much they always scold me every time I'm trying to reason with him. He always said he afraid making me angry so he tried to understand me. When in the same time he don't understand what I'm saying at all. He always find a reason to get what he want and not listening to me at all. I don't even know anymore is he actually smart manipulator or dumb guy with no common senses. He always tried to manipulate me into what he want but I can read him like an open book. Sometime I get the feeling that he thought I'm stupid so he can lead me into his way. I always reject his manipulative effort, I don't like pretending to be fooled by him because I'm going to hate myself if it happened. I want him to always tell the truth but he always avoid the truth. I always caught his lie, and he always denied he is lying. He always make reasons, many stupid reasons every time we argue. How can my family keep getting fooled by his pathetic attempts and designing me as a sinner? My family that once loved me hates me now and yet he wanted me to always smiling to him like there's no problem, but I can't do that anymore. I'm too depressed I forgot how to smile in front of him. I told him I'm depressed and he doesn't even wanted lose in this context so he keep saying he is more depressed than me. I suggest to go to the psychiatrist together, he don't want to do that because "it doesn't solve the problem" he said. I'm tired. Exhausted talking to this block of stupidity.

    "Does the idea of sex with your spouse cause you to shudder?"

    I'd rather kill myself. I don't even want to think about it. The last time he have sex with me I feel like I'm raped. I'm crying and he doesn't even stopped. He knows I can't say no or I will marked as a sinner by my community. He take advantage of it. Even though I tried to tell him before that I'm sick, he just easily agreed not to touch me and yet and one hour later succumb to his nasty desire. I'm like a lifeless sex doll, and his garbage can. His baby machine.
    Every time I reminded at that moment, I feel disgusted, icky, want to puke.

    "Has the love you felt been replaced by resentment?"

    There's no love in the beginning. It is an arranged marriage that I'm trapped into. I don't even has time to know him better and put into deep thoughts about this decision before entering this marriage. There's nothing positive I feel about him and yet I regret every moment I said yes in the proposal meeting because feeling pressured by my family and his family. I tried my best to filling myself with positive thought because I want to make my mother and grandfather happy. And yet this very family that hates me now and don't want to blamed when I fall into depression. They told me I'm a sinner because I'm too lazy to served my husband properly, do my obligation as a wife. In the kitchen and the bedroom. They ask psychiatrist to 'fix' me. They tried to exorcise me. I'm broken now. Hate or resentment is understatement.

    Now what do I do? I want to get divorce but my family probably going to abandoned me. I bind to them financially as I'm not finishing college yet not have any job to support myself. And I probably pregnant right now. I'm scared, afraid this is true and they'll tied me into him with my pregnancy. I'm afraid I will hate my own child because of it. I'm not even sure I'm going to love it. Right now I just want to runaway as far as I can to the place no one will know me.

  • Comment Link Peg Ringelstetter Tuesday, 16 August 2016 19:38 posted by Peg Ringelstetter

    I've been married 42 yrs... the Internet porning and him driving semi.. has killed our marriage..
    It's been over 2 yrs. since his last sexual encounter... Our marriage is dead, I dread the days he's not on the road. But I don't have a pit to hiss in,so I have to linger, the kids are grown and gone... I just have to confess some days
    I pray he dies, or me real soon.......................

  • Comment Link Browns Daughter Saturday, 13 August 2016 06:12 posted by Browns Daughter

    We've been married for 10 years now. Compared to most of the ladies here that's not too long. I have loved my husband ever since and i think i still do but most of the things he does bother me alot. He's been out of work for 4 years. He said he wanted to go get a degree instead but he never did anything about it. He just stays home playing rpg games on line. He doesn't clean the house and he doesn't cook. I'm grateful for deciding not to have kids because a year or two after our marriage i realized i married a boy not a man. I feel tired when i come home from work and since he doesn't do much, i would still need to cook and clean. I started complaining and that made him wash dishes every now and then but that's it. I came home 2 months ago and was shocked to see a puppy he bought. He could barely take care of himself. He said he'd take care of it but he rarely did. I'd come home to the smell of dog pee, a pile of dirty dishes and garbage and I'm so sick of it. I feel so hopeless. I even force him to shower and shave. He'd call me a nag for complaining about his odor. We have to argue to compromise on simple things including his hygiene and grooming. sometimes would pee all over the bathroom floor when he's rushing to play his game. his mother told me that he's been like this and she just took care of everything. honestly, i would want her to take her son back. He wasn't like this when we started off together. He wasn't the guy i fell in love with. I know i promised for better or worse but i'm so tired. We don't have anything in common and i find his opinions ridiculous. I know i have to let go but i don't know how. I'm scared to be alone.

  • Comment Link Jad Friday, 12 August 2016 02:41 posted by Jad

    Well I must say I am a candidate for divorce. 28 years of running a business together and marriage. We are at a crossroads and not sure what to do.
    Sure hoping we can figure things out.

  • Comment Link Annette Green Saturday, 06 August 2016 13:11 posted by Annette Green

    Yes,my husband has verbally attacked me negatively for the pass 10 yrs, treats me like a child and when we do agree on something he will turn around and change his mibd on what we agreed upon and then start nitpicking it to death. I was cerbally abused by my stepfather as a child and my step dather nitpicked st me everyday. I see my gusband as a reincarnation of my stepfather. I now hate him and there is a normouse amount of resentment. My husband keeps me angry 85 percent of the time and disrepects me everyday. I am disabled due to epilepsey and iam recieving SSD and cannot work and iam on a fixed income iam and i dont make enough money to help out with bills and he throws that in my face alot as well. He knows my epilepsy does damage to my brain and i get forgetful but he takes that and and holds things against me. I have told him numerous times if he cintinues to denean me throws things in my face and repeats things over and over to hurt me and i have asked him to stop and he does not it is time to to call it quits iam done with the hurting and the fighting abd the disrepect, just done with it all which i mean the verbal and the mental abuse, id rather live on the streets then put up euth his abuse. He has caused me to ferk nothing but hatred toward him and he had got me to the point where i had wished him to feel even so sick tgat he coukd not get out of bed. I have talked to therapist and abuse centers they told me i hsve described him of being a hard core narcissistic

  • Comment Link Rkw Thursday, 28 July 2016 12:59 posted by Rkw

    I caught my husband jacking off on a picture of my daughters 14 yr old Friend. Every job he has ever had was me spending hours in end applying. He milks unemployment til he has none and whines about having to get food stamps. He makes unwise choices with money (a mower u can't get parts for etc.) He refuses to sell his motorcycle and when I blow the roof off, he tells the kids that mommy is making him get rid of it. I tried to work part time and he sabatoged it. I'm ashamed of the picture thing and have never told anyone, but I'm getting so much resentment for him I just want to tell everyone. I know it's wrong, but he convinces everyone I am "hormonal" I only wish they knew the truth.

  • Comment Link LRM Wednesday, 27 July 2016 00:31 posted by LRM

    Thanks this was very helpful.

  • Comment Link Saturday, 23 July 2016 01:19 posted by

    how do you live with someone who talks to his game of wR family more the you. I told by my husband of 40 yrs it's just a game and nothing personal. We have had big fights when I cough him having a, as he called it a fanisty affair but he never missed. any of the war gameI guess I rely don't love him any more ND told him I wanted. divorce but it didn't matter lord only knows how much money he has spent t on the stupid game. What should I do?

  • Comment Link karen Thursday, 21 July 2016 14:44 posted by karen

    I have just been through 4 days of living hell. After 34 years of marriage I feel that I no longer have any validity to my feelings. In our early years he was such a commited husband. We had two daughters after 10 years of marriagee and he was a very engaged father. They are now grown college graduates and married. I feel proud that we provided all the financial input to theircollege and weddings. Sounds pretty positive doesn't it? Unfortunately I was the the deciding factor to almost everthing. He has lost his way about ten years ago and has been on a runaway train of anger, blame and pity. He stopped being helpful and he stopped putting effort into the relationship. He stays defensive combative and now blames everything back to me. I have been a doer and a go getter all my life. I am an amazing cook and nurturer and loved making my family feel complete. Ofcourse I put myself last a lot but I never required too much and carried a lot of confidence. Each day that passes I'm slowly loosing those qualities because my husband never notices anything about me or our relationship. Don't think he is a cheater, I think I have just been in denial of who he was as a person all our relationship life. He is a constant complainer that keeps a dark cloud over him all the time. He doesn't see that. When good things happend he says. "Wow I can't believe it nothing good ever happends for me". I get so sad inside because I thought all through these years I kept a smooth running house prepared all meals (including preparing a lunch for him for work) took care of all of our finances all errands outside of the home engaged in our childrens needs and schooling and activities and ran a successful business for 25 years. And since my industry was fitness I was in excellent shape. Sex and intimacy was very frequent and we have both shown a lot of love. I would have to say that my husband has had a lot of good in his entire life. I am hurt but hopeful and I am saddend that my marriage is in question with him now because I still want to maintain the great aspects of our marriage. He has a very short fuse now so much that when our second daughter was getting married she wanted the reception at our home. I have a lovely home but have some issues that would need to be addressed. My husband and I sat down made list of to do's and had six months to prepare. I stayed dilligent on my duties and he was getting around to his but he had less time than me so I didn' t worry. But as it gotcloser he became combative and began to lash out against his commitments and I tried not to engage in any negativity just kept telling him I'm here to help you things will be fine. Long story short...he stayed angry and shucked a huge part of his list and certainly did not help me with any of mine. For the past four days he has been so verbal and blaming me for everything I do. I am so lost and trying desperately not to shrink. It feels like he hates everything about me but doesn't want me to stop doing for him. I think he is plagued with so much guilt for what he knows and doesn't want to acknowelede. I'm hanging in there, but I'm preparing at the same time. I'm also cutting back on waiting on him...he is taking advantage of me and I've known it but my mind says to keep the peace because when he gets angry it goes on for days and he blames every bit of it on me and his final words are "I still love you" god help me!

  • Comment Link mzboone Wednesday, 20 July 2016 11:58 posted by mzboone

    @Lulu .... You've "Sparked" a Light Bulb in my brain... Thank You :-)

  • Comment Link Jackie Miles Monday, 18 July 2016 05:19 posted by Jackie Miles

    I know how you feel i have been married for 42 years everything is about him i have no life i stay in my own room to try to get away from him hes always treated me like crap and i just feel lost and alone. We hardly talk when we try to talk we do nothing but argue. Its got to be his way or the highway .I have an appointment. to. file for divorcei just want out i haven't had a normal life in years

  • Comment Link Alicia Sunday, 17 July 2016 01:17 posted by Alicia

    My husband has hurt me over and over again and has anger issues and I asked him to get therapy 21/2 years ago but now I'm over it,I've had enough and now he goes and get therapy...I've been jobless for 2 years and now I went on a interview and I can't wait to get the job and leave!

  • Comment Link jhart Sunday, 10 July 2016 22:29 posted by jhart

    Soon, I will be married thirty four years. I don't know when it happened, but I just don't love my husband anymore. I have told him I am not happy and that we should separate, but he just doesn't understand. He tries to get me to hug him, etc. but I think he does it just to annoy me. I have moved out of our bedroom and even that hasn't made him ask questions. I can't believe someone could be this clueless. Basically, I am here for financial reasons. I have not worked for four years and I am 55. Not sure how to move forward,

  • Comment Link Annie Sunday, 10 July 2016 17:21 posted by Annie

    Just read this Post and was alarmed. Don't do anything dangerous that you'll regret and it will hurt others. But something needs to change. At this point honestly it sounds like you need to separate or the very least counseling.i feel like at the point you are at now why stick around and be unhappy? Do this for yourself, don't try to make it work anymore. You deserve to be happy. Bandaid affect. Don't go to something violent. That solves nothing but with thoughts like that,by here is no point of staying in this relationship.

  • Comment Link Beth Tuesday, 05 July 2016 21:23 posted by Beth

    I'm sad

  • Comment Link Mike Stephen Saturday, 02 July 2016 11:07 posted by Mike Stephen

    First of all my wife and I has not had sex in a very long time we use to when we slept in the same bed together I try to get her to sleep with me she always comes up with an excuse her neck hurts she can't sleep lying down on and on anyway my has never turned me down for sex never anyway our daughter was staying in Guam with her navy boyfriend for the last 5 months we decided to stay in a hotel the night before I put in a few remarks about having sex she just kinda ignored it when we got settled in she started taking pictures of the room then she took a picture of the bed posted on Facebook showing the bed saying this is where it all begins later after she takes a shower gets in bed reads her paper then I say to her how about pulling those pants down so we can have sex she says no we are to old for that I'm 60 and her too I said come on we are not to old she says I feel ugly and not sexy anymore I told her I don't feel that way you still turn me on nope she says I beg her two or three times more nope I get up lay on the couch I tell her I'm really really upset then I ignore for awhile nothing happens she finally goes to sleep lying down I think to myself I thought you couldn't go to sleep lying down so now we're back home she's down stairs sleeping on the couch I'm up stairs in a queen bed thinking about this shit the more I think about it the madder I get right now I do not know what to do about it that's why I'm writing to you I really really need help with this if I don't get any sex from her something is going to happen ether I'll shoot her or shoot myself that's why I need help in a hurry

  • Comment Link laurie Friday, 01 July 2016 16:56 posted by laurie

    okay i understand, because when the woman visit Jonapher is just normal conversation nothing serious. My daughter if not for the spirits you know i wouldn't have asked you for more money. Am doing this all this for your own benefit and for your happiness and to also gain all you have lost back. Once money is here i will buy the cowries and go straight to the cemetery and deposit it there, and you will start seeing changes that same day, even within three hours i promise because that spirits instant result like the speed of light.

  • Comment Link Kim Wednesday, 29 June 2016 07:34 posted by Kim

    For pink roses

    You are in an abusive relationship. Emotional abuse by a master manipulator. He has you still thinking things are your fault. You have every right to your own happy healthy life. You are not a door mat for him to wipe his feet on. You are not a mans possession or maid. Marriage is a team. Two people equal with each other. One doesn't own the other. A team where you work together for happiness of each other never putting yourself last. You don't deserve to be left out of the thought about pool. Your feeling DO COUNT. Your opinion is just as important as his. Your voice should be heard and considered when making decisions. He is a stupid jerk. He is plain and simple a narcissist. There's a blog. It's not my blog. But I found it one night while searching for my own answers. It naked "ladywithatruck" I urge you to go check it out. You need to find a life coach who knows how manipulator a operate. You need a support system. You need to leave but that's very dangerous. Keep it quiet from everyone and plan a year ahead and start stashing money away. Get cash back from grocery shopping and stick it in an account only you know about

  • Comment Link Kim Wednesday, 29 June 2016 06:58 posted by Kim

    Tammy I would be pissed off too. You have every right to be angry. Anullment is what you need to do ASAP. This is probably years old and I'm four years too late with my support of your feelings. He Sup ss like a true narcissist and you need to thank god for no babies with this creep.

  • Comment Link May Thursday, 16 June 2016 13:24 posted by May

    Maria. Until u go through it I suggest ur mouth be shut cause not only will us wives continue to find ways but people like u have no business here. Your welcome ladies :) she needed to be told!

  • Comment Link DotDot Thursday, 02 June 2016 17:47 posted by DotDot

    Everything in my marriage seemed ok. I could get fed up with him a lot, but never hated him or resented him. I could tell for a while something was on his mind, but he would always say he was ok, nothing was wrong, etc. Out of the blue last Friday he tells me he doesn't love me anymore, not like a husband loves a wife. He says "we're best friends, I love you that way, I love you because you're the mother to our kids, I care about you, I'm still attracted to you sexually, you've done nothing wrong". He thinks he wants a divorce. Right now we're waiting for our oldest to finish end of grade testing in school to tell her, so it's been very difficult. I don't want a divorce, but he won't budge on marriage counseling or anything, he feels we've said everything we need to regarding the matter. Last night I came to the realization I couldn't force him to love me or force him into happiness so I agreed to the separation out loud. I really had no choice before, but I wouldn't say "ok" to it. When I told him that I've probably just been in denial for a long time about our marriage as well as my own feelings towards him, and that what was happening would be ok, he looked like the wind left his sails. We've been intimate since this has all come out, each time he says we shouldn't do it, but neither of us stop it. We still talk about random things, laugh and have a seemingly good time. We can sit on the couch together and watch TV like normal, we play with our kids like normal. Last night we snuggled on the couch. I asked him if it felt weird, he said not at all, it was comfortable and familiar. This morning he comes into our bathroom while I'm in my towel putting on makeup, grabs my waist and kisses my cheek goodbye. WTH!?! What is he thinking, what does he really want? I would love for him to tell me he was wrong so that we could give it another try, I do love my husband, and I though I was in love with him, but he's got me questioning myself on that too. I feel so confused. I'm just so lost as to what it all means. Is he just losing his mind? Is he thinking he is making a mistake? He does all those things I talked about, but still remains stead fast that he wants out, that he's not happy in the marriage, that it feels forced. He's very contradictory with his words and actions. I just don't know what to do...

  • Comment Link Lulu Saturday, 28 May 2016 23:37 posted by Lulu

    15 years with the same man 4 daughters later, i cant stand him. i hate his appetite and how he eats every single time he opens his eyes from a nap .he will stuff his face when i buy food and doesnt even considers the girls. when he has money, he always owes. foh thats why im leaving next income tax with no forwarding address. i hate him!!!!!

  • Comment Link Maria Sunday, 22 May 2016 17:36 posted by Maria

    Why can't people just fulfill themselves and let their loved ones share hat with them? My husband is my friend, not the person who I need to make my life perfect and visa versa. It's not anyone but your job to make you happy.

  • Comment Link Tammy Saturday, 21 May 2016 05:33 posted by Tammy

    I've been married for only seven months, two weeks after our marriage my husband was reaching out to his old flames on fb flirting with other women, we live in two different cities the plan was for me to relocate to live in the city he's in, after I seen what be was doing I just said forget it, he got angry sent me pictures of him kissing other women etc,he is now in a realatiobship with his mother's friend daughter, he is a piece. He's evil and dosent care, I made up a lie told him I was with someone he dosent care was not worth me lieing. I'm stuck in debt while this jackass is off freaking whomever super pissed almost to the point I can't stand his name

  • Comment Link Seventh Saturday, 21 May 2016 04:59 posted by Seventh

    Right! just run away get into another relationship and the when that one goes south run away and get another. This idea is what is wrong with the world.

  • Comment Link fed up Tuesday, 17 May 2016 01:31 posted by fed up

    im at that point of divorce. cant stand him anymore. im always the bad person. he never has my back on anything. we're about to be year with no sex. the last time we did have it I only did it cause I felt bad since it was July and the time before that was November. the thought of having sex with him makes me sick. for 11 years he's lied about his porn addiction. last time I caught him he didn't even have the balls to admit it. I've asked for counseling but it never happens. I have no self esteem and hate myself. every morning I wake up I wish I was dead. we had two kids out of wedlock. when we fucked up and got pregnant with the third we had to get married because I needed health benefits. we got married in sept of 2013 by july of 2014 I had already stopped wearing my wedding band and started saying I wanted a divorce. I have nowhere to go since I had my first child. when I got pregnant with the second I quit my job cause we were suppose to be a "family", he would work and I would be home for the kids. I have nothing but debt because of him. whenever I got a night job he did nothing at home except jerk off to porn for hours. he couldn't even put the dinner dishes from the dinner I cooked but never had time to eat cause I was leaving for work in the dishwasher. who wants to work to come home to an even dirtier house knowing he could have picked up the toys, wiped the table down, or even washed a kid. the last time was informed of what was going on financially was when the mailman had me sign for the certified letter from the bank telling me we they were going to start the foreclose process. i have no other info on the finances unless we go somewhere and im told that stores card was cancelled on us. we would have probably never gotten married if I hadn't gotten pregnant with the third. he would have never asked and we have an eight year gap in between our 2nd and 3rd child so if he was ever going to he had plenty of time. we do have a 4th because that happened in the 2nd to last time we had sex in November when he promised to "change". stupid me I believed him. I hate him!!! I tell him all the time that we aren't getting any younger, that we owe it to ourselves to be with someone we love and who loves us. I don't want to die miserable which I know ill be if I stay with him. I cant hold it together anymore because of the children. they know I hate him. im losing my mind.

  • Comment Link Rebecca Thursday, 12 May 2016 20:59 posted by Rebecca

    I just wanted to point out that, I don't think it's an accurate claim to make generalized statements such as, "Women are natural problem solvers". Basically, that's a generalization/a stereotype.

    I am a woman, who feels passionately about women's rights... but I shudder when I see anyone make statements so vague and general about an entire group of individuals... especially a group as large as a particular gender.

    I think that it's really important to avoid statements like these, especially when doling out marriage advice, because it simply perpetuates the idea of gender roles, stereotypes, sexism, etc... none of which are very productive for having a healthy, equal relationship.

    Just my two cents...

  • Comment Link dan Thursday, 12 May 2016 19:07 posted by dan

    Ive been married 15 years we have been together for 20. I make my kids lunch for school every day and cook dinner every night, I do most of the grocery shopping and pay most of the bills. She has horses and belongs to a riding club. We have had our arguments and some bad ones. She is combative to everything I say. She asked for a split a month ago. But wont leave and threatens to take my kids out of our home if she does. She stays in a seperate room now. She claims she loves me BUT she said she cant stand me. WTF? I work my tail off she brings very little to the table. No sex and very little money. Im burnt out on this and my trust is diminished. We went to counceling last year, she said she wasnt being honest to spare my feelings. Now what?

  • Comment Link Nikkie Tuesday, 10 May 2016 06:20 posted by Nikkie

    I'm sure my stubborn attitude is part the reason I've yet to walk out the door. I still want to do things for my husband from time to time but I have ZERO sex drive when thinking of him, let alone kisses or even hugs. The times he does something right are overridden in my memory by all the times he doesn't, I'm harboring massive hurt feelings over past events, and I just keep telling myself if I can just make it to our son's first birthday (he's 6 months), I'm OUT! I'm telling him tomorrow that we need help and if he doesn't take me serious, I'm gone.

  • Comment Link Callie Tuesday, 26 April 2016 14:05 posted by Callie

    I'm now at the point where my husband can't do anything right, and I'm verbally and emotionally abusive. I often scream, rage, and curse at him.

    My husband can't focus on or hold a job. He's spent 25 years of marriage getting fired, followed by long periods of unemployment. He got fired from his last position and hasn't worked in over a year. I keep ranting that he needs to do something -- be a waiter at a restaurant, sell cars, get a retail job -- anything to earn a few bucks, but he thinks that sort of work is beneath him (he has a law degree, although he's never worked as a lawyer). He also doesn't lift a finger to do housework or otherwise contribute to this marriage. He earns $0, lives off me, and is fine with such an arrangement.

    I've never been ok with this. I never agreed to be his free ride through life. I keep asking him why he thinks he's so special...why the world and I should carry him while he does nothing.

    I keep telling him to move out, but he won't leave. I've gone so far as to get boxes and pack his things, but he's still here, "making connections" and "reaching out" for career opportunities.

    Do I need to get a court order and have the sheriff remove him? I hate resorting to something so awful, but it might come to that.

    Yes, I'm exhausted and torn about all of this.

  • Comment Link Robin Friday, 15 April 2016 21:22 posted by Robin

    Wow Jo your life sounds exactly like mine. It sucks!

  • Comment Link L Thursday, 14 April 2016 11:39 posted by L

    I have been married 15 years but for the last 2 it just doesn't work anymore we do nothing but argue I can't do anything right I am to blame for everything, we don't have any form of a relationship we don't even talk to each other sleep with a pillow between us in bed, I've only stuck it out for so long for our kids sake they are 14&13 the oldest has got into a little bit of trouble recently with getting on with s bad crowd of course this is my fault because apparently I don't give a fuck. Now I feel trapped as he's just been diagnosed with an illness he has no family here all overseas so I can't just leave. every time I've left before he gives me a son story and I come back even though deep in my heart I know I don't want to be here. I'm so lonely everyone thinks I have a great life and marriage it's far from the truth he controls everything money me our kids I honestly do t know how long I can live this way I cry every day & every night I just feel like disappearing I can't cope my whole life has been a wreck I'm only 31 my husband 37

  • Comment Link Karen Tuesday, 05 April 2016 17:45 posted by Karen

    My husband has worked out of town for 8 years comes home on the weekends never tries to find work closer to home he has missed birthdays kids activities but he thinks he is right even thoughts has 2 sons who really needed him I feel it would have been better if he would not have come home at all because he only complains about nothing around the house gets done etc I work shop cook clean have a daughter too so there's the sports driving to. And from an I wrong to feel resetment

  • Comment Link dakota Tuesday, 05 April 2016 17:23 posted by dakota

    I'm 45 and my husband who's at least 10 years older has lost the desire for sex with me so sense my husband finds me unattractive and I feel so bad that no matter how much I try to make myself beautiful it just don't help we haven't even been married 2 years I pretty much gave up I feel there is no hope

  • Comment Link Brian Sunday, 03 April 2016 02:16 posted by Brian

    I am a man but that is the way that my wife makes me feel. I give up.

  • Comment Link Jo Saturday, 02 April 2016 18:07 posted by Jo

    No offense, but to some of you women that post your husbands are good men and good fathers all the while they cheat or have extra flings or affairs and couldn't help themselves, some of you may need to quit deluding yourselves. My ex was a malignant narcissist who played the role of the good daddy, husband, nice guy figure out in public and behind the scenes was an a**hole. He lead a DOUBLE LIFE. There was no excuse. I excused him one time for a fling when we first got married and it was all down hill since then. If he wanted to "go find himself" or he was "bored" he never should have gotten married. I'm sick of giving these men excuses or women excuses. If you don't want to be married anymore or need more thrilling, exciting, new sexual experiences then by all means do the right thing and divorce first. No one wants caught in the middle of messed up marriages or pregnancies out of wedlock because of screwing around behind the scenes and in the end the dirty laundry ALWAYS comes out. No matter how slick and smooth some of these guys think they are eventually their evil double leading lives come out. Sorry for venting! But, I wasted half my youth on a fool projecting to the world one thing and living another. He was selfish, immature, manipulative, and only thought of his own sexual needs. Nothing good comes of it.

  • Comment Link Been There Done That Friday, 01 April 2016 13:57 posted by Been There Done That

    To all the women who are being shoved, hit, or emotionally, psychologically abused by your husband: Get out now matter what you have to do. Especially to Kris who wrote that her husband wouldn't "allow" her to accept a job: I'm going to be harsh...grow a backbone and get out. He is an abusive jerk and it will only get worse. signed: been there done that

  • Comment Link Kris Tuesday, 29 March 2016 08:55 posted by Kris

    My husband is controlling with everything I do. I've been a submissive wife and i have worked 14yrs in childcare but now I have no job or money, I don't have any access to accounts I can't pay any bills or even know how much money we have. I got a job that pays good money but my husband wouldn't allow me to accept it at the last minute.. I'm totally stuck and he doesn't like me to say anything that he doesn't want to hear or he blames and belittles me. I'm here only to see his day out. I'm a loyal wife who has defended him and looked after him well to no avail. I'm tired and if I cry he tells me to be strong and not to bother him. I'm more alone with my husband then I have ever been.

  • Comment Link karen Wednesday, 23 March 2016 01:22 posted by karen

    My husband says he's done but never says the word divorce he works out of town he's been gone for 6 weeks now we talk more now than we ever have one minute he's fine the next minute he's angry he says he loves me but he's not in love with me the old cliche how do I know if he's really done and wants a divorce and had a we fix anything when we're not together so confused I don't want to lose him he's just not the same person anymore

  • Comment Link Melisa Romero Thursday, 17 March 2016 16:39 posted by Melisa Romero

    Hello i am in desperate need for advice. I am 22 years old have been married for only 2 years and together for almost 5. We have a 2 year old son. My marriage and relationship with my husband has gotten so bad. We have absolutely no emotional connection and can't even have a conversation without yelling or getting out of control. He says that i lack communication but when i do try to communicate if it isn't something that he wants to hear he gets angry and pins me down and won't let me move or he slams doors and breaks things. He has ripped my clothes a few times and once right off of my body. When i tell him that no i don't want to talk anymore he pushes me away or holds me against the wall. He says this is not abusive since he isn't actually hitting me but i feel like i am being physically abused. He says that he gives me everything a girl wants but its not true. He has scrubbed my lipstick off my lips because it was faded.. And told me he doesn't like certain things that i like to wear or listen to. How am i supposed to feel happy when he doesn't show me that he wants me or even loves me? And acts so reckless? I have also caught him texting other girls sexually 4 times. He says he does it because i don't give him the attention he deserves. He thinks that if he buys me things its a way of showing his love for me i disagree. I recently met another person who shows me they can listen to me and actually have a conversation that doesn't consist of yelling and i can actually be myself with.. Last night he talked to me calmly for once. He said that he loves me enough to let me go so that i can be happy. Now he acts like he cares... I feel bad that i hurt him by talking to someone else. I am so scared of divorce. I will be a single mom at 22 and i have a good job but it terrifies me to think that i will be doing it all on my own.. and it frightens me to think of what my traditional and religious parents will think if we get divorced . Any ladies that felt that way before divorce or leading up to? i would love any help and advice that i can get thank you.

  • Comment Link Melisa Romero Thursday, 17 March 2016 16:38 posted by Melisa Romero

    Hello i am in desperate need for advice. I am 22 years old have been married for only 2 years and together for almost 5. We have a 2 year old son. My marriage and relationship with my husband has gotten so bad. We have absolutely no emotional connection and can't even have a conversation without yelling or getting out of control. He says that i lack communication but when i do try to communicate if it isn't something that he wants to hear he gets angry and pins me down and won't let me move or he slams doors and breaks things. He has ripped my clothes a few times and once right off of my body. When i tell him that no i don't want to talk anymore he pushes me away or holds me against the wall. He says this is not abusive since he isn't actually hitting me but i feel like i am being physically abused. He says that he gives me everything a girl wants but its not true. He has scrubbed my lipstick off my lips because it was faded.. And told me he doesn't like certain things that i like to wear or listen to. How am i supposed to feel happy when he doesn't show me that he wants me or even loves me? And acts so reckless? I have also caught him texting other girls sexually 4 times. He says he does it because i don't give him the attention he deserves. He thinks that if he buys me things its a way of showing his love for me i disagree. I recently met another person who shows me they can listen to me and actually have a conversation that doesn't consist of yelling and i can actually be myself with.. Last night he talked to me calmly for once. He said that he loves me enough to let me go so that i can be happy. Now he acts like he cares... I feel bad that i hurt him by talking to someone else. I am so scared of divorce. I will be a single mom at 22 and i have a good job but it terrifies me to think that i will be doing it all on my own.. and it frightens me to think of what my traditional and religious parents will think if we get divorced . Any ladies that felt that way before divorce or leading up to? i would love any help and advice that i can get thank you.

  • Comment Link Jesus Tuesday, 15 March 2016 07:43 posted by Jesus

    Al this comments are nothing, when u dont put an efford for better, if your couple agree to try to bring back what is nor there no more, is 120% shure that u will bring that "FEELING" back cause at the end is just a feeling, a human being is not define by feelings, real love make parents race your kids in a way that people may think, that u dont love your owne kids, but the reality is difrent, if many people say, i dont love my wife/husband but i care about him/her whene someone say that, that is Love, may be not with the same intensity as the bigining, but still love, if it faded is because u let it get to that point, come on people, we are not God's mistake, we make it that way, to the appearance of God we were created, we are capable to give love and keep it till we die because you don't see God loving us today in changing his mind tomorrow, we were created man and woman for a purpose not just because it wasn't a coincidence so come on people open your eyes stop leaving and negativity from the past and darkness the devil came to these walls to kill and destroy and we are the target of it.

  • Comment Link Mira Sunday, 13 March 2016 15:05 posted by Mira

    I'm 34 and have been married for 9 year's and dated foe 4 years. After 2 years of our marriage we have a beautiful daughter. Until she was 1 we had a great relationship but when my maturity was over and it was time for me to go back to work, the company I worked for went bankrupt, I had no job, we had a lot of expenses and not enough income, I got a job but the pay wasn't enough, so we decided to get a roommate to help us keep the house. In not even a week my husband fond I woman to rent a room. We started having problems, we would argue more then usual but I knew we were in a lot of stress. But then my husband started flirting with her and when I talked to him about it he would apologize and said I don't know what came over me. So I let it g. Then I got sick, so sick that he had to help me dress up myself. I couldn't do much and he would just play lazy not help much, I started getting more stressed trying to keep up with my everyday life. Because of my injury I started gaining weight and he didn't like that. Another girl came along she became our friend, he started flirting with her too, and I would get angry and tell him that he is hurting me, so he apologized again same thing. I let it go I had changed a lot and I understand he was healthy, fool of energy and I was fighting to get out of bed my injury didn't just hurt me it hurt him to, but he stopped loving me the same. I told him Im sick not what you sighed up for bit it's happening but I can't take this anymore we have to sell the house and try to live without out help. So we did, moved to the new place things started getting better, but we were never the same we would still argue about silly things. When ever I needed anything he wouldn't do much for me I would have to always ask, I had a surgery he came picked me up from the hospital and took me to his parents so they can take care of me, the first night back he let to go home he said he can't sleep anywhere else but his bed, I was in so much pain and he left me therapy with my 2 year old daughter I had to take care of her on my own I was so hurt in so many ways, and when I asked him why would he leave me like that he said I didn't realize it would have been that hard on you. And there is stuff like this that he does constantly I'm so tired of being hurt by his action. And every time I talk to him about any problems we have he apologizes and says I love you I don't think sometimes, but he always know what to do for other specialy for women but not me. When I told him I can't take this anymore I want out, he went on his knees begging to stay telling me he loves me and can't live without me. But he does all those things that hurt me at least once a month it's either text women and try to hide from me, not do stuff around the house to help me, everything that I tell him not to do couse it's hurting me he would be good for a month or to and do it again Please I'm desperate for advice what should I do. He is e very good man other wise but emotionally he keeps on hurting me and I have lost my will to try and my passion for him.

  • Comment Link Someone Who Was Once Naive. Wednesday, 09 March 2016 02:48 posted by Someone Who Was Once Naive.

    Got married on the 15, 2014. He 'divorced' me on my birthday (1 day would make it a whole month of being married.) Leaves me a voicemail to tell me while drunk and getting a girlfriend after. (Would take me 3-5 months to leave the country to be there with him, but didn't want to wait.) Also I am a family caregiver who didn't take his money no matter how much he tried to tell me he wanted me too because he was being "shipped off." Which I knew was a lie by being in Material Management" (which is recorded and snapped proof with pictures both sides of the conversation.) He decided to delete her photo's and say "I want to see how you are doing, I don't want a divorce." But in the back in my mind tell's me, "I want the 400 to make off of you. Still trying to..." Also I have not taken any money from him which, I have made my own and struggled, than to take money and hear his "Value pension" it's wrong to do so. He was drunk when he said it. It took me a month (2 years ago in the "marriage",) to decode what he had spoke about with the pension on voicemail and I will not accept his offer because it's just so wrong and horrible. He does not want to divorce me, and I am trying to now he is in the back in the U.S but have to handle it without him. (The country he is currently in bans divorce.) he is here for 2 weeks and want this done. Please help.

  • Comment Link George Tuesday, 08 March 2016 03:11 posted by George

    I'm completely unhappy, she's just going thru the motions. I've talked about divorce and she cries. It's not that I don't love her, I do but I'm not in love with her any more. I've been neglected for so long I just don't care any more and don't want counseling or therapy. I just want to move on. Every chance she gets to get a dig in or belittle me she does. Almost every move I make or sentence I speak she has a comment. She is the mother of my girls, 20 and 24. Both out and doing ok so we don't really need to stay together any more. How can I convince her it's in our best interest to just move on?

  • Comment Link Pink Roses Monday, 29 February 2016 18:45 posted by Pink Roses

    I am going to apologize in advance for the length of my post. I am a 49 year old woman who has been married for 27 years we met right out of high school and dated on and off with many ups and downs to our then immature relationship. I have endured years of emotional abuse and on occasion physical abuse. In my mid 20s I became very ill with a disease that made it impossible for me to continue to work it caused me to have 20 plus surgeries and multiple hospital stays. Needless to say but I am on disability due to my health. With that being said, I would feel guilty ( with help) that I had to stop working and created this atmosphere of I would stay home and take care of the household as his mother had done for his father (again with help) and I would be expected to take care of the household needs & wants. From doing all the cooking cleaning shopping errands bill paying yard & home maintenance lying out his clothes for work the next day from his socks to his tie and the raising of our two daughters, all the while trying to maintain my health while under constant scrutiny and criticism if I didn't do it the way he wanted or needed. Simply if I didn't live up to his expectations. We have lived through him being forced out of a job due to budget cuts to relocating 3000 miles away from friends and family to again having up root due to a corporate restructuring all the while maintaining his level of comfort and lifestyle. While I stayed up nights researching possible employers for him to look into to be told no, I'm taking a break right now. So I went back to work , fear of losing my benefits and triggering an onset of my illness but my fear of the possibility of his severance check running out before he could land another job and having to decide between groceries or the mortgage. After about four months he finally landed another job thankfully as his severance was about to be gone and my income wasn't enough to sustain the household. We relocated again another 3000 miles away. Things seemed to be going along pretty well with some minor adjustments to the budget but then reality set in at the cost of living increased dramatically and I found it harder and harder to keep up with his desire to maintain his lifestyle and his needs I have fallen way behind in the bills. I'm petrified to tell him just how bad it is due to his bad reactions over anything that upsets his perfect picture. As his nature would have it I have endured more of the same of his controlling behavior as I have for the past 27 years of marriage longer if you include the six we dated prior. On one occasion he broke the door down to the bathroom because I didn't feel well while I was inside and he wanted to be intimate calling me filthy names. I don't think I need to go on. He has always been the sort of person that needed and wanted whatever and whenever he desired it, whatever it is from sex to food to possessions. It doesn't matter. He calls me the maid, he says I'm here to serve him. Says things like I belong to him. Not to be extra graphic but during sex he has ever do things that I feel very turned off by for lack of a better term. So here it is I am at a crossroads, our daughters are about to venture off to college together and me I'm left here on my own. Here is my question and I truly hope someone can help me figure it out with some advice. I have grown so much resentment for him that I feel trapped by the overwhelming debt and by him personally. I feel like I have failed my marriage and him. I am terrified to tell him about our financial problems because of his reactions towards me for my failure to manage it. But at the same time I feel like I just want out of this marriage for the abuses of 30 plus years. That I've stayed for my kids and with them gone its my chance to finally breathe!

  • Comment Link China chica Sunday, 28 February 2016 22:54 posted by China chica

    I was never happy, i just moved from one bad situation to another. For a moment i thought that because i was hispanic and my x was black our cultures didn't click, so after the beatings and nightly ana sex ( thats all he ever wanted) in spite of how miserable it was for me i left. Found me a guy from p.r.... What a mistake. Been maried to him for so long i hate my life. Anytime i leave for a walk or go somewhere to calm down he calls the police tells them im trying to kill my self. That i have a weapon, or he'll make my life so miserable showing up to my jobs insulting my co-workers patients bosses, once he brought roses and a bucket full of water... Guess which one i got.... The bucket because i wouldn't take the day off to go home and discuss his feelings... Not regarding that we did stay up all night discussing them and his inability to pay his financial obligations.

    Im so ready to leave if my mom had her own place in florida i would have left by now. I hate this man, my children hate that man. He screams at me and the kids over stupid things such as clothes out of place. in the meanwhile his shoes are all over the apartment, they smell like a demon shit in them. His pubes all over the bathroom, beard trimmings. Lets his nose hairs grow out of control, leaving his clothes in the bathroom, has false teeth that he doesn't take care of. The worst case of foot fungus ever seen. And earwax that drips out his ears. I can go on. About the constant screaming and complaining. He screams over a few dishes, but when he cooks even the ceilings have food. He'll complain about laundry but then go buy himself clothes instead of helping out financially to do it or fold it. He'll complain about gas but go buy cigarettes with the gas money i gabe him... I want this man out my life. This individual i a city official and little do they know thats the animal working there.

  • Comment Link B.... Monday, 22 February 2016 06:31 posted by B....

    This fits my situation perfectly. Does anyone know if there are on line support groups for people in this situation? I feel lost and alone because no one I personally know, knows what I am going through.

  • Comment Link L Saturday, 20 February 2016 02:25 posted by L

    My husband alway seems to make me feel like crap when he always reminds me I do not contribute to the bills because I do not have a job. Well we move from over seas. I did have a job. Right now my health is not so great and I am working on that. I do feel bad he is paying for everything. But when he say what he says. That makes me feel like not even being here. Makes me feel worthless.

  • Comment Link shirley Sunday, 14 February 2016 15:40 posted by shirley

    my ex husband is married in mexico and when i told him i wasnt going to fix his papers he tried to kill me they caught him deported him he came back and tried again he is now running from the law and they said i cant divorce him because i have to serve him the papers what can i do?please help me i live in California...

  • Comment Link tmo Wednesday, 10 February 2016 21:42 posted by tmo

    I have been married for 27 years and I fit everyone of these. I have thought about leaving for years but haven't had the courage. I think it might be time.

  • Comment Link John howey Wednesday, 10 February 2016 12:44 posted by John howey

    My wife wants a divorce and she she sign the papers but I beg and it did not work and I sat there crying

  • Comment Link Denise R Wednesday, 10 February 2016 02:40 posted by Denise R

    I've been married for 9 years know each other for 10. I married my husband at a young age and because I was pregnant with my first child. When I got pregnant with my second child in 2009 he changed. He started flirting and talking to other woman on the phone and texting them. I confronted him in front of the woman and their husbands and he admitted everything and I forgave him. He then started flirting and talking to one of my cousins behind my back and sending messages to other woman on Facebook telling them they were beautiful and wanted to meet them I forgave him. Until October of 2015 everything was alright until I checked his phone and he had reconnected with an old friend on Facebook she is from his country (Guatemala). They had been talking since the beginning of February of 2015 I confronted him once again and forgave him. He them decided to not talk to his old friend on Facebook but over the phone.I saw all the call logs and minutes he would spend talking to her.I'm so hurt emotionally, I can't sleep I can't think. I feel as if something inside me broke I feel disrespected and stupid I even went to the doctor so they could give me anxiety medication. I don't know what to do his green card application is in progress and I can't be around him I feel like I hate him what should I do...

  • Comment Link Faust Tuesday, 09 February 2016 15:37 posted by Faust

    I am trying the love dare! Has anyone tried this before. I can't believe it's come to this! We are enemies... But just can't seem to work together.. I want to press the reset button! My pastor is encouraging me to go to a conference called "i still do" where counselors and a team of professionals are there to arm us with some tools,prayer.. On behalf of all males I sincerely apologize ladies.. It's our job to keep you all happy there's a reason why God removed a rib from Adam to make Eve, to protect our hearts.. I am just as guilty. There's nothing more that I want to do than to be a better husband! She's my everything.. Thank you ladies for being so transparent. I know it hasn't been built yet but this is a great start! It will be built,hang in there ladies,help is on the way..

  • Comment Link husband Monday, 08 February 2016 23:39 posted by husband

    I know its a woman's club but nothing kills romance like a critical and nagging wife! Try being married to an OCD type a personality on top of that where if you wash clothes or dishes she rewashes because you didn't do it right! The criticism and constant complaints don't even want to touch any more because you get so worked up with the every second complaints" why did you that" why don't you do it like I ask?in stead of the seeing the positive that it got done,so much negativity it's draining! Not all the sex in the world can make up for the everyday put downs.. I remember how she used to build me up! Edify me! I use to run home sometimes during lunch now I just rather work the overtime to avoid fighting

  • Comment Link Naomi Saturday, 06 February 2016 02:24 posted by Naomi

    I love my husband, but I'm tired of not getting my needs met. This is my second marriage, and his first. I feel depressed a lot. He is 14 years my senior. I talked to him time and time again.

  • Comment Link ImLost Tuesday, 26 January 2016 03:36 posted by ImLost

    Phushy, my story is so very similar to yours. We have been together for 13 years (very long distance relationship - different countries), and married for close to 5 years. We have a son that's close to two years. My husband is the only man I have ever been with. I never had sexual feelings with him from day one of the marriage. I had those feelings until before marriage (in general, not with anybody in particular). I thought that I suddently became frigid but I never told him. I never had an orgasm. We got into bad arguments 7 months ago because of his mom and have been living separate lives under the same roof since then. And since a couple months after we stopped talking, my sexual feelings are back. I don't know what to do. He's made a move recently to talk things out and be together again. He's a good man, he's not abusive, he's a good father, but the day before he talked about getting back together, he said I wasn't a good wife because of not cooking regularly, not having sex frequently enough, and not being social enough (he likes to visit people and have people over at our place). I'm at a loss as to what to do. Have you taken a decision? I'd appreciate anybody's advice.

  • Comment Link Sam Thursday, 21 January 2016 17:38 posted by Sam

    I remarried after a 28 yr marriage to a woman 15 yrs younger with 3 minor children. I knew her for 3 years before but didn't live together . I'm 60 now and feel so lonely because her time is consumed with kids and work, think I should move on.

  • Comment Link Xena Monday, 18 January 2016 21:39 posted by Xena

    Definitely!!! If he can't even consider the fact that you'd like him to go to counseling .... Why try. We as some go out of our way too often , too much. While they sit back and do nothing.

  • Comment Link Sonia Thursday, 14 January 2016 19:10 posted by Sonia

    My husband said, he has not change, and he is right!,
    But unfortunately I am tired of going to him!, Initiated intimacy etc, I am tired of treating him like a king, tired of cooking and cleaning, we both work, I'm by myself most of the time, as I don't like his family any more, He does a lot with his family, always going on trips and family gatherings, Thank God the holidays are over!. I started going to counseling and he said he will go after a big argument, and when the day came he cancel to go pick up a co-worker from the airport. he said sorry, but I don't feel as his priority.
    We have a conversation and said he does no like the way I do my hair and make up anymore, unfortunately I am getting older and style change, I think he only stays on the marriage because I help pay the bills, he only said I love you, when I said it first, I think it is time for me to tell him I going to file for divorce....

  • Comment Link reign Sunday, 10 January 2016 05:19 posted by reign

    I wish I never even dated my husband. I can't even depend on him in times of need or to do things when they need to be done. He does not care about our home and he does not love me he stays with me for stability he can not make it on his own and I am tired. I am all cried out, I am tired of trying, and the fact that he will run for everyone and not care about me is beyond hurtful when I am the one who makes sure we have a roof over our heads.

  • Comment Link Delilah Johnson Wednesday, 06 January 2016 07:25 posted by Delilah Johnson

    I have been married almost 2 years now and things have been hurtful since day 1 of the wedding. The bastard changed so fast and to make matters worse he is a mama's boy.

    He has tried to kill me twice out of a jealous rage, he has cheated multiple times, he hardly contributes financially and yet he wants to be treated like a king.

    Last June he came back home 1am completely drunk and start being violent and that was my ending point. Next morning i packed all my belongings and left him.

    He came begging on his knees and i decided to forgive him but refused to move back with him. We speak regularly but one time he started his old behavior of abuse and that sealed the deal, i filed for divorce a month ago.

  • Comment Link Delilah Johnson Wednesday, 06 January 2016 05:17 posted by Delilah Johnson

    I have been married almost 2 years now and things have been hurtful since day 1 of the wedding. The bastard changed so fast and to make matters worse he is a mama's boy.

    He has tried to kill me twice out of a jealous rage, he has cheated multiple times, he hardly contributes financially and yet he wants to be treated like a king.

    Last June he came back home 1am completely drunk and start being violent and that was my ending point. Next morning i packed all my belongings and left him.

    He came begging on his knees and i decided to forgive him but refused to move back with him. We speak regularly but one time he started his old behavior of abuse and that sealed the deal, i filed for divorce a month ago.

  • Comment Link catie Wednesday, 16 December 2015 01:01 posted by catie

    My husband and I have going back and forth with our bickering. We have an 18 month old son. We are military and were recently relocated to NOLA from NC where he was stationed, and his daughter from his previous marriage lives. We were doing ok after about a month. I took a semester off from school and started a new job. Summer came, I started school, training for a half marathon, and again in late August, started with a new company as a manager.
    My husband is OCD, and a bit hot headed. He says mean and hurtful things when he's mad. His ex and him fought like that. To him I am careless, and filthy, disgusting, stupid...and on it goes. I have ADD and was diagnosed as a child. He doesn't believe it is a real thing, so I am just lazy, or doing things maliciously. example: I don't put my keys in the same spot every day. I sometimes lose my keys. He would say that I lost them on purpose to piss him off, or take time out of his life. Idk the guy is a prick. We have sex maybe once a month, if i'm feeling really lonely. But i literally have to bend over naked in front of him to get 2 minutes of his undivided bent over attention.
    So I said I was not feeling well. He said could you be pregnant, and of course I said you'd have to have sex to get pregnant, not to mention I started birth control. I asked why he wanted me to be pregnant, he said because it wouldn't be his. And then WALKED AWAY!!! WTF
    I'm starting to save up my money, I make a decent amount to live on my own. Just don't have it yet. It sucks a thing like finances would keep people in a marriage. I am so grateful for the little bit of education I have obtained. It has helped me get to where I am now, and will help carry me further.
    WOMEN need to get an education, we need to be able to do it on our own.

  • Comment Link mel Thursday, 10 December 2015 22:01 posted by mel

    my spouse is not supportive,cares nothing about my feelings, how i get things done how how i feels. Every time i try to talk about my feelings it brings an argument that i am a cross, he is tired of me, i can leave if i want. I am tired of the shit and i want to move on but i have four children in play, and i am scared of their happiness, but i dont even have happiness either, i cant go anywhere alone, if i do go i am to take all the kids along, not allowed to have a cell phone, i work hard and he is never thankfull he have nothing gud to say to me. I think i need help

  • Comment Link Tia Friday, 04 December 2015 05:00 posted by Tia

    I am feeling a lot of anger towards my husband. I know our problems aren't as extreme as what some other people are going through so please don't take offense, but I am angry at him for forcing me to give away our dog. It wasn't just a dog, it was my child, my baby, my companion, we rescued each other, depended on eachother, and he made me get rid of him. I am angry, hurt, embarrassed, and depressed. My husband has me to take care of him and support him but who do I have? No one. He took the only thing I had away from me. My husband is no support. All he is does is play video games all day, barely goes to work because he says there is always something wrong with his health and he can't go, and when I cry about giving away my baby, he thinks I am pathetic and tells me to grow up and get over it/ shut up/ your pathetic/ how many times are we going to talk about this/ you are crazy... Etc... So you see, I have no support system now. The only one I had was my fur baby and he took that away from me. He gets mad and asks me how many times I'm going to bring this up? I don't know, 5 times? 500 times? I'm really not sure because what he did was unforgivable. I will most likely talk about it as long as I am upset about it, and it could be the rest of my life. Working with animals is my life. I do dog rescue, volunteer work, training, boarding, and the dog we had was one I rescued. My whole life revolves around dogs. And now he made me get rid of mine, and doesn't want any dogs in our house, and it is becoming more apparent he has a distaste for animals. That is the foundation of my life!! I am just so besides myself and can't come to terms with this/don't know what to do. Is our marriage over? We have known eachother 11 years, been married for 3.

  • Comment Link Lynn Monday, 30 November 2015 06:42 posted by Lynn

    13years with my husband well we were married 3yrs out of the 13 but anywho i think i have come to my end of my rope he's an alcoholic and admits to it alot of serious things happened with him drinking cheating being verbal and emotionally abusive he would stop for sometime but then start again he's always bringing up my past in which i was in contact with one guy out of state but we never met but i admitted i was falling in love with since he was never there for me then i had a male best friend but he thinks we slept together i cant be on my phone or laptop too long then he thinks i am up to something and then i do get accused of doing something he is sober but still has issues like picking on my nieces daughter who is 17 now and her mother passed away back in August we have had the 17yr old since she was 11 but he always picks on little things of her she didn't do this or that but to me she is a good girl considering where she came from she could be graduating in the may of next year i'm so happy but of course he is not encouraging her he will make sure everyone knows he's upset and that hurts me since this is my house and i do not want my house to feel bad i want good vibes here.. we have done counseling both on marriage and the alcohol but yet he still falls at times i even had to take certain pictures down at my work cuz they were made for me by my friend i have done a lot to help him cope with things but what about me? someone help what do i do.? the list just seems to go on about his bad but in the good he is a good person helpful not lazy but the bad over comes his good sorry to say..

  • Comment Link Mrsdaddy Saturday, 28 November 2015 09:18 posted by Mrsdaddy

    I just woke up out of my sleep to a flashback of me being curled up in the hallway of our apartment as my husband continuously and aggressively kicking my protruding belly 5 years ago. Then my mind raced forward to when he choked me to the point of unconsciousness in front of the children. All of a sudden my mind began bouncing around to the cheating, and the STDs I suffered from because of it, the fact that we don't spend time together, the verbal abuse he has tormented my son and I with, the fact I am no longer sexually attracted to him for fear if my life..... and just asked myself, why am I still here. I have been with my husband 8 years. I am now 26.

    I always thought that the women who go through these types of things are fat, ugly, and have no other options. This is not the case. I am fit, beautiful, and have at least a handful of men throwing themselves onto me on a daily basis, so why have I allowed this man, my husband, or should I say a husband cause he definitely don't feel like mine, break down to the point of no recognition. I used fight back, I used to show him that I was strong and that I could not be broken, and in turn he made that his #1 priority, to break me. He has succeeded. I am broken... It takes a lot for me to admit that.

    Now that I have had this reflection of my life, where I thought I would be and where I am now, I've come to see that somewhere along the way of trying to be a good wife, a great mother, running the house, and basically taking care of everything and everyone except me, I lost my morals, my confidence, my willpower and everything I stood for. So at 4:16am, I am deciding to take it all back and it starts will leaving his ass. I'm done

  • Comment Link lynn osborn Sunday, 22 November 2015 08:32 posted by lynn osborn

    My husband and I have been married for 22 years, he's cheating and when we leave the house he's given the mistressthe key to our house so she can come in and take his stuff little by little. I know he's cheating what do I do to make him leave. He's the scum of the earth to me and as much as it hurts I hate him and want him gone.

  • Comment Link Ug Friday, 20 November 2015 13:24 posted by Ug

    I got married at 15yrs and I never knew my husband. And am 20yrs now, my husband is abusive and he is not romantic, and when I tell him about my future and dreams. He tells me no problem but yet did nothing about it. He has never spent the whole day with me,
    He has never seek for my opinion. I have two children for him. When I talk about my future he talks about having more babies.

  • Comment Link Kerry Wednesday, 18 November 2015 07:21 posted by Kerry

    I was with my husband since I was 17 too. He was 21 at the time. I am so tired of the way he treats me. I need to get a divorce. I've been trying for so many years and just so tired of his laziness. He's 50 now and he is getting worse. I feel that he just took advantage of me and my family. He treats me like crap.

  • Comment Link Me Monday, 02 November 2015 19:45 posted by Me

    Phushy, I can relate. I have been with my now husband for over 8 years, 4 married. I have never been satisfied sexually, and I've known for a long time that I can't be with him forever. The first time I tried breaking it off, I couldn't because I didn't want to hurt him, it brought him to tears. I feel like it is my duty to keep him happy, but I'll I'm doing is settling and making myself miserable by not dealing with what's broken. I feel so bad, but I just want to be free. I met him when I was 17, I'm almost 27. I feel like my life is gone already, and I want to be free. I also know how scared I am. I love him, and it's what I'm used to.

    On the other side, I just can't bring myself to care any more. I'm so drained. We argue all the time, it's constant. I have struggled with him, but at the same time I can't depend on him. I thought I would learn to get over some things in our past, but I haven't. He knows I don't trust him. I know that a marraige is complicated, but I really need something to be easy for me. If that means living a quiet life on my own, I'll take it. It sounds so nice, i just want to be free.

  • Comment Link Karen Saturday, 31 October 2015 21:55 posted by Karen

    I just don't know what to do in my life anymore. I've been married almost 15 yrs to an irresponsible, self absorbed, selfish man who gives me no quality time. He angers easy and calls me horrible names and won't let me go. I'm tired of being and feeling alone! I'm trapped. I took early retirement because of health reasons. I receive only 1/2 of ss for early retirement. So did he. I'm lonely, depressed and have no one to confide in. Where do I go? What do I do? People call me attractive but I don't feel that way. At my age I should be financially ok but that's not the case. My husband recd inheritance of Half a million 1 1/2 yrs ago and it's gone. I feel like my life is over what should I do? I've been to counceling over my depression but my husband says there is no such thing. I once had a good life raising my sons before I married him. Now I have nothing

  • Comment Link Wife in need of love Saturday, 31 October 2015 16:34 posted by Wife in need of love

    Hello, I've been experiencing some problems in my marriage and I've not been married very long. firstly, my husband doesn't want sex with me and I have a very high sex drive. I couldn't understand this as we were together less than a year before we got married and didn't have sex until after we got married! I was very confused and found my husband fighting daily. Calling me awful names. He just constantly found reason to fight and never listened to what I had to say. I realised it had to be something more and started checking his phone messages... to discover a sexual message. Clearly he was cheating but when I confronted him he denied it all. He still does. I rang the number and know if was a female. I asked him to ring the number but he grabbed it from me and hurt my arm in the process and then left the house. When he came back he obviously thought about what to say and smashed the phone in front of me. I was ready to leave but he cried and begged me to stay. So I did. He has improved since but I don't trust he loves me after this behaviour and also because he's always looking at other women and even takes pictures and videos when were away. I confronted him but he denies it. it wouldn't be as annoying if we had sex! Why is he with me? Any Men able to advise?!

  • Comment Link Phushy Friday, 30 October 2015 11:51 posted by Phushy

    Please I need someone who can relate to my story. Am I wrong to leave my husband because I am no longer in love with him? Am I wrong to leave my husband because I no longer have sexual feelings for him? We have been married for 3 years now but have been together for 13 years. I met him when I was 17 and he was 23. We have 3 kids together. He has been good to me. Hes never done anything to hurt me. Hes been a good husband, a good father to our kids. A responsible man. But I always felt like our sexual life was missing. We he touches me I feel nothing. He is not sexually attractive to me. I have sex with him because I want to satisfy his needs. I do not remember the last time I had orgasm. Its been years. Now I feel like I cant live this life anymore. I want out. But the problem is the guilt I have for hurting him so much. And he doesnt understand how I can leave him when he has been so good to me. According to him and the family and friends, the only reason I could have left him is if he was abusive, or if he was cheating on me, or if he didnt take care of me and the kids. The mere fact that I do not love him anymore is no reason enough for me to leave him.

  • Comment Link devilinredboots Wednesday, 28 October 2015 02:16 posted by devilinredboots

    I have an answer to some of the women who have posted here especially for the women who's men have had affairs and throw it in their faces ... The answer is easier said than done but unless he is bringing home 6 figures and a poolboy for you to play with .. L E A V E! Go for the big D. As I am sure you have noticed It's a man's world .. sexually speaking and temptation is everywhere! Whether its with their hand and a photo of what they would rather be doing it with or them actually having the balls to be with another woman because you don't turn them on that way anymore .. it's all the same. And for anyone who wants to challenge that .. your fighting a losing battle with this chick. I'm still convinced there needs to be an outlet, a place for women to go when finances hold them back. I'd love to form a place for just that. I am willing to bet that alot of the women on here don't have friends they can kick back with anytime. Forming new friendships with women in the same position would make for some excellent healing. And what a great way to spend that time when your getting your life back on track and becoming more independent to boot. And for the women who don't want their kids growing up without a dad because they don't want to raise their kids in a broken home ... wake the hell up, it is already broken! Kids are resilient and in the moment, If your happy, they are happy! Of course it will cause some pain but so does seeing mommy and daddy unhappy or hearing the arguments. Even when we do our best to try and save face for our kids, they have more intuition than we think they do. If trust is broken, no matter what the situation, in my case it is porn, ogling, being someone else as soon as I'm not around. Well aside from the obvious ... what that is telling ME is that HE is unhappy with me in some way, shape or form. It may be his problem, or addiction .. but something deeper has put him on this path. And when he says he has changed, or more intricately put "has made adjustments" all that screams to me is "I'm hiding it better than I used to". After all, why should he change when he feels he is doing nothing wrong, even though he proclaimed that he would be hurt if I was doing the same things. Ya know how much that doesn't make sense? I simply can't get past the past because I always fear the future of the repeat button being pushed whenever he feels like pushing it. I am 45 and the last time I checked, I'm not getting any younger but I still got it ... if he don't want it why doesn't HE move on and let someone else have a taste? I know why, because its OK for him to be a man when it comes to "other women" and he knows I'll be here to have some real sex with when he wants it! He wants the comfort of knowing I am here or if I go somewhere that I will be back ... hopefully not before he gets to indulge some more but he knows I will be back none the less.

    I am not opposed to thinking that people can change, they can. But years of this going on leaves scars that even the best scar treatment can't heal. When you get to that point ... it's not only time to move on for yourself but for your partner as well. I talk a good talk but I'm still here because they haven't made a place for us women to go who can't financially pick up and leave and make it on their own without inconveniencing a family member for a place to stay, which for me wouldn't help matters at all. I'd love to be in a place where I am surrounded by other women who understand me and I understand them. They have this for men already .. its called a strip club!

  • Comment Link Renee Saturday, 24 October 2015 21:03 posted by Renee

    I I told my husband I wanted to leave him, but agreed to go to couples counselling as he got so upset and was in a really bad place. But I think he thinks it can help him to change and I'll stay. He needs help, but also I can't bear it, I feel myself slipping back where he takes precedence. I've always worried too much about other people, I can never put my needs first. I feel I'll never get away from this half life I've been living :(

  • Comment Link OO7bad Saturday, 24 October 2015 09:10 posted by OO7bad

    After 35 years my wife tells me my son is not mine she told me that she never had sex with him so I married her and this he was born on April 1 the jokes on me

  • Comment Link Gloria Wednesday, 14 October 2015 21:17 posted by Gloria

    I didn't need to read this article to know our marriage was over after 30 years. I can't take him hurting me anymore. He is mentally and verbally abusive. He always calls he ex-girlfriends because they are still his friends. I don't know if he has cheated I think it is just a matter of when he does it. I have left this marriage along time ago. He had a heart attack and blamed it on me. He clings to me now but says the most hurtful things to me. I often wonder if he knows I am just not in love with him anymore. I haven't told him that in a year. I even know the day I stopped. It was the day I found out he was calling one of his ex-girlfriends. They were planning on meeting up. He doesn't know that I know that. I can't leave yet because I have no money of my own. I would have been gone a long time ago if I could have afforded it.

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  • Comment Link Stephanie C. Herman-Scott Tuesday, 29 September 2015 22:20 posted by Stephanie C. Herman-Scott

    My husband left me to live with his mistress, but never filed for divorce. He kept telling me that it was over. His mistress stated that I can't contact him, and he chose her the better woman; who could take him on vacations, and take care of him financially and sexually. Now he is angry because I had him served with non contested divorce papers. Now he can stop playing house, and marry his long time mistress. He told my 15 year old daughter that he will never sign the papers; but little does he know that even if he doesn't sign the papers; the divorce will still go through. Be careful what you wish for because you might just get it!!!

  • Comment Link Tammy Monday, 21 September 2015 10:18 posted by Tammy

    I have been married 20 years , I met my husband at age 15 he is 7 years older. I love him deeply but have never been truly happy he does nothing to help me ever I do it all and I mean all he goes to work that's it I also work full time he is very inconsiderate I've expressed my feelings several times nothing ever changes I'm hopeless help

  • Comment Link Sad Sunday, 20 September 2015 21:39 posted by Sad

    I feel more alone when I am with him than I do when I am by myself. 29yrs married

  • Comment Link shea Wednesday, 16 September 2015 06:53 posted by shea

    I agree leave now , my husband cheated on me when I was pregnant with my first child . Swore up and down he's changed. 17 years later same sh**.
    Want to leave him now. Trying to get the courage.

  • Comment Link Fanny Saturday, 12 September 2015 01:02 posted by Fanny

    This December would be my 9th wedding anniversary. My husband confessed to me that he's developed feelings for another woman, but he wants to stay with me until he "sorts out his feelings." He seriously expects me to put my life on hold while he figures out who he loves more. F*** that. I'm out.

  • Comment Link Desiree Saturday, 29 August 2015 04:39 posted by Desiree

    I have been with my husband 26 yrs. We have been through cheating, unemployment, addiction, physical violence, and much more than I'd like to admit. It's embarrassing. I don't know why, but now I just want to be done with it. I feel so unhappy. He has improved tremendously from what he was, but he was so abnormal that those changes just put him up to almost normal. I don't know if Im going through a mid life crisis of some sort?? I am scared to leave for fear of being alone forever. But, then again, Im very independent and he never helps or participates in family life anyway, so what would I be missing. We are down to alcohol as our issue and his moodiness. He flips a switch in mere seconds from ok, maybe, to utter disgust and anger. It seems he hates me and our kids and our home. He enjoys nothing with us. He prefers the company of strangers at a bar. He hates sporting events, school events, or holidays with us. He makes them unbearable most times. Then he turns around for a brief moment and Is the fun sweet guy I think I went out with 26 yrs ago??? I don't know it really sounds stupid to have struggled and invested all this time to end it over just not feeing happy.

  • Comment Link April Saturday, 22 August 2015 09:19 posted by April

    My husband has been playing game of war and it has taken over his life

  • Comment Link Ziporah Wednesday, 19 August 2015 16:05 posted by Ziporah

    I have been married for 18 yrs and all the above tell tells are in my marriage. I can't stand the thought of him touching me leave alone having see with him. But thank you so much for this. I have to do what I should have done long time ago.

  • Comment Link Colleen Monday, 03 August 2015 04:36 posted by Colleen

    I have been married for almost 13 years and have two beautiful sons (1 and 5 years old). All my emotional connection with my husband is lost. He's not abusive or anything. And overall he's a great dad. He is just such an awful husband. He never or rarely compliment me, we haven't had sex in over a year(yes that's right! And I tried several times but he is actually pretty awful in be.) He is educated but has a horrible job where there's no benefits and he makes less than $20,000 a year. His whole family actually annoys me.
    The only reason I stay is so my kids don't have to experience a broken home... It also would be tough to be a single parent. But I'm so unhappy. This is not what I envisioned my marriage as. Don't know what to do.

  • Comment Link Maggie Thursday, 30 July 2015 22:25 posted by Maggie

    This is me exactly. I am at that point where I want to walk away but something is holding me back. I still love him and care for him but there is too much hurt and resentment on my end. We also have a daughter together. I feel confused, am I making the right decision if I walk away? Am I ready to deal with the hurt and pain of divorce and no longer having him around? It's very hard. My head is saying it's time to move on but a piece of my heart is hoping for some miracle. That he will show me that he really wants to stay together and work it out, but that is not the case.

  • Comment Link biola Monday, 27 July 2015 02:31 posted by biola

    Have been married two years ago and I feel uncomfortable with my husband because his a fraudster and he abuse me when never I tried to tell him about is wrong ways am tired of him and fed up with the marriage I don't love him anymore what can I do because is affecting me emotionally

  • Comment Link Geraldine Friday, 24 July 2015 15:12 posted by Geraldine

    I.. Have been married for almost 2 years... I've been with my husband for almost 3 years...
    Him and I are both religious (Christians).. We have tried to build our marriage on religious views and such from the start.
    He has always been the complete opposite of me, we are from different cultures and very different upbringings, he is also 8 years older than me.
    He is a very distant, controlling, selfish and self righteous person... I didn't realise this until litterally the day after we got married...
    He constantly talks down to me, as if i'm dumb and know nothing about life, since i'n 22 and he's almost 30, i can't decorate his house with wall hangings/curtains/bedding of my choice because he has to give the "OK" on it all.. I can't speak to him about problems that I have because he turns it all around so it's about himself and how much he gives to the marriage and how little i give.. When i do get to talk to him about things that bother me, he ends up using it against me in a fight as if to say that i am weak for having these insecurities/problems/feelings...
    When ever he is upset about something he makes it clear as if to get my attention.. when we finish a fight, he always ends up leaving, going for a drive, slamming doors, throwing things around, but the second i do it, he's right there to push doors open while i try to keep it closed, he will raise his voice and constantly question me or tell me to prove to him why i am upset about something (because apparently i have no right to be upset, slam doors, etc).. If I do not feel like going to bed at the same time as he wants to, he will stay up until i go to bed with him (not without dirty looks and sighing constantly, making me feel uncomfortable). and then if we have a fight, he will hold it against me that he stays up even though he has to go to work the next day..
    We have our good days.... and that's all well and good, but i feel like there is no emotional connection since he never tries to connect with me or pay attention to me unless he wants sex....

    What do I do? How do I make sense of what's going on in my head? If we separate and get divorced... We will get a lot of judgement from the christian community.. and I am so scared of hurting him... I do love him and care about him.... But i am so unhappy and I feel trapped, alone and unhappy.. Not myself...

  • Comment Link Naive woman Sunday, 19 July 2015 01:34 posted by Naive woman

    My husband has decided after 4.5 years of telling me otherwise, that he is not going to work anymore and he wants to collect social security. What??? That's not what we discussed when we got married. I can't allow our son to think all a man does is stay home all day and babysit the kids. It's probably my fault, because I should have left 4.5 years ago, but I thought he would change. He actually just told me his plans to stay unemployed, before he would just beat around the bush when I asked. I'm down and the towel has been thrown in.

  • Comment Link Sad idiot Friday, 17 July 2015 15:43 posted by Sad idiot

    My husband is a child. I guess I thought I was going to change that.
    I'm tired of him being contempt. He doesn't make an effort to bring more to the table, or at least save $. He's not affectionate and his idea of fun is to get shit faced and play video games - he's 40.
    What kind of life am I getting next to him?
    But I picked him, even though people warned me. It's all my fault

  • Comment Link ricardo Monday, 22 June 2015 08:06 posted by ricardo

    Do not attribute to malice what it seems to be someone childish. I also in 20s preferred to go hungry because I was afraid and felt some demeaning jobs were not for me, and had not the experience. If I went back, things would be different. Had a terrible experience as a student because of that.

  • Comment Link Emily Watkins Friday, 12 June 2015 03:25 posted by Emily Watkins

    My husband seems to expect me to support him, I guess because he's a man and he was the only son in his family. We are professional musicians. For the past 4 years, I've been supporting us, because I play the harp and I can get wedding gigs and parties. When we didn't have enough money, I went out and got horrible part-time jobs to fill in the corners. He just won't. I don't understand why not. I'm done. I've become an alcoholic, I can't deal with this.

  • Comment Link Montse Saturday, 09 May 2015 15:40 posted by Montse

    I met my husband at the age of 18, he too was 18 from a broken home. He was my first and only sexual partner we are now 45 and have two beautiful girls 9 and 16. In the relationship I have always been the one to take of everything and everyone always putting myself last I realise this now. I gave up my career to support him in his own business which later in our 30's failed. I supported him a second time and the same thing happened. Luckily things worked out for me and have had a steady income stream for the last 5 years.
    We sold up everything to clear all debts after the business failed a second time. Decided to move countries - where I still continue to earn and I have been the only earner for the last 2.5 years. I am now again supporting him in a new business, I have tried to understand but he became very depressed after he lost his first business, he never really expresses how he feels. I being a woman do the typical bottling up till I explode. He thinks its hormonal tells me to go to the doctor. I don't. I keep myself busy, I take care of the house, kids, work, help him again in his business, look after finances home, business and that is what I do for a living.
    I am exhausted, I cannot keep doing this anymore, I am living from pay day to pay day because I am supporting his new business venture - I resent this again. I think I am just worried for my kids - so I have stayed and tried to make it work. But right now I feel nothing. I don't want to be angry, I don't want to yell, I don't want to think about not having money to pay for groceries or electricity.
    I want someone who can take share the responsibilities, he tells me he will try - lasts a week then it is back to the old ways. Me alone.
    I love him in that I care for him very much but no longer in an intimate level.
    Anyone out there experienced what I am going through. I am somewhat lost, feeling alone in a foreign country.

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    Hi i have a problem with my hus band he was abusing me emotional, physically nd verbaly, nd i took him to family court now he is denying his daughter who looks like him but what surprised me he is supporting her, he says its not his child we've bn married for 4years.. nd i think hes having an affair because he spends days without coming home he is a foreigner i think he only got married to me because papers nd id. What should i do. We had a quarrel few days back nd he was insulting calling me names... wht do i do pls help.

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    Is it wrong that I get very upset with my wife about everything? She does not work and does very little house work. I am in the military and work all the time. We have three kids, which two of them are in school and my son is only four. We don't even talk anymore and when we do it just turns in to an argument. I don't ask her to do mine or the children's laundry I do that when I get off of work.
    I always feel like the bad guy when I have to get my kids to pick up after themselves being that she has them to do nothing and she just sits on the couch and watches TV or is on Facebook most of the time. Each time I mention to her that I just wish that she would do a little more around the house she gets mad and tells me that I don't care about her or the kids and all I do is complain all of the time.
    I am just to the point where I don't want to argue with her any longer but I don't want to leave being that we have three beautiful children but I just don't want them to grow up seeing their parents fight all the time. I am just so tired already. Any advice would be greatly appreciated.

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  • Comment Link Looking For Advice Thursday, 26 February 2015 13:15 posted by Looking For Advice

    I been married for 10 years. My wife and my daughter from my previous marriage never really got along. I and my wife had a baby boy little over three years ago. About six months in my daughter accused us of things where we had to spend a lot of money to clear our names. After everything was over a few months later I started building a relationship back with my daughter. At the same time we started building a relationship we had to move out of state for work about 7 hours away. We still talk on phone all the time and visit each other at least once a month. My wife still really wants nothing to do with her. We now been talking with my daughter for a little over a year now. Just recently my ex-wife has asked me to take her because she can’t get her to listen and she is failing in school. My daughter is in tenth grade. My ex-wife never had structure for her kids so they know how to walk over her. My daughter has also asked to move back in with us so she can finish school. We only moved out of state 8 months now. I talked it over with my wife and she made it clear if my daughter moves in she is moving back to the other state and taking our son. I really want to help my daughter to hope for a better future for her but by doing that I may lose my wife and son. Anyone have any advice for me please

  • Comment Link Brenda Mousley Wednesday, 25 February 2015 04:42 posted by Brenda Mousley

    Can a husband of over 30 years take his mothers inhernanced money if thought your not intitlled to it.
    I was promised a car once the settlement of her inherntance noney was claimed. I gave my son my car 3 almost 4 years ago.

    I just found out today he has not intention of buying me a car,even thought I shaved my son from getting a lemon. I was worried about his safety in a old car,so I gave him mine. A brand new Sonata in white fully loaded. My husband is by all well and purposes a scum bag, alcoholic. After he did this to me he wished me well. Knowing I have only one mother who hates him to died.

    I was trying to makes things work between us because I have no other living family, he has turned mine son against me and he hates me now. My daughter is if and who can blame her. I have given her everthing I could just to hold on to her. I love her with all my heart and who can blame her. All her I want is for her happiness and find someone who getts her for who she is .Thats all I want for now ,someone who loves her and gives her everthing she could want from life. Talk to you latterl.

  • Comment Link Jeff Brady Monday, 23 February 2015 20:20 posted by Jeff Brady

    I have been with my wife for almost 8 years, have been married since November 2010. Over the past few years my attraction to her has diminished a lot and is at the point of the famous saying " I love her but I'm not in love with her anymore". Now for the most interesting part, recently I was contacted by a long lost love from 25 years ago and we both were so in love with each other but, I was finishing my time in the army and had to move back home and she couldn't go with me so we split up and we were both heart broken, I searched for her for years because I still loved her but couldn't find her so I finaly gave up and moved on and met my current wife in 2007. Now I have found out that my lost love has been trying to find me for years as well and finaly has found me and we have been talking a few weeks now and I am in love with her again and she also is in love with me and both of us want to start a life together but, of course I am married now and she's single. I know my wife will be shattered if I tell her that I want to leave her and it is going to break my heart to hurt her so much. I'm afraid of breaking her heart, I really hate doing that. Any suggestions? I'm going crazy thinking about this. We have no kids by the way. My wife and I get along great and have lots in common but the only problem is, I am not attracted to her sexually anymore. Do I sacrifice my happiness to not hurt my wife, or come clean and end my marriage to be with the woman I always wanted? Advice would be much appreciated.

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    I will keep it short. 22 years of maraige 2 kids. I call him my third child. I despise him. He makes sure I have no money no friends and. Did away with my family. He controls everyaspect of my life. I have no desire to even get up to face the days anymore. He has the world convinced his ass is made of gold and he is the most amazing guy you can meet. However he can even sign his own name ,I have to do it for him. He doesn't evn know his ssn anymore. He hasn't filled out ajob app in 20 years or any other doc. Its a wonder the men can dress himself. We live in the same apartment complex as his mom and sister. He can't even get his own food from the kitchen. He actually can not turn on a stove or us a microwave, no joke. I can go on further but I am getting pissed. I try to leave but he fallows meand will not acknowledge. The end is the end. The law won't do a thing because he makes friends withlaw enforcement and tells them I'm nuts. We live in bum fk nowhere. So now what? I'm in hell and no one will listen.

  • Comment Link Dorothy J Aller Sunday, 08 February 2015 14:06 posted by Dorothy J Aller

    I wonder why is it that a husband can't figure out a bus book without me doing so being laid up in the hospital after surgery ! I have to push him to take the trash out , do the dishes , we have to get the laundry done , then there is ever popular cleaning the house , he has to be told to do everything . And when it comes time for financial and legal issues , I have to handle it all! He uses the same excuses I have to work or some other excuses . He refuses to accept higher paying job , because he doesn't want deal with added responsibility . Which would make the financial problems would go away. Then the other day he keeps harping on doing everything and I keep telling him things don't right then there! When things don't go exactly right he throws a big tantrum like like a little child, throwing things , kicking things , telling look at what you made me do! Has told me to f you and few choice things , emotionally breaking me down . We used to be a loving passionate romantic relationship and it is down to one peck like a son would give his mommy and hug , love you ! Then the next hour to a total rage! I barely counterdict him and throws yet tantrum , breaking things . In the last year and half I have dealt with losing my home , because he wasn't making the payment , and tried everything. Save the home , but without any help from him . And then I said I can't do all this myself I need help and he came back saying I don't know what do to do. Thusly at 02/11/2014 @ 6:00 am was evicted from my home ! Mind you this a severely handicapped woman wheelchair bound . Needing medical help ! Then forced to move into a motel room , with a small dog ! Which needed medical and dental work done ! I told him the local ASPCA has free shots , medical and dental , all he had to do is take her get it done. He said I don't know how to do that . How to get there yet another sign his mommy did everything for him. Then we had to move into another place , I had to go into emergency surgery , and he could barely came to see me and told me he to leave in an hour. So I again went through my third time in the OR alone ! During the time of recovery I was left alone and he said he couldn't take time off to stay with me. I was alone and sitting or laying in my own urine , which made me get bedsores . Because I was being cooked alive because if the ammonia burning me. In and out of er'sand trying to get help with them. To the point the pain and emotional trama , I tried to kill myself to stop the madness. Then during all this I had to get his car back for the first time it was repo'ed , and told he has to pay the the payments , he once again didn't make them , after I sold things to get the lib censor tags paid and insurance on the thing ! Then while at work it got taken again , for the lack of payment he wasn't doing . Then throught the planning of the what bus routes he could figure out how to get to his work! And I had to figure out how to get our other bills paid . As well how to get our food in our stomachs . Oh yeah while I was in the hospital back in Marchn3rd, 2014 , he gotten rid of my baby aka my only thing worth living for Maltese ! Without talking with me first before doing so! Already fragile state facing surgery he does that to me! Then at the the place we had been staying at had yet another eviction I had to handle upon my own , because of weak excuses , had to find a new place to go , during the time of packing up I had to make up all the arrangements and things needing done , now being 100% bed bound . In the second week here , he is wondering when am I going to get my benefits , when am I going to get this or that done . Yet more emotional
    And mental stress put upon me ! I think he wants everything to be a free ride and makes roadblocks into everything I try to do ! Plus I had tried to get a car donated to us, and he wants the license and insurance to be paid too! Now I am having to look for assisted living , to get the full 24/7 care, because I can't depend upon him for nothing ! Other than his constant belittle meant , emotional , making fun of my Jewish faith, I am to the breaking point I don't deserve this at all, I need someone to be there for me and love me for me , not act like a mommys boy and throws a tantrum like he does do . Tell me am I wrong for wanting a new life , finding someone else ?

  • Comment Link Laylah Sunday, 01 February 2015 08:19 posted by Laylah

    OK, I'm not really sure how to begin except that I am at an extremely difficult crossroads in my life and I need some advice desperately. I am 31 years old and have been to my husband for (jeez I don't even know, I stopped keeping track after the 1st miserable anniversary) let's see, going on 5 years in a few months. We have 2 beautiful children together whom I love more then anything! My husband and I met about a year before I got pregnant. At the time I knew neither one of us were ready to be married let alone parents but when I found out I was pregnant something in me just switched on (my maternal instinct I guess) and I just wanted to whatever was best for my baby and at the time I thought it was giving her a real family as I had growing up so we immediately got married. Up until that point and for awile after I knew deep down it wasn't the right choice but I was still at that stage where your making excuses for someone to everyone including yourself to explain away there behavior. I didn't do this for my husband because I was madly in love with him, I can say now that I never loved him. But I did it because I so badly wanted my child to have everything she deserved and in my mind it was a mom and dad, a whole loving family. I convicted myself that even though I was already resenting him, disgusted my him, that I could stay with him for my child. My husband is 11 years my senior and I was sure he would change his ways. What I should have realized that at his age if he hasn't already changed he never would. See, he is an extreme pathalogical liar, and a lot of his other bad traits didn't come out until after we were married. He had painted a picture of a caring, hard working, and dependable man. Only to find out that he was greedy and selfish. A gambler that couldn't keep a job. We immediately started sleeping in desperate rooms and have ever since. We had one night that he thought he would try to rekindle a spark (that was never really there) and I was guiltied into it because I wanted until work on some level for my daughter but it was the single most awful experience that I have not and will never experience again. That one night together out of 5 years of marriage resulted in my 2nd daughter. I would say "what luck? " but I lover her just as much as my first, the act of getting her really means nothing to me now except that I got a beautiful girl put of it. But with her also came the realization that me and him are just not ment to be! I read the list of reasons to consider divorce and I can't even begin to explain how much is describes how I feel. So I've overcome the need to stay together for my kids, I know realize that this relationship is no more healthy then a divorce, in fact it's probably a lot more unhealthy. I know what I want and still being pretty young I don't want to waste my life being unhappy. I don't want to get right out there and date either, but I do however want to live freely and in peace and be able to be 100% happy so I can be the best mom I can and enjoy my children 100% too. I've talked to my husband more then a few times and he freaks out every time. I asked him don't u want to be happy? Be with someone who wants to be with you? And his answer every time is "you will be happy! It's just about money. If I had a better job blah blah blah" and I tell him it's not about money! Even if he was making 6 figures we wouldn't see it. He would just gamble it away or spend it on god knows where and then lie about it and of course he denies it. I didn't grow up privledged and I'm not by any means living the good life now. Money was never important to me. If you knew me you would know I speak the truth. But happiness, honesty, and trust are! And I have none of those things with him, throw in absolutely no attraction and what do I have? I know he doesn't love me, I know the only reason why he wants to stay is because he doesn't want to start over, it would cause to many problems and with another child he's already paying child support for he doesn't want to add on 2 more especially since he's awful with the money he has. I mean in already on welfare because he doesn't contribute and it's not the life I set out for my kids. Granted I'll probably be working even harder after the divorce but it's worth it. So u are probably wondering OK, what's the problem? You know what you want, go out and do it! My problem is that he has made it perfectly clear that he will do whatever it takes to make this divorce (if I go through with it, which I am) as hard and nasty as possible. He's not above lying, making up stories about me, etc. Cause he knows the only thing I care about are my kids and he said he'll do anything to stop me and if that means not laying me get full custody then so be it. He doesn't care what it would do to the kids to go thru a nasty divorce he only cares about what he wants. And in his words "you think in gonna get another young beautiful wife with all this baggage" it just doesn't make seven to me. It's not like we even sleep together, is appearences that important? Would it be as easy as he makes it sound to convince a court I'm a bad mom without any evidence to prove it? I'm nothing without my kids and I know he's using them to make me fear him and its working. The other thing is that he had said "if I can't have you no one can!" I said what do you mean by that? He's never hit me ever but can a man be driven to violence over something like this even if he's never showed any real sign before except for stupid comments? I'm just torn at what to do, my mind and my heart is screaming at me to kick him out (and no, I don't have anywhere to go so I can't just leave myself) plus I worked hard for where I live and I don't see why I should be homeless with 2 kids. My fear is keeping me from taking that final step. And when I do, how do I go about it? It's not like he's gonna leave willingly so do I have him served? I'm just a confused mess with no one to really relate and any advice from wives or husbands would be welcome. I'm not easily offended so don't hold back but do keep in mind that I am just a mom of 2 beautiful kids that's just trying to find the best possible way out of this marriage without to much drama. I don't want that for my girls but it doesn't look like he's gonna give me much of a choice at this point. He is completely delusional at this point, no matter how many times I bring it up he will be trying to get back in the bed after years of nothing. Then he will accuse me of cheating and that's just insane! Like I have the time or the heart to ever. I my nut care what he thinks but I do care what kind of example I set for my kids. Please if u have any advice put it out there. Thanks...

  • Comment Link Tom Wednesday, 28 January 2015 19:49 posted by Tom

    Ummm this is A first for me hmm Amy wife said to me this morning that she has animosity towards me and she doesn't know why she says it's been festering for a week I really don't know what to do we decided to give our marriage another go a after I caught her cheating been four mouth since we've been back together I got us apartment I pay all the bills and I try to make her happy I love my wife what did I do for her to hate me soo

  • Comment Link Lynn Friday, 23 January 2015 15:42 posted by Lynn

    Ive been married for 20 years now to my husband. We have 4 amazing kids who are my world! I did seperate from him for 15 months, and the kids and I felt more peace. He had them every-other-weekend, and I had them the rest of the time. I never prevented him having time or involvement with them though. He had access to my home whenever he wanted to see the kids. I always told him of scouting events, awards nights, football games our oldest played in, and any activity he could join. He did some but not all of those. But he was able to be involved as much as he chose. I wanted the kids to feel loved from both of us, but just have regular beds to sleep in at night. A place to feel at home in, which is what I provided.

    My business began to fall. About that time he apologized for so many things he had done to hurt me. He promised many changes. Because we seemed to be getting along, we decided to move into a rental house together. (Both of our leases were up around this time too.) This was March 2014. It's almost been 1 year, and I can say things are not healthy. Our relationship has small amounts of time that we are okay. We work together for the kids, and to function in the home. But it's not deep or truly intimate. It's very functional. I believe to him that's a good-enough relationship to warnt staying forever. To me a real marriage has depth, and heart. Truly caring for the other person. He makes amazing income! 6 figures and will make about 350K between Jan-March. I only know this because he tells our kids, but doesn't tell me. He keeps "his income" to himself. In fact this week, because my cell phone (which I pay for the plan myself) was giving me problems, I upgraded my phone when my plan finally let me. The day my phone arrived in the mail, he bought a new Lexus car for himself, with no discussion with me. He said he needs it for his job. He let the kids know he was buying a new car threw their phones that day though. I pay for my own personal needs.....he doesn't flip a dime for me.

    Today is the second time since October (3 months) that he has told me "If you want to talk to me, you have to come stand in front of me." I can't understand a man who tells his wife she has to stand in front of him to talk. I told him this isn't what he does for me, so why do I need to stand in front of him to speak?

    What are your thoughts on this?

  • Comment Link Diane Love Wednesday, 14 January 2015 00:03 posted by Diane Love

    I can not stomach my husbands work wife...every time she does something wrong he always always sticks up for her...and says to me...well do you have a solution...she was my first employee and I cant fire her....I'm to the point he needs to make a choice...but I don't want him to loose his business either...she is a JOKE...she is fake ,manipulative,caniving,just plain FAKE...yes she is pretty and I am jealous of that but I am truly sick and tired of being number two instead of number one....I happen to truly love my husband and if she was not in the picture we would probably have a pretty much perfect marriage...the only people in the office that even like her are her sister and her so called best I truly need suggestions.....this lady is ruining my life.....

  • Comment Link em Thursday, 01 January 2015 04:45 posted by em

    I've been married 1year and when I got married to my husband I didn't love him I thought I could eventually grow to love him (got married after 3months of knowing him)found out he is verbal abusive to me he threatened to kill me and my children he talks bout my deceased mom that he never met he threw his cell phone at me and left a bruise on me I'm tired I need to leave before someone get hurt

  • Comment Link P.Mary Macklet Tuesday, 30 December 2014 09:06 posted by P.Mary Macklet

    Shirley, youre in an abusive relationship.

  • Comment Link Shirley Thursday, 11 December 2014 09:40 posted by Shirley

    I am having a issue with mu husband now he decided to go to another state after he brought me to one state he left me there knowing nobody and sick. But he still left me there to find for myself knowing that I have medical problems it didn't even matter to him he told me that he was empty inside for me and that he felt nothing when the same baby mommy's all tried to shut our marriage down from the beginning but he blames me for everything when they are the ones that told him he could not see his kids so now he leaving me saying that we fight to much when we really don't but I was even willing to let him be there half of the week then home with me the other half but no that was not good enough so he just me and my daughter in a state we knew nothing about to run and see his kids and their mothers. so what do I do because it hurts really bad.

  • Comment Link Vanessa Thursday, 11 December 2014 02:17 posted by Vanessa

    I feel like it is time to move on but for some reason we don't. OI feel like he loves me but being that he is not in love with me he is mean to me. He is abusive verbally and has 0 respect for me. We are so opposite and different yet we want the same end result in life so that's why I think we hold on. I stopped trying to make him love me and truthfully I wish sometimes he would just walk away. I don't feel loved, desired, or happy and this brings great sadness to my life.

  • Comment Link debbie Thursday, 04 December 2014 19:11 posted by debbie

    been married almost 34 years and cant stand him anymore. nothing in common and he is verbally abusive. Dont love him at all anymore. Stayed way to long already.

  • Comment Link trudi bassett Wednesday, 03 December 2014 01:39 posted by trudi bassett

    I have been married for 8 years now and all i can think about is getting rid of my husband. We dont have sex (not for the last 4 years) it makes me ill just thinking of it. We sleep in in diffrent rooms. He wont get a job he watches every thing i do. He moans and nags me from the time i ge up till i go to bed. He is very childish if he does not get his way or get what he wants he will sulk for ever yntil i give in. Thank god u dont have kids wirh him. I am on anti depressants cos i just want out so much. But how do i tell him with out him breaking up on me. Please i need help

  • Comment Link Tess Monday, 01 December 2014 12:36 posted by Tess

    My husband will not work nor will he pull his weigh we have a 11 month old and well it hard for him do anything with her unless I scream at him I want to leave he suck my energy out of me and laughs when I try to talk to him about our issues then brushes it off like I'm nothing

  • Comment Link Maryann Sunday, 30 November 2014 07:22 posted by Maryann

    I am going out of my mind. I want to move out of New Jersey to florida where I have friends. My husband and older daughter do not want to. I cannot take it here. I have no family on disability cannot work and have two friends that I never see. I want to leave but I am scared to do it alone. I been married for. 35 years and with him for 40 can I do this alone with little money. I need some advice and help. Please anyone who has been here...please advise me. I cannot stay in this little town in nj no more. I feel like a rat in a trap. Please help

  • Comment Link jlow Sunday, 23 November 2014 22:26 posted by jlow

    Ive been married 17yrs 5 kids my husband for the past 5yrs has no stop broke me down regarding polygamy may just gone he married another woman and divorced her the following day with out consumating the marriage but I hate him for it I resent him for the past 5 yrs of pain hes caused me but tried to work it out ive had two children in the last 5 yrs but he says it was a mistake and hes sorry but in a second breath he may remarry again in the futcher I feel I have wasted my life as I gave it all to him he doesn't satisfy my needs intamately but needs another wife because he has desires but feel like I beg him for sex I don't know what to do I hold back from affection towards him incase he hurts me more help

  • Comment Link leah Saturday, 22 November 2014 00:21 posted by leah

    I have no hope left for this marriage. 29 years that should have ended 22years ago. He is controlling, manipulative and judgemental.

  • Comment Link iris Thursday, 20 November 2014 11:02 posted by iris

    i know my marrage is over i have read the abouve and relate to them all but i dont have much money and i have a 12 year old daughter but really i need out what can i do ?????

  • Comment Link Rose Wednesday, 19 November 2014 21:33 posted by Rose

    My husband and I have been married for 18 years, together for 20. Ever since the beginning he always told me it wouldn't work out because his first wife cheated on him. He felt/feels the same way about me. I really thought that as the years went by he would see that he's my one and only! But dreams of this get crushed on a monthly basis by him always accusing me of cheating! I've tried for all these years to show him that I love him with my whole heart but he just pushes me away every time he accuses me. I'm tired of trying so now I don't try as hard. I don't want to lose him because I LOVE and CARE for him very deeply! I would never cheat or do anything to hurt my husband. I know the pain he went through with his first wife and I can't understand how a person can do that to another. I'm not the perfect wife by all means I do have my faults as well. But I'm tired and ready to give up! What do I do?!

  • Comment Link Lourdes Dumlao Dolar Monday, 17 November 2014 15:24 posted by Lourdes Dumlao Dolar

    I would like to say about my past marriage was unsuccessful, for 17 years we end up and got separated, because of unfaithfulness of my husband, and betraying me twice for another woman, He got married again in muslim rites, and abandoned me for 5 years now, We do not have our biological kids, but we have adopted 2 kids, and they were registered under our names, I wish to ask this question, as i wish to settle down again, but the problem is i am financially unstable, can't afford to file for an annulment as we do not have divorce here in the philippines, my husband married in Malaysia. The point is what is my ground to him, He will with his other woman now having 2 kids, and our adopted only recieve their allotment as how much only he wanted to give. Please help me what to do, i really wanted to get a new family, why poor woman like us got no chance to file for an annulment as we cannot afford to pay for the annulment fees. I am also vervally abuse, I wish to start my life again and to live a normal life as others do. Thanks for having time to listen to my problem.

  • Comment Link Cheri Wednesday, 05 November 2014 19:16 posted by Cheri

    I've been married for 15 years and have a 12 year old daughter. I've tried for years to communicate with my husband about issues, fears, concerns, but he usually just stares at me. Sometimes things got better for a short time, but then eventually went right back to the way they were. He is a friendly man and gets along well with most everyone, but he is very immature. I am responsible for everything (household bills, our daughter, household care, doctor appointments, etc.). I've discussed this with him, but again...silence. For the past few months I have been so stressed that I can't sleep. Then I went away with a girlfriend for a girls weekend. I realized during that weekend that I was "free" - I could actually be me, do what I wanted and not worry at all about him. Guess what? I loved it. By the end of the weekend I realized the marriage was literally killing me slowly, due to stress and anxiety. I also realized that I had a lot of contempt for my husband and I was completely indifferent to the relationship. I came home and told him I wanted to divorce. He was shocked, doesn't want a divorce, wants to work it out. I started with a therapist yesterday and he is supposed to set-up an appointment for one of his own. He really wants to try to change, but I just don't think I care anymore. I know I need to consider my daughter, but I do not believe that anything will change, especially not long term. I've spent 20 years of my life with this man and I feel like I've totally lost me in taking care of him. I just want out - even if he changes. I hope he does, because that will make him a better partner for a future mate, but not for me. Am I just being selfish? I'm very concerned with my daughter's well-being, but I feel like he's a weight tied around my neck and slowly dragging me down into quicksand.

  • Comment Link Trent Sunday, 02 November 2014 06:31 posted by Trent

    It really hurts me to see women with the same issue I am having. Why couldn't I have found great women like you when I was looking for a spouse? Trust me there are great me out there such as myself that would love you and your children. I hope you all get your marriage to work or find someone that will love you like you deserve.


  • Comment Link Ella Saturday, 01 November 2014 22:46 posted by Ella

    Praying for all of you and your marriages. Don't give up.

  • Comment Link Nyree Friday, 24 October 2014 16:16 posted by Nyree

    He has always worked, we have 5 beautiful kids and have been together for 21 yrs . I've always had the financial responsibility & even looked after our babies on my own for nearly 4 yrs whilst he worked away, coming home on weekends. I've always worked, since I was 12, even 7 days, 2 jobs pregnant at one stage. He has always depended on me for everything, which only came to my realization a few yrs ago! From sorting out financial mess he's got into to making and escorting him to a Dr app. I'm tired, I feel lonely, I feel I've settled and I've lost me! I do love him, I think, maybe out of habit or pity, I don't know. Sex can be great, not often as one would wish but a couple of times a month must be sufficient enough for a long term marriage I try assuring myself.
    I'm a romantic at heart, flowers, bubbly, snuggles, movies, suprises, candles, sweet notes/txts, even a home cooked meal not prepared by me ticks the box. In the early years he would do romance his way, not often but he gave it a go. The last decade, zilch! I've tried arranging date nights, kids have even been on board wanting to serve us dinner around candlelight, which is grunted n whined about lack of lighting or news is on tv. Even recently I've tried arranging a night out fishing together (something he enjoys) another fail.. I can't seem to satisfy myself! Has the love really faded, why am I trying so hard for what I want and need in a relationship! ? I married him, I made my bed and now I have to lay in it is what I keep telling myself.. but do I really have to settle for less then I crave? I know he's happy, who wouldn't be happy to come home, meals cooked, kids ready for bed, housework done, all things that comes into a family life, sports, homework, bills, appointments taken care off and only rent to have to pay. I've told him many of times that I am yearning for more then being a mum/housewife. I want to dance a night away, share a candle lit meal, take a walk hand in hand. He's happy for me to head out with the girls to go dance the night away and so on, but I thought I was getting married to share a life with someone. But it is just all water under the bridge. It had been going on for so long now, do I not disrupt the life our kids are adapted too and wait the years out to see what may happen? Or do I turn our kids lives upside down in search of finding myself? I've tried satisfying myself in trying to find me again but I feel I'm being held down, by him not our kids. I've supported his career moves, failed business ventures and evrrything that comes with him but for me to strive for what I want I've done it without his support, from working and finding sitters for the kids to studying through distance at home around home duties, kids needs, work and his needs... Maybe I'm just being a selfish bitch!!!

  • Comment Link Reese Monday, 06 October 2014 11:58 posted by Reese

    I need advice. This has happens twice within less than 1 yr. Hubby say i can leave him and never come back taking away my precious son. Son turning 3 n very bright indeed. Help...

  • Comment Link Tracy Root Wednesday, 17 September 2014 12:35 posted by Tracy Root seems I have all of the above checked off. I`ve been married 23 years and the first half we had alot of probelms....he was abusive etc. I stuck it out and the past few years he has settled alot nicer, has a good job etc. but I find I resent him and don`t feel attracted to him at all even tho he`s still a good looking man and we used to have no problem in the bedroom. I also have met a friend-haven`t been unfaithful physically but feel so much more alive around him. I am scared to leave my husband because his whole life revolves around me......very dependent and I`m scared he will do something stupid to himself and or me if I leave. I really do feel trapped and don`t know what to do.

  • Comment Link Don Tuesday, 16 September 2014 09:40 posted by Don

    My wife has turned in to the b*%&$ from hell towards me! I have always been there except my back went out on me! I was on pain killers and depressed about my dad slowly dying. She said I ignored her and she was lonely. First before I tell you how she repaid me for my bad back and being on medication let me tell you what I have done for her 1. sold my home so she could have the home of her dreams 2. Married her so she could have medical ins. 3. helped set up her retirement account 4. NEGOTIATED a medical settlement of over 130 thousand dollars. How has she repaid me she had an emotional affair and it turned out to be a scammer who took her for over 60 thousand dollars not to mention all the sex talk they had together! B*&%@!!!!!!!

  • Comment Link Steve Thursday, 11 September 2014 14:34 posted by Steve

    My wife doesn't want to do anything with me at all. I feel like a fool constantly trying to build bridges only for her to reject me. It's so hurtful thinking she has given up on me. Married since 1991, two grown ip kids, one still at home the other at uni. She started going out with her friends at work more often and doesn't ever invite me or if I invite her anywhere she doesn't want to know. I'm worried that the only use I am is financial so to get my kids through college then when that's done, it's goodbye. She avoids any contact and if and when it does happen it's with lights off once a month, and she never initiates anything it's always me making the first move. Her phone never leaves her side and I have no idea what's going on, yet she knows what my phone PIN number is so I have absolutely nothing to hide . I'm at my whits end worrying there could be someone else that's perhaps giving her attention, I just don't know what to think anymore. Or she just plainly don't fancy me at all, even though I shower every day and stay fit ect.

  • Comment Link jess Wednesday, 10 September 2014 01:28 posted by jess

    I Need some advice my husband and me have been together 4 years, i recently found out my daughter is autistic i feel like my husband doesn't support me emotionally i work full time, i cook, i clean and i take care of my daughter the most i make sure she eats takes a shower and always change her diaper now i understand that's my responsibility but i'm so stressed but its like he doesn't even appreciate anything i do he always make me feel like i'm doing some thing wrong i don't even feel comfort in my home i swear when i sit down to relax i feel like he's going to get mad because i'm not cleaning or cooking i don't even have a little time for myself please somebody tell me what i should do im so stressed and i have left him before but then he starts talking to me and saying how sorry he is and then we get back together and ive also talked about my feelings

  • Comment Link Kmac Friday, 29 August 2014 16:56 posted by Kmac

    kat and jo...we're triplets.

    soooo frustrating!

  • Comment Link Don Tuesday, 26 August 2014 21:25 posted by Don

    My wife has been doing something very strange with her money lately and has been very secretive about it. She is either caught up in a scam or is planning on leaving me and buying a house somewhere else or sending money to another man she has met. I am really hurt and I sold my house years ago so she could own her own home I married her so she could have her medical for 75 dollars a month instead of 750 dollars a month. I have always been faithful and honest with her and now this! She gets very angry with me and says I am a snoop and says she hates me for asking her constantly about this. The love I feel for her is being drained everyday. I guess it does not pay to be a good man now days!

  • Comment Link jo Tuesday, 19 August 2014 20:25 posted by jo

    kat- Its unfortuante for you and your children,
    however you sound like my twin.

  • Comment Link eme Monday, 11 August 2014 18:01 posted by eme

    I got married for the wrong reasons (so I can obtain health insurance - i'm broke and have no income - this was before CoveredCA came). I love my husband, but I feel that I only love him as a companion rather than a partner now.

    My question is, is it possible to have a divorce without having to divide any of our debts or assets? Most of the debts are mine from before we got married and a car loan that he has before he got married. And I don't really want to give part of my debt to him. It was mine to begin with anyway.


  • Comment Link Tee Wednesday, 30 July 2014 03:44 posted by Tee

    I feel like I was pressured into Marriage,it's only been 3 Weeks but I know for sure I want OUT!!! I was unhappy before we got Married. He is more or less A Cold Fish that doesn't like to do anything but His Lawn Business anything else he's to tired or no energy even on Weekends. Our Marriage has not been consumated and sex was so lousy before we were Married that I just stopped asking.

    I have had enough and I'm moving out this Weekend!!!!

  • Comment Link Don Saturday, 26 July 2014 18:01 posted by Don

    I have been laid up with a bad back and have been despondent since I found out my dad is slowly dying from a bad heart. Now my wife is pulling away from me saying its a little to late and my response has been thank you for your support when I have been going through a lot lately. I have never cheated on her and now I suspect she is on me as she hides her phone and is leaving and not wanting to be home. My response is giving her space and I work out all the time! I suppose I will get tired of her game playing sooner or later!

  • Comment Link Kat Thursday, 24 July 2014 04:37 posted by Kat

    I'm tired of being the one to keep the social calendar, kids' schedule, shop, pay bills, etc while my husband works, comes home and does very little. I feel like a mother and a maid with no value or love. If I disappeared tomorrow the only thing he would miss is what I do - not me. He's short with me & our daughter but loves doing things with our son. He's good with work but lazy at home. Now he left and has been back it his parents' house because I rescued a cat from the shelter. He says he's made because he told me no more animals and I didn't listen. BUT....I told him no moe drinking and driving and he drove home last week in a company vehicle VERY drunk. But I'm wrong?!

  • Comment Link Lolly Friday, 04 July 2014 20:14 posted by Lolly

    Brilliantly written.... I can't agree more, you just know when things can't be worked out... Why spend your life compromising with somebody you can't even kiss without gagging.

  • Comment Link Gary Ripley Friday, 04 July 2014 13:48 posted by Gary Ripley

    Why is it that all is about a husband being rotten to his wife when I am abused by my wife and tired dam tired of being second and a money pit to her and her children especially her goddam 27 year old son whom we pay his car payment because we consigned his insurance his cell ph bill among legal fee ect. For which she see nothing wrong in doing they have all drained me it's time to take back throw in the towel and move on they are out right killing me ! I want and am getting a Devorce long over due ! I will die if I do not ! She is driving me nuts as well as financially ! In the hot I want it to end and I want it all back provided cars after car for her kids paid insurance into there 20s and still paying , saved her family farm that was going bankrupt and they just tried to pull a fast one on me and will I y'all back to her family do I sound selfish gee I think not ? I am done come Monday July 7 2014 I will be contacting a lawyer and a counselor for mental abuse to keep my sanity through this process my god how much can a man yes a man take ?

  • Comment Link Leigh Sunday, 22 June 2014 04:09 posted by Leigh

    I have been married for almost 2 years but been with my husband for close to 5. I got pregnant when I was 19 and we married 2 years later. Mostly, on my part, from pressure from our families and thinking it was my only option. My husband isn't very nice to me..ignores me, constantly plays video games and only shows me affection when he wants sex. Kissing him literally makes me sick. When we have sex I just want to scream "I don't want to be with u" or "I can't do this anymore" I've been thinking abt divorce for about a year now. I just have a very hard time believe it's a good decision. I know I'll be happier but what about my 3 year old? I'm just to the point where I don't think I can lie to him anymore.

  • Comment Link Claudia Saturday, 14 June 2014 03:55 posted by Claudia

    I reconciled with my spouse about 7 months ago thinking that somehow everything would change...we had been separated almost 3 years but nothing has changed. And the article is right I have no energy to try, I feel resentment, don't want to have sex, nor do I care anymore...the love I had for him is gone. I feel alone in relationship and ready to be single the only thing stopping me is I have no job at moment. I have been looking for months. I do not hate him; I just know that we are not ideal as spouses. Friends perhaps nothing more.

  • Comment Link Beth Friday, 06 June 2014 15:04 posted by Beth

    Hi. My name is Beth. I have been with my husband for 8 years but married 6 years. I have two children from a previous arranged marriage not for religious reasons though. My current husband was in fact my next door neighbour who at one point I used to all the way up to getting married. We then had the year of he'll as hey call it and things started to improve other than his addiction to porn and refusal of sex. He always lied at first about the porn and then said it was because I asked for it then it was easier to watch porn......always has lacked motivation. I almost used to have to beg for him to touch me and I feel on occasions I still do but I have got the the point where it's take it or leave it because it's wambam thank you ma'am, no romance no arousal for me.
    Anyway, for a while now i have been feeling like i dont trust him because i leave the house and when i come back he chats a lot and is quite jumpy or alternatively doesn't move. It doesnt really bother me him watching porn its the lies that i hate. In addition I ask him to do something or help with something and by the time he gets off his arse I have done it. He looks after himself and then claims he didn't think anyone else needed anything. I am a full time student and he even expects me to come home, cook tea, sort the kids, do homework and tidy the house before I go to work. I do it because otherwise the kids get the earache while I am out.

    I really find myself hating him, wishing I was on my own, wishing he was dead because I wouldn't have him to deal with. Do i love him- no, do i care about him - becuase i care about everyone. I do not trust, respect or desire him anymore.

    I would like our relationship to work but i am tired of trying- help!.

  • Comment Link Mag Saturday, 24 May 2014 20:51 posted by Mag

    Hi, my name is Mag, i've been married for 8 years now, I have two beautiful children of 5 an 7 years old. I also have a husband. I feel terrible with him, he actually makes me feel like "the onion" story. I just like to be loved, be happy, be with someone who will understand me, hear me out, give me a hug, kiss me. When I tell him I need it he says that I behave like a princess, when I say that I will find someone else, he says that nobody wanted me anyway, so there's no chance. The only reason I'm with him is that we live in our house (mortgage) and I'm not able to rent anything on my own, although I work professionally it still wouldn't be enough. My kids are also small. My family says to stay with him for now becasue I have no better solution at the moment, but it's hard to live with a person who makes you sick...

  • Comment Link Raul Perez Friday, 23 May 2014 09:01 posted by Raul Perez

    My wife and me had 28 of leaving together her mom told her that our 4 children are always 1st over her husband. So is she saying tha she is more important then the father because her mom always said that she prefers more her children then the father. I believe both are inportants . My wife starts ignoring me and she always blame on me im tire of her actitud. Now our children's are big 28, 27, 20, 14..they are always against me my wife always with them every where and she doesn't have time for me. She starts cold blood I felt like nothing I give them all my heart and kisses , attention, details smiles and love they start with cold blood all I went to do to correctly when they were wrong but they are always right and never say im sorry , good morming like me Dad . Well I blame her mom . Not judging. Thank you very much.

  • Comment Link monique Tuesday, 13 May 2014 23:15 posted by monique

    I don't want a divorce, but he doesn't communicate. I'm always the one trying, and going the extra mile. He just doesn't care. I want to be happy and he doesn't try to make me happy. When I try to talk to him about it he tells me "Divorce me then" I'm 16 years invested in this marriage and it's finally taken a toll. Like I said, I just want to be happy, feel appreciated and be loved in return.

  • Comment Link steve nuc Thursday, 08 May 2014 02:52 posted by steve nuc

    Why are you so clueless about the entire waste of roceless moments of tome called lifeamd. sew this marriage scam talk that has been around since the old english didn't want to pay for amy of these bastard children. Read a book once on a whole you claim to be educated

  • Comment Link Annie Monday, 21 April 2014 23:02 posted by Annie

    I don't know why I feel this way, but I feel like I don't care, but I do. I love my husband and I know he loves me. We have been married 3years and dated for 7 years prior. We even waited the 7 years to lose our virginity to each other on our honeymoon. I don't have much luck with work in certain fields, but I have been a servers for 2-3 years. He works full time and we currently have no kids. The subject does come up since I am 30 and he is 29.

    I love my husband, but I feel like not only do I have to clean our home, plan family events, confirm events and ensure that our fridge is stocked, I feel frustrated. I have told him numerous times to just pitch in with certain chores or atleast clean the obvious. He does it for a week ( no joke) and then its all on me again. I am guilty of a little nagging, but I just no longer say anything.

    I know he has ADD and Dyslexia, Asthma and Epilepsy, but asking someone to just pick up their own clothes should be a given. As for the sex you would think that we would be humping like bunnies since we saved ourselves. Actually no, I feel like a total D-bag, but I'm lucky if I can get it atleast once a week.

    As of the last few months, I feel hopeless, like I have been rowing and now i'm just sitting in the middle of this big lake with my oars drawn in. I just don't know which way to paddle, and it seems like he is just happy with everything. The only escape where I feel desired and young is at work. I have talked to him, and argued about this with him time after time and to really no avail. I don't know what else to do.

    Am I suppose to be a part time "step-ford wife" for ever?

  • Comment Link Me Monday, 21 April 2014 20:29 posted by Me

    One year ago, I found out my wife of 10 years and mother to our 7 yr old daughter was talking to another man. It was her professor at the Community College. I had some suspicions because of the way she had been acting for a couple weeks. I always trusted her and never thought twice about questioning anything she did before that. Something told me to walk into the bedroom that night and take the laptop she was working on, well my whole world fell apart in that moment. The women I had move a mountain for...The one that told me less then 2 weeks before I was a good husband and father and that she knew I would never do anything to hurt her, was chatting with another guy. I was so disgusted and hurt. I'm not sure but I think I had a nervous breakdown. I couldn't get out of bed for 3 days. She started lying about everything (to save me the pain she said) of the details. She wasn't a good liar and I didn't trust her so I had to find everything out on my own. There was a paper trail miles long. Long story short, I finally got her to admit she "loved him" but, is not "in love with him" whatever that means. Well like I said it's a year later, and our relationship is not good, even worse is I don't respect myself for staying. I don't trust her and I don't think I ever will. Now here's the real problem. When I was 2 my dad left me and my mom and I vowed NEVER to leave my child, but I don't know if I can stay any longer. With the court system the way it is I'm terrified of her having to go through the things I went through as a child. There are times I look at my wife and I feel hate, hate for doing this to me and our family. I have read all the advice, guys say dump her, women say a whole range of things. I say its not that easy, there are lives involved. God I wish for the day's when I was a kid and life was black and white. Well your the first person I told this story to in over a year, I've kept it bottled up because of the embarrassment and pain. Thanks for listening.

  • Comment Link Madame X Sunday, 20 April 2014 00:08 posted by Madame X

    I need to get divorced however something personal, other than money is causing me to retain.

  • Comment Link Kaye Friday, 11 April 2014 16:36 posted by Kaye

    I have been married 22 years. I married my husband when I was 38 because after 20 years, I felt I was unlikely to find anyone better, he seemed like someone I could live with, he seemed fairly attractive, seemed as if he really liked me, and I was in a bad period of my life - didn't have many friends, couldn't find a good job, was poor. He didn't make much money either, but I thought together, we at least would have a little more. Long story short, my husband has severe ADHD, depression, and mood disorder, for which he is now being treated, but it has been a decades-long struggle to get him to accept treatment. However, he has the emotional maturity of a 10-year-old, and that will never change. We don't have children. I am 59, he's 56, and now that we are nearing retirement, we would be more secure financially if we stayed together. I have always worked, and he has too, but we could have a much better quality of life if we remained together. I figure if I have made it this long, I can surely make it till we die. He has some good qualities, and I try to focus on those, but imagine being married to a 10-year-old. It grates on the nerves.

  • Comment Link Helen Sunday, 02 March 2014 18:11 posted by Helen

    I have been married for 23 years, almost 24. Things seemed fine in the beginning then he became more involved with a professional organisation to do with work. I end up feeling like a single parent. I worked after my daughter was born but when I found out I was pregnant my son my wage would only just have covered childcare costs so I gave up work and my children have turned out pretty amazing. We then went on to have another 2 daughters. The night before our youngest was born I discovered addresses of clubs in London, where he was going on business of cross dressing clubs, I was devastated and didn't know if I had a home to come home to!!!! He convinced me it was mild curiosity that's all and so we continued. When my baby daughter was then 2, he and his brothers had gone on a golfing trip, to cut along story short a month later I discovered he had met a girl and asked her to join him at a hotel, he told me before he was going on a business trip and had to stay over anyway the girl declined the offer and he told me it was because I didn't make a big enough effort. Life carried on and about 6 years later I discovered he had joined a dating agency.....guess whose fault that was. Then last year he had an affair with a woman he met in a bar. It ended. When I found out I threw him out and he got an apartment but insists the marriage isn't over and comes down at the weekend arguing that he needs the apartment for business and it makes more sense to stay in it than spend time travelling. I suppose at this point I should also point out that he resents me for giving up work. 6 months later to my horror it turned out my husband was a full blown cross dresser!!!! He then started to take a lady out to dinner and clubs but told me it was friendship and I didn't understand.....he didn't tell her he was married!!!! I wish someone could help me get through this and decide what to do

  • Comment Link rosh Wednesday, 26 February 2014 08:54 posted by rosh

    I have been recently married before 8 months we both are divorced from our first marriage...this is our love marriage, but i discovered that my husband loves me but when i have some physical pain or if i am not well or tired from my days work and when i complain to him he ignores me totally as if he didnot hear me or he change the subject... whereas we both work and he comes back home and relaxes and me coming back from work do the household chores and before sleeping i give him a body message foot massage head massage but when i need the same care he totally refuse... i become very tired and sick at times..i am sad please advise.

  • Comment Link Veronica Saturday, 08 February 2014 03:45 posted by Veronica

    I don't know what to do. My husband and I have been married for three years going into our fourth year. Under the circumstances that happened before we met I couldn't work for a while. Although, I felt with everything that had to do in our personal life and not only clean the house and so the laundry. I also adopted his sisters kids for four month to help her during her relapse to drugs after his father died. Leaving all of that aside, what I could not understand is why he never had sex with me. It would be months in between almost a year the first time and I could not understand. Yes he admired to having an alcohol issue but he never had that when we first met. All of a sudden after dismissing me in regards to everything and not having a legitimate answer. We are currently in counseling and not bc he suggested but I did for my own sanity. We tried that before but he would show up drunk. I don't want to have any sexual relations with him but I also do not feel sickened by the thought. I don't share my desires with him or make plans. I've pretty much shut down. He is close but I feel this weird distance from him and in not sure where it is coming from. I almost feel that he has someone else and can give a **** if I left. Excuse me for my choice of words but I'm baffled as to how a man can say I love you and not buy you not one I'm sorry flower or write me a love letter?? I don't feel that he is sorry for emotionally taking advantage and abusing me for three years. Any suggestions as to how to make a final decision?

  • Comment Link Rhonda Sunday, 02 February 2014 04:15 posted by Rhonda

    My husband and I have been together for 27 years. I am so tired of everything. I work full time and my husband has not worked since my first child was born 18 years ago. I have 2 children. So, I work full time, and come home to make meals, fold wash run my daughter around etc. my husband thinks he does everything by vacuuming and dusting once a week and putting the wash in the washer and dryer. He doesn't even sort it, wow what a huge job!!! The work is folding it and putting it away. The rest of the time he sits on the couch. Anytime there is a function that we should both go to for our kids he is sick all of a sudden and can't do anything. He is angry all the time, yelling, impatient about everything. He can't talk to the kids or ask them anything calmly, it's just yelling all the time and of course teenagers yell back right so this is what I come home to everyday. I'm going through a change in life so he thinks because I want peace in the house so I get mad at him for treating the kids this way. I don't even want to be at home most of the time but I do. I have no friends as he has found something wrong with everyone who has ever dropped in and his excuse is we have kids that's why we can't eat out, see a friend or whatever. I love him but am not in love with him. He irritates me more and more each day. He is so controlling of everything, what you buy, where you go. Sometimes I feel like I am in a father daughter relationship instead of husband and wife. I buy stuff I want sometimes and leave it in the car until a day he goes somewhere and then I sneak it in the house. By the way, he doesn't leave the house often. It's like he's afraid of the world. Anyway I could say so much more but I would have to write a book. Sorry it's so long. I am really thinking of leaving but am scared that I may hurt him-- I have threatened this before and he says he will kill himself. Ive tried to talk to him, but if it doesnt interest him, he is not interested in it, thanks for listening.

  • Comment Link Emma Jane Wednesday, 29 January 2014 05:11 posted by Emma Jane

    Marianna, I'm sorry to hear what you are going through. It sounds really, really hard. I'm curious, what tipped your suspicions to look at Craigslist.
    It sounds like there is a reason it's his third. Straight men don't do that.
    I often struggle with my husband and wonder the same about him. For various reasons. Sometimes I wish I could find something like what you found, just so I would feel justified in leaving him.
    Best of luck to you.

  • Comment Link PurplePrincess Tuesday, 28 January 2014 22:14 posted by PurplePrincess

    I like all of you are feeling the same way. I dated my husband for 3 years before I kept begging for a ring. I was 26 and all my friends were married and starting to have kids. I felt so left out so when he proposed it was all about the wedding and planning.

    I remember my Mom asking me on my wedding day if I was happy and I was sure I wanted to do this. I laughed it off and said of course.

    We have been married for 3 years now and I am not attracted to him anymore. He drives me nuts I can not stand to be in the same room with him. We have slept in seperate bedrooms since before we were married because of his snoring.

    I am lucky I do not have any kids and no debt together with him. I think I did that on purpose so I could leave easier.

    We have a dog who is mostly mine and I plan on taking her with me when I go. I am lucky to have such a supportive family to help me get through this. It is sad when your family tells you that you lost your sparkle because of trying to be someone he wanted me to be.

    We were very different people and I should have saw that as a sign from the start. However I wanted to play house and bride. I never thought of having kids with him I just could not see it in the future.

    I have so much guilt but it is for the best he deserves someone who will love him and give him what I can't. He is just not my forever and I know that deep down inside.

  • Comment Link MESSIAH Tuesday, 28 January 2014 01:31 posted by MESSIAH


  • Comment Link Anna Monday, 27 January 2014 22:49 posted by Anna

    My husband and I dated for 5 years and we have now been married for over 7 years.

    We lost out first baby to meningitis and since then we've never been ok. We now have 3 beautiful healthy kids but my husband give us no support only financially.

    He does not help take care of the kids or his home. Our kids are 5, 4 and 4 months old. He don't do any chores no cooking nothing just pays the bills and sits!!!

    I'm tired I physically can't live with someone like this I rather be alone. It's too hard. I'm doing it all on my own but without paying bills!

    He tried to kill me over Xmas and wanted to push me down the stairs in front of my 4 year old son!!

    Before he's tried to break my leg in the door. I am flat out caring for the kids alone as well as trying to get all the housework done and cooking. I literally am struggling to do it all but he still just sits.

    I'm ready to leave him.

    He goes on nights out drinking guitar lessons yet our family need him but he don't care he brags about it saying he needs his time!!

    Fxxx us basically!

    I don't want to do this anymore life is so short.

  • Comment Link Lesego Wednesday, 15 January 2014 13:44 posted by Lesego

    My husband and I have been together for 16 years but only married for two years. we have two kids, after the mirage things got out of control. He has been cheating on me without hiding it, if am not in the house he bring his girlfriends into our house. If he doesn't sleep out he come home early in the mornings. I tried being strong but I cant take it anymore. He moved out of our bedroom is like he lost interest in me completely. we don't do anything together every time I try speaking to his he tells me I must leave my life and he will leave his. he recently tested HIV positive and I'm HIV negative. I wanted to stay for my kids sake but I think is not worth it. Please advice

  • Comment Link May Monday, 06 January 2014 22:22 posted by May

    My husband and I have been married for 12 years. For most of which I have delt with being accused of cheating. It seems I can do nothing right, and I never do enough. It seems that I am only good for one thing and it is expected daily. If he doesn't get what he wants he gets angery and will give me a guilt trip about not loving him and he won't stop until I give in. I feel so bad about wanting it to end because we have 5 children together and I know how devistated they will be.

  • Comment Link Marianna Friday, 27 December 2013 20:24 posted by Marianna

    I have been married for almost a year now, with my husband for three. I found out he has been on Craig'slist seeking out sex with other men. I confronted him about it but he says he is just curious but will never admit to being bi. He scoffs at it, says he never cheated on me but I KNOW he is going on there for MSM. I am 45 years old and this is my first marriage, his 3rd. I am at a lost. I love him but I cannot live like this any more. I am very unhappy. I even suggested counseling and all I got in return was silence.

  • Comment Link irene Thursday, 12 December 2013 04:30 posted by irene

    I have been married for 40 years, most people look at us and think it's a great relationship. It's far from great, it's terrible. Unfortunately he is very sick and I feel so guilty leaving. I have nothing but pure contempt for him, there is no love, respect, or friendship between us. Since his illness he has become a mean spirited complaining old man. His idea of fixing any problem is to throw money at it and everything will be OK, this makes me angrier each time. He has no friends yet constantly complains about my friends. Yikes....I really need to get out of this marriage.

  • Comment Link  Christina Monday, 09 December 2013 09:52 posted by Christina

    DD, you sound like a decent guy and I'm sorry for what you are going through. I'm in a similar situation, though my husband doesn't not want to sleep with me, he only wants one thing. When it's over we just go on with the rest of our day like it didn't happen, and he just resumes his hobbies which don't involve me or the kids. He also uses porn which I can understand when he's deployed (he's a Marine) but why use it when you're home? We don't spend any time together or talk about anything, and whatever we used to have in common is gone. I still love to do the same hobbies as I always did (fishing, skiing, hiking, mountain biking, surfing, traveling, etc.) but he's turned into a homebody who only wants to sit inside and watch TV and paint figurines. We run together but that's about the extent of our activities together, and that's just to stay in shape. I work long days sometimes but he still tells me I don't do anything. I also do most of the cleaning and help the kids with their homework (he uses the fact that he's a Marine to say he's too dumb to help them!) which I don't mind but I'm exhausted. Then when I'm too tired for sex on a weekday he gets mad. He's been physically abusive to me and has PTSD, and his mom tells him and me that I should just take it to not hurt his career (thanks mom!). I feel empty, like he doesn't care about me and that if I left it wouldn't matter after almost 14 years of marriage. I understand abou just wanting to sit down and talk with him, to see what he really wants and how he feels about me. He tells me he loves me but his actions say otherwise. He is getting ready to retire in a few months and we still have no real plans for where we will live (we are in military housing right now and will be forced to move out when he retires). We live in FL now but I really don't like it (I'm a mountain/snow girl) but he really doesn't seem to care where we live, since he has no real plans of going back to work and can paint figurines anywhere (he's only 41). This should be an exciting time for us but I'm dreading it. Our income will be slashed nearly in half (he makes a lot more than me) but he doesn't seem to even be worried about it. I feel like I'm married to a teenager! I don't know what to do, but I know I don't want to stay in Florida! It seems like I'm the only one who cares about this relationship, and I'm thinking you feel the same way!

  • Comment Link Marie Friday, 06 December 2013 09:01 posted by Marie

    My husband and I have been together for almost four years, married only one year. We have been living together a little over one year. Since we have been living together we have fought alot. We hardly have sex at all. He never kisses or holds me or shows affection whatsoever. He only shows interests in his hobbies and puts effort financially into those hobbies. He searches the internet for his activities but nothing on councelors or marriage advice. Never asks what U'd like to do together. Hasnt looked for work in over a year. Hasnt worked in over a year. Tells me everything wrong in his life is my fault. He constany fights with my twelve year old daughter. He is always criticising her while showering my seven year old with hugs and puppet shows. I dont understand whats happened or what to do. I resent him for how he treats my girls different and shows no interest in who I am or what I need and want but yet he wants to stay together.... Im totaly confused. Please give me some advice.

  • Comment Link amber Saturday, 23 November 2013 07:33 posted by amber

    I have been married since four years with a 1year old daughter. I don't like him anymore he is 15 years older than me, never respected me. I don't remember if ever he had said anything nice to me or showed whether he loved me or even liked me. I want to discontinue this relationship..... I have so much hatred for him now... but I am chained due to my daughter... I even think if he likes his daughter even he flirts with other girls show care for them just to make me feel jealous. He has pride in himself, forever blaming accusing me. I take care of his things n when ever I need help support love he z not there. I hate him so much now don't want to live with him anymore..

  • Comment Link  JNewsomeb Wednesday, 20 November 2013 15:03 posted by JNewsomeb

    Been married 15 years now and I don't think I've ever been happy. I grew up without a father and I didn't want the same for my girls. He doesn't want a divorce, so the only way for me to divorce him is to skip town and mail him the documents. Problem is, we are both in the military and tied together in a program that takes both signatures for us to be assigned to different locations. He won't sign so... He is a great guy. Just not the man for me. I left him the first year of our marriage. Guess I should have stayed gone. I just resent him so much for decisions in the past and I can't get pass it. It haunts me daily. Im to the point where I say 'I hate my life' at least once a day. I feel like a shell of a woman. I haven't recognized me on a long time. I stay clear of mirrors because there is allways an emptiness in my eyes, a lacking, a yearning.. a reminder that this is me. My life . has been reduced to army boots and a bad attitude. I used to have friends and fun, but my husband is an introvert, so I tried to respect that and center my social life around him and my kids. Big mistake.
    Joining the army. Huge mistake. I've always felt my potential far exceeded anything I could accomplish in the army, but my husband felt otherwise even going as far as using his influence to keep me on when a commander was going to let me out. I re-enlisted to keep my family together. I should've just took the three years away and left many years ago. My self-esteem is bruised beyond any words I can type here. My girls keep me here. With out them I would have quit on my marriage and if they wouldn't let me out of the army, I
    would just quit on life.

    This can't be life..

  • Comment Link claira Thursday, 14 November 2013 02:25 posted by claira

    My husband and I have been married just over a year, and have been together for 3. he says he loves me, but I can't do anything without permission, I have no friends. He has choked me 2 times that has caused me to make a bowel movement on myself,he has hit me,put a knife to my throat,stabbed me in the head,punched,kicked,slapped me numerous times. I have so much hatred for him.I can't touch him. What should I do?

  • Comment Link DD Monday, 28 October 2013 16:31 posted by DD

    For five years I have been sleeping in the spare bedroom. My wife says she is not attracted to me anymore and she didn't know if her feelings for me would return. So for now, "please sleep in the spare room". I did so, I would do anything for her, but obviously I was mortified hearing that statement. This was five years ago. I soon noticed that she wouldn't look at me when we spoke...she would look at the floor or elsewhere. She never acknowledged me when I came home from work or when she went to bed. She just went up.
    I easily got under her skin with anything I did. I would like to note that I am a very houseproud husband and considerate husband ( least I think I am) And I always clean up after myself.
    I know after a period of time the "fire" douses a little and you or the other half or both of you do not feel like you did in the first year of marriage but this seems pretty extreme to me.

    Last year I got so depressed living what I considered to be a lie (everyone thinks we are happily married, and they still do) that I decided I couldn't take it anymore and told my wife that I wanted to leave. It was a big decision as I have two boys (9 and 13)
    I was confronted with a whole bunch of accusations of being selfish and abandoning my responsibilities. So now I'm the cause of the bust up? How dare I split on my two boys. She refuses to talk about our marriage and just says that I should stop feeling sorry for myself.
    We have been married now for fifteen years. The last five I have lived in "solitary".
    I haven't left yet.....I can't leave my boys. I just can't. My wife also said that if I did she would "take me to the cleaners". I feel I am stuck and just have to smile, man up and put up with it. At least until my boys are old enough. I'm not as depressed now. I have learned to live with it and lead a life as happy as can be... under the circumstances. I am pleasant to my wife and we do not argue about our problems. I have given up trying. Just that we live pretty much separate lives under the same roof. I feel like I am just there as a father to my boys and to pay the bills.
    I do still feel that after fifteen years there must be something right or we wouldn't have lasted this long and I do have feelings for her. Like I am holding on to hope that one day she'll change. I want to love somebody and care for them but it hard when that person clearly doesn't want it.
    And notice I haven't mentioned anyting about making love. I'm talking about the kind of love much much deepr than that.
    I do feel maybe that if she suddenly changed that I may not be able to give her that kind of love anymore as it has gone on so long now.
    The very least I would like is for a chance to sit down with my wife and at least talk. Talk about why she feels the way she does....what does she want from me...does she still want me. Maybe she can't explain it but at least try. And me to get her to understand that I am not feeling sorry for myself... there is a problem... isn't there?

    DUDE, there is a problem and don't let any human being legislate your life like that. if u divorce her, can she legally take u to the cleaners...look all that stuff up and ask a lawyer. She is using guilt, obligation and fear to keep u in the marriage. don't bother with her at ALL. u find out HOW to lay your ducks. then u come at her and let her rant all she wants and calmly say, i'm sorry u feel that way...but dis is how we are going to handle this. if u continue to stay then leave, u will be such a mess for a nice woman...that she will probably have no choice but to dump u due to this baggage.

  • Comment Link RJ Monday, 21 October 2013 13:57 posted by RJ

    I have been married for 9 years now and for the past few years we have been fighting off and on. There was a point at our 5 year mark that I stated maybe it would be best if we separated. He broke down mentally and I forgave him for the stuff we had went through. For he accused me of cheating on a regular basis and he was and still is a stay at home dad. I worked many hours to help support the family and I went to school to receive my MBA and yet he still gets onto me about only caring about work and school, not him. There are good days and bad days but lately I do not even want to come home but I do because I love my children and could not live without them. I have four children, 8,7, 2, and 1. My oldest two always talk to me about if I am okay after they have seen me cry and ask if they can all live with me when I leave. This hurt me the most because when my 8 year old can see that I want to leave he should not see that. I cry and am agitated more than I ever have. I do not enjoy the intimate time anymore and he says that I am not the same as when we first started dating. I understand that being a stay at home father is difficult but two of the children are in school through the week and when I ask for the house to be clean it turns into a fight on how difficult it is to do it with the children. When I am home and he goes out or wants to rest in the bedroom without the kids I can clean the house top to bottom with the help of my oldest two without hesitation. And if I am unable to complete one task such as vacuuming or couple loads of laundry he turns it into a fight as to why couldn't I have finished everything. I work more than 40 hours a week and I just graduated with my MBA. I take time out to play with my children and help them with their homework every night yet I am still neglecting him because I am not intimate every night or multiple times a night. Every fight breaks down to what I haven't been doing and what I have done wrong. I will usually just apologize to end the fight so that the children do not see their mother constantly crying. I have tried for the past 2-3 years to work on becoming more intimate but even when we are it is like the spark is not there anymore for I do not even want to kiss him anymore. He does not physically abuse me but I feel that there is mental abuse with the way he speaks to me on a day to day basis. I know if it was not for the children I would have already left. I just know that if I bring up divorce and it happens I am afraid of his reactions because he already says that if we separate he does not know what he would do for I am the best thing that has happened to him. This is said only when we have fought for days and he can see it in my eyes that I am done. Please any advice would be great as to if I should just continue for my children or if it would be best if I continued the filing for divorce.

  • Comment Link Ron Monday, 21 October 2013 00:23 posted by Ron

    This is posted to Fil, Your story is identical to mine, to a tee. I am to living the life you are dealing with and I hate it. It takes control of you when you wake up until you go to sleep. You and I have with this because we have kids. But I am on the verge of saying f@ck that and live for me. Because the kids are young they may get over it, they have time to but our time is running out.

  • Comment Link Kim Wednesday, 09 October 2013 22:50 posted by Kim

    Dear fil,

    I'm am so so sorry your wife has abandoned you even though a divorce is also paperwork it sounds like she's divorced you in her heart. It's unhealthy for you to stay and be depressed your children are very much aware I guarantee that. Stand up for yourself get out you don't deserve this. Do u want your boys to have this example of you? Live close so the boys can walk between you and your wife's house get %50 custody. She is no longer your responsibility. She left you.

  • Comment Link Carly Wednesday, 09 October 2013 03:13 posted by Carly

    I've been married for almost 2 years. We got married because I got pregnant with my son. I enjoyed spending time with him when we were dating but I never really saw it going anywhere. But then I got pregnant and he comes from a very religious family that really put the pressure on for us to get married. He's a good guy and a wonderful father but I just don't feel anything. I never want to have sex with him and everything he does is really starting to annoy me. I've become mean and easily aggitated. I'm not normally that way. I hate what I've turned in to. I don't want to hurt him but I don't feel anything when we're together. Another problem is if we split up, I would have to live with my parents temporarily to get back on my feet and they live two states away. I don't want to separate my husband and my son but I can't take care of us on my own just yet. I just don't know what to do.

  • Comment Link Maria Tuesday, 01 October 2013 12:58 posted by Maria

    I don't know if I should walk or stay I only been marry for 6 months and so far all we do is argue over lil stupid things and I'm also not happy that is been 4 months and he does not have a job so I have been busting my butt to take care of us and we lost are apartment and have been staying with a family member I have told him to please help get a job but he does not even try I have went out look for places hiring got him many options but he just won't get a job he stays at home all day sleeping or playing video games and we don't talk anymore I come home from work and he is to into his video games or sleeping and if I try talk to him when he is in the middle of his games he gets mad or if I wake him up he gets mad he just does not give me any time we have sex maybe once a month and every time I'm the one that has to make the 1st move it drives me crazy because it makes me think he does not want me he tells everyone he loves me he tells me he is happy with me and that he loves me but sometimes he does not show it when I try talk to him about getting a job or doing some he gets so mad ends in a fight tells me all I care about is money that I don't respect him has men and on.. Last week we had are worst fight ever he use every cruise word in the book talk to me soo bad push me around he so abusive I was so scare and had never seen him like that I really don't know what to do I need help

  • Comment Link ddesperate Thursday, 19 September 2013 23:44 posted by ddesperate

    HELP!! My husband of 4 months treats me and my mom horrible!! He is emotionally and mentally abusive and always giving orders then wonders why i don't speak to him much.

  • Comment Link Marie Tuesday, 17 September 2013 18:31 posted by Marie

    I'm currently 16 weeks pregnant with our 3rd child and he is still cheating. He is all the time on the Internet talking with the same trashy girl, asking for her to send pictures. Then replies he would be all over her if she was there with him. I can't take this anymore. I have tried for over 8 years and nothing is changing. I'm tired of competing for his love. I'm his wife I shouldn't feel second to him. It's hard being pregnant and having two small children to just go and file for divorce, but I have no reasons to want to continue to stay in this unhealthy relationship.

  • Comment Link Fil Thursday, 05 September 2013 08:51 posted by Fil

    I know this site is aimed at women but I came accross it looking for help and maybe someone can.

    For five years I have been sleeping in the spare bedroom. My wife says she is not attracted to me anymore and she didn't know if her feelings for me would return. So for now, "please sleep in the spare room". I did so, I would do anything for her, but obviously I was mortified hearing that statement. This was five years ago. I soon noticed that she wouldn't look at me when we spoke...she would look at the floor or elsewhere. She never acknowledged me when I came home from work or when she went to bed. She just went up.
    I easily got under her skin with anything I did. I would like to note that I am a very houseproud husband and considerate husband ( least I think I am) And I always clean up after myself.
    I know after a period of time the "fire" douses a little and you or the other half or both of you do not feel like you did in the first year of marriage but this seems pretty extreme to me.

    Last year I got so depressed living what I considered to be a lie (everyone thinks we are happily married, and they still do) that I decided I couldn't take it anymore and told my wife that I wanted to leave. It was a big decision as I have two boys (9 and 13)
    I was confronted with a whole bunch of accusations of being selfish and abandoning my responsibilities. So now I'm the cause of the bust up? How dare I split on my two boys. She refuses to talk about our marriage and just says that I should stop feeling sorry for myself.
    We have been married now for fifteen years. The last five I have lived in "solitary".
    I haven't left yet.....I can't leave my boys. I just can't. My wife also said that if I did she would "take me to the cleaners". I feel I am stuck and just have to smile, man up and put up with it. At least until my boys are old enough. I'm not as depressed now. I have learned to live with it and lead a life as happy as can be... under the circumstances. I am pleasant to my wife and we do not argue about our problems. I have given up trying. Just that we live pretty much separate lives under the same roof. I feel like I am just there as a father to my boys and to pay the bills.
    I do still feel that after fifteen years there must be something right or we wouldn't have lasted this long and I do have feelings for her. Like I am holding on to hope that one day she'll change. I want to love somebody and care for them but it hard when that person clearly doesn't want it.
    And notice I haven't mentioned anyting about making love. I'm talking about the kind of love much much deepr than that.
    I do feel maybe that if she suddenly changed that I may not be able to give her that kind of love anymore as it has gone on so long now.
    The very least I would like is for a chance to sit down with my wife and at least talk. Talk about why she feels the way she does....what does she want from me...does she still want me. Maybe she can't explain it but at least try. And me to get her to understand that I am not feeling sorry for myself... there is a problem... isn't there?

  • Comment Link GiGi Friday, 30 August 2013 19:20 posted by GiGi

    I have been married 36 years. I'm not sure if it was true love that prompted me to marry initially, or just needing that sense of security. The marriage has been rocky at times, with me leaving him at 2 different times but always going back because that was what everyone else thought I should do. I have basically lived my entire life trying to please everybody but me!!
    He is a good man and a good provider for his family. He doesn't drink or run at home every night.
    The problem here is me. I can truly say that I don't love my husband as a wife should. I don't really even want to be in the same room with him and the thought of him actually touching me makes me nauseous. We haven't slept in the same bed, not even the same room, for months.
    I want to leave and have been contemplating divorce for months now. The only thing that is holding me back is the thoughts of the pain and hurt it will cause everybody else. We have to grown children that have their own lives and both sets of our parents are still living. I really can't see myself in this life for the next 20+ years, but how to I escape with the least amount of hurt and guilty?
    how do I tell this man that I am leaving??

  • Comment Link ME Thursday, 29 August 2013 04:03 posted by ME

    I cannot decide if I should leave my husband or not. We have been together about 6 years, and it began as an amazing, whirlwind love affair. While he has many good qualities, so many things have happened in the relationship that I have a lot of hurt and resentment. I have had to drag this man every step of the way through the normal progressions of a relationship, mainly because his horribly spoiled, manipulative daughter dictates what happens in our relationship...He could not make a commitment to me, because of what she might think. He couldn't marry me because he was afraid what she might think. We can't have children, because she just may not like that...she is 17. She is a horrible spoiled brat, is extrememly demanding with an enormous sense of entitlement, and punishes him by refusing to see or talk to him and having juvenile tantrums if she does not get exactly what she wants. She has never, ever had to follow rules in our home, even though she lived here almost half-time, no one has EVER said "no" to this girl...she has been drinking at home in the open, since she was 13. She has had her belly button pierced since she was 15. Her adult boyfriend has been sleeping at her house since she was 16. My husband has been giving nearly every penny he makes to that family, and was very incensed when I finally demanded that he contribute to ours. He lived with me an entire year, had his laundry done (by me), ate all meals at my home, etc. and never contributed a penny. I finally put an end to that, and he would very begrudgingly give me money toward the bills, very unreliably and unhappily. He continued to give thousands a month to "the other family", and even after a two-year court battle for divorce (oh yeah, he never told me he was still legally married...I had to leave him to find that out), he continued to pay for everything for his daughter (school clothes, luxury vacations, expensive electronics, etc) even though he pays an enormous amount for child & SPOUSAL support (for a woman that has a full-time career and an under-the-table business on the side). The daughter continued to cause trouble in our home, so I finally had an all-out blow-out on the front lawn (after many years of putting up with it) and she no longer comes to my home (Amen). During our relationship, my husband completely neglected me, helped with nothing in the home (even though I worked 2 full-time jobs and a part-time job and paid all or nearly all of the expenses), basically ignored me, withheld sex, was rude, gave me the regular silent treatment, etc. I was so nice to him, catered to him, was an awesome wife, and got nothing in return...he was completely emotionally absent and I was clearly NOT a priority. When his daughter was around, however, I was expected to be the maid, chef, entertainer, planner, comedian, etc., and he would ignore me and treat me horribly, yet as soon as she would come in the room, or if he went to her room, he was ecstatic and happy, laughing, talking, joking, tickling, etc. The relationship was more like (per a counselor I finally went to) she was "the other woman", not the daughter. There was no sexual component, but SHE was like his woman or mistress, treated so wonderfully, doted on, spoiled, etc...I was like to used floor mat. On my COLLEGE GRADUATION night, there was 1 1/2 after the ceremony that we had left to celebrate, go to dinner, etc before we had to start driving to return home (3-hour drive) to return the rental car. He had the option of "changing his daughter's spark plugs" (on a car that ran fine, yet didn't pass emissions, and was already past the date that a late fee would be imposed), or take us to dinner to celebrate my very hard-worked-for Bachelor's degree...he chose the spark plugs, of course. I was so hurt. I was particularly hurt because the daughter said that the title transfer was delayed and there we extra fees that her mom would have to pay because the car did not pass emissions, which she was already being charged (my husband and I, of course, bought the car)...Months later, when the daughter was at my house, she said "Oh, Dad, I brought the paperwork over for you to pay for the title transfer". I couldn't believe it!!! Not only did I get completely dogged on my college graduation night over a set of spark plugs (I know this might sound petty, but it is a cumulative effect of being no priority for many years), but she didn't even transfer the title which is why she insisted the spark plugs be changed (because the title had to be transferred "RIGHT AWAY", which was months before, and she didn't do it), and now we were also getting stuck with the title transfer fees, late fees, and my husband never acknowledged my college graduation! I will never, ever forgive him for that.
    So...I left, never, ever wanted to return, and of course he sobbed, etc. I went back, having nowhere else set up to go to, plus he was leaving for an extended amount of time which would give me some time to decide what I wanted to do. He went to counseling with me (that didn't go well), and then alone, it was determined that he was highly passive-aggressive, and he read some books on the subject matter quite dedicatedly. He slowly relapsed into his old self (which I believe everyone eventually does, because I wholeheartedly do not think change is possible, or if so, only over very extended periods of time with intense circumstances), and then he became wonderful for about 6 weeks or so.
    He has since left on a deployment, and will be gone 6 months total...Since things were so amazing prior to his departure (I think he thinks I could very well be gone when he returns), I decided to think very carefully about what to do. I have panic attacks daily thinking about what it will/may turn out to be like when he returns including his daughter (I stopped the extra spending on her by him, but I don't know how he will handle that long-term, and I am absolutely no longer willing to contribute to her, by us, ever again due to her financial demands, etc that have not been fully explained here), as well as his "behaviors" that I am afraid will return. I do love him, but not as before, and am afraid that I may be missing a prime opportunity to leave while he is gone. I just don't know what to do. He has made enormous strides, it seems, but I just don't trust him in the way that I strongly believe he will not resume his behaviors (making me NOT a priority, yelling and slamming things, sneaking money to his daughter, withholding sex again, withdrawing, etc). I just don't know what to do. He also has anxiety every single time we go anywhere (movies, vacations, etc), yelled at me, slammed the door on the cruise ship so hard it broke something of mine to smitherines, and treated me poorly on our HONEYMOON!!! I, now, cannot get through a day without panic attacks (this is something new for me), and am terrified by it. I am also very depressed, and live in a horrible place because he is stationed here...I am at times, not wanting to continue my life, but have to because I still have a school-aged child at home and love him very much. I don't know what to do. I feel as though my husband has put forth an honest effort to "protect & honor" (his words) our marriage, and to make me a priority...I think he may be just trying to make it seem like I am a priority, but I think that he still dotes (in a very abnormal and weird way) over his daughter...I do not believe there is anything sexually inappropriate in their relationship, but she is the one that rules his life, and he allows it. Because of that, my life has been severely affected. She most recently did not like car that we bought her (she wanted a brand new one at 16, even though my husbands car is 13 years old and falling apart), and because she didn't get a new one (8 weeks after we bought her the first one that she demanded immediately), she won't hardly talk to my husband anymore. Maybe he is realizing that her "love" is extremely "conditional", and that mine has been wholeheartedly unconditional...but I just don't trust that things will stay OK. I have so little to go on, and things were only good for a few weeks prior to his deployment, so who knows what they will be like when he returns. I just don't feel close to him, I don't trust him or his intentions. I don't trust that he can control his behaviors, or keep me a priority. I would like to buy a house, but am terrified to become even more financially intertwined with him. He has been wonderful with my son, for the most part, and has raised him for years, they are very close. But he will make strong demands of my son (constant chores, etc, which I don't mind chores, but what he does is unreasonable, or he makes my son answer me in a very formal way, etc), and his daughter never, ever does anything to help...he will give my son constant orders to do things around the house while his rotten daughter sits there and does nothing...he would never, ever tell her to help, ever. He asked her to set the table once, and make her bed once, and that is all she has ever been asked to do in 5 years at our home. He only did that because I complained, and she made a HUGE deal about it.
    I don't know what to do. Right now things are so incredibly romantic, etc, because he is gone, and again, I think he believes I very well may not be here when he returns, as he keeps mentioning. I don't know if I should cut my losses, and run, or stay and give him a chance and see how his "progress" plays out. I just don't know what to do.

  • Comment Link Columba Lisa Smith Monday, 19 August 2013 23:08 posted by Columba Lisa Smith

    Disagree. The above symptoms are reasons for counseling, not divorce. Doesn't commitment mean anything any more? Divorce is great if your spouse is constantly unfaithful or abusive. If you feel trapped or unhappy or whatever, but your husband is present and trying, you don't realize what a blessing you have. I wrote about this just today. Please don't put your kids through a divorce if you can help it!

  • Comment Link Lynn Tuesday, 13 August 2013 04:44 posted by Lynn

    I want to clarify when things were good between is they were great and my hubbys been clean from heroin since 1998.

  • Comment Link Lynn Tuesday, 13 August 2013 04:34 posted by Lynn

    I married a man 17 years older than me who I was not initially interested in but after asking me out I agreed and quickly fell hard for him.

    After a few months of dating we got a house together buy he was a recovering heroin addict and soon had relapsed. After getting back on track we married and shortly after he relapsed again, resulting in him going to prison.

    While in prison, the mother of his children and him were going to court because child protective services had taken their kids just a month prior to him going to prison due to the mother being arrested while the kids were with her. Ultimately him being locked up and the mother not complying caused the kids to be taken away, parental rights taken away and the kids are gone.

    When my hubby got out he felt bad but I got some blame for the kid situation because I am the one who reported her to human services because each month he paid child support yet the kids would come to our homeand tell us stories of being homeless, mom doing drugs and it angered me. They were eventually picked up at a homeless shelter and my hubby felt I dhouldnt have done what I did.

    After 8 years together as husband and wife we had our first child together. After giving birth I struggled like most women with intamacy. I stayed home with my baby and went through some postpartum depression. After 4 years we had a sin together. Things were going well and I was blessed to be home with my kids and raise them while my husband supported us.

    Eventually with both kids in school I got a part time job and we were doing well. Going to church, being happy and productive. Then a few years ago my husband lost his job. He's had rheumatoid arthritis sinnve 1998 and it got worse which was affecting his work performance. He went on unemployment while looking for work. During this time and prior to losing his job he was having severe challenges with his health and eventually was diagnosed with hepatitis and fibromyalgia. I was terrified of the hepatitis but in sickness and in health, I remain. Eventually his Dr. had continued to advise him to go on disability as he also has deformation in his hands and feet. So began the long process.

    Since I was working I was able to pay the rent, public service, car note and insurance as well as everything else, but it was hell. Getting up each day cold or hot and now being 100% responsible for supporting my family. I didn't make enough to meet all the monthly expenses so I was stressed most days trying to figure things out on breaks and lunch and he seems like he's just gotten so careless about those things. I'd call him on break and he'd be sleeping or I'd get no answer and I'd get so angry. I felt like everything was up to me. The come home to a messy house, nothing taken out for me to cook (I had to bring home the bacon and fry it up in the pan) so we would argue about money, housework, work, bills, sex. After my long day he expected to be pleasures as well, keeping me up all hours of the night.

    Finally disability was approved and he got a large sum of back pay which took a huge weight off our backs. Weyook a nice vacation, he got me a car and jewelry and now he's getting his monthly check and I'm home trying to get my business I decided yo do off the ground, which is Multi level marketing, so it requires me to text, email, post on facebook, check my business page so he seems very jealous but fails to realize if I was at a separate location, I'd be doing the same for an employer he just wouldn't see me so it wouldn't bother him.

    We just cam see eye to eye on anything. The big lump sum of money has finally dwindled and we are a bit stressed living month to month on just under $2000 a month. My business is going slow but I've only been at it 2 months, just feel like I can't focus like I want because since I'm home, he expects my time all the time.

    He talks dirty to me constantly which annoys me. Does not take me our/cort me and doesn't care about his appearance. I'm 40 and he is 58 now and we just have nothing but our kids in common. I have needs yet he won't meet them then we end up in huge blowout arguments because he feels deprived of my sex yet I'm more deprived than he can ever imagine. When we do get intimate he has erectile issues due to the medications he's on so he wants to do other things to me that just don't interest me and down right gross me out.

    He always apologizes after a blow up and promises with his heart, tears and all that I'm right and he will start doing things for me to make me happy, then back to the norm, nothin happens. We've gone to counseling and he was given three things to work on. 1. Hug n kiss me with no sexual expectations. 2. Take me out regularly on dates. 3. Have devotion with the family, as we are trying to raise our kids in church. None of these things have happened once and its been a year since counseling.

    Today I feel like I'm married to an old grumpy man who does nothing to keep me. He slleps till moon everyday and is in bed at sunset. He does nothing to attract me to him and I'm not being conceited but I'm attractive and a lot of guys my age and younger give me a lot of compliments, including an ex I ran into a few weeks ago so it bothers me. Here I go out of my way to look "hot" for my mand but I still get nothing. He loves my sex andbegs for it constantly nut I'm not giving in. It's a two way street and he's shown me he thinks its one way so I'm over it.

    I stay cause of the kids and his promises but honestly, after 20 years together I'm so done. Not attracted to him physically, emotimally or any other way. He's just family to me and I hate how healed me feel. He's become insensitive and so cold toward me in the past year or two. He would take me to work when I was working and we would argue to and from the job and he would sometimes drop me off in such emotional turmoil I would have anxiety attacks while there. Started finding myself sharing with others cause it affected my demeanor and people would see me crying. He just angers me and I don't feel anything for him anymore. He's pretty much pushed me away over time.

  • Comment Link Diane Monday, 12 August 2013 06:13 posted by Diane

    I have been married for 12 years and can identify with some many things people have said here.

    5 years ago, when my youngest was 2 and the dust had somewhat settled with all the focus being on raising my children for many years, I realized I didn't love my husband anymore. When we met at our corporate gym in 1997 I had absolutely no interest in him, no physical attraction at all. I saw him as unattractive and a bother. He was extremely persistent and after 3 months I finally agreed to a date, just as friends. After that we became very good friends, he was a great guy, we had things in common and had fun together.

    I don't think I've ever loved him romantically and may well have confused our close friendship with a romantic love. Once we started dating things went quickly, we moved in together for awhile, then got engaged, planned our wedding, and 8 months after our wedding (I was 34 at the time) I was pregnant. We now have two girls, ages 7 and 10. I am almost 47 years old now.

    I've been a stay at home mom for the past 10 years and am just finally going to start a part time job. I've tried for 5 years to love my husband but I can't. The feelings just aren't there anymore. And even though he's lost 35 lbs. and looking great, it doesn't change my feelings.

    I used to be a very independent person but now am so dependent on him. I feel having children changed things and he is a different person than who I met all those years ago. I've lost respect for him and don't like him much anymore. I don't enjoy kissing him and have no desire to be intimate with him.

    I stay because I'm not financially able to leave and more importantly because of my children. Family is so important to me but I feel so lonely and life is too short to feel like this all the time.

    And to make matters worse, 2 years into my discovering how I felt about my husband I began an affair with a friend I've known since high school who has always been crazy about me. We never dated then but were always close friends. We have a strong physical attraction and chemistry I've never experienced. We love each other. I adore him. He's sweet, kind, gentle, and generous. He is divorced and has no children. He also happens to live in the same city I do. This has continued between us for close to 3 years now.

    I've tried therapy to sort out my feelings and what I should do but it didn't help. I've also tried not to see him but that never worked. I can't help how I feel about him. I've never felt so deeply about someone nor so connected. Being with him always feels so right. My heart belongs to him and no matter how much time goes by before we can see each other again, our feelings never change.

    I fully believe my husband is not my life partner and that I am going through life day by day struggling and staying so that my children can have a stable and good life but I am very unhappy.

    I am blessed, have a nice home, haven't worked all these years, have everything I need except a husband that I love. Money can't buy happiness and that is so true.

    I don't know what to's a daily struggle.

  • Comment Link des Friday, 09 August 2013 22:53 posted by des

    I have been married a little over 6 years and honestly its been nothing but fighting an arguing I can't even remember a time when we don't we always have and when we aren't arguing its one because he is at work or I am at work or sleeping in the other room I have told him I am not happy but he just thinks I have another man I do not have anyone else I am just not happy.
    About two years ago he cheated on me with another woman for almost 6 months till I found out and I left him for a little over 5 months in that time I did not have intercourse with anyone nor did I have the desire I got a job and worried about my kids and bills I had fun with out my husband then the next thing I know I ask for a divorce and oh I love you and want to be with you and I will change for us our kids and you know what we have been together since and nothing as really changed he still down grades me and mentally abuses me no not in front of the kids but he does it for the past three weeks I have been sleeping on the couch and not once has he asked m if I was okay or what was wrong he just comes in eats dinner and goes to bed not a single word, I told him about three or four days ago that I was not in love with him but I love him for our kids and I care about him but I don't think we should be together he said I wasn't going anywhere that he loves me and I just need to stop but I can't keep living like this he just doesn' t get it I can not fight for his love anymore than I already have I gave him my all and now that I am ready to leave I can't I feel stuck should I give it more time or how should I approach this, I also feel like he is cheating on me again I just don't have proof.

  • Comment Link May D Thursday, 08 August 2013 20:56 posted by May D

    Been married for 31 yrs, but for the last 5 years i've been feeling angry and resentment towards my husband, can't stand having sex with him and looking at him. He complains every little things, Is this normal?
    What should I do? I dont know how to be alone and have a different lifstyle. I'm not strong enough to let go.

  • Comment Link Krys Monday, 29 July 2013 00:30 posted by Krys

    Satan is working overtime and suceeding greatly in so many marriages. I have been married 2.5 years and have been miserable for majority of our days together. I found out he was talking online to women online soon after I got pregnant. Craigslist is disgusting! I feel like I have been the only one trying to fix this but I am so sick of it. He never wants sex and he is so selfish. He claims to be a christian but I feel like a woman talked about in 2 Timothy 3. Like I was weak and married a deceiver. There is a great program from Dr. Tony Evans out there that explains the role of husbands and wives. It boils doen to men do not know how to be men anymore. I tried to get my husband to listen to it with but he is too defensive and tells me the info is wrong. It is so right and the reason so much divorce is happening today. For anyone interested it is called Kingdom Family and yoy can watch the messages on youtube. There are tons of different ones. If nothing else, it will let you know that you are not crazy even if you have been brought to taking antidepresssants like me. Blessing to all the women out there in similar situations. God is still good no matter what is going on personally.

  • Comment Link erica Thursday, 04 July 2013 05:14 posted by erica

    I've been married for 10 years and he constantly lies to me and steals from work but im not sure if he's cheated yet but if I divorce now I dont think I can make it finacially on my oxown. I really want a divorce. Any suggestions

  • Comment Link Jessie Saturday, 29 June 2013 21:06 posted by Jessie

    Lots of these responses feel like my own. Except, I have been married for 7 years, but our marriage has never even been consummated. We have done some sexual stuff but not actual intercourse. Even that other stuff is few and far between. At this point at the tune of almost 2 years which now is fine with me. The idea of touching him repulses me. Besides lack of sex he refuses to ever talk to me about anything personal or intimate (not just sexual but hopes, dreams, beliefs). I used to talk all the time but have grown tired of not being heard. So I've been silent for almost a year and a half. He barely notices. We live as roommates who share a bed. He won't make decisions and doesn't know how to care for himself. For the most part I'm mommy to him. I am so distraught because I know the repercussions of divorce and I'm a Christian and I feel like everyone will judge me and make me feel like I didn't try. I know I am not perfect but he would never address to me things I could improve on or work on. I feel like a terrible person for leaning towards divorce but I am miserable.

  • Comment Link angelam77 Friday, 21 June 2013 22:33 posted by angelam77

    I have been married for 12 years now. We have 4 children together (10, 7, 4 & 2), so I am very busy. I was a stay-at-home Mom for 10 yrs. My husband always stated he supported me in whatever I'd like to do. However, now that I have recently found a passion for something (fitness) and decided to start to work part-time again- he may say those words- but his actions speak different. We have been in a love-less marriage for I'd say the past 5 years. It is crazy busy with 4 little kids and because of them I am torn as to what to do. No-one has cheated, no-one is abusive; no issues of those sorts - there is just nothing there. I feel stuck/trapped and it feels hopeless. I feel sad for my children & lost. On weekends he takes the older children and does separate things with them- he will no longer do anything that includes myself - if I am taking the kids somewhere - he will exclude himself and make up some excuse to the kids. We are, I guess you could say, separated - living in the same house. I am exhausted and just feel completely done with the marriage. I have constant feelings of anger, resentment, and disgust for my husband - all attraction to him is lost.

  • Comment Link Archangel Michael Friday, 07 June 2013 02:59 posted by Archangel Michael

    No one here realizes that it is actually the devil and his invisible forces that create suffering in family, country, the world and relationships because they feed off human negative emotions. Once you realize it - you stay calm and aware - and the devil will leave as he could not extract negative emotions from you anymore. Fell you heart with Love of God and forgiveness. Be the Love, shine your Light.

  • Comment Link Swagy laggy Wednesday, 05 June 2013 16:59 posted by Swagy laggy

    I got killed by my spouce and I cried for 10 years, now I am a fruit cake and I have over 300,000 dollars in my swag account. still I cant get over how much ashes I have swallowed....

  • Comment Link Lilz Wednesday, 29 May 2013 03:02 posted by Lilz

    I've been married now for three years (no children) and am miserable. My husband became a different man the day we married. I wish I had seen this side of him prior to our marriage.
    He's horrible with money, doesn't help around the house, lies and frequently joins chat rooms where he claims to be single. We've tried marriage counseling and for a short period he's the man I feel in love with. Most days I feel anger towards him and I honestly don't know why I'm still with him.

  • Comment Link amanda stewart Tuesday, 28 May 2013 12:34 posted by amanda stewart

    Having kids makes the decision so difficult, otherwise I'd have gotten rid of him a long time ago. I disagree with "allowing" others to hurt us. Someone does egregious things and how are we as feeling human beings supposed to feel? And with children involved yes you do allow the husband to keep hurting you because you are a feeling caring human being. I feel so trapped with a man who has issues with gluttony, narcissism, is a sociopath and more, but not wanting my childrens' home to broken and have them spend time with him one on one when he has custody. Voice of reason here people.

  • Comment Link Lex Monday, 27 May 2013 02:52 posted by Lex

    Unfortunately, I did this to myself. You know that little plan you have for yourself of getting married to a great guy and building a family together. I did marry an awesome man, but I knew that I wasn't completely attracted to him.
    I had been alone for so long and i did try to push him away but he was so freaking persistent. I had hoped that with time I would fall in love with him because of his personality.
    Like an idiot, its been 3 years now and I here I am in a marriage with a family perfectly blended. My parents love him, his parents love me and his adult children thank me for making him happy. I am the perfect little actress but I cant do this anymore.

    How do you break your best friends heart? I can stay and keep hoping that I will see him and fall in love but so much time has gone by and it hasn't happened.

  • Comment Link Deanna Sunday, 26 May 2013 03:24 posted by Deanna

    The worst part is when you realize you've grown apart and he sees nothing wrong. He doesn't contribute to conversations, or even really listen, he just tunes out. When you talk to him about it, he acts clueless like there's nothing wrong or makes excuses.

    It makes me wonder why I even bother talking to him at all. I'm still in this because I just don't want to deal with the repercussions of divorce. I don't feel like making any effort anymore though. I've been doing that for way too long without any reciprocation. He's just forgotten that anyone else in the world exists but himself. He used to always put his family before his wife. Now he doesn't even care about them anymore. Birthday gifts are from me and I sign his name to the card.

    Not the same guy I married.

  • Comment Link Ashley Saturday, 04 May 2013 00:38 posted by Ashley

    This describes me and how I feel to a T :( but when I actually thing about leaving I get very sad and upset, we have kids together and I love him! All I want to do is hold on to what we have (had) but sooo much about us and him have changed I dont even feel like im with the same man he is that different :( its sooo hard I an like fighting myself on what I should do!

  • Comment Link What next Monday, 29 April 2013 13:19 posted by What next

    Wow... this article describes me.... feels like someone climbed in my head and stole my thoughts. I feel I can't go now that he has changed the behaviour that hurt me, and he's trying to be so nice and loving. Trouble is, it just makes me madder... if it was that easy, then why not do it years ago?

  • Comment Link Robin Wednesday, 24 April 2013 02:45 posted by Robin

    I cant afford to leave my husband but inwant to figure out a way. I am so unhappy withnhim. Ive been staying because we have 3 children. Ive done this for them for years. There has to be a happier place than where I am. Im very grateful to God for my beautiful and healthy children. I know things could be worse but I dont think Ive ever been happy with my husband. Will it always be like this?

  • Comment Link George Tuesday, 23 April 2013 03:05 posted by George

    So many stupid angry women here. Why doesn't someone step up and say it might be you. Or at least half you. Everyone who said get a divorce is perpetuating their own feelings and trying to justify the actions they know are wrong. If you feel too tired to try. Tough cookies. Keep trying. You made a commitment. If he hits you leave, if not figure out a way to make it better.

  • Comment Link guest Tuesday, 23 April 2013 01:29 posted by guest

    When is enough enough i stayed in this verbal abusive relationship for 24 years and my stupid excuse was for the children now my son is 21 years old my daughter 18 and my youngest 12 loosing our house and filing for banckrupcy my dreams were shaterd he could have sold a summer home that we purchesed together after struggling for 2 years i mind you I was able to find a home that was literally distroyed i would say together we fixed it but i managed to do everything what i see is that there is no appretiation let alone respect and communication i have always been the one at falt but these bast few months have done it for me and i promised to my self that i would never allow any harm to my kidds and i have put a poisiones person in there lives my heart broke when my eldest soon made me feel like his father now out of the blue he is deciding to sell the home with out letting me know . will do i have a surprise after he promised the kids my part because i would only waste the money this was the straw that broke my back I was not put on this earth to make anyone happy if i dont allow my self then im done if my kids hate me o well God give me strenght

  • Comment Link  lady m Friday, 19 April 2013 16:04 posted by lady m

    Omg women! Lets go! Why must we waste our precious time fighting these losing battles! Lets leave these men. There is a better life waiting for us our there where we smile and be as free as we want. I just told my boyfriend of 3 yrs to move out n I'm sticking to my guns! I work fill time, pay rent and all the bills including his cell phone that he just sits on fb and Craigslist all day. Craiglist is his way of finding a job by the way so pathetic. He expects me to feed cloth wash and have sex with him. I'm not his mom/woman. I refuse to be used any longer. He doesnt clean while hes on the house all day every day, he waits for me to clean it. Hes disrespectful and I'm kicking his ass out. You all should do it too or move out yourselfs. You may jot be able to afford it bur ask to move on with a sister or friend until your stable again. Its a process that's so worth it! Ask God for guidance :)

  • Comment Link Rachel Friday, 12 April 2013 01:11 posted by Rachel

    I say if you want a divorce then get one. Be smart. There is no shame in getting a divorce. There is a time for everything and there is a time to get a divorce. SAY THANK YOU GOD for everything i have learned from this marriage and ask God to help you plan your transition out of the marriage and ask God to help you OUT of the marriage safely and thankfully.

  • Comment Link Guest Monday, 08 April 2013 21:02 posted by Guest

    My husband and I have lived as "housemates" for last almost 2 year. We have 2 kids but live in separate rooms. I have so much resentment built up that I don't want to be with him. He tries to do things around house and to fix it but I just think its too late for me. I shudder when he comes near me, get disgusted with things he says or does. One of our children is a diabetic and has special needs to consider so I had to stop working to take care of her so I can't afford to leave but am so unhappy I don't know what to do.

  • Comment Link Guest Sunday, 07 April 2013 17:19 posted by Guest

    My husband and I have been married just over a year and I feel like we're headed for separation or divorce!!
    A little back ground: before we were married he had another girl pregnant. I never wanted to be a step-parent or be part of a "mixed family" so I immediately told him we could not get married or stay together. I missed him so much he was the most perfect person in my eyes so shortly after we got back together and got married. Then his son was born. I love the baby to death just like he was my own, but I feel like I resent him (my husband) for putting us in this situation.
    So these are our problems:
    His family does not like me AT ALL! His mother openly says nasty things about me and spreads hatred towards me throughout his family.
    His family calls all the time to check on the baby which is fine but they always offer to buy him things for his mothers house which I feel is inappropriate! We have him 90% of the time and somehow still pay child support to her. I feel as though they (husbands family) should be more concerned with him when he is at our house.
    In addition: my husband came home from deployment in September and in December he was done with his military service(i am still active duty military) his pay took a dramatic cut(half of what he was making) and he began to stay at home all day everyday and wasn't contributing much to anything until march! I constantly had to ask him to do simple things like take out the garbage and I was frustrated that he wasn't making any money and I was supporting us and his child along with doing everything at home i.e cooking cleaning. Durin that time our relationship began to fall. I stopped wanting to have sex with him because he gained almost 50lbs!!!
    We haven't recovered since he started contributing more and I am not attracted to him anymore. I cannot have children and have been going through infertility treatment which I think adds towards the resentment for him having a child by another woman. There are so many thing that have compiled and I don't know how to let them go I've become angry and bitter I talk nasty towards him and never give him love attention or sex. I know I'm wrong I just don't feel the same when we do have sex it's only bc I feel like I have to and I'm never too involved. I don't clean or cook anymore bc I'm just angry he doesn't help and I have back away from helping out too much or being to involved with his son. I know I'm wrong for all of these things but I just dot feel the same. What should I do??

  • Comment Link Guest Thursday, 04 April 2013 23:04 posted by Guest

    My husband was never all that into sex. I am 41 and we haven't had sex for at least 7 years. Even when we were first married, it was always the same way in the same amount a few minutes, and soon became a chore for him. I think he's gay, but doesn't want to admit it even to himself. We don't sleep in the same room. Haven't for years. I've always made excuses for it. The whole thing makes me feel unattractive and worthless. Like I gave my life to this man and made a mistake I will forever regret. He soesn't like to do anything and the only time I leave the house is for work. I can't afford to leave but think about it everyday for years. I hate being trapped. I feel weak and pathetic.

  • Comment Link Guest Monday, 18 March 2013 08:24 posted by Guest

    Our anniversary is approaching, but it is nothing I look forward to!

    My husband and I have a love-hate relationship. However is more of a quiet one who keeps to himself when I blow up!

    To our family and friends we are the perfect couple, but behind closed doors it is all bad.

    He bad mouth women with his friens - making disgusting jokes about their private parts, etc. And he is hooked on porn. I hate it and feels it suffocates a relationship.

    So eventially after years of fighting against it and broken trust, I decided that I will watch it with him with the hope that it will help our marriage and that he will stop betraying me.

    Just to find out he registered on a porn sight to receive pictures about women and suggested that I should have a threesome with him... Which just go to show that he only cares about sex!

    I am dissapointed in him! I will never trust him again, especially if I know he will be looking at other women seeing them as objects to have sex with... even if I am over reacting, he suggested a threesome, so I will always think that!

    He doesn't not respect me or my feelings. He has a tendancy to grap my breasts and / or other parts in public when no one is looking, or while we are driving in the car. Which makes me feel like an object and makes me wonder about his humanity towards me!

    He does not support me in anything I want to do... He always reasons that we don't have money or time to do it, or questions my ability!

    I know that divorce is the only option for a relationship where there is no trust or respect, but I am so scared to leave, it will all be so new to me.

    I am scared for our 5 year old son and what my family would think.

    I am scared about my financial future, I don't want to be dependant of anyone!!!

  • Comment Link Guest Sunday, 17 March 2013 01:18 posted by Guest

    @ Jason. My husband says he's still in love with me and willing to do whatever it takes to fix it. He let thing go for so long that I felt were important enought to bring up, that I feel it may not be able to be fixed. Feeling ignored for a long time, just kinda makes you numb to the love you once felt. I can't speak for your wife. But this is my situation. Ask her if she is willing to do counseling together, or even seperate.

  • Comment Link Guest Thursday, 14 March 2013 07:39 posted by Guest

    What about a man that was so in love whith his wife and still is ive owned to my mistakes and doin my damndest to fix it in any wah i can but the wife dlnt belive me and granted i have made alot of screw ups but she wont let me show her that and this is how i feel she dont understand she is my world and always will be my one and only plz i need help i dont know what to do

  • Comment Link Guest Saturday, 09 March 2013 06:30 posted by Guest

    The article describes my relationship perfectly. My husband was laid off from his job in 2010. Immediately, I started looking for work, even though I hadn't worked in nearly 8 years to stay home with our children. He was supposed to be applying as well. I found a job, so our roles switched for 2 years. I enjoyed going back to work, but my income wasn't enough for us to live on. In 2 years, he said he couldn't find a job in our area. So, in March of 2012, he went across the state and found a job (if he'd only put in the effort in our own town.)
    So, he moved in April and me and the kids left in June when school was out. We moved to an area where we knew no one. My husband got his friend a job with him, so he knew someone plus he had a job to go to.
    As for me, I feel I gave up so much to keep our family together. Family, friends and a job I really enjoyed. Yes, I resent him. I tried really hard not to.
    We have been married for 13 years. We don't have much of a sex life either. For me, I need intimacy, I need affection. He just needs sex. I don't feel like it.
    I have tried on numerous occassions to talk to him about these issues. He asks like he's listening, but nothing changes.
    I even, last week, wrote everything down so he could read it and we wouldn't fight over it. He talked about a couple issues, but didn't really talk about anything. And still, nothing has changed. He won't even bring it up.
    I am ready to be out of this relationship. I have given all I can and am not getting what I need in return. I feel we are past the point that counseling will help. I just don't know how to say its over.

  • Comment Link Guest Tuesday, 05 March 2013 00:36 posted by Guest

    My husband lost his job and sat on the couch for two years while I supported us. Says he was looking for work, but never any calls back. Hum...maybe thats because he was playing on facebook or surfing the web. I went to another state for two months to help my son who was going thru a divorce. While I was gone my husband accepted a job in another state. He told my other son he didn't care what I did, he was moving. My husband told me he was moving and had no choice. Oh, I forgot to mention I went on disability because of my arthritis and fibromyalgia. That only nets me 1k a month. He sends me $400.00 a month to eat. HA! HE told me that it was better that he moved so we could start working on our relationship. What a bunch of BS that was. The calls from him are down to once a month and he has not been home for 3 months now. the communication is less and less. He lies, he is lazy and, well, I am tired of not having anyone around and his words fell on deaf ears. He knows I cannot file for divorce because I don't have the money. I am lonely and hurt and feel betrayed. But, he knows I need the $400.00 to eat on. I feel trapped and I don't even know him anymore. I am trying to decide what to do. He said he is really happy where he is and that our relationship is better. I disagree, I want to move on so the pain will stop. I feel in limbo right now. Oh, did I mention I have been married to this man for 6 years and the last 5 years there has been NO intimacy at all. He said he just doesn't feel like it. Counseling is out, according to him. There is NO communication. Any suggestions? I am 63 years old and want to enjoy my 3rd act in life.

  • Comment Link Guest Friday, 01 March 2013 16:49 posted by Guest

    This isn't exclusive to wives. Frankly, most husbands are just not getting their needs met by marriage, either. In my case, as the husband, I've made significant sacrifices in my career, sex, day to day lifestyle, and social life to be with my wife. She's made sacrifices, as well. However, the difference is that she's happy in the marriage, it's giving her something that she needs and makes her feel fulfilled. I am getting no such thing; instead, I've been stifling one drive or desire after another until there's nothing left to keep me going except complete codependence, which is a very bleak existence compared to when I was single and totally in charge of my own life.

  • Comment Link Guest Tuesday, 26 February 2013 07:33 posted by Guest

    It is very lonely. Thank you for listening.: It is very lonely. I analyze when things changed all the time. When I look back I see that I was usually the initiator and I think that was my way of trying to be the "good wife". I didn't want to be the stereotypical woman who just did it to do it or had a headache when he came home. Eventually he just started turning his head to me. He was the one with the headache or was tired. I was feeling majorly rejected. I asked myself, is he gay. I honestly have no idea. I know he does not like women in general, his relationship with his mother is sad at best. He is always putting women down behind there backs. Like if we have a cute waitress, he would say something about something about her...ALWAYS. Women are never good enough. I guess I was good enough to bear and raise his children but that is about it. I don't know when he would have time for an outside relationship, honestly. If he is not at work his is generally home or at the gym. I am not so naive to think that I am not naive. I am the last one in the room to know that someone is not who I thought they were. I just think he is a sad soul who can not connect with women on an intimate level. I took me 15 years to realize there is nothing I can do to change him. Now it is just how do I take the next step.

  • Comment Link Guest Tuesday, 26 February 2013 07:13 posted by Guest

    It is good to hear support: It is good to hear support from a guy because I don't know if this is normal man stuff. I am guessing no but your comments assure me that this is not normal.

  • Comment Link Guest Monday, 25 February 2013 16:48 posted by Guest

    Sorry is it even a real word?: I have been married for 4 years, been together for 6. You know what? I am tired! I am tired of the drinking, I am tired of the name-calling and I am tired of the word SORRY! I am no saint, but when a man has been putting you through the same cycle your entire relationship of 3 good months and then a horrific event (and when I say horrific, I mean spitting in your face screaming at the top of his lungs, pushing and sometimes hitting you all because the whiskey is talking) how can you keep a marriage together???
    I have had enough today is February 25th, 2013. I am broke, I have no family in the United States, but I have hope and a need for self-preservation.
    I am 25 years old today, and I don't want to be thirty tomorrow and still be going throught the same cycle. The cycle has to be broken at some point or another. I don't want to be another divorce statistic, but sometimes you have to take stand for yourself and your self respect.
    I am scared, but I will make it. I am driven and I am angry as hell. I have been contemplating this day for 6 years, and yes that's how long we've been together, but I have fallen for this man's apologies more times than anyone person is dumb enough to. I've been so deathly scared to make it on my own, I have stayed in this abusive relationship for comfort.
    If you are in the same boat, just do it, it's ok to be are a stronger, better person for taking a stand for yourself!

  • Comment Link Guest Monday, 25 February 2013 16:44 posted by Guest

    Sorry is it even a real word?: I have been married for 4 years, been together for 6. You know what? I am tired! I am tired of the drinking, I am tired of the name-calling and I am tired of the word SORRY! I am no saint, but when a man has been putting you through the same cycle your entire relationship of 3 good months and then a horrific event (and when I say horrific, I mean spitting in your face screaming at the top of his lungs, pushing and sometimes hitting you all because the whiskey is talking) how can you keep a marriage together???
    I have had enough today is February 25th, 2013. I am broke, I have no family in the United States, but I have hope and a need for self-preservation.
    I am 25 years old today, and I don't want to be 30 tomorrow and still be going throught the same cycle. The cycle has to be broken at some point or another. I don't want to be another divorce statistic, but sometimes you have to take stand for yourself and your self respect.
    I am scared, but I will make it. I am driven and I am angry as hell. I have been contemplating this day for 6 years, and yes that's how long we've been together, but I have fallen for this man's apologies more times than anyone person is dumb enough to. I've been so deathly scared to make it on my own, I have stayed in this abusive relationship for comfort.
    If you are in the same boat, just do it, it's ok to be are a stronger, better person for taking a stand for yourself!

  • Comment Link Guest Monday, 25 February 2013 09:53 posted by Guest

    Desparate for Respect, Love, Companionship, etc.: All our stories are alike. Inside every woman is the desire to be respected, connected, loved and we feel that a man is capable of doing it, "IF ONLY HE TRIED!" We are designed that way not to be FULFILLED BY A MAN, But by God. I finished my second marriage last year. I loved my last husband so much, but I couldn't accept being last. I felt last in everything. Last after his friends; last after our daughter, last after movies, last after sports and on and on.....I thought when the shit hit the fan he would be there. I found myself alone in the hospital while he sat home with Netflix and Facebook. Our desires are meant to be met only by God, most men are incapable and not emotionally available. The odds are better if he loves God himself. I should have lived my life learning to love our Heavenly Father. We are designed with those needs because he leads us to Him and He is the only one who can satisfy.

    I would go through the pain a thousand times to be the woman that I am today. Whatever your situation--you may be desparate for a change or feeling deparate for something to happen. I ask that you stop. Get away by yourself--somehow. Everything you have been feeling, give to God. Seek his word and He will answer.

    I am currently connected with Divorce Care. Sign up for the daily emails. Read them. Even though you want deparately to end the chaos, this is the pain you will be experiencing. I write this to you because I love and care about what happens to you all. The pain is excruciating, but God has a plan for you. Your trial right now is to bring you to Him on your hands and knees. We think we can do it on our own, but only He can bring fulfilllment and peace. God Bless you all. Remember, I have been exactly where you all have been.

    Recommend reading: Letting God Meet Your Emotional Needs by Cindi McMenamin

  • Comment Link Guest Sunday, 24 February 2013 22:42 posted by Guest

    about what to do: I got married in 2008 and now my husband is out of india and now i came to know that he is having affair with my neighbor since she approaches my friend and she is telling everything about my husband and her relation which was from last 4-5 yrs. so she sending every mail to my friend which was sent by my husband to her. and she and my husband having phone calls regularly but i sometimes gets a call from him.
    so now my friend sending me evry mail to me so that i will aware about my husband's planning. Now my husband is coming after 1 yr to take me with him but he has a plan about me which he didn't tell me that he wants to pregnant me so that after 5-6 month we will come back and he will send me at my home town at my sister's place so they will get long time to enjoy the relation .I can do everything to talk with him but problem is that he wrote in mail to her that if His wife means I will come to Know about his relation he quickly will do suicide so i am speechless i cant do anything what to do I am frustrated and whenever I got a call from him on phone i donot talk kindly so he is also not understand what is the matter. plz, help me as early as possible.

  • Comment Link Guest Sunday, 24 February 2013 19:02 posted by Guest

    What can I do?: My husband & I have been married for 22 years. We've had our ups & downs, but, overall, had a good marriage. I was diagnosed with Rheumatoid Arthritis, & Sjogren's Syndrome, around 5 years ago. It dramatically changed our relationship. I take high level narcotics for the pain, & chemo once a week. All of the mucous membranes in my body are dry, & I have lost all desire for sex. If I try to have intercourse, it causes pain & bleeding. My gyno has prescribed estrogens for the dryness, but, we haven't found the right one yet. She wants me to try testosterone, to hopefully improve my desire. We have a 21 year old daughter, who works & goes to college. My husband is gainfully employed, but, lately, hates his job. His stress level seems to be through the roof, & he is usually in a foul mood. Everything seems to annoy him. He says that there's nothing between us anymore, since we're not having sex. He's also not happy, that I've gained weight from taking prednisone. He says that everything in his life disappoints him, & he's used to being disappointed, because, nowadays, that's how life is. I don't agree. I wake up each day with a good attitude, & the hopes that my health will improve. I still try to run my household, & walk my German Shepherd, although things are much more difficult for me. Some days, I can't open a door, or tie my shoes. The pressure of my illness is overwhelming, & trying to make my husband happy, has become exhausting. I don't know what to do.

  • Comment Link Guest Sunday, 24 February 2013 08:47 posted by Guest

    wondering: Hi, im not sure if you can understand my language.. I am asian..
    My problims about my Husband.. He doesn't want to make love making, keep saying tired & taking medecine. Every time w e been in bed at night, we just kissing after that he turn around and sleep.. I feel so bad, & silent crying untill i will sleep.. But he ws nice, kind heart, responsible, refectable.. Everyday he did hug & kissing me before he leaf.. We leave together 7 years, now over a years we don't have sex.. Please give me some idea what i need to do... Thank you,& waiting your advice...

  • Comment Link Guest Sunday, 24 February 2013 08:24 posted by Guest

    You are totally right, there: You are totally right, there are two sides to a story. Because of all the things that has occurred in this marriage, I have resulted to calling names and trying to leave every time we argue. That's the only wrong I have contributed to this marriage. I feel that some days I have the best husband ever and other days I feel like I'm living with a devil. We do need professional guidance but will it really help after all that has happened thus far? I don't want a divorce but I am so unhappy with how things are with us.

  • Comment Link Guest Sunday, 24 February 2013 03:54 posted by Guest

    Re: Family against family: Enough is enough. That last story about your daughter was really, really tough to read. I myself am concerned for her safety! Leave him while you and your kids are still fine because some things can't be taken back. First and foremost you have to think of the well being of your kids and yourself. This guy clearly thinks that a simple apology and empty promise for the future can allow him to get away with mistreating you and allowing for the mistreatment of your kids. Allowing a kid to be labeled the things you described? What on earth?!?!

    Divorce this guy because you can't change his way of thinking. There is a pattern to his actions and I don't even want to think about the next part of your story should you decide to stick it out with him. You are a military Officer. You are smart and have a proven track record of being able to stand on your own. It may be hard at first, but think about how much better your life (and your kids' lives) will be.

    I wish you only the best for your future (especially with your remission). Good luck!!!

  • Comment Link Guest Saturday, 23 February 2013 23:12 posted by Guest

    family against family: Hello-----wake up, you have belittled yourself long enough. Now your daughter is involved to the maximum. Stay with him and I just know she"ll marry someone jus like him, and before that her journey will include her looking for some positive results from anywhere, anyone, anyhow. so if you dont do it for yourself (which you should since your a fabulous person) do it for your daughter ASAP. they almost killed her next time they might be successful. Your thinking on this whole subject is jaded and completely unrealistic. Their should be no question? I dont care if your hubby gave you a million dollars and literally kissed your feet, its a temporary fix to blind you again cause he saw you using your head again. He doesnt like when you use your brain... Trust me this is coming from experience of a sad outcome you cant fix when all said and done.

  • Comment Link Guest Saturday, 23 February 2013 12:34 posted by Guest

    Your hubby: First I want to say you are a wonderful and courages woman. All that you been thru and still hung in there. Well there is always two sides to a story I am on your side. Your husband has some mental issues N he needs to get help. Marriage is sacred and should have no room for that kind of mess. I want to say I don't believe in breaking up breaking up marriage but you have gave so many chances and he still really did not hear you. I am praying for you and your kids and him also. You sound like a super nice person and my prayers are with you. I pray that cancer casted into the sea of forgetfulness. God hears and feels your pain and I almost feel like do as well from your story. I don't know you but it sound like your heart is gold. Stay strong for your kids and yourself. My marriage also is a mess and it hurts me some much. I have taken care of my family and for 15 years I was happy until my wife had an affair. I meant my step son when he was 2 and now he is 16. My wife try's to make me look bad to him. My life has spun out of control and I am trying be strong and pray. Your story encourages me to be stronger and just because I did not just give up was not in vain. Ps love your story.

  • Comment Link Guest Friday, 22 February 2013 21:45 posted by Guest

    family against family I want out: This sounds really awful but we can only see one side. Being in a blended family can be hard because you are dealing with humans and everyone has a different personality. It takes hard work and the need for respect from each person and the children see the parents. The top needs to work at communication and respecting each other. Family meeting need to come into play so the problems can be worked out. parents and children need to have a re pore and so does the husband and wife. It sounds like this was a I'm better than you and my children are too. If there is going to be a reconciliation there would have to be some changes made and some boundaries set. I would get a councilor involved to help with guidance. Before you get a divorce think on if you are in love or not this has to be annualized. And in a blended family with baggage there should be some on going professional guidance

  • Comment Link Guest Friday, 22 February 2013 03:46 posted by Guest

    Family against family.....I want out!!!!!!: I've been married for 5 years to a man who makes good money, cooks, clean, and iron clothes. We have a blended family of 5 children (3 his and 2 mine) but no kids together. Before marriage, I was a single parent for 6 years and did very well taking care of my two. Had a house, SUV, excellent credit and a Masters Degree. We are both Officers in the military. I met my husband while deployed oversees and he was the sweetest man I had ever known. So kind hearted and giving. It was like a dream come true. We spent 6 months together oversees with no kids AND THEN came home. We live 80 miles apart but saw each other every weekend. He met my kids and I met his kids. He immediately, (within a week) started critizing me for the way I discipline my kids. I told him that the things they were doing didn't bother me. He started making comments like "my kids would never act like that." I slightly entertained it at that time but really didn't make a big deal about it. Then he start telling me that the man is in charge and makes the final decisions in the home. I didn't know where this was coming from at first because we were still just getting to know one another. He then took it up a notch and start telling me he was the leader and I was to follow him and that we could never be equal because it was not in God's design. He even started telling my son (17 at the time) dont ever apologize to a women because you will always find yourself doing so. He told me that no woman in this world deserves to be put on a pedistal. I asked him did he hate women and he said no but no woman could teach him anything. We constantly argued back and forth for months about everything until I couldn't take it anymore. Right when I was about to break it off, I was diagnose with cancer. He came to my aid and help me make some hard decisions for treatment. Because of that I started thinking I had a good man on my side and I didn't want to lose him. We got married, bought a house and my long journey begun! While going through surgery, chemo, and radiation, my husband was very cruel to me. He raised his voice at me and was very inconsidered. Despite me begging him to stay, He left to go oversees again after my fourth treatment instead of staying with me for the duration. I was left with complete strangers to take me back and forth to the hospital. He called me everyday to check on me and told me that I should be happy because he's with me in spirit....REALLY???? I had to find my own lawn guy, my own house keeper, and I ate food that people from the support group brought me to eat. On my good days, i would get out the house for fresh air. He would get upset because I would make a decision without talking to him first.....REALLY???? Fast treatments ended and he return from deployment and apologized to me for all the bad things he had done to me. He told me his last month or so over there, he realized he treated me bad and that he would spend a lifetime making it up to me. I believed him! Things were great again until summer time came and all the kids were with us visiting. His daughter (then 11) started bullying my daughter (then 8) and his response was my daughter need to get tougher skin and stop being a snitch! He allowed his daughter and eventually all three of his kids to call my daughter names like Bitch and Snitch until she cried and his defense was your daughter cry over everything. When my son got mad and said something to his sons (then 15 and 16) my husband responded with if you do something to them then you gonna have to face me. So the entire family is going at it, him and his kids against me and my kids. It was a horrible summer and again, I wanted to leave him because this is not what I call a loving marriage and family. His kids built up resentment against me and my kids. my kids built up resentment against him and his kids and him and i have built up resentment agaisnt each other. We started going to counseling to see if we could fix things and we both learned a lot about blended families that we didn't realize before. Again, things started going great until my son and my husband got into a fist fight and my husband kicked my son out the house. I supported my husband at the time because my son had turnned 20 and was being lazy and disrespectful. Then summer time came again and his kids came to visit. All the rules of the house stops when they come over. No chores. Loud music. Name calling. And a lot of horse play. This time, instead of all 3 of his kids against my daughter, it was his daughter, her cousin, and her God Sister. They were all the same age and had known each other since babies. My husband brought them to our house for the summer so that is daughter would have some friends to hang out with. Those three girls locked my daughter out of her own room and when she came and told me, his daughter said she didn't have anything to do with it. Of course my husband believed her. He was quick to blame the other girls and come to the defense of his daughter. So then this is where the table really turned. All four of the girls went swimming and my daughter came back crying saying that they held her under the water and she couldnt breathe. My husband ran down and asked the girls what happened. they all blamed it on each other and then they said they were just playing. My husband looked at me and my crying daughter and said, "they said they were just playing" I was pissed! In closing, I asked for a divorce and he said we can work this out. I'm not sure if i want to have him and his kids in my life. My husband has issues but he totally blames me for the reason my kids don't like him or his kids.

  • Comment Link Guest Thursday, 21 February 2013 23:52 posted by Guest

    How do i tell him: Will be married 30 yrs in a few months. Never had children. He always held a physical job & after many surgeries has been unable to work for the last 10 yrs. Has never been approved for disability though. I've left him twice in our marriage but always feel guilty & came back. I'm to the point now that I hate coming home from work to him. I hate being with him period. I actually have stomach problems on wkends when home with him. He has always been very possessive & I allowed it to keep the peace. I can't even go to dinner with co-workers when one retired in fear of his verbal wrath. I went out of town w/a girl friend last year for a wkend & he told me that if he had a job he would leave me over this. I have never had an affair and never looked to have one. He's also been faithful (because he never left my side except to go work). He's being treated for chronic pain, severe depression & anxiety. He sometimes verbally (never physically) abuses me so bad that Ive told him if he was my neighbor I would called the police. He sometimes will say things like he knows I don't love him and that I'm done with him. I have met with atty. I want out! My problem...afraid to tell him in fear of him committing suicide or murder (me) then suicide. Although in my heart of hearts I don't think he'd hurt me but I do think he would be high risk for suicide. He takes alot of pain med and is on anti-depressant. How do I tell him without sending him over the edge? Any advice will be greatly appreciated.

  • Comment Link Guest Thursday, 21 February 2013 22:18 posted by Guest

    Husband won't stick up for us: Well I cannot stand that my husband allows his brother & the brothers girlfriend to not acknowledge me (us) or the fact that we are married. The brother & girlfriend clearly go out of their way to invite him but not me the spouce yet my husband will not confront the issue.

  • Comment Link Guest Tuesday, 19 February 2013 08:40 posted by Guest

    financial infidelity: Been married 26 years with 2 wonderful girls 16 and 20. My husband was my world! Seven years ago I found thousands of dollars hidden in our duct work by my husband. Now one would be happy to have extra money to help with bills. I on the other hand did not react in a joyful manner. You see, prior to finding the hidden money, I was very ill for 2 years and struggled going to work everyday. Thank God for I have wonderful parents who would drive me to all my doctor appointments and also to work. Our children were younger at the time, and both of us needed to work to help with all our expenses. Because at the time the doctors couldn't figure out what was wrong with me, many people thought it was in my head, including my husband. Eventually I was diagnosed with Crohns disease. When I found the money, all I could think of was how I had to go to work sick when in realilty my husband had thousands of dollars he could have used to help us through this difficult time. He could have been my hero. We went to counseling but that didn't work well. Now seven years later I still catch him lying about many little things and I caught him sending multiple text messages and phone calls to a former coworker. He insisted they are just friends. I guess the bottom line is I no longer trust him. I am so hurt by all of this and always believed till death do us part. I am not sure I will ever regain his trust again. I am now to the point where I can't even stand the smell of him. How do you go from this back to a loving relationship?

  • Comment Link Guest Tuesday, 19 February 2013 08:35 posted by Guest

    financial infidelity: Been married 26 years with 2 wonderful girls 16 and 20. My husband was my world! Seven years ago I found thousands of dollars hidden in our duct work by my husband. Now one would be happy to have extra money to help with bills. I on the other hand did not react in a joyful manner. You see, prior to finding the hidden money, I was very ill for 2 years and struggled going to work everyday. Thank God for I have wonderful parents who would drive me to all my doctor appointments and also to work. Our children were younger at the time, and both of us needed to work to help with all our expenses. Because at the time the doctors couldn't figure out what was wrong with me, many people thought it was in my head, including my husband. Eventually I was diagnosed with Crohns disease. When I found the money, all I could think of was how I had to go to work sick when in realilty my husband had thousands of dollars he could have used to help us through this difficult time. He could have been my hero. We went to counseling but that didn't work well. Now seven years later I still catch him lying about many little things and I caught him sending multiple text messages and phone calls to a former coworker. He insisted they are just friends. I guess the bottom line is I no longer trust him. I am so hurt by all of this and always believed till death do us part. I am not sure I will ever regain his trust again. I am now to the point where I can't even stand the smell of him. How do you go from this back to a loving relationship?

  • Comment Link Guest Tuesday, 19 February 2013 00:47 posted by Guest

    Married, unhappy, guilt: I was dating two men 7 years ago, decided I would get serious with one. The other one was kind, reliable, hard working, funny, good looking, extremely intelligent, and very successful. He doted on me, built my confidence up, adored me, and made love to me any chance he could get. Treated me with respect, talked to me, conversed, deep conversations. he saw the world from a different lens. He was passionate, romantic, and a perfect gentleman, loved to travel, enjoy new foods, taste wines. He worked out, dressed appropriately and with style on every occassion. He was like a James Bond without all the sleeping around, in fact i cant watch a james bond movie without crying, lol. He couldn't keep his hands off me. I felt he was unattainable, I didn't deserve him, why me I thought. Even though he wanted me, begged me, but when I feined interest more than once, that was it. Said he wasn't second to anyone. He said something to me that has haunted me ever after, regret is the one thing you can't erase, it haunts you like a cloud your entire life and that it can fill a life with sorrow, a hole, large or small will exist no matter what., If i wanted him, i had a year to contact him, otherwise I would never speak or hear from him again. He said its lovers or nothing, we can't be friends.

    I chose a project instead, I guess because I thought he would need me more than the other one. He worked in a bar where i met him, became an EMT, had a college degree but didnt do anything with it. He plays in a band, and that says it all. We have been married for 5 years, known each other for 7. Our honeymoon had no passion, he barely makes love to me, treats me like a child, hugs me when I have a bad day and that's it, no talking. We have separate checking accounts, separate lives really with his shift work and mine. I live in a smaller town now than I grew up in, we are house poor, he wt have kids because it will screw up his weekend band thing. He has his bros over almost every weekend, I'm now 33 and spend my weekend nights at clubs, and bars while he plays.

    I tried to contact my old boyfriend 14 months after we broke up. Zero. He was gone. He blocked my phone, he blocked any incoming email, he erased me from his life. He doesn't do Facebook or any social media, he is invisible. I was devastated, the regret was overwhelming and still is.

    Fast forward, my current husband loves me in his way, I want to leave, I want to find my dream man again, but I feel to guilty to leave. We have no kids, just us. Every day after I broke up with the old boyfriend, I wanted to reach out to him, tell him I was sorry, ask for him back, but I couldn't bring myself to do it. I felt to guilty to leave this other man that had fallen in love with me. Then time passed, and here I am. I have done individual counseling, and marriage counseling. Nothing changed. I have boy in a mans body with potential, and now he is 40. I'm locked in a life I thought I wanted in my 20's, and the realization that I will probably ly just accept this unhappiness. I dont want to hurt my husband, he is a good man, with a good heart.

    I wish I had the guts to be a good person, and let my husband find someone that truly loves him for what he is, rather than me resenting it. I'm a coward, with regret, the worst combination.

  • Comment Link Guest Monday, 18 February 2013 22:35 posted by Guest

    It's time: I understand everything, and I mean everything you are going thru. Your story is my story. I am going on 25 years of marriage. I won't tell you to leave or to stay but what I will say is don't wait years like I did to leave. I am finally leaving in June after our oldest graduates from school and the family is aware of it. Don't and I repeat don't sit by and watch your life drift away it will get harder to leave then. I promise. You need to dig deep down into your heart and soul feel and do what is right for you and you only. Keep in mind that this is your life and yours only and you only have this one so DO NOT waste it. Children DO survive it a divorce is handled correctly. You will not if you stay and remain unhappy. I will keep you in my thoughts. Stay strong because you have no other choice but to stay strong.

  • Comment Link Guest Sunday, 17 February 2013 17:57 posted by Guest

    Wondering: I was wondering the same thing. If not gay maybe he might be with someone else?
    how was he with you before the marriage? When did it change? I am sorru that you are going through this. It must be lonely

  • Comment Link Guest Saturday, 16 February 2013 22:43 posted by Guest

    Oh dear, I am so sorry for: Oh dear, I am so sorry for your troubles. Being that your husband is bipolar, you need to seek treatment for him. Go to social services in your county and they can help you out with other resources. Unfortunately, it can be chaotic living with and relying on someone who has bipolar disorder so I would advise for you to resume working (if possible) and make sure YOU are the one in charge of money. You support your family while he gets better... that has to be the deal between both of you. When he's properly treating his disorder with doctors visits and medication, then he can start to become a more consistent and stable provider. Good luck, I really wish you all well.

  • Comment Link Guest Monday, 11 February 2013 20:06 posted by Guest

    I am sorry for your pain. I: I am sorry for your pain. I think you already know what you need to do, but could he possibly be gay? He isn't too old to not be wanting to be intimate. Good luck.

    -a guy BTW

  • Comment Link Guest Monday, 11 February 2013 14:55 posted by Guest

    . : I am sorry to hear that.... I hope things get better. You sound like a sweet person.

  • Comment Link Guest Saturday, 09 February 2013 18:45 posted by Guest

    I think it is time...why can't we do this nicely?: I have been married for 12 years to someone 14 years my senior and have 3 kids. We both have comfortable jobs. I would say my life is perfect outside of my marriage. I love my friends, my colleagues and love my children more than life itself. They are beautiful, funny, and amazing kids. If it wasn't for them I would have been gone a long time ago. No one knows I am considering leaving him besides my mom and my best friend. People look at our family and think it must be perfect. We look like a perfect family. My husband is incredibly intelligent, very handsome and a good dad. He has refused to make love to me but 2 times in 8 years. I am 37 years old and have had sex once in my thirties. I am a very athletic woman who is very healthy. I exercise daily thinking maybe if I look better he will want me more (or at all). I have dressed in lingerie, taken a shower and climbed in bed with him and nothing. The last sexual encounter was on Oct. 13, 2007, amazingly we conceived a child that night. It had been 5 years prior to that that we had sex so she is truly my miracle child. I complain but then I give up. I don't want to guilt anyone into making love to me and I don't want to be the nagging wife. I want him to want me. When I complain, it is always, if you were nicer to me or if you weren't so miserable all the time. I would say that my friends (duh :) and the people I work with would describe me as always happy and very kind.I feel like we are roommates, splitting bills haggling petty things. He likes to work out so I try to get him to do things to work out together, thinking maybe we could get closer. Not interested. I have been begging him to go play basketball (I played in college) with me once a week and he kept telling me that he was too out of shape to do sprints. I asked him to go for a hike with the kids and I and he says his leg is sore. I ask why. He says he went to play basketball and hurt it. My heart fell to the floor. It was just another indication he has no interest in making me happy or a desire to do anything with me. I don't hate him and I don't want to get to that point. He sort of disgusts me when he tells me he loves me or kisses me in front of other people like we are this happy couple. I am scared for my children and financially. He has told me he will make my life hell if I leave him. The only thing that could destroy me is if he uses my kids against me. I don't mind living without, I just worry about my kids. The more I write about my worries the more I know it is the right thing to do, leave. I just wish we could go our separate ways without blame and still be kind to each other, for the kids sake.

  • Comment Link Guest Saturday, 09 February 2013 01:39 posted by Guest

    Ask him if he is attracted to: Ask him if he is attracted to men. Sounds like you have a great friendship but this also sounds like he's gay. I've had a gay friend who had these issues and didn't know how to express them without hurting the mother of his children or hurting his children also. I hope you can work this out, of all the people here you seem to truly have a God relationship but with the adsense of sex that has gotta hurt. I wish the best for you and your family.

  • Comment Link Guest Friday, 08 February 2013 10:09 posted by Guest

    HELP: I have been married 101/2 years and have two wonderful children. I am so lost and I cant figure out what to do. First off my husband is a wonderful dad and works hard for his family. He loves me so much. On the other hand he is very financially irresponsible. He spends all of the money on driving around or pills or cigarettes. The kids and I go without because he spends they money. I did work but I quit because he also spent my paycheck and I was tired of that. I have expressed to him numerous times about this issue. He always says he will fix it but that still has not happened. It is so overwhelming that I want out but I cant do it. I dont want my kids from a divorced home, I am scared that he would harm himself or become a full blown addict. He is also bipolar. When he gets down, he is down. I know he would never harm me or the kids, but I fear he would harm himself. His family is amazing and I have talked to his mom about this issue numerous times. She wants him to wake up too. Our relationship from the start has been rocky. We fought alot with each other about his bad decisions, bad group of friends, and choices. It always is said I will stop, and it does not happen. I love him so much, but I am not "in" love. I have been talking to another guy. I feel like an idiot. I have rejected going out with him many times but I contemplate it alot. This guy is younger then me, but we clicked immediately. Something I dont think I did with my husband ever. I just dont know anymore. I dont want to hurt my husband or my kids or the families of both of us. But I am not happy. I care about other people so much that I stay in this relationship. I have expressed my concern to my husband so many times, but it goes unheard. I have prayed asked his mom for advise, but I dont have any answers. I AM SO LOST! Fear of the unknown is horrible. Is it fair to live a life like this? Are these feelings for this other man just because my marriage is not good? I dont want to hurt anyone, but if I give into this temptation It will happen. I even quit talking to this other man and 6 months later it started again....

  • Comment Link Guest Wednesday, 06 February 2013 09:59 posted by Guest

    theres more to that: I'm sorry but that is a bs reason for divorce. My husband tells me I'm a terrible wife all the time because I don't have sex often enough. 1st of all I work 60 hrs a weeks- he works 20. 2nd I drive him myself and our two small children around due to him not having a license. Sometime I'm in the car for 2 to 3 hour ontop of my 10-14 hr shifts. Every trip, doc apt grocery run is all up to me. 3rd i take care of the kids and house work in the little time im at home. I come home at 7pm no dinner for me or kids , house a mess , kids usually fighting and my dear old hubby sitting on the couch half asleep. I put them to bed and there he stands...waiting for se x! I dont think so. He says sex is the problem in our marriage too. I think u should reevaluate why theres no sex. Theres a reason. In my case why waste my time shagging an asshole who apparently only makes time for his needs.

  • Comment Link Guest Wednesday, 06 February 2013 08:50 posted by Guest

    help: I met my husband in may 2010, i got pregnant in July 2010, married in August 2011, and had my son March 2011. fast! My best friend introduced us. I thought she meant well. She new he was a cheater, and a herione drug user. Flip my life up. He cheated on me with the same woman over and over again. Told her all my problems. The last straw was I allowed him to take our son for a ride to the store summer of 2012. He was gone 2 hrs too long. We were at his mom house on a sunday to eat a nice sunday dinner. He left in my truck with my son for a ride. To make this story short. I caught him over this lady house with my son and my vehicle. He keeps saying he's sorry he's going to change. He's been out of the house for 9 months no change. I cant forgive him I/m one form to give the judge for our divorce.

  • Comment Link Guest Tuesday, 05 February 2013 03:20 posted by Guest

    I feel the same way: I am going through the same thing I have been married for a year but I have been with him for 5 years. I knew I wasnt ready to be married but due to certain circumstances we had to rush and get married. He also has a short temper and says mean things when hes mad and later apologizes for being mean alot of the time I feel like I am walking on egg shells with him. I have told him several times that I am not happy in this relationship and he says I promise I am going to change and that he doesnt want to lose me. So I have given him chances thinking its gonna change and I also try to stay positive. But it keeps going back to the same thing that I am not happy and have not been happy in this relationship for awhile now. So I am ready to separate also. There just comes a point that you are sick of the other person taking advantage of you and is not really trying to make you happy. I know its a hard thing to do because I am on the same boat with you but if this situation is not making you happy and theres more pain than happiness than its time to call it a quits. I feel ultimately we know deep in our hearts what we need to do but just dont want to face the truth. I hope this helped.

  • Comment Link Guest Monday, 04 February 2013 21:23 posted by Guest

    so what eventually happened?: so what eventually happened?

  • Comment Link Guest Sunday, 03 February 2013 22:35 posted by Guest

    Have you done anything to her: Have you done anything to her that would make her feel resentment? if not, I would consider separation and see if she misses you. Sometimes a little time away from eachother helps. Its not pleasant to be with someone who shows zero interest in you. from a womans perspective, I have resentment towards my husband, but because of the reasons you state are present in your wife. I think you still have feeling for her, and if your worth it to her, she should attempt to change her ways in a positive manner.

  • Comment Link Guest Sunday, 03 February 2013 22:23 posted by Guest

    I just have to say that I: I just have to say that I disagree. I am in a virtually sexless marriage and it is torture. I feel fortunate that there are no aspects of abuse, but no passion can destroy a relationship. I constantly feel unwanted, ugly and undesirable. It's not a pleasant feeling.

  • Comment Link Guest Friday, 01 February 2013 17:45 posted by Guest

    fear of being unwanted: I so felt that too. I feared being unwanted, because I was in a marriage where I was unwanted. I Love my son and didn't want him to feel unwanted. And because of my religious beliefs . I searched and searched for proof of his cheating. Then one day I just decided to depend on the lord. I gave my ex some hoops to jump thru...let's just say I got every excuse in the list. You know 1)pity him, 2)he's angry 3) make me fear 4)I made some one sad...all that blah! But hoops should be jumped for me. Now don't think I am some kind of self centered girl, never been called that, cuz I know I am a door mat. But we door mats need to have our 'master' jump sometimes. Well he didn't and I left. Bought a very small very MINE, house for my 1yr old and me. Thanks to the lord. Found out my ex was doing all sorts of girls, men and he was naked on porn showing himself to the world. Hind sight is 20-20. Now it wasn't as easy as it sounds. I cried for a year over him. And then i cried for 2 more cuz my son will never have a family with both original parents under one roof. I can't give my son the fairy tale family. My fairy tale was destroyed and I miss that. But not my ex, not even a bit. You know he smelled bad ..a lot!

  • Comment Link Guest Thursday, 31 January 2013 15:55 posted by Guest

    Grass Not Always Greener On The Other Side.: I would do anything to be in your shoes. A sexless marriage is way much better than an abusive one like mine. Nothing compares to companionship, not even sex.

  • Comment Link Guest Thursday, 31 January 2013 04:41 posted by Guest

    Time to move on? : My wife and I have been married for 6 years now, two adorable boys that I love to death. Recently things have been in a free fall. I love my wife very much, try to express that to her as often as can, but she is just completely disengaged. Through the course of our marriage, had our share of arguments, said hurtful things to one another in those arguments and though I am the type to always forget and move on, she never lets me forget. She has built so much resentment towards me that it she is incapable of connecting with me. I have always been faithful, taken care of the household chores, taking care of the kids, I cook and clean, make her breakfast, try to always keep her as a priority. My friends and relatives always express how dutiful of a husband I am, but my wife never seems to notice and frequently only point at the negative. She expresses how there is no excitement coming home because of the kids and the constant work of being a parent. She very rarely engages with me in conversation, never ask how my day was, how my family is doing etc. I am the type of person that likes to make people happy even at the expense of myself, but at the same time have a high sense of self confidence that I know I deserve better. We been going to counseling to try to have her let go of her resentment, but she nevers committed and does not seem to want to let go. I am 34, in sales, probably make more money than surgeons, physically as fit as when I was 20.... There is nothing more I want than a happy family. I enjoy spending time with the kids constantly, just want a happy family with a wife that can mutually love me and be content with what we have.... I know things won't get better because we always have responsibilities of being parents, I enjoy it tremendously, she does not.... Should I just move on while I am still young and find someone more like me? Content to be just a parent, content in just knowing your spouse loves you as much as you love her?

  • Comment Link Guest Thursday, 31 January 2013 03:44 posted by Guest

    Sorry to hear contemplating: Sorry to hear contemplating about divorce as well .... It's the fear of making the first move that wrecks me which sounds like the same problem you have. I can't offer any words of advice as I am in the same boat but I can't imagine life like this indefinitely either. Everyone deser ex a chance to be happy, life is too short not to enjoy it

  • Comment Link Guest Monday, 28 January 2013 22:48 posted by Guest

    how it affects your kids.: Please take this step in your life very seriously, the divorce rates are so high today it's unbelievable. I'm sixteen and i witnessed my parents marriage crumble, my father cheated on my mother multiple times and my mother basically stopped trying with the marriage and started just feeling bad for herself, introversion. She also bought a cat... A marriage is a bond between two* people and yes it's hard, but hey it wouldn't be interesting if it was easy. I defiantly understand relationships that need to end due to domestic abuse, gambling, drinking, ect. though, if the reason your considering divorce is because of one fight, please, please consider getting marital help or sitting down and talking it over or even a vacation from each other. especially if you have kids, most parents really don't see or think of how it will affect your kids, it hurts us badly leaving us broken and more likely for depression and other psychological disorders. My father is living with his overbearing girlfriend and her monstrously terribly behaved daughter. I want to spend time with him, but I cannot take his "family". Being with my mom isn't much better. She's heartbroken and has really taken it out on herself and her health, she has turned to drinking and smoking to ease her pain. She's hurting it's hard for me to be around. my father comes over a lot and has helped us to redesign our house, there is still obviously a connection between them because why would he help her? and why won't she move on? I suppose it's too late now to fix the relationship, but if only they had worked together instead of expecting the other to be the leader, maybe their lives, and mine, would've been happier. I'm going off to college in a year and I cannot wait to move as far as possible away from here. I fear for my future relationships, and as of now do not plan on getting married for fear of repeating the past. I'm just asking please consider your children and what you are loosing n your life and if you can mend the wounds before you make this big decision. thank you for reading.

  • Comment Link Guest Monday, 28 January 2013 16:23 posted by Guest

    been a long time coming: So I have been married to my husband for almost 14 years and from the beginning I knew I wasn't marrying him for the right reasons. The major issue back then was his depression and manic-depressive behaviors. He is very caring and a very good provider. We have never really "clicked". He has always had a drinking problem and major anxiety which I believe is why he drinks/smokes. He finally has gotten a handle on the drinking and is always trying to change certain behaviors I find troubling for me, not for himself. He is at his core not a happy person but really tries. We have two kids 7 and 11 and he is a great father and together we are good parents. We have no intimate relationship at all. I have a hard time talking to him. He has always wanted to be more intimate but due to my resentment towards him over the years, I have no desire to be with him. I am pretty social and need to interact with other people where as he is uncomfortable and never seems to have a good time. I am 40 and feel like I cannot possibly live the rest of my life so unhappy. I always tell him I want out and want a divorce but then I always feel like I'm ruining everyone's life. He freaks out and I always end up feeling like it's not worth the battle. We have tried counseling however the reasons I want out never seem to get fixed for too long. He starts telling me everything I want to hear and will not listen to me. I feel that indicators of future behavior are past behaviors. I am just having a hard time feeling guilty for hurting him but we both deserve a partner that loves unconditionally. Trying to stay strong and make the break. I know I will be happier without him and our kids deserve to be in a happy environment and not with parents that show no affection for eachother and do not love each other. Any words of wisdom would be appreciated. If you've been there or if you think i'm totally unreasonable and selfish I'd love to hear your thoughts.

  • Comment Link Guest Monday, 28 January 2013 11:26 posted by Guest

    Reply: Everything is still the same. I am so incredibly confused. Each of your answers are so the same time, it feels comforting to know I am not alone.
    Yes, I've asked my husband if he's gay....he always says no. I finally believe him. I think he's extremely insecure about sex. I also think he's Asexual....just doesn't have the desire. The insecurity keeps him from even trying. I too feel alone. Scared and uncertain.
    Just when I thought I had the strength to take time to figure this out, my "cousin" backed off. I was making plans to go see him next weekend and I stopped hearing from him for a few days. That scared me. I know it's not cool to have feelings for a married woman. I was trying to think of everyone's feelings and wanted to make some sort of clear decision. Then he backed off....I can feel the distance. So here I am worried about the way everyone is feeling and feel like my feelings aren't on the forefront for anyone. Maybe it's just that I've felt rejected for so long, that I panic when I feel it again. I want to give the cousin time, but in the same token.....I have to take in to account that everyone's life goes on hold while we wait. This weekend I planned on talking to him and reaching a way or the other. Either I was going to let him go and just face my deal with that and may e in time find my way back to him, if that's what's meant to be......or take some time to be with him and see if leaving is really the best solution.
    In the meantime, my husband and I agreed to all of this, but then bam the cousin is getting cold feet. I can't blame him, after all he has no idea I am even thinking these things.
    As for the woman who feels alone....thank you for writing. You are not alone. As you can see, we are going through similar issues. You know in your heart what you want to do, it's just finding the strength. I think after leaving, you'd feel some relief and you'll find yourself again.
    For the woman who filed for divorce and now changed it to a legal are doing the right thing. He'll never change. But through the separation, you'll come to the conclusion on whether you love him enough to stay anyways. It will give you time. I'll bet that once you get into that new apartment, you'll feel free.....less burdened and will have the time you so desperately need to think clearly. If you stay and not move out, he'll always find the right things to give you hope. Then it will be harder to start the process over again. Be good to've already done the hard part. If you don't follow through, then that will all be for nothing. Starting that process over will be twice as difficult the next time. Time to take a leap of faith and have time to think. You can even move out, without a legal anything, but only you know how trust worthy be in that situation.
    I know I can give the advice....I am a strong girl. I don't want to grow old alone. So confused.

  • Comment Link Guest Sunday, 27 January 2013 21:56 posted by Guest

    If you are not giving your: If you are not giving your husband sex he thinks you do not love him. That's just how we are wired. If he doesn't feel loved he won't include you in ANYTHING. I'm filing divorce for the same reason, no affection from my wife.

  • Comment Link Guest Sunday, 27 January 2013 12:32 posted by Guest

    I am in your shoes 100%... I: I am in your shoes 100%... I get lied to about every little thing... in and out of counseling... together 10 years with 2 kids... and I am so scared of divorce. I feel like you just wrote about my life!

  • Comment Link Guest Sunday, 27 January 2013 09:48 posted by Guest

    Advice please: There are many similarities in your dilemma and mine...I love my husband of 22 years very dearly, we get along great, still enjoy travelling and going out together but there is no intimacy. He never tells me I look nice, we haven't kissed for over 4 years or had sex. We sleep together in the same bed and cuddle once in a while. It is just so sad. We try and talk about it but cannot get to what happened between us and how we lost our intimacy. It is just too painful and sad for us to talk and he acknowledges that. He won't go to counseling. I am going to start going next week with the intent of trying to find the courage to leave. I am very confused to. We have such great memories and built our lives together it makes it so hard to leave but at the same time I feel that every day that goes by, a piece of me is dying becasue I miss feeling loved. I know he loves me in that deep committed sense but we are more like great roomates. I have secured an apartment a couple of weeks ago ready for that next step but I just can't seem to make the move. I keep saying to him I'll stay another week, a few more days. I do not have friends in the place we live at all and am going crazy for any type of company to just get out and validate that I can have a social life. People in my work are all married or have their own lives and are older (I am in a very conservative suburban area). I do not have anyone to talk to ( my parents are deceased, I have no siblings, my best friend lives abroad and we email). I am just so very sad, confused and distraught, I break down and have anxiety attacks when I am alone and have a constant headache due to the stress. This is just the hardest thing I have ever had to face and I am in so much pain. He knows that if I leave, this is forever. He has asked I give it some more time but it's been like this for the last 5 years (I did separate for 3 years as I had a job offer in another state which I took thinking this would be our opportunity to have a break and work on things). During that time when we saw each other at weekends about once a month, I thought absence would make the heart grow fonder and it would be like dating again, and he would start to see interest in me in a physical way but it didn't happen). I never thought I could feel so much heartache and pain - the idea of divorcing is worse than mourning the death of loved ones because in death, you know the loved one is not coming back, in this situation, you know the loved one is still present. I don't know where I am going to get the strength from but something has to change soon as I know I cannot keep going on like this. I wish everyone going through such difficult times to have the courage to follow your heart even though I myself at this time do not have courage.

  • Comment Link Guest Saturday, 26 January 2013 19:58 posted by Guest

    crossroads: Can't trust him with our money or with daily issues. Lies if he thinks I will be unhappy with something. Put us into major debt on multiple occasions that our parents had to bail us out of and never explained where all the money went. Makes choices when with his friends that I don't agree with and has put me in the middle to be the bad guy. Doesn't give me attention unless I ask, doesn't "value me" unless I ask. Married 10 years in August, 3 kids, 10,7,3. I feel dead to him. We've been in counseling and he's been trying but still keeps making choices that are not ok. ex. Didn't pay mortgage for two months and told me he did. I love him. I care about him. But I can't do this anymore. On the other hand i am terrified of divorce. Scared to be a single mom. Alone. When I think of hurting him it kills me. When I think of all the emotional turmoil for me and how I am going to prevent my kids from feeling the effects...I am scared I don't know how I will do it. Has anyone been there? I keep doubting myself. Am I crazy. Will he really change this time? Etc. I know he loves me. But at the same time I also think he doesn't truly respect me. And I think he is irresponsible. I am so tired of feeling so stuck in the mud. Want to end this drama but can't.

  • Comment Link Guest Saturday, 26 January 2013 04:03 posted by Guest

    courage: I've been married for 15 years and i have 3 kids. I've gotten to the point where i can't stand my husband. We both work but he keeps all my money. I don't even know how much he makes. We always argue because he says i have a spending money. We fight cause i spend $3 for lunch or i buy the kids a candy or give them lunch money. He was very upset when i opened up my own bank account. He judges everything i do. I love to paint and when i buy a canvas we argue but when someone buys the painting and sees money coming in he says I'm a good painter. But he gives himself credit saying he thought me. He's never painted in his life. Sometimes i work 12 hour shifts n I'm tiredand i want to rest but he won't let me do that. He wants me to go to the store n buy groceries then make dinner and clean. I can't ever nap. But when he gets home from work he gets 6 hours to himself and rests. He says he makes more money and he's the king and that my job isn't hard. None of my friends go over ti visit me anymore and if they invite me anywhere he gets upset. He rather cook and keep me at home. If i do go to dinner with friends from work he calls me so many times. He always yells at the kids and makes them serve him ice cream and coke and bring him socks. He even has my daughter vacuum up his hair when he cuts his hair. He keeps track of everything i spend which isn't a Lot. Besides its my money. He looks at me with hatred but he says he loves me and that I'm never gonna leave him. He says I'm funny cause he made me funny. I can't stand him and i want out. But he thinks he's so perfect and that i need counseling. I feel so dumb for being bind this long. I thought he was perfect. What do i do???

  • Comment Link Guest Friday, 25 January 2013 23:58 posted by Guest

    Married for 10+ years and it's all in the pits: I married my wife about 10 years ago. We have 2 kids now; 4 and 8. She doesn't seem to have any affection for me anymore. No desires. No positive feelings or positive emotions for me. Plenty of negative feelings and negative emotions towards me. Both of us have 9-5 jobs and fairly stable jobs with stable incomes -- so the job stress is not there. I haven't been happy for a very long time. I have just given up trying or trying to make it work. I have given up trying to be romantic or trying to make advances or trying anything anymore. I can't figure out what to do. Is this what the beginning of divorce looks like? I have always been faithful to her. Should I just start chasing other women now? Should I file for divorce and move on? At this point I am only with her because of the kids. If it wasn't for the kids I would have left. But I don't want them to grow up without their dad and I think they love me very much and I love them. Should I suck it up and continue to live like this until both of them are adults and moved out? And then start looking for a new wife when I am in my 60's?!

    I met my wife when I was in my early 20's and she was 18. We married about 10 years later. I don't think it was ever true love right from the beginning. I always felt like I had this little thing nibbling in the back of my head that I really didn't think I loved her completely so why I am marring her? At the time I thought, well maybe that's all just normal and you grow up and accept who you are with and what you have. But how long do I continue to live this way? Hell, at this point I dont even know how I would be able to becoe single anymore. I have completely lost my ability to be charming to talk to people. The only thing I do is go running to get away from the house and the proximity of my wife.

  • Comment Link Guest Friday, 25 January 2013 23:27 posted by Guest

    Married for 10+ years and it's all in the pits: I married my wife about 10 years ago. We have 2 kids now; 4 and 8. She doesn't seem to have any affection for me anymore. No desires. No positive feelings or positive emotions for me. Plenty of negative feelings and negative emotions towards me. Both of us have 9-5 jobs and fairly stable jobs with stable incomes -- so the job stress is not there. I haven't been happy for a very long time. I have just given up trying or trying to make it work. I have given up trying to be romantic or trying to make advances or trying anything anymore. I can't figure out what to do. Is this what the beginning of divorce looks like? I have always been faithful to her. Should I just start chasing other women now? Should I file for divorce and move on? At this point I am only with her because of the kids. If it wasn't for the kids I would have left. But I don't want them to grow up without their dad and I think they love me very much and I love them. Should I suck it up and continue to live like this until both of them are adults and moved out? And then start looking for a new wife when I am in my 60's?!

    I met my wife when I was in my early 20's and she was 18. We married about 10 years later. I don't think it was ever true love right from the beginning. I always felt like I had this little thing nibbling in the back of my head that I really didn't think I loved her completely so why I am marring her? At the time I thought, well maybe that's all just normal and you grow up and accept who you are with and what you have. But how long do I continue to live this way? Hell, at this point I dont even know how I would be able to becoe single anymore. I have completely lost my ability to be charming to talk to people. The only thing I do is go running to get away from the house and the proximity of my wife.

  • Comment Link Guest Friday, 25 January 2013 02:46 posted by Guest

    Advise Please: I have the exact same story as yours , I mean EXACTLY! Except I've been married 23 years. Even your honeymoon, the ovulating thing, oh my god, everything (except for the cousin thing) My husband and I simply don't have sex, but he tells me I look "hot", he kisses me on the forehead and tells me he loves me.
    I filed for divorce 3 months ago. Nothing has gotten his attention until now. Now, he thinks that I can let go of all of he hurt and we should start, (hah!) being intimate.

    So, the divorce papers have been sitting there unsigned. He does these nice things, which makes me question myself daily. He asked me to give a marriage counselor a try. I was bawling in the Marriage Counselors office, he didn't know what to do. He had been mentally abusing me for years. I didn't say anything that he hadn't heard before in our counseling session, but it was SO nice to have a professional there. Having her there validated my feelings, it was a huge relief. I didn't feel like a crazy person anymore.

    Today, I went back to my lawyer and had her change the petition to a legal separation. It seems like it is the only way I will actually go through with this. I have been so painfully ambivalent because my husbands SEEMS like such a nice guy. The legal separation is pretty much exactly the same as a divorce, division of assets, child custody, etc. If I get the guts to change it to a divorce, everything will already be in order. The additional cost of the refiling is worth it to me, because otherwise, I may go on like this forever.

  • Comment Link Guest Friday, 25 January 2013 01:15 posted by Guest

    I am tired of trying in my marriage: I have been married for 6 years and I am just tired. I want a divorce. My husband says he will change but his change seems only temporary. When he gets mad he is so disrespectful. He calls me names and brings up that the women he cheated with are better than me. Then when he cools down he wants to say sorry and that he said everything out of anger. But when is it enough? I feel like I have been trying so hard to stay positive and try to forgive him for the way he actswactswhen he is angry. But I feel like it is never enough. How many sorry's should a women go through before she is respected. I feel like I cannot argue or share how I feel because he gets so angry. He says hurtful stuff and intimidates me. And if I am mad when he is over the argument he wants me to be over it too. And if I am not he will get mad that I am still upset. It sucks because he messed up my credit and I want a divorce but I do not know how to start. He has the money, job, and credit to move. I know I got to be strong but I just need advice or a push that I am right about getting a divorce. Your help is appreciated. Thank you

  • Comment Link Guest Thursday, 24 January 2013 21:16 posted by Guest

    Love Hurts: You deserve better. It may not come tomorrow or the next day, but you need to cut the ties now. Work on you; work on your kids. A good man will love you for that. You deserve a faithful spouse. we all do.

  • Comment Link Guest Thursday, 24 January 2013 20:35 posted by Guest

    sad and tired: My husband and I have been together almost 30 years. Yes I love him yes he is s great father but he and I no longer have anything in common and zero passion. He and I both have pretty secure jobs and our kids are in college. We haven't slept in the same bed for years. He comes home hits the couch and that's it. He has outside interests that he goes off on on the weekends boy scouts and his job is demanding. Now that the kids are gone is is so apparent. We are moreike roommates than spouses. I sit here day after day he comes home usualy after 9 pm on adverage. When we have the opportunity to go to things together he is usually already commited to something else. I can not leave it takes both our salaries to make ends meet. We have talked about how unhappy I am and he says he will try but I think. It is just the norm now. My kids will freak if we divorce. Our credit will be ruined. But am I supposed to live the rest of my life with a roommate? I am miserable but have no clue how to fix it. Is it better to live with a friend for the rest of my life or get out now? Will I be making a huge mistake or wonder why I waited?

  • Comment Link Guest Thursday, 24 January 2013 12:03 posted by Guest

    Sorry to hear you are going: Sorry to hear you are going through this. Your husband sounds like a wonderful person except for the intimacy issue. However, it is my belief that intimacy is the only true thing we can give/share to our partners that we are not supposed to share with anyone else so that's a pretty big issue to be unhappy with.

    I don't mean to be rude in asking but have you considered that your husband might be gay? I've known a couple gay men who, from the outside, look like successful, happily married heterosexual men but have no desire to be intimate with their wives (obviously) besides for procreation purposes. Have you discussed this as a potential issue?

    Another possibility is that he is suffering from some medical (even allergy!) disorder which is giving him a low libido. If you rule out the possibility that he is gay, he might consider going in to get full blood panels and allergy testing. I've heard that celiac disease (allergy to wheat) for example, can cause some CRAZY reactions in people such as infertility, etc. Something to consider...

  • Comment Link Guest Thursday, 24 January 2013 09:49 posted by Guest

    Get Out While the Gittin's Good: Like Kenny Rogers said in his famous song "The Gambler", "You got to know when to hold 'em, know when to fold 'em, know when to walk away, and know when to run." Enough is enough. Bad marriages all reach a point of no return, and there's not much reason to continue to try and hold them together. Doing it for the children isn't a valid reason any longer, because experts know that children exposed to that negative environment in the home aren't any better off than those whose parents have split. When the kids start crying every time their father comes into the room and fighting when they're expected to go home with him, you can know that there's no point in saving that relationship. Cut your losses. Being divorced can be difficult and place financial constraints on you that you haven't had to live with before, but your overall peace of mind will be a huge positive that will counteract all the negatives and make you wonder why you stuck it out as long as you did.

  • Comment Link Guest Wednesday, 23 January 2013 22:14 posted by Guest

    Of course, nobody is perfect: Of course, nobody is perfect and it is always likely a situation where both parties are bringing issues but you, as a human, deserve to be respected. It's not right that she calls you names. It seems that she is taking her misery out on you....we hurt the ones we love the most, right? However, she likely bears the weight of knowing that her miserable job helps your family so she probably feels caught between a rock and a hard place herself. Ultimately, you both need to feel known/heard. She should be able to have a non-disrespectful conversation with you regarding the burdens she bears (eg, hates job, misses kids), etc. and you should be able to have a conversation with her about your difficulties/hurts. The fact that she includes your children in the mix (by telling them how much she hates work) makes me fearful for them. There is something called a Narcissistic Parent where they elevate a child to adult status by telling them things kids shouldn't know. I'm not saying you should be dishonest with your children but what good can come of them hearing the things their Mom is saying? they are powerless to change her situation. So, she needs to take ownership of that more.

    She also seems to run hot/cold with whether to continue your relationship. Troubling that she relies so heavily on her family to allow her feelings to be swayed. Perhaps you could try to have a conversation regarding why she wants to stay in the marriage and whether things can change. Sorry for your difficult situation!

  • Comment Link Guest Wednesday, 23 January 2013 21:34 posted by Guest

    I understand what you are: I understand what you are going through. I too grew up around mental illness and I think it plays a very large part in why we pick spouses with simlilar mental illnesses. As adults, we are aways trying to correct our childhood relationships. I am 39 and have 3 kids. I stopped working (thanks to my parents not husband) and have enjoyed my time raising my kids. I pushed all the bs with my husband aside and distracted myself in my kids lives. He too is very imature. Plays video games until 4:00am:/ Other than going to work and bringing home a paycheck, he is completely useless. He works 2nd shift and dosen't see the kids till the weekend at which time he's busy on his 14 hour stretch internet game. Now that my youngest is almost 3 and I'm starting to think about getting a life again I can't help but ask myself this one question. "Can I see myself with this guy, without kids to distract, for the next 50 years of what time is left on this planet?". Guess what the anwser is? You got it...NO! So at this point I bide my time and work on putting myself in a good position. As much as it pains to go back to work, my previous question pains me far more. So here's my plan, get myself in a good position and try to encourage him to move on. With any luck he'll come home one day and tell me he met someone else...isn't that terrible! It would make things so dam easy. "Yes dear, I understand you should be happy in life". It would be like winning the lottery!

  • Comment Link Guest Wednesday, 23 January 2013 04:38 posted by Guest

    After 27 years of marriage: After 27 years of marriage and 5 children I feel, quite often, that I just want to be by myself. I imagine the glorious possibilities. I have not been employed since 1986 when our first child was born. Sometimes I think I could just get a job and move back home and take care of my elderly father but that would mean my youngest child would have to relocate to a new school and I would never put my needs before my children.

    I loved my husband so fiercely that my heart would pitter patter whenever I would see him after 20something years. Now, because of the accumulation of what I categorize as betrayal, I have lost some of that loving feeling. I, still to this day, ask him to please take a day off of work and spend it with me. Just ain't gunna happen. He looks at it as though it is being wasted just hanging out with me at home.

    I know, I know, I should just occupy my days with manicures, pedicures, shopping/lunches with friends. The thing is that he has financially ruined us. We are broke due to his decisions and I am too frugal to blow money when there are so many bills to be paid. I cook (and a fantastic one at that) clean, and garden, and I love it!

    His financial decisions are abysmal, in my opinion. He is such a hard worker, but it is all for not in the end if life passes you by. He is stubborn and will not take advice from me.

    He has never had an affair, but has hurt me in so many other ways. Drugs and drinking use to be an issue many years ago. I even caught him doing drugs on one delightful Christmas night with a female family member that had stabbed me in the back before and he knew this. My feelings were most of the time secondary to his families feelings. He had stood me up on family gatherings and would ignore me for days or weeks on end for something I said or did. When our kids were little i thought I must be the crazy one. He would do or say something and then say he didn't. These are just a few examples. Although he has changed immensely from that person and has reformed for the most part, it still hurts.

    There once was a beautiful home with a beautiful wife and beautiful children who at one time couldn't wait for him to come home even if if he seemed grumpy. There still stands the beautiful home and beautiful wife and beautiful children (some now grown and living their lives). But where once lived unconditional love now lives a bit of contempt, frustration, and indifference. How sad. They say feelings follow actions so I will continue to love this man and hope for the best.

  • Comment Link Guest Wednesday, 23 January 2013 03:12 posted by Guest

    Ditto: Ditto

  • Comment Link Guest Tuesday, 22 January 2013 22:05 posted by Guest

    Advice Please: I've been married for 14 years. Very quiet marriage. We get along very well. We don't fight and we talk through most things. Things were odd, from the get go. Before marriage, he said he wanted to wait for sex, out of respect. I made advances and he always gave in....and it was good. We got married and then nothing. No sex on the kissing....nada. We had a great time though, so I just didn't give it much attention. Then after three months, Of feeling uncertain.....I cried and talked to him. I am very open, honest and understanding. He said he wasn't sure why, but he wanted to be with me very much. That has been our marriage cycle for 14 years.
    It's important to note that he is an amazing father. We have three daughters....all were planned....."I am ovulating, let's do this". Nothing passionate....more of an act to make our children. For the times we have had sex, it's usually after I've begged or pleaded to understand why our relationship is the way it is. He'd feel bad, tell me he adores me and then try to have sex with me. It was typically getting lost in the trying to give me an he was always very insecure.
    Later years...the same thing.....sometimes losing his erection. I'd start to feel resentment. I started to feel ugly....more like disgusting. Through the years, I've learned that is not true...and he probably doesn't feel that way....infect I am sure he doesn't look at me in a negative light.
    He finally went to the my request...after a few years of asking. Everything was normal. 7 years ago I threatened to leave and he got counseling...then quit when I came back.
    We haven't slept in the same bed for years. He hasn't kissed me in at least 6 or more years.
    As crazy as this sounds....we get along great....he takes care of me....I have a spinal cord injury, I can walk and no one can tell I have it, to look at me...but, the days when I am in pain, tired or anything, he is right there for me....very nurturing. We can lay in bed, watching a movie and he'll play with my hair for hours. He's a caregiver, devoted father and a good hearted man. We are equally caring for the children. He cooks, cleans and supports all of us with his kindness. He doesn't make much money, but he's hard working.
    Last year, I saw a family friend. I've known him my whole cousins....but something changed. I've had a crush on him since the day I was born...practically. Virtually starving for attention....I asked my husband for a separation. We talked about it....I told him how I was feeling, why I was feeling it and he understood. He said he can't blame me for wanting a man to look at me that way. Again he said he wanted to change to keep me....
    That was a year ago. He hasn't tried counselling...nothing. It's like he thinks itmwillmall magically disappear. Again, we continually talk openly and honestly, but nothing changes.

    As for the cousin..I still see him. He thinks I am the most beautiful girl he's ever seen. I care deeply now...but, will not leave over that. I feel much more confident about myself. But, I am at the point where I realize this isn't the way to fix this. It helped me, through time, to realize that things can be different. I've been completely honest the entire time. Although no one knows, about our separation, except us and my cousin. I've told my sister, some girlfriends and my brother. My parents adore my husband, so I haven't gone there. I didn't want anyone else hurt, while we figure this out.

    But, I feel the time has come to make a break....from my cousin.....I don't want to leave my marriage because of him. I also realize that he makes it easier to hang on to my marriage, than to just make decisions.

    So my question is you stay and give up having sex.....but lead a good life? Or risk all the good for hopes of finding someone that can offer both? After reading all these stories, I wonder if that's possible. As for the cousin, I'd rather give that a chance, for a clean relationship, once my head is clear and my marriage is over. We all deserve that. Everything I've written, my husband knows and understands. He doesn't like it....he just knows that I've tried for years and years and now I am just trying to figure this out. I can't say that we had a passion to return to, or to make our way back to. In retrospect, it wasn't there. It was me not even understanding that a man could not be interested in sex.

    So confused.....don't want to live sexless, don't want to be alone, don't want to hurt anyone....want to be sure to not hurt our children, we are both very committed to that.

    Thanks for listening

  • Comment Link Guest Monday, 21 January 2013 18:56 posted by Guest

    I'm stuck and there's no way out! It feels like bad horror movie: Married 27 years. Husband disabled, not in a wheelchair disabled, but bad enough not to work. EVERY point on the list feels like I wrote it. Grown daughter and hubby out of work and living with us, college son living with us, grown son out on his own. I am so miserable. I can't afford counseling, not that I want marriage counseling! I just want counseling for me. What do people like me do?? I feel like if I saw me in a movie I still wouldn't know what to tell me. My college son wants me to go back to college, but I don't have time. I feel like I'm waiting to be rescued. Isn't that silly?? My husband is the most annoying person on the planet. I can't even expand on that because I feed nauseous just talking about him. Is this what I do? Live out the rest of my life feeling lucky that at least I have a home and wonderful children who love me 100%? I'm at my wits end. I always thought that I'd leave after the kids were grown, having been thinking that since my oldest was 6 weeks old and his true colors started to come out. Now I don't know what to think.

  • Comment Link Guest Monday, 21 January 2013 09:33 posted by Guest

    Thank you, there of course: Thank you, there of course has been more added to this story since the other day. He took a hand full of sleeping pills and currently is in the pych ward. He seems to think he has changed. Personally I believe he wants to get better but thats not going to change my feelings toward him. I think that now would be a good time to talk to my lawyer :/. Thank you for all of your advice it has helped make my decision so much easier for me.

  • Comment Link Guest Monday, 21 January 2013 02:34 posted by Guest

    Acceptance and Regret(Husband's Predicament) : From reading this the first time and having raw emotions pour out I can safely say I can relate to a lot of the things on here from myside as well as my wife's. we've been though we've been together for 4 years now, I can safely say that I neglect her basic need for attention. We never really started off on the right foot. I met her on new years and she was moving back to her country. I ended up closing my startup and moved there with her to continue our relationship. Sounds romantic? It was.

    She is beautiful, intellectual, and dynamic and had a real penchant for going out and enjoying life. I just getting out of a 5 year relationship was looking for exactly that. But, was trying to still be friends with my ex, non-sexual. We mutually agreed to break-up as we just grew apart. We had gone through a lot and she(my ex) had some emotional issues and I didn't want to hurt her. I attempted to be friends with her, even while dating my now wife. 6 mos into dating my now-wife found out and it really blew up in my face, rightfully so. I apologized and cut off any relationship with my ex. but it definitely created a trust issue for her early on and had persisted throughout our marriage.

    We came back to the US since I had a better chance at job security and legal paperwork. I started to cut friends out from my life who she would feel that there would not be a trust issue. This mainly cut out all my female friends and a male friends, limiting my exposure to only people she felt comfortable with. At first I minded but I started to think from her position and wanted us to be happy together. I gave her full access to my computer, email and phone - I didn't have anything to hide. Though when you're lazy to clean out messages that could be misinterpreted definitely caught me a few times and caused a lot of grief.

    As time passed, she would bring up our past when interrogating me about females that I was friends with. She would routinely drink when she got upset. It allowed her coup with her feelings, but it also enraged her more. At first, I just took it and put my head down and attempted to apologize for past mistakes. But she wouldn't relent. But then a calm would hit and things would be back to normal. She always enjoyed a drink or two and we went out a lot. But as she would drink I would be scared to go home because I knew she was going to get emotional and just pour everything at me - good or bad. When it was bad I'd get awful name calling and a few times she would hit me. One time I reacted and tried to kick her out of the apt. That's when it was really bad. I had never gotten that worked up before. I knew then we should have separated, but it had only been about a year and a half and I thought time would heal our problems. For a little while it did.

    Unfortunately, the early battles left emotional scars between us and I recognized that though we loved each other throughly, her trust issue never could heal. I started to associate her drinking with a fight and started to resent her. Little fights were blown out of proportion. I'm not blameless, I'm not all that romantic and my humor is pretty sarcastic, which to her was borderline hurtful. My approach to an apology is more of and I'm sorry I won't do it again. Than a grovel on my knees and get read the riot act. On top of that me and thoughtfulness don't really coexist. Though I do care when gently pushed. I've gotten better, flowers and a few love notes here and there, but recently they have been more negative reflection notes of our relationship or journal entries that illustrate regrets from the fight before.

    Now, I realize I've really complicated our relationship by hiding my attempted friendship with my ex. It's caused her hurt and pain, but I thought she would have by now moved on. But there are moments when they popup from her caused by something I'd say or some action on FB to make her think I was interested in another person. I know I'm wrong and have attempted to justify my actions in the heat of the fight. I regret a lot of things, but think she'd be better off without me. She's on course for a great job that would help her reach her dreams, but in another country. We just moved to Europe to be closer to her family and if she takes this job we'd have to be long distance for quite some time. On top of that I really don't want to move to the country her job is in.

    I love her and i think she still loves me, but all the fights and separations has worn thin between us. I'm going through regret for suggesting that she leave, but when I look at it - it only makes sense. She'd be able to chase her career dream without me and my insecurities holding her back. She'd be even closer to her family and friends. She'd have no problem finding another person who could fullfil her needs, or at least would start a relationship with trust in tact. At first, I was wondering if could get advise, but the more I read this I'm realizing that we need to separate/divorce. No matter how amazing our love is and how outwardly "compatible" we were. Inside we were broken early on and never found the right glue to fix things. Perhaps my question to the group would be how do deal with regret or loss when you feel/know you've caused the downfall of your relationship.

  • Comment Link Guest Saturday, 19 January 2013 23:08 posted by Guest

    sorry to hear: have you tried counseling? Women like to express their feelings and what can seem like negativity to you can be just venting. I would give it another go for the sake of your kids. Although insulting your spouse in any manner is unacceptable. She shouldn't degrade you because of your choice. It sounds like she's jealous. I also assume she feels trapped in that job because of income. Come i up with a plan that involves both of you and her finding a new job.

  • Comment Link Guest Saturday, 19 January 2013 21:52 posted by Guest

    Run: Run

  • Comment Link Guest Saturday, 19 January 2013 21:35 posted by Guest

    Trying to help: Hello Friend,
    I read your story and I understand how your husband might be upset that the police was called by your friend. If police were called for anything someone would get upset; however, he frightened children and your friends. I understand why they were called and stand behind you. I would be very fearful with a man who stabs himself PERIOD. You both have children and their needs must come first. He tried getting you in trouble...that would have been years in jail for you. What scares me most is what if he loses his temper with you. This is a form of abuse on you!!! on your family...on all those around. He did not get the help he needed in a week. You need to think this long and hard and deep inside you know that you love him and because of that you might not want to leave 100% but you do know that you can't stay with this either. Don't stay in something that could possibly physically hurt you or maybe kill you! I am soooo sorry that you and your children have to go through this!


  • Comment Link Guest Saturday, 19 January 2013 15:23 posted by Guest

    Calling it quits: Me and my wife have been married 6 years. We have 2 small children. Due to my schedule I am with the kids more and am a good dad. She makes a lot more money than me at a job she hates. She can't stand it that I like what I do for a living. She blames me for everything that makes her unhappy. All she talks about is negative things at work. She tells the kids she hates work and wishes she could stay with them. I told her to quit and stay home with the kids and I would get a second job. I just didn't want to hear her complain about there not being enough money or never getting to see me. I've been putting up with it a couple years now. She calls me lazy and pathetic and tells me I need to step it up and be a man. I left her 2 days ago and she changed the locks and took the kids with her to her parents house. This morning she called me and begged me not to leave her. Her parents keep bringing up old arguments we've had and she changes her mind and wants it over. My family thinks she will never change and I should cut my losses. I just want to be around my kids as much as I can. Last time we talked she wanted me back. What should I do?

  • Comment Link Guest Saturday, 19 January 2013 14:43 posted by Guest

    I just don't see things changing: Me and my wife have been married 6 years. We have 2 small children. Due to my schedule I am with the kids more and am a good dad. She makes a lot more money than me at a job she hates. She can't stand it that I like what I do for a living. She blames me for everything that makes her unhappy. All she talks about is negative things at work. She tells the kids she hates work and wishes she could stay with them. I told her to quit and stay home with the kids and I would get a second job. I just didn't want to hear her complain about there not being enough money or never getting to see me. I've been putting up with it a couple years now. She calls me lazy and pathetic and tells me I need to step it up and be a man. I left her 2 days ago and she changed the locks and took the kids with her to her parents house. This morning she called me and begged me not to leave her. Her parents keep bringing up old arguments we've had and she changes her mind and wants it over. My family thinks she will never change and I should cut my losses. I just want to be around my kids as much as I can. Last time we talked she wanted me back. What should I do?

  • Comment Link Guest Saturday, 19 January 2013 13:25 posted by Guest

    6.5 years: My husband and I have been married for six and a half years, like most reltionshipd ours hasn't been perfect. Recently we had some friends over to the house for some wine and cards my husband got mad about something. I still don't know what and punched a hole in the bedroom wall, then he punched out the cloaet doors. Well our children were home and my friends daughter was also there. My husband stumbled outside to smoke a cigarette and my friend locked him out of the house and told him to go to his moms and sleep it off. Well he didn't and started pounding on the door he ended up hitting so hard that he broke out the window. My friend called the police and they took him over to his friends house after hearing what happened. Well two hours later he had walked back to the house and was pounding on the bedroom window. I called the police and the came and got him and took him to jail. A week after that incident we were back together and he had apologized. Well he goes to his friends house the following weekend wheb he comes home he is ranting about how my friend had no right to call the police, and grabbed me by the neck. He then went into the bathroom and stabbed himself in the stomach twice and called the police and told the police i had done it. Luckly my dad was there and everyone knew that i didnt do it but now he wants me to take him back and he says he has gotten help but I dont feel comfortable around him. Any suggestions?

  • Comment Link Guest Friday, 18 January 2013 20:53 posted by Guest

    I just wanted to tell you it: I just wanted to tell you it seems like your husband might be involved with someone else. For him to want to give up so easy. Also if you guys dont come to an agreement about the kids than that will definetly push him away. You have to allow your Husband to feel like a man Trust me I have been through this and I learned the hard way. Most of all you have to pray to our loving God above nothing is impossible for him. Good Luck

  • Comment Link Guest Friday, 18 January 2013 09:20 posted by Guest

    Re: HELP!!!!!!!!!! married for 9 years: Please help!! I have been married for 9 years. I am tired of trying to get through to my husband what my needs emotionally are. I need compassion, support, compliments. Show me you love me!! I have dealt with Bipolar and Depression all my life. I am not the most pleasant person lately either. We have 2 kids. Yes I am not confident a lot of the time. It is like most of the majority of the time any sort of affection needs to be coaxed out of him. We are both 36, I myself think he is childish for his and can be immature. I get my needs met by him at a point then he stops because it is like he forgets, then he starts to just kinda be here and of course then the immaturity and what not rub me the wrong way and he ends up that way and rude and like kidding around all the time like we are just buds. It is so annoying!!!!!! I am beginning to be so annoyed and irritated by him being so childish, and not listening to me. What in the world can I do anymore??? I am so tired of trying!!!!!! It has been many years of trying! I get my needs met, as if he makes that happen then I am so happy and you know like high but then as he stops and starts being disrespectful and rude and childish, then it is like WHAT????

  • Comment Link Guest Thursday, 17 January 2013 06:58 posted by Guest

    He says he loves me but wants a divorce???: I am so confused right now. My husband and I have been together for 9 years and married for 8. I love him with all my heart. He says I'm not the person I use to be, the fun, outgoing, confident woman he fell in love with. I admit, I do not feel the same way about myself. I've gained about 30 pounds (I have severe rheumatoid arthritis in my spine making daily activities sometimes difficult). We do have fun together (unless you ask him) but we also argue. He can be a bully but he can also be very loving. When I took my vows I meant them... for better or worse. My father just passed away on Thanksgiving and it's been hard. A couple weeks later my husband moved out, said he still loves me but needs some space. He said we fight too much and he's had enough. What do we fight about? Mainly my kids. I have 3 kids (20,18, and 12) and he has 1 (12). Most of our arguments are based on kids issues. He wanted me to seek counseling for "myself". So I did and I still am. I go every week to work on why I have no confidence or self esteem. I feel it working. I feel I am seeing the "why". He had even offered to go with me so we could work on us. He has only gone once so far. I guess the straw that broke the camels back was 2 empty cigarette packs were found in my sons (he was 17 at the time) room even after numerous times of being told "no cigarettes in our house". My husband blew a gasket and tossed his room. Everything went to the middle of the room. When I got home my husband told me what happened and I made the comment that "he was going to be 18 soon and we can't stop him from smoking (outside of our house)". I get it... he intentionally defied us. I didn't agree with the extent that he destroyed his room (things did get broken) but it is what it is. My husband moved out. He has still been coming around almost everyday and tells me he loves me. By the way... our 8th anniversary is this coming Tuesday. Last night he came to our house to fix the furnace. He sent my daughter upstairs and proceeded to tell me that this just isn't working. He still loves me but it's not going to work. What? How can you say I love you but it's not going to work even before you have given counseling a good try? I don't know what to do. I don't want a divorce. I don't think our marriage is beyond saving. Too many times people throw their marriages away like trash. I'm not saying stay together regardless but at least give it a good effort. He loved me unconditionally once... can't he feel that way again?

  • Comment Link Guest Tuesday, 15 January 2013 14:34 posted by Guest

    I decided: I finally decided to talk with her and tell her it is over. I thought about it a great deal. To come to this conclusion, I asked myself these three questions:

    1. Would I marry her again if I had it to do all over? My answer unequivocably was no. We are two very different people with different values. I can't change her because it's who she is. Her way isn't right, and my way isn't right, it's just that we are too different to not have a continual strain in our relationship.

    2. Would I be happier with her or without her? I thought about this and determined I would be happier without her. Even if I end up living alone, I will be much, much happier in the long run.

    3. Does she make my life better or worse, easier or more difficult? I thought about this one, too, for quite some time. I thought about all the things I do for her, and how little she really does for me. I thought about a recent weekend when I used my powersaw to cut up a tree that had fallen down in the yard, then came inside and took out the cat litter, vacuumed and mopped the kitchen, then vacuumed our bedroom and cleaned our bathroom. During all of this time, she was working on uncluttering one room. One room. She makes my life so much more difficult, every single day.

    This was a tough decision. I still love her as a person, but am no longer in love with her. I also know the love I had for her has mostly turned to resentment and anger.

  • Comment Link Guest Monday, 14 January 2013 13:38 posted by Guest

    If he can afford an affair he: If he can afford an affair he can afford to take you out on a date.

  • Comment Link Guest Monday, 14 January 2013 12:44 posted by Guest

    So sick and tired of my husband: I am so sick and tired of being sick and tired of my husband. We have been married 3 years and things have been more down than up. I have three children( a son-13, girl-11, girl-6). My son is a special needs child who is developmentally delayed he does not walk or talk. Me and my husband got married and before we did I tried to tell him things about my past that he needed to know about me but he refuse to listen until my brother called me an inappropriate name to get a feeling out of him; anyway he has not gotten that out of his head and it's been three years now. My husband has means of money that he gets every month but he also works; I just recently graduated from college and gotten my B.S. degree and I work part-time at the same job I've had 6 years and it does not pay good but its work. My husband does not save money. Lately he has been working and whining about his job and he works away from home and my husband has always been a womanizer, he loves women but claims now that he is so in love with me. I know he cheats on me but just haven't caught him; when he comes home he turns his cell phone off, but wants to know why my phone isn't ringing or always making comments about my phone. I don't cheat on my husband and don't ever plan to, but I know he is. He has not saved any money, when I got money he always want my money. Our anniversary was last month and he didn't give me anything because he said he owed the hotel that he was staying in for phone usage ( I don't believe him). He is constantly texting me and wanting to know what I am doing and trying to keep up with me. I like that fact that he works away because I am starting to feel like resentment towards him when he is around and really I am feeling like I can't stand my husband I hate him and that's not a good feeling. He is good with the children but he is such an asshole at times to the whole family. My mother stayed with us for six months and it was his idea but last month he decided he was not going to pay rent because my mom was there and he really put the family in a bind and I have hated him for that every since and can't get over it. He wouldn't want me to treat his mother that way, he lies so much and always trying to manipulate the situations and turns things on me like its my fault. I just wish he would just walk away from me and leave, but I know he want, I just want out of this marriage and it is going to be hard. We have a new car together and both of our names is on the car but he does not have drivers license. I am so confused and I know this is going to be a big mess to divorce this man, he is diagnosed as being pyschosis and I'm a little bit scared of him. I just need to get away me and my children but don't know what to do.

  • Comment Link Guest Monday, 14 January 2013 07:36 posted by Guest

    Divorce her. : Get divorced. You obviously do not want to be married. You invite another over to your home where you and your wife sleep then have "amazing sex". But it's just "ok" with your wife she left because the man who promised to love her forever developed feelings for another woman she was hurt and you apologized by f$&@ing your coworker. Definitely divorce her she deserves better I'm not putting u down for your decisions because you both deserve to be happy I'm just saying don't be that selfish if u want something else then go after it but free your wife so she can have that same opportunity.

  • Comment Link Guest Sunday, 13 January 2013 20:38 posted by Guest

    Love hurts: I think I should do the divorce thing. But I am so confused because I love my husband so so much. We have been together for nearly 20 years, high school sweethearts. We have just about everything in common, we never fight, I truly feel like he completes me. Unfortunately I do not complete him. We have two adorable babies, a nice house, and both come from " broken" homes. My husband complains of an emptiness but says he loves me. He complains that I am unhappy with him and deserve better. The problem is he has affairs, long ones, he falls in love with them but then quickly falls out of love and back in love with me. The trouble is we never have time for each other and we are broke. So we can't afford a sitter to do date night. I am crazy to even consider staying with him after this current affair. But I don't want to raise the kids the way I was and that was without a dad. I know it will just happen again. He likes the excitement of the affair. But if I leave him he will be helpless, he can't afford life without me. I don't want to leave him a mess, what would my kids think? Plus I will probably never meet anyone new. I am not outgoing, my husband was my only love affair, and I have two young babies. He hasn't even thought about breaking it off with this new lady. He says he wants to see where it goes! But when I pack up all his stuff he says he doesn't want to leave me? I need some super hero strength to get me through this. Has anyone tried support groups or anything? All my friends are happily married so they are no help. And my parents and his are all spiteful divorcees. I want to keep our friendship for the sake of the kids. He is staying with this stupid lady right now but won't move his stuff. Should I just drop it off at her house? But then he will be mad and for the kids sake I don't want him to cease speaking to me! What the heck am I suppose to do??? I am ready to just move out of the house and leave his stuff here. But then again I still love him!!! I need help!

  • Comment Link Guest Sunday, 13 January 2013 14:09 posted by Guest

    so sad: It sounds like you thought you found prince charming. With a completely dimented side.
    He kind of sounds like my husband. Sometimes so wonderful you feel like you've met your true love.
    You told the previous person to get out while she can. Honey take your own advice. Life is way too
    to be thinking of what you shouldve done when you had the chance. You know you love him and you always will.
    But don't you deserve happiness? Please find the courage inside yourself to do what you know you need to.
    Don't be 60yrs old saying "what the hell did I do with my life"

  • Comment Link Guest Sunday, 13 January 2013 05:03 posted by Guest

    I am so sorry to hear your: I am so sorry to hear your story! But it is a carbon-copy of mine - at the beginning. But mine became so much worse. Please do not stay with him. It will escalate and he will hurt you seriously. I know! My Egyptian husband was (I thought) my soul mate, the true love I had always looked for. Handsome, smart, witty, charming, kind and loving. But it turned out to be the most evil, horrid 5 years of living hell!! He cost me $15,000 +, he broke my things, he broke my body, he choked me, etc. but it all just started with: "i ask him for kind words and romance he tells me he wont worship me,he yelled and blamed and cursed me that i wanted him to be an orphan and i ran his family away,he then tells me i am the reason his life is miserable that i steal his joy that i want to make him a prisoner he just says horrible things to me,I have asked him 3 times now to work on our marriage and see a consular he refuses and says he dont believe in them and we must work it out on our own". These were the EXACT words of my husband! The crazy thing is....he started running around and hooking up with local online sex sites. Meeting these women and I was afraid of getting a disease. I stuck by him, I was totally devoted to him. But it was never enough.....after he is cheating on me, he accuses me (even now) of sleeping around. Im not his wife!!! So, so controlling. Honey, get out while you still can!!

  • Comment Link Guest Sunday, 13 January 2013 00:38 posted by Guest

    Run girl as fast as you can: Run girl as fast as you can he will never choose you over his family based on what you described. Your mother inlaw hits you you're an American stand up for yourself hit the b***h back

  • Comment Link Guest Saturday, 12 January 2013 12:28 posted by Guest

    Married/dont know what to do: Ok here is my story, I will make it as short as I can. When I was 16, I had a kid, I was a single mom and I struggled everyday, wanted to find that perfect man. Then I was 19 and had another baby, my childs father turned out to be a liar (surprise) and I was soon a single mom again. I worked all the time, had my own place, but I struggled a lot with being a single mom and wanting better for my kids. 5 years ago I met a man who was great, so I thought. I met my now husband through an online thing, immediately fell for him when he was dancing with one of my kids, and nervous to see the other one (who was on vacation and coming home) I got pregnant 2 months after we met, (b/c didn't work) and after only 3 months, found out he was cheating on me.

    It was hard but I tried to deal with it, at 6 months in, I found out he was trying to sleep with the next door neighbor at our apartment complex. Yet I tried to forgive and we got married, I loved him. He cooked for me, the kids, he took them to the bus stop, he watched them anytime I wanted to leave, basically aside from the cheating, he was the dad my kids never had, and the man I loved but was starting to hate a little bit. Well we struggled financially, he had no job, I was working, then at my 8 month pregnant mark, I lost my job. I have always wanted more for my kids so I signed up for school, then my husband did, his schedule conflicted with mine and we had no childcare, so I stayed home. 2 years later, I started school. In that time we moved into a house, still he had no job but we made it work.

    Then I found out he was cheating on me again, making fake profiles, etc. Anyways, we tried to make it work, but he started calling me everytime he was gone, texting me, and I mean so much I didn't even answer my phone. I asked fr a seperation. Soon he was texting me more and coming over, and I loved him, a week later we were back together. He ended up getting a good job and now we live in a nice house, all the kids have their own rooms, and we have separated once here, for a month. My problem is, I don;t know if I should not be happy. He does things like he deals with me (im bi-polar) he cleans, he cooks (I do too but he helps) he takes the kids to school, he is excited for their school plays, functions, he asks how their day was, etc but he doesn't really spend time with them, his job makes it to where he is gone a lot (which I can handle easy) but when he is home, I expect him to play with the kids, and go do things with us like go to the park or whatever, instead he has an attitude, the last time he watched the kids he had them in bed 3 hours early because he didnt want to deal with them.

    , he calls me at least 60 times a time, texts me non stop, if I don't answer he calls my mom, my friends. He is constantly telling me he loves me and wants to know if our relashonship is going to work even if all I did was get mad over something stupid. I have no private time, if I go in the room, he needs to put something away, if I am mad and don't want to talk, he follows me into the bathroom or the bedroom or whereever I am. I can easily make it seem like he is a bad guy, but at the same time, he does little things for me like makes me coffee when I wake up, brings a blanket out and puts it on the couch for me so i don't get cold if I want to come out and be lazy, tells me I am pretty even when I am sick and have no makeup on, but it seems like everything he does, he just does because its our normal life.

    I don't like having sex with him, everything he does makes me angry, even if he had good intentions, I feel like sometimes I am going crazy because he can be such a nice guy, but he is too needy. He has recently been yelling at me and calling me names and waking me up to yell. I say I dont want to argue in front of the kids, yet that is all they hear, every day. I am happy when he is not home, but I am afraid of doing it all again. If he leaves, I lose my house (I can't afford my rent/bills) and I go back to an apartment with the kids, and then what? Honestly I don't know what to think anymore, I don't know if I love him, I don't miss him, recently we went down so I could see my family on an extended visit, I stayed for 19 days, I didnt miss him once....what is wrong?

  • Comment Link Guest Wednesday, 09 January 2013 18:53 posted by Guest

    been there done that: Hey, look I was 14 when I began to see my exhusband. We had two kids and at 25 it felt as if he was my brother. He also wasn't affectionate and never really paid much attention to me. So I met a guy while I was married and we were just planning on being lovers yet we fell in love. I felt so good with him and he felt so good with me. So I divorced my ex and eventually married him. Though I never had regreted divorcing my ex, going into this marriage based on an affair screwed my life up. This isn't working out any better. Honestly, I think you should divorce. But don't keep a relationship with the coworker. Start a new relationship on the right foot and right grounds. The affair is cursed! Trust me

  • Comment Link Guest Wednesday, 09 January 2013 09:41 posted by Guest

    time to divorce?: I have been married 2 years, ours is a marriage a little different than most. I am American and my husband is an Egyptian, I married him and moved to Egypt for over a year. in that time his mother tried to divorce us, the stress of home and money almost killed us, and the cultural differences are something else all together. my husband and I started to have problems very early on, i suffer from anxiety and well living with his family was miserable 24/7 i began to retreat into myself i stopped eating and became skin and bone, and fought with my husband day and night. 4 months ago we moved to Abu Dhabi as my husband took a physicians job there. so i was so sure that this was the break we were looking for and a much needed stress reliever, Wrong his family also lives here and have for 30 years so they all ended up at our house whenever they wanted, and in this culture there is no boundaries its considered rude and is not tolerated but being from the west we love our boundaries. so problems once again came about. his mother would come and tell me i was ugly and my hair is wrong ( I have natural curly hair) and i should make it straight and i have to wear makeup and i must dress different as i am the wife of a DR. people will judge my husband on the way I look. she would hit me and tell me Erin your husband will leave you he dont want a girl like you. so when i told my husband this is not right and i cannot and will not take it anymore i told him put boundaries with your family and make them go away for a month so we can work on us and focus on our marriage, the whole month he yelled and blamed and cursed me that i wanted him to be an orphan and i ran his family away, but these past few weeks I really just cant take it anymore I find we have grown apart so much, i ask him for kind words and romance he tells me he wont worship me. i have begun to hate him despise him and tell him i want a divorce. he then tells me i am the reason his life is miserable that i steal his joy that i want to make him a prisoner he just says horrible things to me so now i am pissed hurt and in tears so i in turn respond badly, and the cycle continues I just dont know what to do anymore... I have asked him 3 times now to work on our marriage and see a consular he refuses and says he dont believe in them and we must work it out on our own. but we cant cause we cant stand eachother. I really wish things could go back to the way they were but sadly I believe its time for a divorce the hurt is just to much, he refuses to change and i cant be what he wants he wont work on himself and wants to point the finger at me. i suppose if thats what it takes to make him feel better but for me I just live in misery and that is no life marriage is supposed to be a loving good thing not a painful hurtful thing

  • Comment Link Guest Tuesday, 08 January 2013 18:07 posted by Guest

    Only you can decide: Your husband is a duplicate of mine. I too feel like a have a roommate, not a husband. We got married very young (21 and 22). We have been married for 13 years and we separated per my demand about 8 months ago. I was starving for affection and conversation. My husband spent hours on the video/game and rarely talked. I'm a sociable person who craves stimulating conversation. I feel like over the past 13 years I have been slowly dying. I have completed my divorce papers, but have not filed yet. I keep asking my mom and whoever else will listen, what to do. People say,"well, he hasn't cheated on you or beaten you up so you've got it made." I think deep down he is as unhappy as me. I think we are both afraid to stand on our own and move on. Of course I love him, but this feels like a waste. I want passion, love , fun and fulfillment with my mate. Is that too much too ask. You need to realize that this is your life. No one can make this decision for you. You cannot be guided by fear. You have to listen to your inner self, your instincts. It is not selfish to want happiness. This is the hardest decision i have ever had to make and I am scared to death. I take comfort in knowing I am not alone and I hope you do too. Good Luck

  • Comment Link Guest Monday, 07 January 2013 22:54 posted by Guest

    I'm in the same situation,: I'm in the same situation, but the difference is I've been in this situation for ten years. I'm only 28 and feel very very unhappy at times, but for some reason I can't let go. So you are not alone there are many women that are in the same situation. Since this is a new year, I decided to really have a talk with him and just let it go. It will be hard but I have to do it. Is not healthy for my children or myself. Talk to people that you can trust and ask for their opinion, but not everyone because most people don't care. I hope you feel better and make the best decision.

  • Comment Link Guest Monday, 07 January 2013 14:24 posted by Guest

    a reply to separated and confused...: Hi
    I read your post and would like to give my personal opinion on this due to the fact that I am going through a divorce and my husband did to me what you did to your wife. Not meaning that as an attack, but just a way to let you know I can relate to your wife's need and wants to make the marriage work and partly out of feeling rejected. I would suggest that if you have had an affair and still have feelings for this other woman than you need to spare your wife of the possible hurt in the future of you straying and end it while it's easier for the both of you being separated. You are not in love with your wife and if you were to get back together with her it would only be for the convenience or for the kids sake; and trust me that will never work if it's not for the passion and love you have for one another. You were married to this woman for 9 years and if you are still unsure even when you are not with the other woman...then it sounds to me like you have lost feelings and your love for your wife. It sounds like you are not happy with your wife and you are looking for something or someone to fill an emptiness inside and you may be attached to her familiarity but as far as you being in love it sounds like that's a NO, and why be married if you're not in love? What a waste of life. You are searching for something and it sounds like your wife is not what you want in a marriage. I feel for her because I am on that receiving end and it's really hurtful but we all get through it and it always makes a person stronger :) Move on and maybe you both can be friends for the childrens sake in the future but save yourself and her the hurt of a nasty divorce in the future. I hope that helped.

  • Comment Link Guest Monday, 07 January 2013 02:36 posted by Guest

    divorce is best for your: divorce is best for your addiction? Of course she pushes you away.. See you probably never felt the pain of adultery so you don't understand what kind of hurt she endured from your "addiction" so you call it. If you can't stop having sex with other people then she needs to get ths divorce or just do her a favor and divorce her! Even if you try and work on it trust me there will be bitterness, hostility,and probably nightmares like I had in my marriage where I wake up and want to chop things off BC I'm so disgusted.

  • Comment Link Guest Sunday, 06 January 2013 07:42 posted by Guest

    Well Done for moving out.: Well Done for moving out. What strength to have stayed so long. You deserve better. No one deserves to be treated like this. You have done the right thing removing yourself and children from this situation. I would encourage you to get some counseling to regain your self worth, confidence and strength. Stay away !

  • Comment Link Guest Sunday, 06 January 2013 05:18 posted by Guest

    Is It Time?: My husband and I have been married for almost 10 years. We have had some really rough times. He was active duty and deployed several times. His last deployment he was hurt, that was in 2006. He is now medically retired from the Army. He does have some lasting issues with his back but works as a Firefighter/EMT. Since getting out of the Army, I feel like he has just given up on himself. He has gained almost 80 pounds. I have a very demanding job as well. I am an officer for the State. I work out and try very hard to take care of myself. The longer we are together the worse things seem to get. I cannot get him to bathe, brush his teeth, or wear clean clothes most of the time. He has started smoking again but tries to hide it from me. We have 5 year old little girl that we both love dearly and I do not want her to think that behavior is acceptable. The thought of him touching me almost makes me gag. I would not mind the weight so much if he was clean! I have tried to get him to eat better and go to the gym with me, but nothing seems to work. He lacks all motivation other than sitting on the couch eating everything is sight. We have separated a couple times in the past. I filed for divorce in 2009, when without discussing it with me, he chose to take a private contract and go back over seas. We got back together a couple months after he came home. I am so burned out. I, however, have this huge amount of guilt that if I take our daughter and leave can he function? I feel like the moment I start talking he tunes me out. He says all I do is nag about him. I have started sleeping in the spare room because, well, he stinks and I find it disgusting. I feel terrible for even saying it. We have tried several different things. He does have PTSD but refuses to go talk to his counselor. I cannot fix him. I try to get him to help around the house but he does not budge. I work 50+ hours a week and he still expects me to play Suzie Home Maker. In two years, I started and graduated with honors with my Bachelor of Science. While attending school, I worked two full time jobs while he was unemployed most of the time. He does work full time now, but I am still working my regular job, a part-time job and working on my Masters. I work part-time because when it comes to our daughter needing new clothes, shoes, or school things I always pay for them. He has a serious EBay shopping addiction and refuses to show me the amount he spends. We now have separate checking and savings account because it is so out of control. I still feel the need to save him. I look at him and he is nothing but a shell of the man I fell in love with. I feel like I am raising a very large kid and my little girl.

    At what point do I give up? Will my guilt ever go away? Or am I a terrible wife of a vet?

  • Comment Link Guest Saturday, 05 January 2013 09:52 posted by Guest

    Seperated and still confused : I have been married for 9 years and recently seperated from wife 5 months ago. I have one daughter who is 6 years old. I was always a faithful husband until recently. I developed a crush for a coworker about a year ago. I revealed this to my fellow coworker and the feeling was mutual. We began texting and talking for months. I really began to have strong feelings for her. My wife eventually found out and she moved out to a apartment of her own even though nothing physical had happened yet. The day my wife moved out the coworker came over to my house, and we had amazing sex. We continued to text and sleep together for about 2 months. Then some coworkers found out and the affair ended. I still have feelings for the coworker. My wife and I have continued to have sex even though we our seperated. We our going to marital counseling about once a week. My wife works at a hospital so she works every other weekend. So throughout my marriage I felt like a single dad. She is not very affectionate at all. She is also 7 years older than me. The coworker was 10 years younger. I am 35 and take care of myself physically in good shape. I am trying to figure out what I want to do. She wants to work things out, but I am not sure. I told her if we get back together she must not work weekends and she seems ok with this. I would like to also mention that sex with her was always ok, but she never slept in the same bed with me the entire marriage , because she says I snore too much . Need to make decision to stay married or to get divorced. I do enjoy living alone. I always craved for alone time when I was married.

  • Comment Link Guest Friday, 04 January 2013 18:45 posted by Guest

    Can't handle it!: I've been married for 2 1/2 years. All the signs were there before i married him and should have known to follow my instincts but I guess I was hoping for change and hoping for a better future. My husband has a very bad anger problem. I believe he has misplaced anger from his past with his parents parting. The majority of our marriage has been verbally, emotionally, and at times physically abusive. I stuck it out. The past year I've found myself to feel lonely, angry, sad, and resentment towards him. I've always been such a fun and worry free person. This past year I've noticed I've fallen out of love and by trying to find happiness and finding my inner beauty i started to to take pics of myself. Once he saw that he automatically assumed I was sharing them with someone. I did a Pin Up Photo shoot and made a book with my pics just for him as a Christmas present. I ended up sharing them with a couple of friends. He is so jealous and insecure he has took it to another level. Became a person I never knew. Found out that the people I've shared with gay boss, and a friend who's wife does pin up. Now that he found a way where he's no longer the bad guy he is slandering my name by calling me a whore, slut, and calling my main bosses stating i'm having an affair with people at work. Before all this he even went as far as GPS'ing my where abouts, hacking into my email, and calling my call log from my cell phone asking everyone how long they've known me and what our relationship is. I've not cheated on my husband, It's not crossed my mind or even bare the thought of living with that guilt. He's even took it as far as telling our children I'm mean to him and to be on his side. All this has brought me major anxiety attacks that I've never experienced and a major push back. He has pushed me so far away I moved out with our children because I don't only think it's healthy for them or I to be around but it is also not safe. I can no longer handle it. He has taken everything to extreme that I can't see myself trying to or wanting to fix this. Is this a means for divorce?

  • Comment Link Guest Friday, 04 January 2013 01:22 posted by Guest

    Your story: Hello,

    Your story sounds painful. I am writing to you because I not only feel for you, I myself have a similar situation with my life. If your husband cared enough about your marriage he would pay more attention to your feelings. The biggest problem is that your parenting children who don't belong to you. I know the feeling and I hate it. No matter what, you will ALWAYS be wrong. The kids don't respect you and neither does he. Money shouldn't stop you. I feel like a damn hypocrite because I am also a step parent to kids who don't respect me. My wife and I have become far disconnected. I myself am out of options. Continue to talk with him and let him know your unhappy. Explain to him you are not to be treated as the enemy. You are his wife and if he still has feelings for his past then he needs to be honest with you. I'd tell you my story but your going through enough. Best of luck.


  • Comment Link Guest Thursday, 03 January 2013 23:39 posted by Guest

    My husband and I have been: My husband and I have been married for just a few years. I wish I could say that they have been great but they have not been even good. 10 days after our vows I found out he owed over $10,000 to the state we lived in. He knew he owed that much but hid it until we were married because he knew I would have forced him to pay it before I said I do. I, freaked out and cleared out half my savings to pay his debt, after paying for the wedding he wanted. Yes I was pissed about the money, hurt about the lies, and fiddled with the idea of an anolment. I stuck it out and we slowly built up his credit. We are finally in a good place with money, and about a year and a half ago decided to try have a baby. After a year of trying we found out that it was my fault. We talked about doing the treatments, I did not want to, but he did. So we tried the drugs, three levels of them. The sad thing is, I had to push for him to sleep with me before, once I was on the drugs it was impossible. He pushed for me to take them, I cried, I begged, and I pleaded with him to understand my side, but he never tried. He got his way and he wouldn't come near me! I stopped taking the drugs a few months ago, and he was mad at me for being so selfish, I told him to ask me to take the horrible drugs and then not even do his part was just as selfish. I know my vows, but I want out.

  • Comment Link Guest Thursday, 03 January 2013 18:29 posted by Guest

    Please, if you haven't: Please, if you haven't already, leave him. There is no excuse for abuse and he could kill you. You are worth more than that !

  • Comment Link Clarity Thursday, 03 January 2013 17:11 posted by Clarity

    bsda - why isn't enough!: Well, about three months ago - I told my husband the same thing that I wanted a divorce. I too did everything around the house & parenting both of our children -exhausted. I really started working on myself and got in shape - look & feel soo much better about myself. He could only say "When are you going to get past this?" I got tired of trying to make him happy... I call it shutdown & shut out everyone - he is a good guy - holds a good job. Now, he is Mr. Wonderful..helps with house (driving me nuts too) & FINALLY a father that is home. Again, like you no feelings... My husband did cheat on me too a few years ago when I had our 2nd child and I was soooo scared of losing him, but it seemed that he wasn't too worried about losing me?! Now, he is...but, why now? I am resentful & numb toward him. I feel bad, but I feel the way I feel?

  • Comment Link Guest Thursday, 03 January 2013 14:03 posted by Guest

    Service: I haven't been married long, about a year and a half, but my parents have been married for 29 years. My grandparents on my dad's side were married for 63 years until my grandfather died. It seems to me that the majority of these posts have to do with the lack of understanding that marriage is sacrifice and service to your spouse. That is the reason my parents and grandparents never divorced. If one side isn't offering their service then yes it's going to be hard and divorce the easy and hard option. What i have learned so far is that when my wife is happy, I am happy. The way I make her happy is by serving her. This works both ways. There are things my wife appreciates when they are done before she comes home from work because she loves when things are clean. I don't mind as much when things aren't as clean when I get home from work. I appreciate different things than the house being clean. Service is so important in a marriage and I'm definitely still learning that and will continue to learn. Instead of looking for signs for divorce though, why don't we start looking for ways to serve our spouse better. I'm tired of seeing marriage being turned into a consumer relationship. If you are looking for someone who is going to fulfill your needs completely then you are always going to be disappointed. People use the excuse that they are human when they make a mistake. How about owning your mistake and asking for forgiveness instead? Before I got married I had a list of things I wanted my wife to be and I tried looking for that woman. She was very hard to find. It wasn't until I learned that I shouldn't be making a list of what my wife ought to be I should be making a list of who I ought to be. We need to start making ourselves into the people we need to be FOR the person we are going to marry not go shopping for the perfect person who fits my description. Marriage is about selflessness not selfishness. I understand that people do not always get back in return what they have put out and I'm very sorry to hear those stories. If you believe that divorce really is your best option then you can make that decision but you did make a vow to your spouse in front of God and everyone else at your wedding. Probably one of the biggest vows you have ever made in your life and also one of the most important ones too. You made a commitment. I guess I just want to encourage people to do everything possible before going through a divorce, especially if you have kids.

  • Comment Link Guest Wednesday, 02 January 2013 18:07 posted by Guest

    The description of your: The description of your husband sounds like it could be a description of me (in my first marriage). You are lonely and need the attention your husband can't give you, anymore. But, your husband isn't getting what he needs either. I am not implying your relationship (or lack of it) and mine are identical, however, they sound similar. In my case, I was married to a woman who needed me to be what she wanted me to be; not what I wanted to be, or who I was; and my needs were going unfulfilled as well. My Ex was constantly nagging about things I consdiered "small"; eg., not putting my shoes in the closet when I took them off. If there was an argument, I was not entitled to my opinion. Like a pitbull she would "bite" and hold on until I submitted and surrendered to her point of view. In other words, she had to "win". I usually gave in out of pure exhaustion from fighting a futile fight. And not being able to "win" once in a while, is a form of rejection. Men have egos; bigger than women, I'm sure. When a man senses "rejection", he withdraws. It is something he can't fathom, let alone accept. If your husband smells so much as a hint that you are unhappy, unfulfilled, or dissatisfied (and he will if you are constantly "rejecting" him), you will be stonewalled, unless you identify, address, and change your behavioral approaches toward him, FIRST. Many woman want to believe they are "princesses" in the eyes of their husbands and, treated as such. Many woman are, and more could be, if women treated their men like "princes", but many women forget that nurturing a relationship is a two-way street. My wife and I divorced. Seemingly, the divorce was easy for her. For me it was one of the most devastating events of my life. I had been rejected. If you truly want your husband to respond the way you say you do, try listening to him, let him get away with a few bad habits, and give in once in while even though it doesn't agree with you. He will perceive your doing this, "as out of respect for him". Don't try to sweetie-pie him; it will seem disingenuous to him and he'll rebut your efforts. I remember one time, my EX asked me why I couldn't demonstrate my love (anymore) toward her the way other men demonstrate their love toward their wives. I remember telling her, "It's pretty hard to love a rattlesnake." Think about "how you treat him". The old saying, "Men need to be respected. "Women need to be adored", is pretty true, I believe. I would guess you have to improve how you respect your husband, and you'll be surprised how you're adored. I hope that helps. If I'm way off base, I apologize.

  • Comment Link Guest Wednesday, 02 January 2013 17:04 posted by Guest

    so not happy and it is a long story!!: Well, here goes nothing. I married my husband 4 years ago and so much has happend since then. I am not even really sure where to begin.
    We have custody of this 3 children 10, 11 and 17 plus I have a daughter of my own but she could not handle the stress of his 3 and went to live with her grandmother 3 years ago.
    His ex wife is not a mother to her children she sees them once a week and does not pay child support nor has my husband taken her to court to have her pay child support. This bothers me as she always has her hair and nails and toes done. She constantly has new clothes. While we struggle and make scarafices to pay for what the kids need.
    The problems for me started when his eldest daughter stole from my jewelery box and stole money from my wallet. The problem was that they my husband and his wife di not deal with it. They yelled at her and grounded her but there was no real consequence. She wrote a letter to me to say she was sorry but when asked why she wrote the letter she said because it was part of my punishment. She showed no remorse for what she did. I decided to get her counselling as I viewed this as a cry for help and she obviously has issues if she is not remorseful. I got her the counselling and I attend regularly. My husband has attended a handful of times but, is not actively participating in the healing process. When he did attend he was asked about his past relationship with his ex wife and when he spoke you could see the pain on his face and feel the pain in voice. This is a problem for me as I see it as he has not had closure on this past relationship as it causes him so much pain. Why marry me if you are not over your past relationship.?? last year I sufferd from stress and depression and was off work for 3 months. When I returned to the work force I left the field I was in and tried something new that pays 1/2 what I was making before. He now complains that we have no money cause we are too busy paying off my debts and bills. he blames me for everything. Ive tried talking to him but he blames me and when I tried expressing myself in a letter he blamed me again. There is so much more that I could tell you - this is just the tip of the ice berg. I am not happy and want out. Is it wrong for me to just give up? I am mentally and emotionally drained from the constant drama. I want to at least separate but I feel so guilty. Not sure where to live as it is too expnsive to stay in the city for which I live now.
    Very disconncted from my husband - we are intimate only a couple of times a month and truth be told I don't really want to be intimate anymore.
    Is it time to leave or should I stay and fight?

  • Comment Link Guest Wednesday, 02 January 2013 16:44 posted by Guest

    Should I divorce: My wife and I have been married for 11 years now. This is my second marriage. I essentially gave up on this marriage five months ago. I would like some advice if I should divorce.

    - She works and makes nearly $50K a year and is always borrowing money from my account, although I pay all of the bills, including house payment, cell phone, TV, phone, utilities, and most expenses for our pets.

    - Her son who is now 22 has the run of the house. He has a music room and uses one of the other bedrooms as his living room. He does nothing to help around the house, and she doesn't make him. He's currently in his eighth semester of college and still qualifies as a freshman.

    - She recently allowed a young lady to move into the house since her mother threw her our. She did this without really discussing with me. I have no idea how long she will be staying -- one year? Two years?

    - My wife does little to help around the house. I made the Christmas meal; she did nothing. She didn't even offer to help to clean up the mess. This is commonplace.

    - I often travel and have to come home and clean the house on the weekend.

    - My wife rarely makes herself presentable in terms of fixing her hair or anything. She also rarely comes to bed bathed. As a result, I've lost all interest in sex with her.

    - My wife is also a "collector." As a result, there are always boxes everywhere. She's always looking for a deal and is reluctant to throw anything away.

    I know it sounds as if I'm making her out to be a terrible woman, but she does have some very redeeming qualities. She is kind, loves animals and really loves me. But I'm going freaking crazy and know I would be so much happier not with her.

    Have I tried talking with her about these things? Of course. But nothing seems to change. For example, after one of her "collecting" binges with furniture, I took her to a nice furniture store and bought her a beautiful dining room set, with the understanding that she wouldn't buy more pieces of furniture and try to make it work. This Christmas, the dining room set was completely covered with boxes, magazines, etc. She turned the most beautiful room in the house into a complete mess.


  • Comment Link Guest Tuesday, 01 January 2013 11:57 posted by Guest

    When to walk away? : I met my husband 14 years ago; we've been married for 9. He works hard and is an amazing father to our very spirited toddler. The problem is he's lost all zest for life. We met and had so much fun for years and now he's a couch potato watching baseball. He doesn't want to go out or see friends. We don't do anything together. When I try to organize things, there's little or no response. He tells me he's happy with his life and likes being quiet. He's changed.

    I've been dealing with it for a couple of years because everyone tells me "he's such a catch... You're so lucky" but the truth is, I'm bored and lonely. He treats me like a friend, really. i don't feel like we have a romantic relationship at all. He never says he love me; offers no compliments, or any affection (never kissing or hand-holding). Even our close friends have commented that our relationship seems "platonic". Most nights, he just watches TV or gets out his laptop. Simply put: I don't feel loved.

    I'm starting to feel angry and resentful. Whenever I try to discuss the situation he tells me I sound like I want to be single. That's not true! I want to feel loved and spend some "adult" time... Not just children and housework conversations. There are times I catch a glimpse of him and remember how incredibly attracted I was to him, now that's just fading away. I don't want our relationship slip away but it's getting harder to hold on to so little affection.

    Where to go from here?

  • Comment Link Guest Tuesday, 01 January 2013 07:14 posted by Guest

    My wife and I are separated how long do I wait: Me and my wife have been together for 10 years married for 6. We have been separated for 4 months now
    We talk about things we do things together. We have a 2 1/2 year daughter. I did things to betray her trust
    I wasn't the easiest person to get long with I have an addiction to sex. I'm dealing with this issues with my therapist Doing the best I can. I have been paying the bills and the house hold things for 4 months what do I do
    She keeps telling me she needs more time she dont know how to forgive I'm living with my best friends family just feel like its over most of the time she hardly tells me she loves me no physical contact just feel like I'm being pushed away even more every week. How long do i take this want do I do please someone give me some advice

  • Comment Link Guest Tuesday, 01 January 2013 00:41 posted by Guest

    A man's perspective: I understand the comments that a lot of women have posted. I am submitting my issue to see if I am crazy. My wife and I wer high school sweethearts. We have known each other since we were 16 years old. We dated for quite a while before we married and have known each other over half of our lives. I returned from my second deployment to Iraq 2 years ago. Right before I came back she asked my advice about starting law school. But the kicker was she had to have an answer within 24 hours or she would not be able to start the classes then. Of course I said she should because what else could I do? There is no way I could say no. Well during the deployment I was having some issues with the whole perspective of life and spinning my wheels. Going no where. I have never admitted this but I also think I had a few issues from the two deployments that added up. Well when I got home it was her first week of school and she made it perfectly clear that she COULD NOT miss any of the first week of school. Regardless if I was coming home from a war. Well during the deployment my mother had a major stroke and I was not really prepared to see her as soon as I got home with my emotions going haywire. Well since my wife could not miss school I did not know who was picking me up to bring me home. My mother in her il health was there. I was thankful to see her but could barely process her condition. She can no longer walk. Since being back I have seen the wife very rarely since she goes to school. I have gotten an apartment but I feel numb. I was angry and resentful but now I feel numb. I have been alone and have trouble relating to people now and she has no idea. I can't take this. When we have talked about divorce she completely goes berserk. Then she tells me I call her names (I have said you are crazy) but I don't know where she got I call her names. Any time she had before and after I left she would take vacations with her mother to places like Belgium, Russia and China to name a few. I feel taken for granted, used and ignored. Am I crazy or is a divorce my best option. I think she goes crazy when I talk about the divorce because she thinks the worst and not having financial support if I leave. I am very angry and resentful when I don't feel numb.

  • Comment Link Guest Monday, 31 December 2012 19:48 posted by Guest

    Yes, Guilty... but that doesn't mean...: Okay - whether your husband knew or not is no reason to blame him for being in it "for the money". Sad as it is, you are guilty, because your traded yourself and your morals for the money. As a result, it might have done irreparable damage to your marriage. You can certainly feel sorry, and your husband can definitely feel badly for silently condoning it, but ultimately, it could have ruined your relationship. Why do I say this? Put yourself in his position. Unless he is truly a saint, I can't imagine how this wouldn't affect his self esteem and rewrite the rules of your relationship. I have had relationships with wonderful people in my life when I was much younger, that were ruined by experiences that can't be erased or rewritten now. And that is okay. They are still wonderful people. In relationships with OTHER people now. You can correct it by being better in your next relationship, unless you have a strong enough foundation of other stuff to help soften the blow of this incredible betrayal of your family and yourself.

  • Comment Link Guest Monday, 31 December 2012 07:41 posted by Guest

    God help your wife: It takes two to 'fill a womb' mate, so don't flatter yourself. And have you looked at yourself in the mirror lately? You sound like an unpleasant, arrogant man and I feel sorry for your wife. She doesn't need a necklace, she needs a loving partner to raise YOUR five children (not just hers) together. I hope she finds a good lawyer to make you pay for her maintenance if you cannot find it in your heart to love and respect her again and she chooses to leave you; (as you should, since she was raising the kids and could not make money).

  • Comment Link Guest Monday, 31 December 2012 00:26 posted by Guest

    Trust me it's not worth: Trust me it's not worth waiting on him, they never change it's always us wives, girlfriends, ect. It's women who always get the short end of the stick. He won't change, he probably says it all the time when you say" it's better if we move on" Right???
    You say you don't feel the same as before? It's probably because you are sick and tired of the games. If your staying because of kids? It won't get better, or he won't change. He wants the cake and eat it too. Staying for the kids maybe is what everyone wants you to do? but you need to trust your heart, listen too yourself!!! Trust me been there done that!

  • Comment Link Guest Sunday, 30 December 2012 17:27 posted by Guest

    In need of an answer: I've been married for 2 and a half years now. My husband is a good guy around other people but around me he is a monster. I'm just not happy anymore, I'm confused. When we were dating everything was nice but a while after we had our first baby things went downhill. He doesn't care for neither of us. He doesn't like to spend time with us. I've tried telling him its better we just move on without each other but he says he still loves me. He says he's gonna change but he doesn't. I just don't know what to do anymore. I just don't feel the same with him anymore.

  • Comment Link Guest Sunday, 30 December 2012 17:06 posted by Guest

    Leave while you still can: I feel so much for your situation. I found this website, wondering myself what to do. I married at nineteen, madly in love. Now twenty years later, I find myself with kids (wouldn't trade them!) and a husband who just won't work. If yours isn't working now, believe me, it isn't going to get any better. If I could talk some sense into myself 10, 15 or 20 years ago, the answer would be clear. Leave. Mine has literally only worked at one job for one year ONCE in the 22 years we have been together. Other than that it has been a cycle of stress, poverty and continually hoping that he would get a job. The last paycheck I remember him getting was about 10 years ago. I am not perfect. I no longer have the body I did at nineteen, but neither am I unattractive. I was working 3 part time jobs while pregnant with our first child...while he had none. Should've given me a clue, but I am hard headed and didn't want a divorce. I worked two full time jobs in order to get two different insurance plans to get his major dental work done. He has never once worked at a job and gotten benefits for our family. I'm sorry, I didn't mean to make this about me, but I just want to say that it doesn't get any better. We had a child right away and then another and another...I don't want to ruin their lives by getting divorced. But honestly, other than a part time handyman around the house and good sex once or twice a week, what the hell am I still married for? I never expected to sit around and eat bon bons, but I did expect that I would marry someone who loved me enough to go to work each morning and at least try to provide for his family. Just sign me - at wit's end.

  • Comment Link Guest Sunday, 30 December 2012 16:32 posted by Guest

    You sound like a horrible: You sound like a horrible sexist pig. Calling your wife a "braud" and saying she looks like a "sack of potatoes." And you think you're so great because you work and you "filled her womb 5 times"? Who even says that? Oh and you wasted $1,000 on something material when she probably just wants you to show her some respect. Men like you disgust me.

  • Comment Link Guest Sunday, 30 December 2012 08:31 posted by Guest

    why isn't it enough: I have a wonderful husband but still not satisfied. I have 2 children to a previous marriage that he took in and
    raised as his own. He has been very loving & caring but why am I still not happy. He can holds a full-time job and is a hard worker at it. I also have a full-time job which is not a strenious job. He gets home before me and would take a nap till I get home. I get home and would start supper. As supper was cooking, I would do up any dishes and put a load of laundry in. After supper was over, I would clean up and do dishes by the end of the evening, I am exhausted. Now by evening, I am exhausted. My husband couldn't understand that and when I said that he could help out, he would acknowledge it but never do nothing about it. He would complain because by bed time, I was tired and had no time for him. Now cutting grass and shoveling snow, he has no problem doing but everything else has been left up to me. After years of asking, I have become resentful and very numb. Now, my husband doesn't mind going out for supper but doing much of anything else really not interested. Even when we did do things, I would worry that he wasn't having a good time than I myself was miserable. The time has come that I want time for me. I do love my husband but I am no longer in love with him. I don't want to hurt him but I am tired of being hurt. Three months ago, I asked him for a divorce and he doesn't understand why. My feelings are numb and I can't get them back. He has stepped up and started helping around the house. We started doing things together. I feel horrible but I can't get those feelings back. Why did it take me leaving for him to step up. I feel horrible for hurting him but the candle is burnt out. Counseling will no longer help because I no longer feel the way I use to.

  • Comment Link Guest Friday, 28 December 2012 14:51 posted by Guest

    Wow: If more men tried to make things work like you, there would be less women on here. Most here have spouses who don't show any interest in their wives for a long time, sometimes years, and have endured all sorts of dysfunctional situations. Consider yourself the exception to the rule. It sounds like your wife is having some issues or insecurities she needs to work out. Good luck and don't give in. Your kids will be very grateful; they know what's going on.

  • Comment Link Guest Thursday, 27 December 2012 16:55 posted by Guest

    that child would suffer!: having a child will not make him more responsible! can you imagine the baby in a poopy diaper all day starving for food and attention because dad is "going to change one day"?!!!! can you imagine how exhausted you will be caring for one infant and one grown up baby no time for you?
    Besides that since he's already done heroin your poor child would most likely have deformities
    save the baby crave for a better relationship because a baby needs reliability

  • Comment Link Guest Sunday, 23 December 2012 03:39 posted by Guest

    bla bla bla: One thing i noticed is almost all the posts are from women. We have been married for 20 years now, I have tried very hard to treat my wife right, provide the things she desires, filled her womb 5 times, treat her kindly and try to show happiness towards her. We had an agreement that she would stay home and homeschool the kids. I listened to her whining for since the beginining, her judgmental attitude towards me, and everyone who she doesnt agree with, and if she is rebuffed then thats like a 10 year sentence in the sh@#$t house. This last year things got very hard financially and you woman may like security but think about what a man like myself was thinking when I didnt have any work and 5 kids to boot. I had never experienced this kind of stress before and on top of that I was very tempted to have another relationship with another woman. Before my wife knew about my temptations and things were tight financially, I noticed her giving up on me. I gave my life for her and the kids, there wellfare and everything else, I am not perfect, I like my own time, but always made sure my family was loved, fed, protected in fact even today there is a $1000 necklace under the tree for her, but do you think she will even care. She actually gets jealous of me because I bring home big checks and she brings home little ones, its like hey you stupid braud, its for you, its all for you. I began to see her true colors. I still love her and I am not leaving. I told her my tempations to have another wife, I even asked her to let another one move in but I never actually had an affair, never cheated on the woman but she treats me like i did. Im sick of being lonely, it was always about her and she never respected me even in front of the children. So of course she is offended which I guess I would be too. I give it too her she did try to lose some weight and be more sexually affectionate torwards me, but she wasted all these years, now she looks at herself in the mirror and sees a sac of potato's and now wants me to call her all sorts of sexy names. She also went and got a part time job which is fine and she wants to leave but she cant because she doesnt make enough to support herself, I told her to go back to school, cuz I aint leaving my family. So now she mopes around like its the end of the world for her and wants me to leave.
    Here is a bit of advice to those who want to get married or remarried. Meet the other persons parents, find out what they are like and if you like them then you will like the one you will marry. and women need to respect there husbands just like men are suppose to love there wives.


  • Comment Link Guest Thursday, 20 December 2012 08:24 posted by Guest

    Get your own life: Hi, I know how hard it must be for you, and I am truly sorry, but you are the ONLY person that could do something for yourself! Start a course, start preparing yourself to go back to work!! And move on, it is past time already!! If you continue you will be unhappy forever! Again, the ONLY person that can do something for you is YOURSELF!! There is no such thing as fairies giving us our wishes, so start planning, studying, working!! Then you will have what you need to survive and leave ur disrespectful hubby once and for all :)

  • Comment Link Guest Wednesday, 19 December 2012 16:05 posted by Guest

    Leave before you find more reasons not to: Trust me, if he's come this far with the drugs and nothing has changed after this long... LEAVE. PLEASE don't bring a child into the chaos. Just go and start fresh.

    With love,

  • Comment Link Guest Tuesday, 18 December 2012 10:23 posted by Guest

    lost: My husband and been married for 3 years. I have a son whom he adopted when he was a baby. I was so happy but the last few months everything has built up. My son was diagnosed with cancer and he hasn't been there for me much at all. A few months ago I told him I was tired of it and thought about leaving. Since then he has been a mess and we have fought noon stop over everything. When we argue he calls me horrible names and it degrads me as a person. I love him I've been with him for 6 years he is all I know. But lately I feel like maybe its better if I leave I'm not sure what to do and he just don't get it but after a few days of me trying to explain to him that he was wrong to talk to me like that he says he is sorry and loves me and that we will be ok and then I feel bad for thinking that I was going to leave but at the same rate in less than 6 months we will be right back in the same spot. I'm just lost all together.

  • Comment Link Guest Monday, 17 December 2012 20:25 posted by Guest

    My marriage is no later going great, when there is something wrong and i try to talk about it ,he doesn't set down and try to solve it in a adult manner he wants to either turn it around on me or deny the problem. Seems like he doesn't care if something is wrong or how i feel most of the time he ends up hitting me with his fist or choking me, calling me a whore,trash and a bad mother times he'll bring up his ex's and say they are better than me in sex wise Why dont he just go with one of them instead?excample today he physically and mentally abused me. He said that his two ex's were better than me so i said my were too. why cant he see his faults and admit them. I cant think of any other solution to help our marriage anymore it's not easy to give up so i'm seeking the way to save it but i cant stand the way i feel anymore i just want to be happy. What do i DO? There are times i get mad at him for stupid stuff and try to talk to him but by then it's out of control and yelling and fighting as already occured and made new issues. We dont trust each other anymore at all there are things he's aloud to do but if i do it he would be mad, why is that? Is it time for a divorce or can it ever be repaired?

  • Comment Link Guest Saturday, 15 December 2012 20:58 posted by Guest

    Certainly relate: That is my life but the only difference is we live in his mothers home, whom is obsessed with her sons, never want to see us happy. She talks mean stuff about me and when I say something to him he curses me out, which really hurts. This past Sunday he called my mom and told her to come get me out of his house, or the cops will pick one of us up, that was the saddest, I felt humiliated. I've been with him 20 years, married 7 years now and now have a 5year old daughter. I'm at my sisters house. The day after i left I went to work gave in my resignation and currently seeking transfer to fortlauderdale. He's now saying he's so sorry and he trying to make up but as much as I love him he will only change for a little. I suffer with anxiety, emptiness, we don't speak often and when I tell him he curses me, no sex for about 2 months, he doesn't look at me, sees me as a loser, fat, bicth. Why does he want to make up I'm not sure because when I'm with him he doesn't even kiss me morning and night. He looks at At other woman all the time. He has cheated on me 1 year after we got married, will to give me up for a 21year old, which I feel like he will do it again. What shall I do? Is it fare? I am numb

  • Comment Link Guest Saturday, 15 December 2012 20:28 posted by Guest

    Wow, that must hurt really: Wow, that must hurt really bad. My husband and I are going through a divorce for many of the reasons you have listed. I just different because I am bless to have my independence. I have suffers for a long time with lies, cheating, porn, and always being the last, no kisses, sex, phone calls, and no trust. Most of my time I'm empty, lonly,afraid, and filled with anxiety, which makes you so numb, over whelmed, and tired. Mine just kicked me out on Sunday out and is now trying to have me go back which I'm not. I am moving away to Florida but he's giving me a hard time to leave with my daughter. He takes care of her financially but that's it, I have to work, clean, cook, play all day with our daughter till night since she was born and he is now saying he will fight me for her . I don't know what to do. I will suggest to just pray the father lord is listening

  • Comment Link Guest Thursday, 13 December 2012 12:16 posted by Guest

    18 yrs and not happy: Like most we were madley in love. Met and married within 6 months due to him leaving to War. Within 3 years he left the service and wanted to move back home (Take me from mine). As a good wife in so much love, We moved East. He has always held a good job, provided well for us. We moved 3 more times with his job, all moves in the middle East States and I hate it. My husband Hunts and Fishes..Fishes and Hunts and I have come to realize that is the reason where we live. Better deer and bass fishing in these 4 States and more flat land here. I am from Oregon and Utah..Hills and Mountains, Hunting he has to climb them and bass fishing is not as good. I am now a grandmother (he is not grandfather) from my first marriage and have only seen my 2 grand daughters twice as they live in Oregon. My Kids also live in Oregon. These are not his, so he don't care that we live live so far away. We now have a 10 year old and I know he would never live to far from him or his grandchildren. He is selfish and inconsiderate for anything I want or need. He is very good to passafie me, But I am getting smarter. I know my son and I would be okay and better if I leave, but It's still scary. I love him but I'm to old to be this un-happy

  • Comment Link Guest Thursday, 13 December 2012 01:44 posted by Guest

    Why would you want to bring a: Why would you want to bring a child into the world with someone that is clearly broken and you are his irresponsible enabler. Let me tell you first hand as a child of such a union all you will do is cause irreversible harm to that child. If you have one ounce of self respect you should leave this relationship. Get some counseling before entering another relationship and keep in mind that addicts rarely change.

  • Comment Link Guest Wednesday, 12 December 2012 05:24 posted by Guest

    I'm so sorry! I'm going: I'm so sorry! I'm going through a similar thing. How I wish I could talk to you.....know this, at least you will not betray " Yourself" another day.

  • Comment Link Guest Monday, 10 December 2012 22:19 posted by Guest

    control, verbal, emotional abuse, narcissistic: Goin on 15yrs of marriage: lets start with ingredients of: controlling finances including questioning where every penny was spent, i dont need ,new clothes, i need to stop galavanting, his going to a strip party while i am 8months pregnant with our 1st child, then add lies,anger, porn.. suggesting threesome.. add manipulation, disrespect, ignorance,self righteous, opinionated, aggressive behavior towards our two kids,, selfishness, his way or no way. oh remember to add unrealistic demands of idiocy and add the damaging words of i dont love you anymore,pulling a knife in front of the younger kid. Oh yes, lets reme,mber, the ex girlfriend who he favors over me his"wife"to this day..oh to add more ingredients is too overwhelming...yet, im currently codependent financially because ive been home with the kids! It was agreed upon between us..iim open for suggestions...

  • Comment Link Guest Sunday, 09 December 2012 17:42 posted by Guest

    7.5 years: My husband and I have been married 7 and a half years. I'm 27 and he's 29. Everyone thinks we are perfect together, a golden couple...and I believed it for the first two.. We've had lots of ups and downs but more downs. He doesnt have a stable career and hasn't held down the same job for more than a year. He used to smoke weed, then 3 years ago started taking heroin and we went through hell. He's now on methadone treatment which is great but he's started smoking weed again too, alot. This means he's constantly lazy, sleeping, demotivated and has no sexual desire. I'm frustrated and now really want a child but he hasn't got the right attitude at all. He's not proactive and does nothing around the house or for our future, and I know its cos of the drugs. I have wanted to walk out many times but he's reassured me things will change. Im worried they wont though and i'll be in the same situation for years. I dont trust him anymore. The only thing keeping me in this relationship is the fact that my sister just got divorced and I dont want to put my parents through the same pain again. I also keep holding onto the hope that a child will make him more responsible. What shall I do???

  • Comment Link Guest Sunday, 09 December 2012 17:03 posted by Guest

    Oh my gosh, I'm going through: Oh my gosh, I'm going through the same kind of issues!! He thinks I'm crazy and need to go see a Dr, but the reason I am is bc he's done so much to me. Its been an over and over again thing. And every time was over internet, Facebook, Craigslist ads. :(

  • Comment Link Guest Saturday, 08 December 2012 23:13 posted by Guest

    Yes, he did know. It was not: Yes, he did know. It was not only obvious, but i tried to tell him, many times. He liked the paycheck, so i felt obligated to stay in that horrible situation, to make everyone happy. I know there is no excuse for an affair, and that's why i do not know why he wants me back, unless he is worried about income. He knows it went on for years, but has no ill feelings at all. I am the one with the ill feelings. I left both situations on the same day and moved on. And by the way, i was not being a coward. And a coward wouldn't get out of both bad situations together, at the same time. I was feeling bought, sold and used. No more. I am happier now. And, i was not unhappy with my spouse at the time, i was in a situation and i took the wrong path. I am only human, but he was not there to pull me out, when he knew what was going on. I was bringing home fox coats, 50k dollar bonuses and three cars. He knew. And when i quit, multiple times, he would grab me and tell me we couldn't live this lifestyle, if i quit, that our kids couldn't go to college. Yeah, i was wrong, but now, i feel i did the right thing by moving on.

  • Comment Link Guest Saturday, 08 December 2012 17:18 posted by Guest

    It sounds like you didn't: It sounds like you didn't want to be married. Your husband didn't know you were sleeping with your boss, right? Did you tell him your were having an affair with your employer and because of that you wanted to quit? I'm guessing not. You should feel guilty, because you are guilty. There is no excuse for having an affair, none. If your spouse isn't meeting your needs or whatever the problem, then you work it out or get divorced. You don't start sleeping with someone else while married to someone. That is what cowards do. You and every other wayward spouse have a great big character flaw and will never be happily married to anyone.

  • Comment Link Guest Saturday, 08 December 2012 12:12 posted by Guest

    Numb: I have been married for 16 years and with my husband for 22 years. I am age 36 and have two beautiful young children. My husband has always been extremely selfish and verbally/emotionally abusive. I am the morter that holds everything together. I recently found out that my husband has been on craigslist searching the personal ads. I also have copies of emails where he has responded to ads and asked to meet up with people. When I confronted him he was ashamed and promised to be the husband I deserve and it will not happen again. I believed him but kept my eyes open and am thankful I did not let my guard down as I have done in the past whenever I suspected something. 3 months later; I found craigslist personal ad searches again. When I asked him about it he lied. I told him I have proof and he was silent (so there was my answer). Throughout our entire relationship he has made me feel as though I was "crazy" for the suspisions I have had of him being unfaithful so I sat him down and made him tell me the truth. He admitted to cheating before marriage and after but said "it was just sex" and only a couple of times. It was also my fault because at the time we were not having sex because we were fighting etc...He also said that he can change but I do not believe him. Is it possible for someone who has been selfish there entire life to change? He says he loves and cherishes me but how can you put someone through this kind of pain if you truely love someone? Is Divorce certain?

  • Comment Link Guest Friday, 07 December 2012 09:18 posted by Guest

    If he doesn't want to go to: If he doesn't want to go to counciling you should still go on your own. At least work on yourself, if you can't work on your marriage. This may help you to figure out who you are and what you want from life so that you will be equipped to make the decision wether or not divorce is the right choice for you. Good luck.

  • Comment Link Guest Friday, 07 December 2012 00:42 posted by Guest

    Thank you for understanding. : Thank you for understanding. A few friends tell me the same thing you have told me. My brothers tell me too, that i must forgive myself and move forward. It's just hard when i have so much going on now. My oldest is 20 and pre-med. My youngest is soon to graduate out of high school. They try to support me as much as possible, but are also protecting their daddy because they see him upset and losing weight and not being interested in life anymore. This horrible thing affected many. My old employer's wife filed for divorce. I did tell her the truth as well. Funny thing, she apologized to me for being in the situation i'm in at the hands of her soon-to-be ex. I know life goes on. It's just that, i never thought this would happen to me. Thanks for the advice.

  • Comment Link Guest Wednesday, 05 December 2012 22:06 posted by Guest

    OK. Yes you screwed up!! But: OK. Yes you screwed up!! But you have to forgive yourself. I'm sure you blame yourself for everything. You were wrong by starting the affair in the first place but your husband is dead wrong by telling you that you cannot quit. It sure sounds to me that it is all about the money. And as I was reading I was thinking what a jerk. Apparently he doesn't love you or he would've rather suffer from bills and stuff then know that his wife is being treated this way. He sounds extremely selfish to me. Was he not working?? I personally think you need to move on and be happy with just being yourself. Forget everyone else. Your daughter will come to. She loves you and she will forgive you. She was just shocked at first and didn't know how to take it all in. But you do need to forgive yourself and your children will too. Get back on your feet. Stay with the job you have but start looking for a better one. You know they have this thing called tops programs and grants and loans. Your children have to do some work of their own to. I dont know their ages but if they havent went to high-school yet then when they do go its their turn to bust their butt and keep their grades good then they can get scolarships. I think you have went long enough living for everyone else except yourself. Your kids are important but you need to focus on yourself right now. Every mom deserves to feel appreciated and loved and deserves to have some time of their own.

  • Comment Link Guest Wednesday, 05 December 2012 17:08 posted by Guest

    I feel obligated.....: I feel obligated to be with my husband. We have been together for 7 years, married for 2. We have two children together; 5 and 2. We were 17 when we got pregnant. Since our second daughter was born, I feel like we are more like roommates who have sex. We both contribute to the household and children and we do have sex often. But that pretty much sums it up. We have the same basic core values but I just feel like because my husband "stayed" with me when I was 17 and pregnant and has since worked hard to provide for us, that I should be obligated to stay with him regardless if I am happy or not. I had bad postpartum depression after our second daughter and I am not sure that my husband and I have healed since that traumatic part of our relationship. I have been telling him that I feel we do not communicate well and that I am tired of fighting over silly things. That translates to him that he is a POS. He does not give it a second notion. I just 'deal' with it. I have contacted a marriage counselor because divorce is not what I want, but he has already told me he isn't interested in it. I am just lost.

  • Comment Link Guest Wednesday, 05 December 2012 09:13 posted by Guest

    Moving on?: My husband and I have been married for 10 years. We were together for a year and a half and lived together when I got pregnant with my first child. We married when I was three mnonths pregnant..after all we were committed already anyway, right? Well What turned into a loving caring family..his mother and sister turned into a controling force of destruction. Passive aggresive, controlling, a little voice in his head on a daily basis. After years of fighting, talking, marriage consulting, emails to his mother, and me being absent at any of his family gatherings its still present in our everyday lives. His family favors his sisters children which I totally get but 5 presents at birthdays compared to my kids one is a little nerve racking now. These two women have caused great havoc in my marrige. My husband WILL NOT go against them at any cost. Even when it comes to his niece repeatedly punching my daughter in the stomach. Our sex life has been nothing in the past five years. My respect for him is gone. He has broken into my emails and computer trying to find evidence of me cheating...bearly lets me out with out a guilt trip worthy of Marie on Everyone loves Raymond. Tried to break into my cell phone. His mother tells him good wives don't go out with out their husbands unless their up to something. I used to be very independant with a lot of friends. I stil have those friends and love seeing them with out him being around to make comments. He has no problem going out with us on girls only nights to keep an eye out on me. His insecurity has made me very unattracted to him...Sex is not an option anymore. We now have two kids 8yrs and 10yrs. I have worked part time to stay home with the kids, and now if I leave I will have job, no house, no money, and no heath insurance. Yes I am willing to work full time. But I am college. What the hell am I supposed to do! I feel trapped. I feel like starting over is just not an option. I feel like it's me against him, his mother, and his sister. A battle I am tired of. I have no fight left in me. I can always tell when he has talked with them. He will come home and just nit pick at the kids, the house, and bills. I am one tough cookie...don't think for a second I am the victim...I am wearing down to a nub. I should have left years we own a house far from my family and house is now my invisible prison. Sorry for the spelling errors...I'm just typing.

  • Comment Link Guest Wednesday, 05 December 2012 00:51 posted by Guest

    Advice, PLEASE: I feel like i am about to have a nervous breakdown. I have told my story before, so forgive me if you are reading this again. I have been married 20 years. I have been separated almost a year now. The deal is, that i was in a situation at work. This environment provided me with a lot of bonuses, good pay....about 140k a year, several cars, stocks, travel, and more. My employer was controlling me every way possible, as long as i wouldn't leave him, he would "take care of me financially". I found myself in a adulterous affair, and yes, it was for the money. I said it. I am ashamed, and guilty. I tried to quit many, many, times. I told my husband that there were things he was not aware of, and i wanted to quit. He would always get upset and tell me we couldn't live this lifestyle if i quit. My own kids had college money coming out of this. I tried to quit several times over the last 9 years. Each time, same story. The entire community knew what was going on. I would go on trips several times a year, alone, with my employer, i would bring home very expensive gifts and more. After a while, i was feeling very unprotected from my spouse. I felt he was not listening to what i was saying. He ignored the fact that my employer would call or text me 20 times a day after work, tracking my whereabouts and more. When i once again, tried to quit, my spouse yelled at me in front of my teenagers telling me i didn't want to pay for their college and that i could no longer enjoy things like getting my hair and nails done. I was involved in many companies through this employer, doing deals that i was uncomfortable with. I finally decided to leave my employer and my husband....for good. I felt used, sold, taken advantage of, and more. I know i was at fault. I finally told my spouse everything. He said he forgives me and is wanting me to come back. Now, i am about to file for a divorce, and he is constantly texting me photos of us and telling me all kinds of sweet things. I told him this would never work. I actually went out with him and all the hurtful feelings came back when i saw him. I do not want him to even touch me, because for so long, i was sacraficing my body, my pride and dignity to give my family what they wanted. I think my spouse is still in it for the money, because i still bring home a nice paycheck. I am happy alone, but am filled with guilt and pain. Do you think that filing soon would ease this pain, and would anybody want to go back to a spouse that let this go on for 9 years? He denies knowing anything, but like i said, everyone knew. I even came clean with my oldest daughter after she yelled at me for lies and telling me i was bipolar, because i was acting guilty one minute, and trying to act like nothing the next. I feel counseling will help me forgive my actions, but i am stressed out beyond belief because my new job is all but killing me...98 hours a week and very rude people around me. I just have much more going on that i can tell on here, but the divorce situation should be a priority for me. Just wanted to know what anyones thoughts are. I know i will get some negative feedback, but some may have done the same thing, if they were in my shoes. Not sure, but i apologize if i am insulting anyone or if you feel my life is just about worthless, cause that's how i feel.

  • Comment Link Guest Tuesday, 04 December 2012 23:31 posted by Guest

    You only get one life...don't settle: Our situations are so similar but I've been married 25 years. In the process of a divorce now but it's about 20 years too late. Don't hesitate, I'm telling you from experience that it won't be easy and you'll cry a lot. But it's worth it. You deserve a life of peace and someday, you'll find love, true love. And it will be even sweeter because you'll have a greater appreciation for it. You only get one life...don't settle.

  • Comment Link Guest Tuesday, 04 December 2012 23:06 posted by Guest

    I've been married 25 years: I've been married 25 years and I knew when he asked me to marry him when I was 20 that it wasn't what I wanted. I felt like it was what I was supposed to do. Once I was in it, it was nothing but stress for the first 15 years. Financial to start with, then it was his temper and not knowing what I was walking into at the end of every day. 10 years ago I told him I wanted out and he worked the "poor me" victim, guilt trip on me so hard that I stayed. That worked in the past and it became the regular tactic after that in order to get what he wanted. But he's been a lot more subtle and subversive about it. I wanted to leave so many times, I was so unhappy and sad but I was trapped, there was no way I'd put myself through what I did earlier, it was too painful, so I stayed. Then I fell in love with a kind, gentle man we developed a relationship but were found out. I couldn't deny it, I didnt want to. So now we are divorcing and I feel like I'm divorcing a child and it seems like he's piling the guilt on with a shovel it's almost unbearable. I'm sorry I didn't go forward with the divorce before I was caught in affair but now at least I feel like I have something worth fighting for, just me wasn't enough, the life that I now see could be mine...that's worth all the pain.

    If you aren't happy...get out early. Don't wait. If you think it's hard now, try waiting 25 years.

  • Comment Link Guest Monday, 03 December 2012 12:10 posted by Guest

    You are fed up. Give him the: You are fed up. Give him the choice of either shaping up or you are moving on. You are doing everything by yourself right now so what would make it any different if he wasn't there? You do deserve better and especially your kids. Sounds like he has some issues of his own that he needs to work out and if he is not willing, then things will never change no matter how much it seems or he promises or any of that. Trust me, you CANNOT change a man, he will only improve for a short amount of time and then go back to the same thing. I have been there, don't let him do this to you, you are much stronger than that!

  • Comment Link Guest Monday, 03 December 2012 04:05 posted by Guest

    Should I stay or go?: After reading these stories, we all have similar concerns. I'm 42, been married for 20 years. We have a teenager with Autism and a typical 11 year old. My husband has always been controlling and self centered. After our second child was born, I was overwhelmed with working full time and caring for 2 very dependent children. He felt neglected and that's when he told me for the first time time that he wanted a divorce. I recognized it as an attention seeking threat. As any person raised Catholic, the guilt worked I tried harder to accomodate everyone's needs and he didn't bring it up again. 4 years later, during a medical crisis with our Autistic child, he again stated that he felt neglected and said he wanted out. It was phrased as an ultimatum: the kids or me. Our son was very ill and was hospitalized at the time, so I made the obvious choice that any mother would make. I was so tired of fighting that I agreed that we should part and told him to just get it over with. Again, he didn't pursue it. I had quit my job to care for our son and stayed home for 3 years. When our son's health improved, I went back to work. He was angry with me for the job I accepted because I did not seek his approval. He stopped helping with household chores and told me that since I chose the job, I could find time to do them. I make more $ than he does and I love my career. He told me point blank that he does not want me to talk about work when I am at home- he doesn't want to hear it. Yet he talks non stop about his work while I listen. I don't know if we ever
    had much in common. At the young age we were when we we'd, I think I tailored my interests to match his. Now, I realize that we have nothing in common. He likes he country, I prefer the city. He likes winter sports, I hate the cold and dream of someday lying on a sandy beach. I'm athletic,he's not. On top of that, he always criticizes me for everything, and refuses to compliment me. He will tell me how gorgeous his friend's GF is, but can't compliment me. We've been to counseling, and he refuses to change. He says "that's just the way I am". I feel like I can't leave because of the kids. Our youngest gets mad at the way he treats me and frequently asks why we don't divorce. The older one thrives with his whole family present and I feel selfish even considering taking it away. Plus he is approaching adulthood and we will be applying for guardianship soon. How will divorce affect this? To make matters worse, I find myself daydreaming about a coworker that flirts with me........

  • Comment Link Guest Sunday, 02 December 2012 22:49 posted by Guest

    LEAVE sweetheart. I was there: LEAVE sweetheart. I was there in that boat. You didn't make him who he was. It is good that he is seeking treatment. He can use it to be a better father. It is easier for them to get better and be a better dad. Somehow it is different when they try to become a better husband. You can be there for him as a friend and as the mother of his child. And let go of everything else. There is peace after this for you I promise.

  • Comment Link Guest Wednesday, 28 November 2012 19:20 posted by Guest

    Know a Divorce is right for me, but what about the kids: I've been married for 7 1/2 years. We rushed into getting married because of ongoing custody issues with his ex-wife (we were living together, but he couldn't have the kids and me at the house at the same time. I got tired of leaving every weekend for a hotel or out of town, so we "eloped" to the court house). While the 7 years haven't all been bad, the bad outweighs the good. About 3 months into the marriage, I went on an out of town trip, and found a chat session with another woman, which consisted of an exchange of nude pictures as well as the last line with directions to our house. He insisted she didn't come over, and I chose to move past it for the sake of the kids.

    Fast forward a few years, and we did get full custody of the kids (mother lives out of the state). I have caught him having conversations with other women multiple times. But, as I am the one to support the kids (at this point, I believe them to be my own in my heart), I've never been able to end it. Over the last 6 months to a year, it has gotten worse. I am now paying 90% of the bills, and almost everything related to the kids. I don't know where all his money goes (we keep our finances extremely separate), but he is always broke. He comes home late every night (gym trips take upwards of 3 hours) and does next to nothing to help around the house. I am responsible for all things related to the kids, the house, bills, everything.

    I am almost positive he is yet again with someone else, but honestly do not care enough to bother checking. We mostly sleep in separate rooms, unless he has an "urge", and comes into our bedroom. If I have any health issues, I still don't get any support or help. But, I have never been able to adopt the kids, so I know that legally I have no rights over them. If we were to divorce, I have no hope of getting any type of custody, and I know that he will not support them or be there for them the way they need and deserve. I keep counting down the years until they are out of high school (5 more to go) and I can escape. It feels like a prison sentence at this point - with no hope of parole. But, I know that I can never leave my kids. However, I am so unhappy all the time, I also don't know how much longer I can continue. My happiness occurs when its just me and the kids or if I'm away for work. I can feel myself getting depressed when he walks in the door. Weekends are intolerable if there are no sports or activities for the kids, because I don't want to be around him. What options do I have?

  • Comment Link Guest Wednesday, 28 November 2012 15:32 posted by Guest

    My husband is a cheater: I have been married for 24 years and my husband has had 2 affairs in the last 2 years. I am so frustrated and ready to file for divorce. He has not done anything to make me feel secure in our marriage at all. The second affair was discovered the end of July 2012. He said he ended it with her and he actually kept contacting her for another month. He has put forth no effort into our marriage since. He keeps saying he is sorry and there is no excuse for what he did. But he doesn't do anything to show it. I always told him please never cheat on me, just leave me. He knew exactly how I felt about infidelity. He chose to do it anyways. He said he was missing passion in our relationship. He said he hasn't been happy for many years. I have been so angry, hurt, and humiliated by what he did to us. He did it with the intent of not getting caught and just catching a little fix to keep him happy for a little while. We tried counseling and it just didn't work. He lives in another state for work and comes home on the weekends when he doesn't have mandatory work on the weekends. I didn't move with him because of the placement of our kids in school. I thought things would be ok until our kids would graduate and then they would be on their own in college and then I could move there too. He accepted that also. He started cheating on me the first time, the first month he moved. So he knew what his intentions were the minute he left home. That was the first time he cheated on me. I caught him and then it was a year later, he cheated again. The cheating the second time around was so much more damaging. There was so much more involvement. Lots of lies. He used our house, and our bed. It is so hurtful to think that my husband could do such a terrible thing to me. He can't promise me it won't happen again. He keeps saying if we can't fix this right, we might have more trouble later. The only way that part can be fixed is if he's happy. I'm just so angry and hurt right now, all I want to do is walk away from this marriage. It is hard with having kids involved. He makes me so mad that all I want to do is fight with him. I don't trust him and I don't know if I will ever be able to trust him again. The girl he cheated with the second time works with him so that is another issue. It just never seems to get any better always worse. My life is a huge disaster!! Any advice would be greatly appreciated.

  • Comment Link Guest Tuesday, 27 November 2012 18:56 posted by Guest

    give him a choice: you sound fed up! i would be too and yes your husband is a lazy bum! a year and still no job?! give him the ultimatum. either he finds a job and helps you out financially or around the house or he can hit the road because you are already living like youre on your own!

  • Comment Link Guest Monday, 26 November 2012 12:43 posted by Guest

    You're 100% correct in being: You're 100% correct in being fed up. You are not crazy, not a basket case, you are human and your feelings about the situation are OK. I know how it feels to be without a job & that's why as a man/provider I hustled so quickly to get one. I think your husband is totally taking advantage of you. You seem hardworking, love your kids etc. so there's no reason for your husbands disregard of duties as a man & husband. Before you throw in the towel, which is so easy. Give it one last shot & be honest with him. Tell him about his laziness and his lax attitude about finding a job, the intimacy also, lay those cards out. After that see his reaction. If he's into it establish objectives (work on resume, job applications) and get the ball rolling, maybe he needs you to light a fire under his ass to get that spark back. If not and it's the same old thing, sad to say you're going to have to move on, because it seems as though you have mentally checked out of the relationship so next is the physical.

  • Comment Link Guest Sunday, 25 November 2012 14:27 posted by Guest

    stuck: I really feel for you and I hope you find happiness. My husband doesn't abuse me but I know what it feels like to be alone and everything you do is wrong. All I am trying to do is fix things so we all can be happy. I end up begging him to love and respect me which just makes things worse. I always ask how did my life end up like this? I always strived for wanting to belong or to be loved and i feel out of ALL the people in the world I picked the one that doesn't know how to love anyone. He only thinks of himself.
    Good Luck to you!!!!

  • Comment Link Guest Sunday, 25 November 2012 01:15 posted by Guest

    Confused...: My husband and I will be married 3 years in March. The first year everything was great. He worked and I was pregnant with our now 2 year old daughter. We got along, sex was an every night thing but suddenly after our daughter was born everything took a turn for the worse. He is a great dad and he does try to please me but I am just so annoyed and frustrated with him anymore. He lost his job a year ago and still does not have a job. I am working full time 5-6 day work weeks and I am stressed doing it all by myself! He sits home and plays computer games (which is sucking our bank account dry) and video games all day! I have to constantly remind him to do the laundry, take the trash out, bathe the children etc etc. Is it me or is my husband a lazy bum? I am sick of doing everything myself with no help. I hate having to choose between getting food or putting gas in the car to get to work for the week. My children deserve better and so do I! He says he's looking for a job but I didn't know WoW was an application site... I'm to the point I do not want him to touch me anymore and I despise having sex. Anything he says or does sets me off. Am I a basket case or just plain fed up?

  • Comment Link Guest Saturday, 24 November 2012 08:10 posted by Guest

    OMG, that sounds soo: OMG, that sounds soo familiar. my husband likes to be tied up and humiliated. When I got sick and couldn't tie the rope, he wanted other women to come in to tie him up and do that. then they would leave and he would have sex. That is how he kept me going. I wanted sex with him and he held that over my head. He liked to go to strip clubs with me to find these girls.
    I have since left but after I wasted 16 years. Wish I had realized his problem long ago.
    But how do you talk about it with someone? how do you describe it? and it makes it sound as though you went along so why are you complaining now?
    They just have no idea. It just creeps up. They talk you into it once and again and then again.

  • Comment Link Guest Thursday, 22 November 2012 19:01 posted by Guest

    I relate to you: I have been with my daughters father since I was 17, I am now 20. And he is the exact same way as you described your husband. We are dealing with emotional abuse in our relationship, I have told him to leave twice and he leaves but he convinces me to come back and he's back the next day. I do not love him anymore I was too young and had a lot to learn. Luckily we are not married but it's really hard to let go. Specially because of our daughter. I feel trapped. And it seems to me you feel the same way. I wish it was as simple as packing my bags and leaving. Without the guilt of leaving him. Do what's best for you and your son; you don't want him growing up seeing all the fighting and cussing. It's not good for him. I should take my own advice but it's easier said than done. Good luck!

  • Comment Link Guest Tuesday, 20 November 2012 21:53 posted by Guest

    Should I divorce?: Im 21 got married when I was 19 had my son at 20.. We been together since I was 17.. We have fought pretty much since the day we met. We argue over the smallest things but he said that I can't leave him that I can't take our son that we should stay married because of our son. We yell at each other.. We call each other names.. Ill be crying in bed and he yells at me to tell him whats wrong even when I don't wanna tell him.. He tells me its my fault because im always mad about everything.. I do get mad alot alot is my fault but he wont take blame for any of it. We moved out of state so now im away from my family and have no one where I live. I don't drive so im here all day. He doesn't take care of our son the way he should I do all the work which is fine I love my son but he needs to help. I stay because of our son I don't want my son to not have parents that are not together and I want to see my son everyday instead of having to have days away from him so my husband has him.. I don't want to be divorced at 21. Im tired of being sad all the time and angry with him.. We hardly talk anymore.. We don't kiss. He will be at work for 5 or more hours and I don't hear a word from him.. He gets mad if I talk to a guy at work.. I just don't know what to do anymore.

  • Comment Link Guest Tuesday, 20 November 2012 11:29 posted by Guest

    understand your problem: I want to let you know i live in a marriage like yours. Be married 24 yrs. Two teenagers. My husband didnt have an affair but he talked me into swinging. What is in your future?? I wish someone would tell us.

  • Comment Link Guest Tuesday, 20 November 2012 09:54 posted by Guest

    Similar situation: In a strange way, it's nice to hear that there are other people out there with the exact same story as me. My husband had a 2.5 year affair, starting while I was pregnant with our second child. I have stuck it out but lived in a sexless marriage for 6.5 years. I found someone who fills the void of what my husband has NEVER given me...passion! My husband has recently found his way back to the bedroom (talk about timing) but still does not like to be touched or kissed. I find that I resent him more every day. We have never had great communication so, when I do finally say something, he usually throws it back in my face at some point. He turns it around and makes like he's the victim...just like his affair, he was the victim. Not many people know because he wanted to save face and all that time I was the one who suffered, I was the one who went to counselling, I was the one who lived in the sexless marriage...all because he felt ashamed of what HE did??? Well now, I wish he was having an affair because it would be so much easier, this time around, to walk out the door! I ask myself everyday why I don't do it. I'm scared of the unknown; I'm afraid of the reaction of our two children. We make a good team but that's it, we are only house-mates.

  • Comment Link Guest Monday, 19 November 2012 21:30 posted by Guest

    My advice is leave now. If: My advice is leave now. If you are not happy in your marriage two months in, it is not going to get any better. My husband is a great man but I've been questioning our marriage before we even got married, like you. Now we have two kids and I am not in love any more. I want out, but I'm afraid. Don't worry about what other people think. Don't wait any longer - you may have kids and that will mess things up. Focus on what you need. Good luck.

  • Comment Link Guest Sunday, 18 November 2012 01:17 posted by Guest

    Can't do this anymore: I have been married to my husband for 19 years. We have never been completely free of stress. We got married young, had a family young, dealt with a major illness (my husband) young, and just struggled. About 5 years ago my husband took a job that he travels often. Our kids are older, but it is still difficult to do a lot of the duties at home alone. I get resentful of him because he seems to not be really here when he is here and is very used to not having to talk to anyone during his job so he doesn't the same when he gets home. I get really mad at him and feel very little love for him. I try to see the love that was there, but as time goes on I see less and less of it. My kids are seeing this loveless marriage playout right in front of them. I know we aren't giving them a good example of what love could be. I am so sad and just want to be happy. I want him to be here for me and I want to want to be here for him. I don't want to walk out on this commitment, but I don't know how much longer I can take this. I look at him as a business partner instead of a partner in marriage.

  • Comment Link Guest Saturday, 17 November 2012 21:57 posted by Guest

    I Can't Get a Divorce: My husband and I have been married for 10 years. When we first married we both worked but 5 years ago I was diagnosed with Lupus among other things, and had to quit working. I can't do many things anymore. My husband does the laundry, and dishes. From the outside it looks like he takes care of me and is there for me. On the inside, he always complains about how put upon he is because of everything he does. He works and complains constantly about it. A couple of years ago he let our mortgage go and we ended up filing bankruptcy to save the house. He does nothing around the house as far as maintanance and our house inside is really in need of help. He tells his family all our personal issues from finances to how put upon he is. He buys my prescriptions, but calls to tell me he couldn't buy groceries because he had to buy my medication. I can't take his constant poor me attitude. Did I mention that he's been accusing me of having some secret life behind his back for the past 10 years? He sends his mail from the bank to his brothers house so I have no idea where any money goes. If you ask him, it's all my fault. Everything is my fault. I've taken him with me to therapy but he refuses to go anymore. The therapist actually told me to leave him. I'm staying only because I need his health insurance. I get disability and medicare but I couldn't live without his health insurance. I can't stand to see his face. Before he comes to bed I make sure I take all my night meds so I can fall asleep quickly. I can't watch tv without him talking all through the show so I try to stay in our bedroom when he's home when I want to watch something. He follows me around the house and won't let me be alone. I'm at the end of my rope. The stress is making my illness worse. This paragraph is just the tip of the iceberg as to what I deal with. How to you deal with life when you can't stand your husband????

  • Comment Link Guest Saturday, 17 November 2012 21:30 posted by Guest

    Mia, within 2 months of marriage you already feel like running away from your husband. This is supposedy the stage of honeymoon but it seems not. Before making any decisions, try to weigh everything. Try to talk to him and open up what you feel and see if something will change. If you already did and nothing happened maybe it's time to think. How much do you love your husband! Is there any respect between the two of you? Does your husband understand what you feel? Is he considerate? Do you feel like you're trapped and choked with all what your husband is asking from you within that 2 months marriage? Are you willing to give more months to try to make it work?
    If all or most of your answer is NO, I don't think that's healthy. If you're feeling like you want to give up your marriage now,do what you think will help you. Good luck!

  • Comment Link Guest Friday, 16 November 2012 15:49 posted by Guest

    Too soon for the D word?: I wish I would have never gotten married - then I could just break up with my husband and would not feel like there is so much more at stake. We have only been married two months and I have already started to feel like this is the wrong choice for me. I admit I felt there were some times during the engagement and wedding planning where I just wanted to call it all off but I thought it was just the stress of planning or something else. On paper my husband is perfect - good job, good family, doesn't cheat (I think) and is a nice guy by all accounts - the only thing is that he expects me to be a super woman. I work full time and he expects me to not only work but to also be a total housewife - cook, clean, do all the shopping, look good, spend copious amounts of time with his family, be part of his social circle. I feel like there are not enough hours in the day or if I wanted to try and meet his "ideal" I would have to wake up at 5am and not stop doing work until midnight. When I complain about these "expectations" he tells me that is what being a wife is about. I ask him to help me and once in awhile he will unload the dishwasher or maybe vacuum the rug but then he acts like he should get some kind of medal. To make it worse, he throws the fact that he pays the mortgage (to the house he bought before we were together btw) in my face and justifies that we are contributing evenly. I feel like I am not a wife but a mother to a full grown man who refuses to do anything for himself. I don't really want kids but I feel like I have one. I mean he still goes over to his mom's house everyday for lunch! I also feel like I am never going to be good enough in his eyes because of what I think are his unrealistic expectations but I dont know what to do. Maybe part of me just doesn't love him enough to want to do all those things. When I picture being single, back in my own apartment without him, not having to answer to anyone and just being able to do my own thing I get very sad - I really miss my old life. I am 30 years old now and I don't want to be in an unhappy marriage for a long time, I would rather get out now while i am still "young" and move on. Advice?

  • Comment Link Guest Thursday, 15 November 2012 22:05 posted by Guest

    Sounds like you've become: Sounds like you've become codependent on him being around. It's so easy to lose sight of our own value when we tolerate behavior such as what you've described. Your intuition is that gut feeling you have about not feeling like you can trust him, and it's usually fear that causes us to ignore it. Guilt can be an excuse to stay in a situation because it's more familiar to be unhappy, and scarier to make the choice to change. You're essentially maintaining control by choosing what you can count on-being unhappy and fed up. You're right, it all boils down to when youre tired of being sick and tired. Sadly some women tolerate this kind of bs the better half of their lives before they finally decide to wake up and take back control. Then they have to deal with not only the challenges of starting over after so much time has been invested in a dead end relationship, but also the pain of so much time wasted when they could have been loving themselves, and living for themselves. What do you want to do with the rest of the one life you have been given? Can you see yourself fulfilling your goals and aspirations if you stay in the situation you're in now? Are you living the example you want your child to internalize and learn from? What are you teaching them about relationship standards, and love?
    Good luck.

  • Comment Link TDay Thursday, 15 November 2012 13:53 posted by TDay

    I am in the same BOAT!: My husband never gave me time... Always seemed to have someting more important to do - work on the truck, work on his Mom's house, make a pond... would leave me home alone with kids on most weekends. He always seemed mad, negative about most things, never enough time. We are both horrible communicators...we have been to therapy. I have read sooo many books about relationships. He did have an affair while I was pregnant with my daughter... I took him back! I was soo scared to be alone with 2 young children. We went to a seminar and it opened my eyes - focus on yourself and be your best - Mom/wife/etc. I started taking me time and really started noticing how negative he was...and how unhappy I was. I tried it him at the door with a kiss, cook his favorite dinner, pamper him - nothing! He can do anything...fix anything kind of guy and doesn't abuse me, but I feel abused! I told him I wanted a divorce and now I have a new husband? He seems perfect, but I don't believe it. We are on our 3rd month and I am starting to see the old him... During this time, I have found or talking to someone that makes me laugh again! Ugh, timings awful, but it makes me feel less alone and wanted. I thought with him being gone on many weekends that I was not attactive, not important, not smart, you name it I have thought it. I also resent him...the holidays will be interesting, but I want our kids and us to be together, but at the same time it is sooo hard.

  • Comment Link Guest Wednesday, 14 November 2012 13:35 posted by Guest

    stuck: I am repling to you, because i understand how you feel. I am 43 years old and i have been with my now husband for 27 years, we got together when he was 15 and i was 16 (with a newborn son). He stepped up to the plate as a father to my son then and even though he wasnt the best father, he was a good father. We had a daughter together four years later & he again was a good father. We were both so young when we started our family. He had a lot of friends and they liked to drink & smoke pot, but coming from a kinda boring yet perfect little family i thought it was cool and fun. Well he became verbaly and physicaly abusive & verrrry jelious (which i thought was because he loved me so much). He would either say it was my fault or he was sorry & i would be a dumb ass and say ok. Now that im much older and wiser i realize he was just abusive and still is and it has nothing at all to do with love or even me for that matter. He really is my best friend (as stupid as that sounds) he is now an amazing father & he's a great provider for me, but i have wasted years on a man who had so many possitives BUT that no excuse for a man to beat on a woman. Ive had people tell me they thought my eye was normally black because it seemed as if my eye was always black from him. Ive also been chocked to the point ive almost passed out & ive been knocked unconsious 2 or 3 times with the most resent time a year ago this past October. I completely understand that you feel stuck BUT your not, please dont be 43 years old and look back at your pathetic life and wish you'd done things different, trust me it's a horrible feeling, knowing your life is half over and youve spent most of it unhappy and abused. I have a 22 year old daughter & thank god i raised her to be strong enough to know not to put up with anything like this, and i have a son who would NEVER put his hands on a woman. I dont know you but in a way i AM you, just a older version, so please head what i am saying and do whats best for you and those babies & either leave, call the cops...something, because your life is too precious and short to let some coward put his hands on you.

  • Comment Link Guest Tuesday, 13 November 2012 18:55 posted by Guest

    Does he still love me? : I have been married for two years now. I left my entire life behind to be with him in france. It was beautiful in the beginning he made me feel beautiful and so very happy. After about 3 months of moving in with him things started to change. He became secretive, he made it feel very uncomfortable going out in public. It was like when we went out we could not talk he seemed so paranoid. I didn't think much of it at the time. We had many arguments, but we always made up shortly after. I thought this was normal, but when we decided to move to England a decision we both thought was great things started getting worse. It seemed like he developed a certain type of hate against me his tone when he spoke to me and his body language all changed. I did ask him if he is okay was he happy here in England, he replies yes he is. He is never in the mood to make love, not even on our wedding anniversary. I feel neglect that I am not attractive to him anymore, or the arguments have pushed us away I just don't know. I still love him, but I am starting to resent him to even be around him because I feel like he does not love me. I know he has talked to girls in the past and have caught he said he doesn't do that anymore. How do I know he is telling me the truth? I am feeling depressed and alone. I sometimes sit there and think that what mess have I gotten myself into. When are things going to get better.....Sigh advice please.

  • Comment Link Guest Tuesday, 13 November 2012 16:08 posted by Guest

    Why would you be with someone: Why would you be with someone that doesn't help you? If he is that unwilling to help with anything, then it is obvios he doesn't want to be there either.

  • Comment Link Guest Monday, 12 November 2012 11:58 posted by Guest

    Hang in there and find your inner will: You are afraid of being alone. Of starting over. I would be too - it's a hard world out there and I sometimes wonder if I'm better off just staying in my failed marriage than facing the realities of making it on my own, alone, and at rockbottom. Where are we supposed to find the will to do this?

    I'm sorry this is happening to you. His family sounds awful, and despite your efforts, you don't even recognize yourself anymore. It's so sad -- I pray that you eventually find the strength to do what is best for YOU. Whatever that may be. Life is too short to live like this.

  • Comment Link Guest Monday, 12 November 2012 09:56 posted by Guest

    I'm just not that into him anymore: What does it mean when you can’t stand to be around your spouse anymore? Well this is how I feel all the time. I’ve been married for almost two years but we’ve been together (off and on) for at least 9 years. We have one child together but he has three children from previous relationships (two of them within the nine years). I thought I would be able to handle him and his baggage but it is taking a toll on our relationship and honestly I don’t think I can ever trust him again. But for some reason I keep taking him back and even agreed to marry him…after he gave me an ultimatum. Now I just can’t seem to be happy with him. He’s working again but he still can’t afford to pay his part of the household expenses. He’s always late paying the bills, we’ve had our lights, water, and cable turned off because he would go two to three months without paying them. And all of the bills in my name. My son has no health insurance and I can’t afford to get insurance through my employer because that will be more money out of my paycheck and less money to pay the bills. He doesn’t help me when my son need clothes and shoes for school, he doesn’t help pay for extra curricular activities my son is involved in, he doesn’t help to pay for summer camp every year, and he hardly helps with my son’s birthday and Christmas gifts. I’m to the point where I want to file for divorce so he can get his life together and I can repair mine. But I don’t want to hurt the relationship between him and my son. If his dad was not living in the same house as us, my son would have a hard time dealing with it. So yes, I am still in this relationship mainly because of my son. I don’t know what I should do. My heart tells me to stay and deal with it but my gut and my mind tells me he is taking advantage of the situation and he need to go. Maybe when I get sick and tired of being sick and tired, I will change the situation!

  • Comment Link Guest Sunday, 11 November 2012 16:28 posted by Guest

    Is it time for the D word: I married the man I loved, 1year later he got layed off and we were expecting a child. I then had to look after all the bills in the home, he then went on depression and we had to go see a psychologist which had t pay for . he then decided to run away from home for 3 days in the wild, his folk and I then decided he must go back home(another country). Its now 3years later, I have had to look after my daughter and household on my own, i am deep in depth and i have had my parents helping me out for 2years in this mess. He has not visited us for a year now even though we Skype. For 3 years now - He has been saying i will only respect him when he has money. I loose it with him as I dont understand how can a man not look after his family. I have no strength left in me, I have not been sexual for over a year and waiting for a man that is no longer the love of my life. I'm worried this might continue for ever. When i asked him if we should divorce he said he wants to stay married. Am i going mad or do most marriages go like this?

  • Comment Link Guest Sunday, 11 November 2012 13:30 posted by Guest

    My husband is on the phone: My husband is on the phone with some women and he said that it was not like that. But he emails he and said that he miss her... We have just been marry for 5 months .. I want two go befor I hurt me..

  • Comment Link Guest Saturday, 10 November 2012 09:31 posted by Guest

    Don't know what to do: I am so very confused about what to do - maybe someone out there has some advice. My husband and I have been married 7 years this next January. We were so perfect together in the beginning - I had known him as a friend for years. The summer of 2005 we began talking and we realized we had strong feelings for each other so I uprooted my 10 year old daughter & moved her & I to the town he lived in. We married within 3 months of moving in with him and his two children from a previous marriage and the first 6 months were amazing. We were perfect for each other. But then out of the blue his mother sent him an email about how she would get out of his life because I hated her. This came as a surprise to me because I always offered to help her and had no bad feelings toward her. After the initial email she would be nasty to my daughter and I whenever my husband wasn't around. He had asked me to not rock the boat with his mother to just let things go so for several years I didn't defend myself to her nor did I defend my daughter. I just let it go hoping it would all blow over. During that time we also dealt with nasty, bitter comments and hateful acts of theft and terrible mind games on his kids from his first wife. After awhile we found that his mother and ex wife (who hated each other during his marriage to her) were now friends. Other members of his family became friends with his ex also and several times I found myself defending my daughter and I against horrible comments by them. This of course took its toll and I eventually felt like he was constantly taking his mothers side & fighting with me about his other family members' issues. I found myself in a whirlwind because I've always been known as a caring, kind and professional woman. I made a career out of caring for the disabled & was being accused of being hateful and rude. He and I found ourselves fighting constantly and I threatened to leave constantly but I have never been able to actually leave. The truth is my husband is a terrific man devoted to his children, helpful, fun and above all else does almost everything I ask of him. He has come through for me in every way except when it comes to his family. I realize I wish I had left years ago because the price I have paid was with my daughter. Our relationship changed and she has seen us fighting over the years. Now she will be leaving for college in a few months and I feel I have missed out on time with her but financially I don't want to go because of all of the special things for senior year may not happen if I leave. I am not entitled to child support because even though my husband promised to adopt her, he never did. The sad problem is this, years ago the stress and arguing made me want to leave and I could have walked away with my pride. Now, I see the last 2-3 years I have become a major part of the problem. Of course his entire family hates me and continues their snarky attitudes but I went from patient and kind to majorly depressed, obese and yelling and angry all of the time. I get so mad when he is screaming at me I throw things and cry like a bratty toddler. His parents bought him a house that I currently live in with him and I was told if we divorce its me who has to move out. My career failed because he couldn't handle me traveling and so I'm an entry level cna with no friends or family in this town. I am so mad and do not want him to walk away with a home, his family support and half of everything while I have to start over. I keep begging him to work on this train wreck with me because I feel if we could go back to where we were before his mother interfered we could be great once again - and the the next minute I want to stay because I'm mad that I look like the beligerent fool. Why can't I let go? I read my words and the answer is shouting itself to me. Why did I let this change me into a pathetic, friendless loser who has nothing but regrets? How do I move on with my life when I'm so emotionally bankrupt and financially needy? What is wrong with me?

  • Comment Link Guest Friday, 09 November 2012 00:02 posted by Guest

    time to bail: I met my husband a week after I broke up with my finace and we married 4months after that. The first six months was wonderful and then I saw his true colors. He has been through six jobs in 5 years. I had to file bankruptcy on my house and move into my fathers home because of his inablity to keep a job. I have a professional career and make decent money so at this point I do not neet any finacle help from him. He is over bearing and controlling with me and my 16 year old daughter who has a year old son that also lives with us. He went as far as to grabbing her the other night and tried to force her out of my father's home. She and her biological father filed for a restraining order on him but he has not been served with the papers yet. He always apologizes after an outburst and tries to blame all his actions on everybody else. I can't stand for him to touch me anymore and resent him so much for failing to provide for the family. He also has been aggressive toward me even though he has not ever seriously hurt me or my daughter physically. I want him to leave so bad but I'm just terrified of being alone. He tries to make me feel sorry for him because he has nothing but my family around to rely on. I don't hate him but I don't love him. I just want him gone.

  • Comment Link Guest Thursday, 08 November 2012 21:03 posted by Guest

    Confused: I am a 32 year old woman my husband is 36, we have two kids a 10 year old and a 7 year old. He is finally seeking help for his issues but it took me saying i was getting a divorce to do so. He is Narcisstic, controlling, very much a guy who thinks he knows whats always best. He is a good man tries to make me happy and our kids.
    The sex has never been good ive never been able to open my eyes during and its always hard and fast for him he cant go slow and taht is painful for me. We have had issues in the past where he would come up behind me and have sex with me while i was breastfeeding my daughter in bed. He is sorry for all this and there is so much more.
    He thinks if I give it time I can feel for him what he says he feels for me. The thing is I havent felt this for a long time we have been married 12 years together for 15. I have been in therapy for 2 months and it has made me see many things and im finally allowing myself to feel. I did meet a man who made me feel, and this is after the plans for divorce were implemented so that did not play a roll in my decision.
    I feel bad for him we r good friends but i want more in my marriage, is it wrong for me to leave him when he is trying to get better?? I just resent him and feel gross when he goes to touch me and i dont wanna feel that way anymore. I dont feel like i should toward a husband/lover and i cant ever remembering feeling that way. any insight would be appreciated

  • Comment Link Guest Thursday, 08 November 2012 01:11 posted by Guest

    I honestly need to say that;: I honestly need to say that; Sweetheart, it is time to leave him. I have been married for ten and a half years and my husband has been emotionally and mentally abusive and each time he runs out and abandons me and our kids I feel that pain cut deeper.
    My situation is quite complex but nowhere near as crazy as yours and I know I deserve better treatment.
    Why don't you love yourself enough to realize that you deserve to "live"? You need to see that about yourself and see that what he is doing is destroying you inside, and (in no doubt) your son.
    I haven't gone through what you have, but if you read what you have posted as if it was someone else, what would you say to them? Is there any way to reconcile that kind of abuse? Obviously not. The choice is yours, but ask yourself; do you really want to waist anymore of your life feeling that kind of pain from one who professes to be your husband?
    If you decide to leave but you're not sure how to do it, or how to afford it, go down to the state care or workforce services and ask to speak with or direct you to someone who can help you in your abusive situation. You have your rights and can go down and speak with someone in the police department. There are so many who are willing to help women like you.
    The hardest part is making that decission that enough is enough. Once you do, it is a painful and liberating process that gets better.
    *hugs* my heart goes out to you. I hope you are able to find the stregnth you need.

  • Comment Link Guest Wednesday, 07 November 2012 17:01 posted by Guest

    reply: This seems like a case of to much to fast,as im going through the same with my. husband,i met him very
    On in my life. I have love for him, just not in love with him, we have 2 beautiful kids, but the love just isn't there for me. The best thing I think you can do is ask yourself if life without them would be better without them. I think I might ask fora separation so I can clear my head and find out who I am..not sure if this helps but I guess I took the time to reply to vent as well.

  • Comment Link Guest Wednesday, 07 November 2012 16:38 posted by Guest

    seriously?: She's going through her change? In her early twenties? You are an idiot. And I'm not sure why you are posting on this site. It's for venting and advice. Not stupid remarks. And also, please learn to spell.

  • Comment Link Guest Wednesday, 07 November 2012 15:08 posted by Guest

    what?: Dolly, I'm sorry for your loss but why did you ask the questions "is it time for divorce"? It sounds like that decision was already made for you.

  • Comment Link Guest Tuesday, 06 November 2012 15:41 posted by Guest

    HELP PLEASE!!: Hi first of my husband and I have been marry for almost 11 years I was only 15 when we got together I had my son at 16 and he is now almost 10, I have been trough alot with him at first it was all his nights out for days drinking without coming back or even a call later then the abuse rape me when drunk, verval, emocional and black eyes all of the above like you can imajine, I used to blame my self because I thought it was my faulf for confronting him when he was drunk about why he didnt come home or called to at least let me know he was okay then it when from abuse to cheating with multiple women to almost killing me shooting at my car when I was trying to leave after a punch to my face becuse he thought there was something going on between me and his friend he brought over to the house to drink that night, I just been hurt in so many levels I cant get back to sanity any more its has reached behond my reasoning im now 26 and still confused I know I don't love him any more even though he has change and not cheat or get lost drinking for days any more but still that other abuse. 3 weeks ago I went out with my friends got drunk and when I got back home around 5 am he through all my clothes in the living room and told me to leave pushed me gainst the door and hit my head against the door really bad, when I was supposed to be the drunk one :-P didnt leave because don't have any where to go my mom lives here but her house is full if people 3 yourger brthers and 2 older sister I know I wouldnt fit in that house anyway..I want my freedom back and my life if there is anything else better out there or even be happy by myself and with my son. I feel a big gap in my chest and so much pain some times I even feel like disapearing from the map literaly!! every time I see him or talk to him it borther me and feel angry..Want to move on but don't know how? please any advise

  • Comment Link Guest Tuesday, 06 November 2012 14:32 posted by Guest

    What to do? : My husband and I have been together for 12 years, we were high school sweethearts. We have teo children, one 4 year old and a 7month old. I have always worked and had job security. He on the other hand cant seem to keep a job for more than 3-6 months at a time. When we get on our feet and get our own place, he does great for 3-6 months then we eventually have to move out bc he has lost his job and I cant afford to support our family and all the needs. This has happened atleast 4 times already, and we have to move back in with my parents. I dont know what to do anymore, I have delt with this for to long. I have made so many work suggestions to him, have had many people try to get him a great paying job and he doesnt go fill out the application or just lies to me about going. I'm at my wits end with him and his lieing about having a job or lieing about going to find a job. Help any suggestions?

  • Comment Link Guest Monday, 05 November 2012 09:51 posted by Guest

    .....Your paragraph made me: .....Your paragraph made me cry. I'm 37 and considering separating for a slew of reasons, unrelated to yours...but I can NOT imagine what you must be going through. You are a woman who DESERVES better. Only you know what to do, and I think you already know it. Find the courage, find the place to go - a safe one for you & the kids...look up the address, find the phone number...take the first step. It won't be easy at first, NOT AT ALL, but after you get through the tunnel - there has to be light. Find that light, find the courage ...hardest thing is the first step. You have no justification to staying where you are. Your kids deserve NOT to see that..they deserve to have a mom who is happy & safe. Find safety first...happiness will come in time.

  • Comment Link Guest Saturday, 03 November 2012 20:53 posted by Guest

    Hi, Im sorry u have to go: Hi, Im sorry u have to go thru all this, but the only way u can get out is to leave, especially for your sons sake and yoirs. You have a salary and this man will continue to abuse you because you stay and put up with it. Thinl of the example u are setting for your son in whats acceptable in a marriage. Abuse or safety and respect for ypur and his future. Forget your husband and be strong and leave and live witjfamily or friends if u can. You will meet someone else. Just stay with someone u know or family, .

  • Comment Link Guest Friday, 02 November 2012 22:31 posted by Guest

    Tired of the BS: My husband and I have been married for 7 years and we have no children. Actually we have nothing to show for the time we have been together. We met during our freshman year of college and remained friends. The past couple years have been difficult for us both, but we managed to move on. Over the course of 2012 my feelings for my husband have started to wither. I find him repulsive at times, don't want him to touch me, look at me, or even talk to me cause the sound of his voice pisses me off so much. He has changed so much. I am sure I have too. However, my husband is a drunk and gambler. He will take our last dollar to drink. I had to open a secret bank account to save money and pay bills, because he would let checks bounce and our account go negative for a fix. I am so over this and him. I know if I decide to leave it will hurt emotionally. I am not so much worried about me, but more for our extended families.. I am an emotional wreck.... I know I have to leave.....

  • Comment Link Guest Friday, 02 November 2012 13:15 posted by Guest

    Lost: I am so confused. I have been with my husband for over eleven years. He used to be very verbally abusive and very, very controlling. He will always want to know where I'm going, what time I am going to be home, an like girl aboved if I am not home when I say I am going to be what was I out doing. I have to make up small lies just to be allowed to do anything. We fight almost on a daily basis. We only have one child together, an eight year old boy. I feel our relationship is the way it is because this is how his parents were. I have been heavily thinking about divorce for about seven years. I always thought something would make it better. It never got better, some days almost worse. I am petrified to leave because he is a cop, an ex-marine, and has major anger issues. He has told me in the past if I leave him he will tell our son how much of a whore his mother is. He's also threatened to kill himself if I leave him because he will not have anything. His parents are both dead and him and his sister do not get along. I feel so bad that he has nothing except our son and me. He hasn't been as verbally abusive in the last six months, but he still has his moments. He wants to always have sex with me and it makes my skin crawl. It is to the point where I will do it every once in a while just to get him off my back and say hurry up and don't go inside of me. I am a well-educated, young woman, but for some reason I am so lost on what to do. I give advice all day long because I am a high school teacher, but yet I can't listen to my own. How do I go about getting out. We have just recently sold our house together and he is pushing to get in another one, but I don't think I should put my name on anything. I fear for my future and my son's future. I don't know how to support him on a teacher salary, what if I am alone the rest of my life, and what if I should just stay for my son. I am really so confused and lost.

  • Comment Link Guest Thursday, 01 November 2012 07:43 posted by Guest

    I have been to my husband for: I have been to my husband for 30 years and hate him more than I can say. I do not Love him, hate spending time with him and loathe having sex with him. I have been abused in the past by this man and I am very affraid of him. He is a bully who knows how scared of him I am, I have told him on multiple ocassions that he likes me being affraid of him. I married my husband when I was 16 and pregnant our 2 children are grown and moved on with there lives and I look back now and wished I would have left him so many years ago. He to has had affairs do not know how many I only know of 2 also he wants me to have sex with other men while he watches I have did it a couple of times but now refuse to continue with that. I have meet a man who I would LOVE to leave my husband so I can persue this but I know I never will. The only way I will ever be free of him is I will have to move away from my family and right now that is not possible. My father is very sick battling cancer and I do not want to be too far away from him. I do not have to worry about my children because thay turned out to be 2 of the best adults I know. So please listen to me if you can get free from this man please do before you are in my shoes, 46 years old and living with a man you hate.

  • Comment Link Guest Wednesday, 31 October 2012 23:48 posted by Guest

    Should I go or should I stay: I have been married for 21 yrs, within the first 3 we had our first child and he had his first affair. I was raised to make it work, When our children were 7 and 5, he had an affair with my brothers gf (his now wife). Yet again I stayed, I felt I had to because I wanted my kids to have a 2 parent house. In 2000, he started telling me that he wanted to watch another man have sex with me, when we were having sex, I thought oh its just helping him get to where he needs to be, but this has gone on for the last 12 years, and now he's posting on Craigslist for men to come and "do me" and I don't want this, I've told him an he will delete the ads, but not 2 weeks or a month later he's back at it. He went to a prostitute for oral sex, twice. I've been with him so long I don't know anyother way to live. My children are now 19 and 17, one is on their own and the other soon will be, I want to leave but I'm affraid, what to do, someone give me some advice.

  • Comment Link Guest Wednesday, 31 October 2012 22:57 posted by Guest

    I am wondering whether or not: I am wondering whether or not I should bring it up or if I am merely blowing things out of proportion but here is my story. Met my wife and then three months later she was pregnant. We got married a few months after that and I was instantly stationed overseas away from her for 10 months, 8 of those being my child's first. I then saw her for about 8 more before I got deployed again to Afghanistan and I am finishing up my year. I just notice that when we are together I feel more like friends than anything. I feel like she isn't emotionally mature enough for me and that we don't share a lot of interests together. I also notice that sometimes the physical attraction fades away and the emotional attraction does as well.
    I am heavily contemplating bringing the topic up when I return from theater but I do not know how to. Any advice?

  • Comment Link Guest Wednesday, 31 October 2012 18:26 posted by Guest

    I'm so sorry. Turn to Jesus: I'm so sorry. Turn to Jesus Christ our Lord and Saviour. You have all the reason to leave him, even from the Christian point of view. He can't take your children away, know that. Also, no worldly possession or amount of money is worth staying in that situation. We have good programs, we have family, we have a church family, people will help you.

    With love,


  • Comment Link Guest Wednesday, 31 October 2012 16:23 posted by Guest

    Find a goal to work toward: Choosing to stay longer while not choosing to work toward a better marriage is wrong. It won't get better just cause you stay. She probably will not put much in either if she feels there is no use.

  • Comment Link Guest Wednesday, 31 October 2012 12:18 posted by Guest

    I am so sorry to hear that: I am so sorry to hear that you are going through this. I have seen a few friends of mine go through divorces and it is very hard to prove a mother unfit. You can bring up the fact that he wanted you to abort your child rather than care for it and was out having his own fun all the time instead of helping with the children. As long as you dont abuse your kids he can not take them. If you kepp them fed, dressed, clean (as clean as you can keep children) then there is no way he can take them. A child needs a mothers love and care and no man can supply that. Almost 100% of the time the mother wins. So i think you should leave him and if it goes to court he will end up looking like the bad person and not you if you bring up how he has treated you. I hope i have helped you and wish the best in whatever you chose to do.

  • Comment Link Guest Wednesday, 31 October 2012 00:56 posted by Guest

    Letting Go: I've read a lot of stories and they all have similarities to mine. My husband was verbally abusive and the pattern I noticed was he treated me worse when he was or wanted to have an affair. Even asked me to give up our unborn daughter for adoption. Affair confirmed shortly after that request. There were two I know about but I'm sure there were more. Finally after a night of more verbal abuse in front of two daughters I decided to leave. I got my own place and moved out. It's been hard as I do still love him but at some point I have to put myself first. Truth be told I think he already had his next one lined up before I even moved out. We had continued to see each other periodically and of course we would have sex and then he would be an asshole. Yea, my fault he has had everything he wants up till this point. Well its been a year and I'm ready to move on completely. He is NEVER going to change. Should I file the papers and make it final or just move on and wait for him to file?

  • Comment Link Guest Wednesday, 31 October 2012 00:39 posted by Guest

    I'm sorry. As hard as it is: I'm sorry. As hard as it is you need to leave. Your children need to have a good role model. No judge would award him the kids.

  • Comment Link Guest Tuesday, 30 October 2012 22:59 posted by Guest

    Tired of fighting for us Alone: I am 25 years old. Been with my husband a little over 4 years. we met on yahoo personals. We dated for a short time before we got pregnant. We married was pregnant. I know, not the right reason to marry but I was blindly in love. Our dating life wasnt great. He cheated when I was away for 3 weeks. Was seeing a girl when we dated the first time. On our wedding day, he ran off 4 hours away. Sent me an email via facebook saying he couldnt marry me because he didnt love me. He ended coming 10 mins before the weddinng started. My dad asked me 3 times if I was sure this was what I wanted. 3 weeks after marriage, he had a girl texting him pics. He would constantly call a gal-pal when we argued. when I was 7 months pregnant, he started a match, i found out because we shared a laptop. I asked about it, he said he was looking for a replacement (to replace me!) mind you, I was pregnant with HIS son. Yes I got moody but I wasn't naggy. I let him go out with the boys, ride his motorcycle. things are alright until a year later when I miscarry, he was emotionally detached from me, he didnt care. I cried every night for 4 months. Then I got pregnant with our daughter, he told me to abort her that he didnt want another one. Again he detached himself from me. 4 weeks after she's born, he had gone on craigslist & found a lonely house wife who wanted FWB (which he said he didnt know what it meant). Here I was home alone with a newborn & toddler and NO one there for support (except my mom). Come 5 months later, i had a bad gut feeling so when he was asleep I took his phone..... he had emailed & kept pursuing the FWB, he went to lunch and spent free time with a friend of mine & had a gall pal sending sexy pics of herself to him. I was soooo angry. (still am a year later) I wanted to leave him, I didnt. he said he'd take the kids from me if I did. SO here I am a year later, my heart is broken beyond repair. Ive seen a counselor by myself because "im the one with problems'. Every time I try to leave he threatens to take the kids from me & make sound to be an unfit mom in court. These babies are my life. My reason to breathe. Im stuck in a corner with what feels like no where to go.

  • Comment Link Guest Tuesday, 30 October 2012 02:23 posted by Guest

    EXACTLY my issue. I have 4: EXACTLY my issue. I have 4 kids under 9 here, we live paycheck to paycheck too. Im seeking employment to try to get some money of my own to help before announcing I want to separate. I dont want to put it off so long.... but I dont know how Id afford to live right now if he left....

  • Comment Link Guest Tuesday, 30 October 2012 01:58 posted by Guest

    I dont blame you. I can: I dont blame you. I can understand completely. I met my husband in Fall of 2004. We became engaged in Spring 2005, and married a year later. 6 monthes later, I thought I hadbreast cancer. a month later, found out I was having a baby. A month later, had to get surprise temp custody of a 2 year old and 2 month old nephews. I never could make him understand i was clueless. I had a huge change in my life, responsiiblities I was not prepared for, expecting my first child, still a newlywed, and a sudden mother of a new baby and toddler! It took adjusting, but he never could get it. He never noticed the things I did right, or the things I was working on... it was always the things I did wrong. I tried since 2007 to get him to consider counceling. He says he is fine. He doesnt need it. I'M the one with problems. And If I would just change everything I do we'd be fine. He said the way the kids act, the condition of the house, the finances, our relationship.... it is ALL up to me to fix. Then when I asked if he understood the supreme pressure that put on me, he shrugged. If I cry, he gets angry. We still have the nephews, plus a now 5 year old son and 2 year old daughter. He still treats the nephews with a "stepkid syndrome" even though he is the only father the youngest nephew has ever known. He told me on our anniversary this past spring "If it wasnt for these kids, Id have left you a long time ago" My OBGY saw I was depressed BOTH TIMES while expecting- he told me hubby both times to call him in 2 weeks after the births, to tell doc how I was doing. Hubby never did; doc ended up calling me both times. After my daughters birth I suffered postpartum depression; my hubby never got it. He used to talk to me, do things with me, take walks, window shopping, joking around.... now nothing AT ALL. He says its because of his health (he is only in his 40s) BUT because of MY mistakes he is on anti depressants, which means he has to take medication which affects his overall health, which means he cant do anything with me. In short ((too late for that? lol) It is ALLLLL MY FAULT and he is the victim. The past 2 Saturdays Ive gone to a great redneck bar with my sister (he knows). He elects to stay home KNOWING IM GOING TO A BAR dressed to the nines! The wedding bands are off; came off Tuesday last week due to swelling in my finger.... but I have no desire to put them back on. I told him years ago if he didnt talk to me, Id find someone who would. He has been begged and pleaded with...but he doesnt see himself doing anything wrong. Im seeking employment to get extra money. I want to separate... but will need extra income. Ive read so many Christian things saying divorce is not an option.... but, the MAN had responsibliities to his wife and family, just like the wife does to her hubby and family. If only one is willing to work on it, it will be a sad painlful lonely life and the kids grow up, and they see whats going on. I dont believe in being married and miserable just because you said you would always. People change. And if the man you married becomes a man you'd never consider marrying now... well, you should do something about it. Im trying to figure out how and when to bring it up to him...

  • Comment Link Guest Saturday, 27 October 2012 20:13 posted by Guest

    am I just postponing it?: I work in the medical field and agree with the therapist. You also sound like you are may be struggling with depression. No reason to ruin a marriage and family.

  • Comment Link Guest Saturday, 27 October 2012 15:30 posted by Guest

    re: help I'm stuck: I hope you are well when you read my response and no harm has come to you, but the first thing you need to do is to RUN! Look up information for battered shelters and you and your kids get there! Take a cab whatever you have to do! I don't know what state you live in but usually in abusive cases legal aid will help you with your divorce. I can't say I know how this feels but I know I wouldn't want anyone in my family to be going through this alone. You need to also file a restraining order. Talk with the people at the shelter and they probably have much more advice that I can give you. I wish you good luck and I will pray for you.

  • Comment Link Guest Friday, 26 October 2012 22:53 posted by Guest

    you need to leave if not for: you need to leave if not for you...for your children....just think of what they are learning seeing how you are accepting to live and be treated....they will soon think that is normal and that is how women get treated....please reach out to some family member or friend.

  • Comment Link Guest Friday, 26 October 2012 19:01 posted by Guest

    Am I just postponing it?: Hi I've been married for almost 4 years now and am really considering divorce, sorry if there are a lot of typos my kids love destroying my keyboard. I started dating my wife in Dec 07, she became pregnant about a month later with my daughter. I joined the Army as a medic in May 08 and got married in Nov. Since then we've been together pretty much nonstop besides my deployments to Afghanistan, Aug09-Aug10 and Feb12-Aug12, lately I've been thinking heavily about divorce, and it's not her fault, I don't think she's ever been disloyal and neither have I, however I find myself having extremely minimal physical attraction if any, most of my friends tell me I'm crazy but I don't feel it anymore. I also managed to come back from my last deployment with less money than I deployed with, which she has no explanation for. I know my wife does a lot for me, she tries hard I know, always cleaning, taking care of our kids (son is 2, daughter is 4 and autistic), making meals, and she tries spending time with me, but I just don't feel for her anymore. I've told her how I felt and she insisted I talk to her shrink with her, which didn't go well, he seemed convinced that I'm just desensitized to everything because of my "experiences" I get where he's coming from but that's not the case. I don't hate my wife, I still care about her in the sense that she's a person, mother to my kids and she does have a big heart, which is why I told her she can have everything besides my Cadillac, since she has my old Honda anyway, but after talking and thinking I decided to give it a bit longer, but I still feel like we're growing apart, I feel no physical attraction, emotional attatchment, no desire to converse, and I feel like she's still got the emotional stability/mentality of a 12 year old, I guess I want someone that will mature with me, do you think I should just get it over with?

  • Comment Link Guest Friday, 26 October 2012 11:58 posted by Guest

    Hi you....

    I read your words: Hi you....

    I read your words and I want to hug you and bring you to my house and look after you. Please please talk to your mother and put a plan of escape into place.... You NEED to leave and save your precious life and those adorable children's.

  • Comment Link Guest Friday, 26 October 2012 11:07 posted by Guest

    Help..I am stuck: This is gonna be a kinda long story..but i have no one else to tell it to.. I have been with the man that is now my husband since a few months before i was 16. I am now 24. When i met him i was already at a kinda weak point in my life..I was 15 and pregnant. The babies father was not a very nice person and we broke up when i was about 3 months pregnant. I had met my husband once or twice during my early pregnancy but nothin ever came of it. When i was about aix mths pregnant i got very depressed because i felt so alone in my situation. Then i found out that he was asking about me, then one thing led to another and we started datin when i was eight mths pregnant. I was really surprised cause he was so young ( only 16) and wanted to date someone pregnant. He was even there when i had my son and thats when i really started fallin for him. He was i thought. Things were great for about two years then i found out i was pregnant again but i was fine with it because i already had one child so that would be him someone to play with. I moved in with him when i found out i was pregnant, and thats when things changed. He showed signs of bein controlling before that, but i ignored them. At first it was simple things like him having to know where i was going, exactly what time i was coming home (when i was a little late i got accused of cheating) . Then he would have to know who i talked to, wanted to see my receipts and checked if the time on them would match the time i said i was there. Then he started getting physically abusive. It started small just like a push a smack etc. Then it got really bad. I have been chocked to the point of passing out, have had black eyes, busted lips, had my hair literally pulled out. And there have been a couple times when he has had loaded guns to my head and had me begging for my life. (We got married before the physical abuse started) I have left several times and each time i come back. I had to quit school so i have no way to take care of my kids and i always vowed to make my marriage work and not just be another divorced single mother. The last time i came back he swore he would never hit me again, and he hasnt in over a year. But now he is very verbally abusive and still controlling, especially if he has no marijuana that he says he smokes so he can stand me and the kids. My oldest son no longer lives with me because of all the stuff my husband used to do and at the time i made the decision to let him live with my aunt i had no way of getting my self out so i decided it would be best if he didnt have to see what was going on. I have three by my husband now. A 6 and 4 year old and we now have a 2 mth old. I admit i do get behind on my housework sometime, what mother doesnt. But is that reason to sit and scream and cuss at me and say im not a good wife or mother and other insults until i am crying? If his food is not served on the table when he gets home from work i am lazy and dont deserve to have a husband according to him. I have to get his clothes ready for him in the mornings, pack his bucket, and when he gets home and showers i have to lay his towel out and get his clothes out for the evening, and if i pick something he doesnt like he throws it in the floor and i have to find more. There is a lot more stuff i could write but i have already written a novel, but i have no one to talk to, i am rarely able to see my family and when i do i dont want to ruin my visit with them with my problems. I am just so depressed and unhappy i dread seeing him come home in the evenings. I needed to tell someone or i was going to explode. Thank you to whoever takesmthere time to read this, i really appreciate it.

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  • Comment Link Guest Thursday, 25 October 2012 06:11 posted by Guest

    so trapped: We've been together almost 8 years, married for almost 6. Things have been very strained with us lately, but he seems absolutely oblivious. I've had to quit my job because our babysitter quit without notice (our son is autistic, and she decided she didn't want to deal with him anymore), and our finances are down to nil. He does have savings, but refuses to touch them because "we're gonna buy a house someday." He gets violently angry if I suggest we even take a couple hundred out, just to get groceries. I've been going without food, while he and our son eat. He demands that I beg my mother for money (his parents refuse, saying our situation is all my fault). I've been trying to find work, but can't find a suitable sitter for our son.

    Geez, I'm rambling. I'm miserable, I'm unhappy, and I really think the best thing for all of us is if we at the very least separate. He has made threats in the past to harm himself if I ever leave, and I don't want to risk him hurting himself or anyone else. I feel trapped, and I've felt trapped for most of our marriage. I NEED OUT!

  • Comment Link Guest Wednesday, 24 October 2012 13:34 posted by Guest

    My husband I have been: My husband I have been married for a year, we got married because we got pregnant. Now our baby girl is 6 months old and he only wants to spend 5 minutes tops with her, if she is happy. If she is crying he wants nothing to do with her, which is all the time now since she is teething. If he does have to change her or get her a bottle while she's crying, he swears and yells at her. He puts me down all the time. I try not to say anything to offend him, except when it slips out or I'm pissed. But when it happens he makes me feel like crap for saying anything. I lost all my friends and the love of my life 2 years ago, since then I've been very reclusive and antisocial. My husband was the first person I had spoken to in months when I met him again (we went to high school together). I ask 3 things of him, take out the trash/baby diapers, wash the dishes (since I reuse mine throughout the day and have gone a week with the same dishes), change out of work clothes/boots right when he gets home (he works with fiber glass) so our baby doesnt get any on her... but he can't do that, I can't even count how many times I have had fiber glass stuck in my feet. I have to ask him 3 or 4 times a day to get him to just do anything. He is irresponsible and reckless. He crashed and totalled my 1996 riced up Honda Civic into my 2005 Neon SRT-4 (both of which I did all the work on). To replace them he went to Cars n' Credit and got a p.o.s. 2001 Dodge Grand Caravan. He is a skilled driver, but I don't want him to speed with baby in the car, he does it any way. And I can't drive the van cause its his, he says. He made over $10,000 worthless in a matter of seconds drifting in my driveway, another thing I told him not to do, and I can't drive the stupid mini van. He got us evicted, and our only place to go is his hypochondriac mother's house... in Nebraska. We live in Minnesota. I have 30 days to figure out if I should get a divorce or not, cause once I am down there it'll be hard to get back.

  • Comment Link Guest Monday, 22 October 2012 19:13 posted by Guest

    Is it time to divorce now?: I dont know where to go or what I need to do. My husband was turned down for a refinance because of excessive debt to income ratio. He has been self employed for 12 years. He just returned from a 6 day vacation to North Carolina to go to Nascar. He called me at work and wanted me to get him my last 2 paycheck stubs to the other bank and told me he was rejected but did not give me the full picture. He wants to go through another bank and try to secure a refii loan. What I discovered this morning made me feel very ill. He plans on buying 500.00 worth of die cast Nascar cars from someone on eBay and he has already booked a hotel in May of 2013 for another 6 day Nascar trip and put 590 on his credit card! This is not the first time he has had to refinance due to poor spending habits. Our daughter is 12. I am scared and feel that there is something seriously wrong with the way he is thinking! I dont know if I should call a lawyer and get a divorce. He never talks to me about anything and this last March told me, while shaking his fists, he did not want to hear part time and temporary but wanted to hear me get a job full time and with benefits. back in 2009 our daughter was diagnosed with Leukemia. She is in remission now, but I was not working for about a year and then i did temp work because she was still gettting some chemo. Nevertheless, he also told me he was going to pay 500 less for the mortgage payment but never did and he will not work on a budget. While what I need to do may seem obvious to you, there is our daughter to consider. My family lives in Florida. I live in Minnesota, and I just started a job this May.

  • Comment Link Guest Monday, 22 October 2012 10:11 posted by Guest

    I don't even know the first: I don't even know the first step to take.. I'm so lost right now. He actually doesn't expect for me today home , of course I have to do everything that keeps the 'home' running but he would certainly prefer me to work. But he wouldn't take care of the kids , sure he will play with them but not ever take on the watching them alone for more then 5 minutes. I worry about a shelter.. Does that sound weird? Would my kids be safe? And what would that do to them? I am so confused .. Would I be able to pay rent without him ? How would I keep the lights on or keep my kids fed an clothed?! I have nothing .. We already live paycheck to paycheck .. I wish there was a magic button to go back in time to when he was different and wouldn't ever raise his voice to me or the kids..

  • Comment Link Guest Sunday, 21 October 2012 22:37 posted by Guest

    i totally relate to you. i: i totally relate to you. i have been married for 18 years with 2 children ages 16 and 13. i feel very lonely in marriage because we lack affection, communication, and probably respect for each other now. like your husband, he talks and yell and does not show affection. this and others things that is making me unhappy. i did not anything for mother's day and my birthday this year. i am unhappy . he can give me silent for up to 3 weeks. i really had it and have been thinking about divorce for the past 5 years. i have a job but not financially well off and i am scare to be alone. what if my kids are unhappy for breaking up the family. should i wait until my oldest kid goes off college in 2 years?

  • Comment Link Guest Sunday, 21 October 2012 19:03 posted by Guest

    Broken and alone: You are NOT: Broken and alone: You are NOT alone. You need to get out and take care of you and your kids. Get a restraining order because your husband is unpredictable!!! This is 2012 not the fifties. You can support your kids by going back to school and there is money for women in your situation. You can get childcare and tuition PAID for. Find a women's shelter and let them know that you are afraid. Your husband is abusing you emotionally and probably controlling you by expecting you to stay home with the kids. Get out it will only get worse!!

  • Comment Link Guest Sunday, 21 October 2012 18:05 posted by Guest

    Broken and alone: I have been with my husband 13 years and have three children , we met when I was 16 and he was 21, he is manic depressive an was always able to "deal" fine but until the past couple years when he has been more excessively drinking a six pack or more a day.. Sometime starting at 11am and the stress of the construction world slowing down.. His moods are all over the place , we seem to be fighting a lot, he can be really cruel, half the time he will apologize , but sometime he just doesn't think it was wrong. He is a big survival fan too, which has become way crazy. We live in supurbia and he has been spending his off time not with his kids or wife but outside building a chicken coop and rabbit run ! Yes I said it! He doesn't give a crap my feelings on this cs I am against it. We don't live on a farm but next door to doctors and scientists and the houses are on top of each other! He thinks the world is headed for economic collapse and noone can tell him different. He has extreme highs and that's when he is inappropriate hyper an then other times way aggressive that I feel scared to be around him ca I could set him off if the faintest thing is said or out of place. We are not at all into the sesame things anymore he is has turned a huge corner an the constant drinking is a fight all the time. Our youngest child is one and was just diagnosed with type one diabetes and now more then ever I feel alone overwhelmed an don't know what to do. It's like he is the shell of my husband. I have had the conversation with him a thousand times that I need him to change or try to be more there for me and it's is always on deaf ears. I have noone one but my kids , I have no income and a insulin dependent child and two other school age kids. I feel trapped that even if I wanted to leave I would have nowhere to go, but I am miserable an crying everyday.

  • Comment Link Guest Sunday, 21 October 2012 17:56 posted by Guest

    I have been married almost 26: I have been married almost 26 years. I can relate to all of you who are worried about leaving because you have kids, financial responsibilities, etc. Do yourself a favor and get out NOW if you are unhappy. Don't let kids, finances or your emotions get the best of you. I am almost 50 years old and I have had enough of my husband's controlling ways. He has been responsible in the past, but as he is getting older he has changed a lot and is depressed. He will not get help and drinks to erase the pain. On top of that, he expressed to me that when he married me he did not fully reveal to me that he has a gender disorder. I know that he loves me, but he has tried for years to hide the fact that he feels like a woman. He is passive aggressive and has taken out his anger on me. I feel like a fool. I am educated and didn't see the signs. For many years we had a normal sex life. I feel betrayed and alone. My adult children know and a few trusted family members. I feel guilty for wanting a divorce because I know he is hurting, too. I feel like if I don't get out I will have a nervous breakdown and lose my job! Any suggestions? I am not afraid of being alone, but I am worried my husband will kill himself because he has said it in the past.

  • Comment Link Guest Sunday, 21 October 2012 14:47 posted by Guest

    how to ask for a divorce: I moved out 10 months ago, after 20 years of marriage. Nobody understands, and nobody really supports my decision, because i can't tell everyone the reason. He never cheated on me. It was me who did the cheating, for many years. I found myself in a situation. I got myself into a situation. It was all about money and power. I was bringing home 140k a year, a few new cars were bought for me, cash anytime i wanted, and thousands of shares of stock. We were set. But i had to put myself in that situation to get the things i wanted for my family. I knew it was wrong, and everyone around me knew what i was doing, including my husband. I tried to quit multiple times, and each time i tried, or actually walked out, i was talked into staying. I was feeling used and the guilt finally made me want out. I tried to tell him that things were going on, and he would just tell me i had to stay in the job in order to live this lifestyle. Before i left, i once again, tried to quit, and my husband became angry and told me that i just didn't want to pay for my kids college. After i moved out, i told him the truth, and he just looked flat and said, i don't care, i want you back. At this point, i felt nothing for my husband, and felt that if he truly would have cared, he would have put his foot down the first time i got a bonus check for 50k dollars. We were in a beautiful home, paid for, and had fancy hawiian vacations and stuff. But when my husband wanted to be intimate, i just had an empty feeling. Actually, there was always an empty feeling. I married him due to pregnancy and i tried to make it work. I loved him, but why would he not care about my trips, cash, fox coats, and more? He just would turn a cheek and keep on going. I grew to despise my job and felt trapped in my own home. Now that i left, it's hard to file. He hasn't really tried to get me to come home that much, but my kids seem to think so. He has bought me a necklace and a few cards. But i think i would become severely depressed over the past, if i was to go back. My kids want me to let him keep the house, the retirement, and more. I just have to sit with him and talk, but the tears will hit him and i will feel guilty all over again. He hasn't moved on, but i have. I want to move and i want to start over with someone else. I did quit, and of course, took a big pay cut. But, i am happier now, until he and the kids make me feel guilty all over again. Am i selfish? I know that i was wrong. I feel bad, but what's done is done.

  • Comment Link Guest Saturday, 20 October 2012 22:29 posted by Guest

    I don't know what to do.....l: I don't know what to do I've been married for almost 2years and have 1 baby we meet when I was 13yrs old know I'm 24 hese a good father and good provider we just seem to argue all the time he states he loves me but makes me cry at least once a week he drinks and tells me a lot of things I love him and I'm scared I don't know wat I'll do without him I'm a professional make enought money for my baby and me but I'm just scared of how I'm going to be without him we argue all the time he use to do everything for me and suddenly he stopped I tell him to leave if he want too but he always tells me that he will leave when our baby is old enought to know it hurts me because it seemed like if he is only with me for the baby we were dating for 10 years I don't know what happened shoul I get a diverse or try to save my marriage...please advise

  • Comment Link Guest Saturday, 20 October 2012 18:54 posted by Guest

    I am on the receiving end of: I am on the receiving end of this situation. My fancee of 5 years just left me. I knew he had been going through a hard time, and I had likewise been experiencing a great deal of stress. We did ot see each other as much as we used to because of our schedules. But I loved him like crazy. Then he came hoe one dy and said he was leaving, that he did not love me anymore. I was left alone, with no place tolive, no one to turn to for support. He said that he had been unhappy and had not said anything for years. He did not give me the opportunity to change, and to fix what I was doing wrong. He never brought it up. If he had said to me that he was begninning to have these feelings, and that if things did not change h would be so unhappy that he had to leave, I would have bent heave and earth to fix us. I know that this may not be your exact situation, but I think it is important to consider whether it is worth giving it just one more chance afte you have really and honestly expressed how you are feeling in your relationship and about your relationship. If it doesn't work, then yo can always move on anyway. But how will you know if yu don't try?

  • Comment Link Guest Saturday, 20 October 2012 15:23 posted by Guest

    Put your wife first.....: To Mr. "I just don't understand".....
    If you truly want to save your marriage then you must stop letting your daughter be in control of your marriage. Don't fool yourself...she currently IS in control. She is manipulating you big-time, and you are not doing her any favors for her future relationships. You say your kids are teenagers? Well you have a VERY small window of time in which to change your ways and be the parents they need to model themselves after to be successful in future relationships. I think you need to honestly examine whether you are putting your daughter in a role as a substitute for your wife. What I mean by that is you are looking to your daughter to fill certain needs that your wife is not. The thing is, your wife may not be filling those needs because she is hurt and quite possibly doesn't care anymore. Before you get defensive, I am not necessarily talking about anything sexual. But certainly there are other emotional needs that you are looking to her to fill that have been lacking in your relationship with your wife. Your wife is angry and bitter because you are not putting her first and she is sick of it. If you undermine your wife's authority with your children in discipline and other areas, then there are bound to be problems, and then of course she will be bitter. Wouldn't you? Your daughter needs you to be the dad and role model for her. If these issues are not addressed and corrected, your children will hit a wall and have a hard time getting through life's issues. It sounds like there is rebellion, mistrust, manipulation, and many other things going on in your household. I'm also going to say that if you are not a believer in Jesus Christ, then I strongly urge you to cry out to Him, and He will help you to heal your marriage. I will pray for all of you, and I mean that.

  • Comment Link Guest Saturday, 20 October 2012 15:23 posted by Guest

    Put your wife first.....: To Mr. "I just don't understand".....
    If you truly want to save your marriage then you must stop letting your daughter be in control of your marriage. Don't fool yourself...she currently IS in control. She is manipulating you big-time, and you are not doing her any favors for her future relationships. You say your kids are teenagers? Well you have a VERY small window of time in which to change your ways and be the parents they need to model themselves after to be successful in future relationships. I think you need to honestly examine whether you are putting your daughter in a role as a substitute for your wife. What I mean by that is you are looking to your daughter to fill certain needs that your wife is not. The thing is, your wife may not be filling those needs because she is hurt and quite possibly doesn't care anymore. Before you get defensive, I am not necessarily talking about anything sexual. But certainly there are other emotional needs that you are looking to her to fill that have been lacking in your relationship with your wife. Your wife is angry and bitter because you are not putting her first and she is sick of it. If you undermine your wife's authority with your children in discipline and other areas, then there are bound to be problems, and then of course she will be bitter. Wouldn't you? Your daughter needs you to be the dad and role model for her. If these issues are not addressed and corrected, your children will hit a wall and have a hard time getting through life's issues. It sounds like there is rebellion, mistrust, manipulation, and many other things going on in your household. I'm also going to say that if you are not a believer in Jesus Christ, then I strongly urge you to cry out to Him, and He will help you to heal your marriage. I will pray for all of you, and I mean that.

  • Comment Link Guest Saturday, 20 October 2012 04:07 posted by Guest

    is it time for a divorce: The way you discribe the above situation was me exactly. I was 18 years younger than my late husband. our marriage started out with problems from the beginning but we loved each other and we just kept trying to keep it together. He left 3 times in 18 years and the last time when he wanted to come back I told him if he left again I would never take him back... little did I know that those word became truth in the most literal sense. He shot and killed himself...
    there had been some really good times but each time it would start out good after he'd leave and then come back but eventually things would deterioate and get bad and he would leave ..he stayed gone two weeks the first time ,6 months the second time and 9 months the third time.. each time leaving me in financial ruins where I would have to try to keep things going and the last time he was sleeping in one room and I slept in another. so things were "stalemate" . I had given up on trying anymore... our last arguement he decided to ended it for good. and that he did.
    Now he left me not only in financial ruins by cutting my income in half but he left me with the guilt because we were argueing and after the arguement he shot and killed himself...

  • Comment Link Guest Thursday, 18 October 2012 21:43 posted by Guest

    Advice: My husband and I have been together for 12 years, married for 11. We have 4 children together. When we met back in high school he and I were really close friends, nothing more. A few years after I graduated we had both been going through some rocky relationships and somehow we clung to each other for help and support. That turned our friendship into a relationship and is wasn't long after we started dating that he proposed marriage. At first, I was hesitant because I didn't feel the same way about him as he felt about me, but my past experiences made me think that marrying a friend was a better option since love fades.
    After alot of issues, including our families doing their best to keep us apart, we broke up. He was there to help me when I left my first husband after a bout of abuse. We eventually got married despite everyone's objections.
    Over the first few years I was dealing with depression, trying to pretend like everything was okay and would eventually work out. He did his best to be understanding and pushed me to become something better than I was. We both went to college and worked while starting and raising a family. I earned two bachelor's degrees and he earned his bachelors and his masters degree in the first 9 years of our marriage so I feel like I owe alot of my success to him.

    Unfortunately, in the last three or so years I have felt lost in his shadow. He is very driven and usually accomplishes his goals without much trouble. Me, however, feel like I have to fight for everything and never get anywhere. When I try to talk to him about it, he generally just gets angry with me and has walked out a few times. He thinks he has to solve every problem that I encounter, without realizing that sometimes I just need to talk. I have to be blunt with him and tell him to just put his arm around me and listen, but he never does.
    He has always had an issue with anger management. The only way he knows how to express himself is to yell and cuss. It has gotten to the point that I fear leaving my children at home with him because all he does is yell at them. Being a mother, I have taken that on myself. When he is in that type of mood, which is everyday, I take it on. I get him to turn his attentions to me instead of letting him take it out on the kids. It used to hurt my feelings, but lately it just makes me mad.

    Most days I don't even want to talk to him and we all (me and my children) feel like we are on eggshells with him all the time because we never know what is going to trigger his rage.
    Admittedly, I am pretty submissive and I fear him alot. That could possibly be contributed to past experiences.

    It has gotten to the point that I have considered divorce, more for the sake of my children. Most of my family and friends support the idea of me leaving....his parents included....because they feel as though he is not treating us the way we should be treated.
    It is hard to know what to do. I do care about him alot and owe him alot in my life. I don't want to let the opinions of other influence my decision and I am honestly scared of what he would do if I left.
    Any advice?

  • Comment Link Guest Thursday, 18 October 2012 11:49 posted by Guest

    Maybe?: You could be right. I have no clue anymore. I feel as if my energy is being sucked right out of me. I sometimes feel like ending everything and walking away, but my heartaches at the thought of that. I can say that i do feel stuck sometimes. I want to be happy in a better place with him, but whenever the talk about our relationship comes up he gets angry. His father was bitter towards his mother and he had a very dysfunctional family, but he is away from that and he have had many talks about that. I feel I have offered my help and advice. What do I do now. Do I go on being miserable because he says everything is fine?

  • Comment Link Guest Wednesday, 17 October 2012 19:31 posted by Guest

    deal breaker: That will be a bigger problem the longer you are with him. Either he gets a job that he can keep or NEXT! God made him. To be the man. You are not the man. Man up.

  • Comment Link Guest Wednesday, 17 October 2012 19:23 posted by Guest

    is he a sex addict maybe?: My heart breaks for you. He needs help, not from you. Check out new life ministries.

  • Comment Link Guest Wednesday, 17 October 2012 19:19 posted by Guest

    if you are young....: You don't say how old you are, but I'm certain ur young? Biblically, you can leave. He's a cheater if you described him accurately. Get out now so u don't lose your looks, income, dreams etc. You can have a fresh start. Just make sure you deal with the dumb baggage he handed you before u get into another relationship. Bless you.

  • Comment Link Guest Wednesday, 17 October 2012 16:26 posted by Guest

    This is not a husband he is a: This is not a husband he is a room mate and why are you okay with paying half. He needs to take care of you and your child it is his obligation and responsibility... Be strong if you don't stand up then he will always expect this for you to pay half... you are not okay with it so don't! His family sound like they taught him to be like this too.. Sounds like you don't want him so don't feel sorry for him that is not a husband... let his ass go. You are not brought into this world to take care of a man!

  • Comment Link Guest Wednesday, 17 October 2012 15:22 posted by Guest

    i married a minipulator: Im am 27 years old with 2 children from a past relationship, I stayed single for 2 years to clear any baggage I carried and when i was ready to date I met my husband via Facebook, he was in the media for a death of a son but I never knew much about it, everything was good,he was good to me and my daughters , we became pregnant right away , when I was 6 months preggo, we found out his ex just gave birth to his 3 rd son , he told me their relations ended 2 years before we met and that he slept with her to get back at her ex :-/ and now she's still in the pic,because he and his mother have to kiss her overweight Ass to see his son and from that grandma doesn make time for her gbaby becuz it would cause drama, I don't have a fb now bc he talks to other women , we married June 2 we seperated 3 times all adding up to a month and a half, he makes excuses for everything n uses his sons death as an excuse for everything, today is my late moms 60th bday and I'm am gettin the silent treatment still from yesterday becuz I made a coment bout his ex and her savageness , Im lost, I'm sitting here while he ignores me and I don't know if I should stay or leave, there's so much more to my story bit so lil time, help, I need advice, my sister is tired of hearing bout my marriage n I don't have my male bestfriend anymore due to my jealous husband, sorry for the spelling

  • Comment Link Guest Wednesday, 17 October 2012 12:12 posted by Guest

    SO confused....Help!!!!: It is actually my second anniversary tomorrow, but I just dont know if I am actually happy in my marriage. At first everything seemed great, but when we moved in together after a month or so things seemed to change. He seemed like he did not trust me and seemed as if he was hiding or holding something back. I asked him if all was fine and if he was happy with me etc, he assured me he was. Again things felt good, but after a few months I discovered his old texts and photos of old gfs....which were still on his phone I felt shattered as to why he still had these msgs and half naked pictures of them. I walked out and he came running after me apologized and allowed me to delete all those msgs and pictures. From then on I our relationship seemed like it lacked something he never wanted to get intimate, it was always me initiating it. I still for some reason thought things were ok. We got married months after and moved to Canada from the UK where he is from. Things were going good we were happy. I came back from work early and heard him talking to a girl...he quickly hung up and got angry to why i didnt call him before i got home....I thought I would surprise him...Huge argument. Moved past that as well, but then phone bills were getting higher, he wouldnt answer my calls when i called, he seemed cross at me all times when i would bring up the talk about sex....He was too tired not in the mood.....I feel alone and depressed dont know who to turn to i feel drained and feel like i am ugly i have gained weight due to being upset about this...Any talk about the relationship has started turning into anger and abuse....if i say i am unhappy he says then go find someone else....I do love him, but does he still love me I cant even bring up the courage to be without him....I hear my heart breaking....please help!!

  • Comment Link Guest Wednesday, 17 October 2012 01:04 posted by Guest

    Sorry to say this, but you: Sorry to say this, but you are absolutely passive-aggressive. Look at what you are writing. What responsibility do you take in this situation. Your wife gave up her career to be your wife and the mother of your children. The relationship between a mother and a daughter is a fine line. However, your daughter is definitely playing two sides to the middle and you are choosing your daughter over your wife. In the meantime, you are making excuses about doing so. What are you going to do when your daughter leaves the house? If you do divorce, how do you think she would feel about any other woman in your life? You need to support your wife first and foremost.

  • Comment Link Guest Tuesday, 16 October 2012 20:27 posted by Guest

    I NEED ADVICE: I have been married for two years. Since I had my child my sex drive has not been like it was before we got married. We argue do to this, i think its a result from stress from work, school, and home. My self-esteem has slowly shut down since I found out that how much porn he actually watches, to the point that I cant look at his phone or computer w/our seeing something that leads to a porn site. Recently I noticed he is not looking at people having sex but just women stripping and touching themselves and stuff. Just last night he received a text from some women the number was not saved to his phone and the message was not compromising at all but when I asked who it was he kept giving misleading answers. All i asked him to do was to ask the girl not to call or text after 10pm (i just find it inappropriate for a married man). He refused to do it and claimed it would be disrespectful, which was B.S because even after the girl said her name he claimed he was not sure who it was. Today when I checked his phone I noticed he totally made up a stupid excuse to text the women and was very flirtatious ex. "So you are ignoring me? Wait til i see you in class." ,"you better not pull that again : )". Im really contemplating to just leave him. I am a full-time Engineering student and my only goal is to prepare myself to provide a better life for my daughter, I can't do it having to worry about what he does. From what I see, I will always be a mother and the way he is acting our relationship is not promised.

  • Comment Link Guest Tuesday, 16 October 2012 16:22 posted by Guest

    I have been with my husband: I have been with my husband for 8 years and married for 5 years. We have 2 kids. One of them is his from a previous relationship. I have taken her in as my own since she was 2. Things were good for the most part a few things i would have liked to be different from the get. I just assumed that everyone has faults including myself. As time has gone by i feel we have grown to be room mates instead of husband and wife. I have tried many times to talk to him about the way i feel things have been going and his response is to laugh at me and tell me im making it all up. He also made the statement that is not his resposiblity as a husband to make me feel loved and wanted. Im the opposite on this i strive to make his day the best i can n to make sure that he hears me say i love u n that i show my love everday no matter how crappy i feel. How is it that he sees my feelings as a story that its from boredom. I'm very busy with the day to day and get very little time to be bored.. Im a stay at home mom, i babysit 2 kids part time. I take care of everything except paying bills and going to a 9-5 job. It was a decision we both made for me to stay home so that the kids didnt have to attend daycare. In the last 2 years he has brought up how i dont work, a few times and how i expect him to do everything, when ive asked him to simply pick up after himself to set an example for the kids. I pick up more after him than i do a 10 n 5 year old. We have a very dry sex life that seems to only exists when he cant stand to go any longer without. Its not at all passionate nor is he ever passionate with me. I find myself doing things to try to catch his attention only to be ignored. If he cant see how i have felt for years will he ever? im not sure that a divorce would make me happy or if its the fear of being a single mom and not having any rights to one of my kids that holds me back. I am almost 27 years old and dont know if i should stick it out for the kids and keep trying to get him to understand my needs or call it quits. 8 years is a long time just to throw in the towel. Is it ok to be content for the most part or should i be looking for what would make me truely happy no matter the pain it brings to my family?

  • Comment Link Guest Tuesday, 16 October 2012 01:22 posted by Guest

    I am not too sure what i should do: we have been married for the past 2 and half months.. even before i got married to him i knew marriage is going to be very difficult for me with him. He is neither intelligent nor educated.. i got pregnant with him before marriage and we have had major issues and i faced such an unpleasant experience ab*****n . Since the past was not so good i did not want to marry any one else and hide my self. So i decided to marry him. he has a bad temper. for the slightest thing he will use filth.. He embarrasses me in front of my people by behaving immature. he will shout and laugh and make all dry jokes and makes things horrible for me. Now he has a got a problem with his bad finance planning.. before marriage we built a house (partially completed) on my dad's land and i have loans to pay. he is to take care of the meals and water and electricity. I am paying the loan as if i am paying a house rent. He thinks the only way we could save from is from our food and he indicates that i should share the cost of food and utility. i simply don't have any savings after paying my debts.. He is so keen that i get my parents to transfer the deed in my name. He tells me quite often when i am dead and gone he will not have any savings or property. He is the only child born to a very weird , stingy, cunning, family. those parents are willing to chase away their own son if some outsider will give them money and take care of them. for that family everything depends on money. they will talk to us when we visit them only if we spend money on them . Sick family. like pirates they only want want want.. not learned to give and share.. this is the exact way they have brought up their son who acts and talks like a bastard.

    My husband expects me to take care of the household , he got me to pay 50% for the honey moon..How sad..

    I am a very creative dress designer.. i designed my own costumes for the wedding and my man is encouraging me to start a business on that line while working 50 - 60 hours as a professional secretary to a well reputed company so that i will have money to take care of the household and utility bills. i am very ashamed of the man i have got married to.

    In this context i am not planning to have any kids which i still have not conveyed to him. I really don't have any respect towards him so i can't think of taking care of his kids inside my body. i can't give that commitment.

    I feel sorry for this man. If i don't keep him, no one will take care of him. Even his parents will chase him when he doesn't have money to entertain them.
    This is the way he has been brought up. He should not be blamed , but his filthy parents. But i need some relief in life too. I hope god will have mercy on me.

  • Comment Link Guest Monday, 15 October 2012 19:11 posted by Guest

    I am miserable!: I have been married 7 years and at first it was great, we got married and it all began to change first he no longer allowed me to see my friends then he began to tell me who i can and canot talk to now he is the same and 3 kids later I am still here he dont hug or kiss me and ourt sex life is null and void if I leave I cannot take my kids so I stay but is my happiness and well being worth all of the agony that he causes me? I am at a loss i just dont know what the right thing to do is? he gets mad at every little thing i do if i dont clean right if i dont cook what he likes and i am sure he is cheating on me. why cant it be easier.

  • Comment Link Guest Monday, 15 October 2012 09:09 posted by Guest

    At least you have made a: At least you have made a breakthrough. He is listening now; maybe you can try to talk through some of your issues. I do not know the whole story, but we all know there are three sides. You need an objective view so my advice is to try and find one, like a therapist. My fav new saying is when I don't know what to do...I do nothing. Sit on it a while and gather your thoughts. What do you really want? Do you really want your marriage to be over or do you just want him to respond to you differently? There is a huge difference in feeling liberated because you know that other person is paying attention to you now and walking out on something to early. Don't make any hasty decisions. You are hurt and you have got every right to be; especially with some of the comments he said. Try not to be emotionally high maintenance. Fend for yourself, start finding things you like to do. Try and "find" yourself. Give it time. You can't expect anyone to love you if you don't know who you are. Focus on you for the time being and be nice and respectful to him regardless. Take in other considerations, but in the end you have to walk through the fire.

  • Comment Link Guest Monday, 15 October 2012 09:07 posted by Guest

    You can't possibly be married: You can't possibly be married nor have spell check on your computer. If you want to blast someone and insult them, by all means at least make sure your grammar is correct. Being biased doesn't help the situation and neither will ignorant comments. She needs to validate her feelings because she is the one that has to live with them. Most women by nature are nurturers and want to "fix" things. Yes it is true, men need space and feel like a dog cornered if you continuously try to seek what is bugging them. Time, space and respect are a must. I also do agree with it only taking one person to make their mind up. But the title and sexists’ comments are unnecessary and mean. It reflects on you and your struggles, and if you are married, I can only imagine how your wife must feel.

  • Comment Link Guest Sunday, 14 October 2012 15:46 posted by Guest

    bitch plz: You are selfish. You wanted attention at the wrong times, and when you got a bump, or two, on the road, you gave up driving like all women do when they get frustrated. Your husband was tired at times, work, etc. There was nothing interesting going on for both to engage. Its not about finding the spark in the relationship (you) desperately desire, you both need to be searching together. Implying, he needed this also, but he assume you guys were doing ok, so he worried little to nothing. He was comfortable with you, but instead women are never satisfied with what they have, (pretty much like re-decorating and moving stuff around the house) so a little resentment, grudge, and hate came about from you towards him. The problem wasnt him, it is you. You have not found yourself in the relationship, and what makes you happy living with him. It does not always have to be you two doing things together all the time. There is this thing called space. Once that is violated the man will defend himself. The problem is women always wants to be in a man's space 24/7. It makes them (them) as i stated feel secured, and wanted. Relationship is not about making your wife happy (Thats selfish), relationship is about respecting each other, understanding each other, communicating effectively, and timing. If you want to be boned, the by all mean dress for the occasion when the time is right. If you feel he never has time for you? Then, figure out why? Be understanding, and let him come to you...if you keep going to him, all you are doing is chasing him away. The reason he wants you now, is becuase he feels like something is wrong, something that he thought was all cool, is now threating to the future of both of you. Nice tactic by the way. If you were my wife? and shut yourself away from me like that....i prob think the marriage is over, not becuase both of you have decided it, but becuase it takes one person to make their mind up.

  • Comment Link Guest Sunday, 14 October 2012 15:12 posted by Guest

    ???: Michael, with all due respect you sound kinda passive aggressive. You've painted yourself to sound like a saint & your wife to sound like a selfish shrew who is jealous of her own daughter. Your wife hates you "for giving our daughter the unconditional love that my wife believes fuels her disrespect of her". I'm sure your wife wouldn't call it "unconditional love" more likely permissive fun-dad syndrome. You know, Daddy Disney who always does the fun stuff and never the bad stuff. My favorite part though, was when your wife suggested you move out, your response was no, the family NEEDS you. But when she suggested she be the one to move out you said no problem and immediately started hiring household help. I wonder why she's so deeply unhappy being married to someone who sends such messages of clear contempt all the while claiming love and devotion to the family.

  • Comment Link Guest Wednesday, 10 October 2012 21:33 posted by Guest

    I just don't understand: I'm 50, have been married 20 years and we have two teenagers. Our marriage has come under growing pressure because of almost constant fighting between my wife and daughter. My wife accuses me of not siding with her consistently and forcefully. God knows I try, particularly this year as my wife's threats to divorce have picked up steam. But I often feel like I've got to choose between my wife and daughter - and frankly I'm more likely to feel protective of our daughter, who I believe is more fragile than her tough-appearing exterior suggests - than I am my wife. I love my wife, find her attractive, and want to have sex with her. I also gain energy and strength from being with our family. Although I work outside the home and my wife is a stay-at-home mother, I am a very involved parent, with what I believe are nurturing and deep relationships with both our son and daughter.

    But my wife is miserable. She believes that she hates our daughter, and she increasingly expresses hatred for me - for not being more of a disciplinarian, for letting my wife leave the workforce 14 years ago, for giving our daughter the unconditional love that my wife believes fuels her disrespect of her.

    My wife is deeply unhappy. Unhappy with her relationship with our daughter, her lack of career, and her relationship with me. I don't know if I'm happy. I'm certainly not happy now, as I write this, but I'm happy every day I walk into the house. When returning home, prior to walking in on an explosive fight, I think warm, even romantic thoughts about my wife. She's spent the last several months drumming it in to me that, "you can't possibly be happy."

    Incidentally, no infidelities, no drinking, no violence, no drug use, not even golf.

    My wife sought a "trial separation," and asked me to move out, with the idea that my absence would isolate our daughter and she'd have to fall in line (her older brother pretty much sticks to himself, but doesn't get into any trouble) I refused, saying I had done nothing wrong, that both kids need me. Then my wife threatened to move out herself, perhaps with our son, with whom she has a stable relationship. I said okay, and for the past few weeks I have been laying the groundwork to be able to perform as the sole parent of two high school kids (I am negotiating the ability to work from home two days a week and am looking into hiring a "family assistant" that can do drop-offs and pick-ups, and stay in the house when I am traveling.

    In an about-face, my wife is now re-thinking her plan to move out and wants to consider other separation solutions: I move out, one of us moves to the basement bedroom, or we somehow alternate in the house.

    I believe I am perfectly equipped to "drive the family ship" for a while. My wife seems to believe I couldn't possibly function without her.

    Everything is changing so fast, I'm feeling il-equipped to keep up (yes, I do have friends and we're each in individual therapy and seeing a marriage therapist).

    One friend of mine insists this is all an elaborate bluff to shake me to my core so I make dramatic changes. But I believe I've been making those, large and small ones. Or my wife is in such a depth of despair, that she herself isn't thinking clearly. She does have friends who see how unhappy she is and are indeed encouraging her to separate and even divorce.

    Bluff or not, this is taking a toll on me and my feelings for my wife. I spent weeks coming around to the idea that I would offer to move into the basement, if that would give my wife a greater feeling of space, to which she replied, "that's a joke." I did refuse to move out but over the next several weeks got resigned to her moving out, and even taking our son with her.

    But now, just as we're on the verge of formalizing what that would look like and tell the kids about it, she says "never mind, I never fully agreed to that. Sorry."

    I've been saying to myself much of this year that I would do anything to save my marriage and our family. But those feelings are being worn down and I'm questioning them. If this is a bluff and a plea for something I either haven't or can't give to her, that's one thing. If, however, she just doesn't love me and worse, doesn't love our daughter, then I don't see how I keep us together.

  • Comment Link Guest Wednesday, 10 October 2012 12:50 posted by Guest

    I think my marriage is over: We've been married 11 years with 2 children ages 9 & 7. He's not abusive, doesnt cheat and is a great provider and father but for awhile now something has been lacking between us. There is no connection. I have tried to talk to him multiple times about it but he never really pays attention. I have not felt wanted as a woman in a long time. There is no affection. We rarely have sex and if I try to hug or kiss him he will hug or kiss back but you can tell its just to pacify me. A couple weeks ago I tried to look nice for him because we were going out. I've recently lost about 25 pounds so I was feeling pretty good about myself. I just wanted some attention that I never get. I was parked in his parking spot when he got home so he became angry and didnt even pay attention to me. I told him that day When I didnt want his attention anymore he was gonna wish he gave it to me. That day really hurt me. After thinking on it 2 days later I tried to talk to him. He didnt even really pay attention to me. I was crying and everything and he was just looking through movies on tv. He would look at me every now & then and say he understood, he would try harder and he really did love me. But he was just saying that out of habit it seemed like cause we've been over this numerous times throughout the years. When I got done pouring my heart out I told him he probably couldnt even of told me what I just said. His response was "Are you going to fu***** quiz me now?". Of all things that was his response. Never hugged me, looked me in the eye or reassured me on anything. I dont know how to explain it but that broke me. Something changed for me at that moment. Now I dont want his love or affection. Almost everything he does annoys me and I just feel like I want to be alone for awhile. He can tell things are different now and is upset about it. He says he vowed for better or worse and realizes that he probably waited to long to show how much he cares. Now when he wants to give me all I wanted, because he sees that I'm just done, I dont feel like I want it from him anymore. But I'm scared of that realization. I'm 28. He's all I've known. I dont want to hurt him and he is being hurt. Says he feels uncomfortable because I am distant. I have never felt so done in our relationship. I dont know if I can get my feelings back. Can anyone relate??

  • Comment Link Guest Monday, 08 October 2012 18:41 posted by Guest

    Seriously Confused: Get out now! It will not get better, no fairy is going to sprinkle fairy dust on the both of you and make it better. Kids will only make it worse- it will be harder to leave and you will have all that baggage to restart your life with, always being tied to him because of the kids. I am 57 years old, been with a "wonderful, kind, generous, loving, attractive man" for 37 years. Was and still am the responsible party in the relationship. (I can relate -it gets old carrying the whole load alone!) Started with the same sort of issues twenty years ago, did not leave because it wasn't 'bad" enough. No one was hitting me, abusing me, gambling, cheating, --none of the usual reasons marriages die or spouses can rationilize easily leaving. So I stayed, knowing deep down inside of me that our relationship was over, we no longer had things in common, I was always persuing my interests alone, with his being OK with it. Well, after the past 15 yrs of doing things alone, I am feeling single in a marriage that is not working for me. On top of it, he started drinking heavily a few years ago, fell, sustained a brain injury that he has some residual memory and personality issues, as well as some other occasional problems. This has made me feel guilty about leaving him, as he has no family or support systems to replace me.
    You are young, only in your thirties, you can end your marriage knowing you did have something good together, that you are both good people, but it just isn't working anymore. People change and we need to recognize when it is no longer going to work. If he truly loves you, he will hear what you are saying that this relationship is not working for you anymore and therefore for him- it is not fair to anyone to live a lie--- have a heart to heart talk, do not blame or point fingers, speak from your heart, let him know you love who he is but have to move on. Hopefully, you can part peacefully and graciously. Try to steer clear from complicating things further with another relationship, you will have plenty of time for that later when you are free to persue it, without all this stress and limitations. Good luck.

  • Comment Link Guest Monday, 08 October 2012 17:58 posted by Guest

    I don't think i want to be married anymore ... or ever again: Thanks for the input everyone. I've decided to get a divorce. We had the talk last night and I will be moving home to Wisconsin next week. I couldn't string the poor guy along any longer as one person pointed out. It's just not fair to anyone. Him, me, or anyone around us. Best of luck to everyone else of this message board.

  • Comment Link Guest Sunday, 07 October 2012 22:24 posted by Guest

    Maybe you want to have kids,: Maybe you want to have kids, just not with him.

  • Comment Link Guest Sunday, 07 October 2012 22:23 posted by Guest

    Wow!: You need help from a government agency to begin planning to move on. If there is a Women In Crisis facility near you, then you need to start the ball rolling with them to get you set up with a plan for the rest of your life. This can take many forms, and it's definitely not easy, but you need to face reality and get the help you need NOW. You won't be able to do it on your own, at least at first, but eventually you will get stronger and stronger until you can at least cope. Then you can set some realistic lifetime goals, but right now, if you try it without help, you're likely to fail in your attempt to leave. Guys like this are master manipulators, and he knows how to play you. Get out while you still have a chance at life.

  • Comment Link Guest Sunday, 07 October 2012 12:11 posted by Guest

    im on the brink of losing my mind: My husband and i have been together for 15 years married 3 months. We waited because it wasnt 15 years of bliss because we met in college and both evolved and changed over the years. We had to find our way back. We had a beautiful small wedding. Happiest day of my life. I felt i married my friend. We never lived together. Married, now we do. He is normally the nice one out of the two of us but now he tries to be controlling. From the way i clean to the way i shave my legs. My pesonality does not allow for that so we bicker. We go to counseling and went to npremarital counseling. I love him but he is killing my insides. I tell him to back off and he tells me im sensitive or just angry. So now his approach is changed. Instead of telling me out right what to do he just asked in an annoyed voice why dont i do something.
    I am not perfect. I havent changed my name and i go to dinner with friends frequently. I offered to hyphenate but he said thats unacceptable. I told him this before we got married.
    Bottom line he acts and says i do everything wrong. I dont clean the way he likes. I dont buy what he likes, i dont contribute to the marriage yet he can not express any examples. Its awful to hear how every day you are failng. My opinions are blown off. He doesnt take me out any more. Never plans any fun nights jst picks at me every day. We barely even have sex and the sad part is we are both fine with it. I dont want to leave. I just want him to stop harassing me about every little think that he would do differently. May seem like a small problem but its making me not like him. I miss my friend. Flawed friend but he was my best friend

  • Comment Link Guest Sunday, 07 October 2012 10:38 posted by Guest

    Counseling may help. I will: Counseling may help. I will not yell at you and tell you what to do because who are any of us to do that. Marriage isnt something we just walk away from. Maybe seing a therapist will help you determine where you stand and why you feel the way you do. Self evaluate. Maybe you are having adjustment issues like myself. Im the type of person that if I am unhappy about things in our marriage intamcy is a chore to me. Find out for sure what is bothering you before you make any decisions. I cant say he is the victim because im not in your marriage but if it does turn out that you are the issue then see if you can fix them before you walk.

  • Comment Link Guest Sunday, 07 October 2012 09:48 posted by Guest

    This seems unaceptable to me.: This seems unaceptable to me. For him to threaten to leave you just to hurt you is cruel. Maybe he knows it will hurt you. Its below the belt. If he means it he shouldnt be there. Have you two considered counseling. Your kids may eventually be affected if their parents are fighting and miserable. You have to think of you and you kds first and know that you are special and worthy of any mans love. Know you dont deserve the verbal abuse. What makes him think your esteem is so low that he can treat you this way? If he doesnt want to go to counseling then perhaps you should go alone. No woman deserves this. That includes you.

  • Comment Link Guest Sunday, 07 October 2012 09:39 posted by Guest

    I am in no place to judge as: I am in no place to judge as I am on this site poking around because I am not adjusting to my new marriage as well as i thought. To me it seems like you know what you want to do. I cant say I would fault you as I would not tolerate his lack of ambition either. You are not asking him to be a Ceo you are asking him to work. As a man he should want to be able to ckntribute to the household. You are telling him what you need and he is not willing to give it to you. You are seeing all ofbthe signs now. Who says he will change for the better if you get married. He needs to show you now. I know love is not about money but it seems as if there isnt a mutual level of respect. All you asked him to do was work anywhere. If he is unable and unwilling to do something that important for the sake of your relationship then perhaps he isnt ready for marriage. Who knows but I thinks its now time to think of you and let him go somewhere and grow up. My hubby and i went to see a counselor. I told her "he didnt do this before and that before" she said. Yes he did you just maybe didnt notice or it wasnt steadily in your face like it is now (we didnt live together prior) my point. If he is that way now as a boyfriend you cant be surprised if he is that way as a spouse.
    Follow your heart. Put you first since he is not

  • Comment Link Guest Saturday, 06 October 2012 15:40 posted by Guest

    mistake: I am seeing a guy who i have known for 35 years, but we just got reconnected a year ago. Though we do not see each other as much as we'd like because of the distance, we talk daily. I have been in love with him since i was a kid. We got together a few times, then went different directions. I got married, and he didn't. I am not with my husband (long story) and have been with this guy because he was there when i needed some emotional support. We fell in love and i felt like i was ready to move away with him like i felt years ago. Problem is, he really doesn't make any money. I mean, i do very well, and he knows it. I wouldn't mind if he at least had a job. But he doesn't want to work. We argue about it all the time. He wants to depend on my income. Like i said, if he made minimum wage, i wouldn't mind. But he turns down everything, cause his body aches when he works hard. After many months, and my account getting smaller, i am beginning to wonder if the red flags are slapping me in the face for a reason. I feel like our time together would be short lived due to money. I went to college for 8 years to get where i am. I think he wants to find a big job that pays big money, but he doesn't even send out resumes or talks to anybody. He is in construction and i guess the economy makes it hard to find good paying jobs for that area. I just feel like i am being drained and the strong love and passion i had for him is starting to fade. Am i being selfish? He is nearing 50 and has said he is tired of working. That scares me. I have told him that any job is better than nothing at all. But he just gets mad at me and we get in a fight. He has no insurance, no social security (never has worked for anybody), no home, no retirement savings. He thinks that if we get together, he can start a new business, but with my money. So, i am really scared to go there. I feel sorry for him as he makes it seem that i am the only woman he will ever love this way and he asked me to marry him months ago, after we barely reconnected. I said yes, but like i said, i was blinded by the past, and now that reality is hitting me, i'm backing away slowly. Any recommendations? Oh he has a temper too, and that worries me a bit. He kind of acts controlling at times which was cute at first, but now, i'm tired of it.

  • Comment Link Guest Saturday, 06 October 2012 14:22 posted by Guest

    I dont know how to proceed: I've been married for fifteen years together for 17 and I'm tired of keeping up the charade. He cheated on me numerous times before we were married but promised to never do it again. Two weeks into our marriage he attacked me in front of our daughter and I was pregnant. I stupidly forgave him but he's never laid a hand on me again until a week ago. You see we just moved three months ago because in 2007 and 2009 he cheated on me again and carried on a relationship asking me to share him. I had to move because of the bad memories. I tried to fix things and make them work but he never seems to care how I feel or what I want. He's addicted to porn and always wants sex but I can't stand him touching me anymore. I haven't been happy for three years and I'm not in love with him. After he hit me I asked for a divorce we discussed it and then the next day he said he's afraid of being alone and is being all sweet like nothing was even discussed. I don't have a job yet but looking everyday. I've looked into divorce but have three more months before i can file. I feel bad playing along until I can file but I don't want to be living in misery for three months if I tell him now. Does anyone have any advice on what I should do. I don't want to blindside him but I feel it wouldn't be because we've talked abouts it before. He was mean about it by saying stuff about his mistresses I'm scared its not gonna be nice. We have three kids. I just want to be happy and he deserves to have someone who actually loves him. Please help

  • Comment Link Guest Saturday, 06 October 2012 05:56 posted by Guest

    something needs to change. I've been married for 3 years now, Iv'e 2 children. I married young but knew thats what i wanted after i had my first child my husband started being lazy not helping me with the baby. We would argue a lot. When ihad my second child he started helping me and everything but after a while he started being heartless telling me im fat(i have thyroid it makes it hard for me to lose weight), worthless, piece of s@!t everything you could think of. I really dont know where it is coming from ido everything for him. Yeah i bitch alot but its not my fault he wants to be a child. He recently told me when we were arguing that he
    Is only with me for the kids. It just broke my heart how could he say that too me after a while i confronted him about it his answer was iwas just mad i dont mean it. To me it doesnt make sense cause isay things that i mean when im mad. At this point i wonder does he even love me anymore?? he has besn saying now when we argue he wants a divorce. I have not once said it because i love him so much. Today he told me that the reason hes so mean to me is cause i bitch alot and i deserve it. I dont deserve that i have two little ones i take care of imake sure the house is clean, the laundry is done. I'm at a braking point. I don't know if i want to stay with him.

  • Comment Link Guest Friday, 05 October 2012 23:48 posted by Guest

    Re:I don't know what to do: Since he misses his friends and family soooo much then let him go back to them. Really,it's all your fault? If life is so horrible with you then let him experience it without you. Don't stand for it, you deserve better! You don't have to be defensive, you can be proactive and authentic. He can't make you feel anything unless you let him. Get a spine and send Precious home to Mama- he isn't grown up enough yet.

  • Comment Link Guest Friday, 05 October 2012 23:41 posted by Guest

    Re:I don't want to divorce but...: are a meal ticket. He retires and he is gone. No ring? No commitment. He cuddles. Big deal. He is here to make money and go back to Ecuador a rich man. No sex because he's tired? Either a physical or psychological problem or you're being played, He won't pitch in? He doesn't share? It's all going South to some banana plantation. Dump his ass quick. There are much deeper cultural things going on here and if you aren't happy now, then you sure wont be happy in another 10-15 years.

  • Comment Link Guest Friday, 05 October 2012 23:31 posted by Guest

    Re: I don't think I want to be married anymore: To me this begs the question: why in the world did you get married? If sex is a chore, you think he is dumb, and you don' t want to be responsible then stop lying to the poor guy, be straight about it and move on. That you have a crush on another man screams "affair waiting to happen". Why are you with him? Make a list. Why would you be better off without him? Make a list and compare. Then it should be pretty obvious. Either he is a real loser or you're really not ready for marriage. Either way spare everyone involved and go get your head screwed on straight or put on your big girl panties and own up to making s mistake. There's love and then there is your integrity. And for gawd's sake don't have kids if you are that uncertain. I promise you- everybody else around you knows something is up with you. Be honest.

  • Comment Link Guest Friday, 05 October 2012 16:51 posted by Guest

    I don't think i want to be married anymore ... or ever again: Hoping for some input and outside perspectives here. My husband is an amazing person. Really! He is kind, gentle, loves me (and tells me all the time), wants to cuddle, be intimate, and I absolutely love him, so I may be sabotaging a good thing because of my own issues.

    Here are the laundry list of issues:
    - I never want to have sex even though he is an attractive guy, he just doesn't do it for me anymore, so it's turned into a chore that i give into and can't wait for it to be over. I haven't had an orgasm in about 5 years. Really. :(
    - He is not as clean as I would like him to be (but what man is?) and i've decided to let him know every time he leaves his dirty underwear on the floor instead of just ignoring it and picking it up myself, i handle all of our bills and responsibilities like sending family gifts for weddings, setting up appointments for pest control service, grocery shopping, etc. I'm tired of being the responsible one! I want to be taken care of once in a while too! I also work 50-60 hours per week and pay half the bills.
    - I'm 30 and he is 34 and we have been having conversations about having kids lately. I thought when we got married that i wanted kids, but now I'm not so sure. I am absolutely freaking out thinking i made an unfair mistake marrying him knowing he wanted children when all along i wasn't sure. I've told him i'm not sure if i'm not ready or if i simply don't want any and he basically said that he doesn't know if he can handle not having children. So basically, i'm afraid if i say no to children, we will end up divorced. He keeps hoping i'm just nervous and will give in, but i honestly think i just don't want children.
    - I am severely annoyed by him ALL THE TIME! I don't find him mentally stimulating anymore. Sometimes he seems flat out dumb.
    - I don't particularly like some of his family members and am forced to constantly be around them. He, on the other hand, doesn't even bother calling or talking to my family. Although, he sees the need for me to speak with his family on a regular basis (mamas boy to the max!)
    - I don't feel as though he understands me or has ever made an effort to really get to know me and what makes me tick. We kind of just float through life with each other.

    I'm not abused, i'm not miserable, i'm just not sure I'm in the right relationship or if I'm even meant to be married to anyone! I've even developed a crush on another man, which i would NEVER act on because i honestly don't believe in cheating. I just can't get the guy out of my head the past couple weeks. That can't be good!

    Does all of this mean i need to let him go? I'm just so confused :(

  • Comment Link Guest Friday, 05 October 2012 00:44 posted by Guest

    It seems like you are with a: It seems like you are with a manipulator. Someone who seems to be controlling you. I suggest you research what a manipulator is, get a good counselor and start trying to find ways to empower yourself and look out for your emotional needs. The relationship from your words, seems quite one sided - with him manipulating and controlling you.

    You probably wonder how I know. I have had a string of relationships with extremely manipulating and emotionally as well as physically abusive partners. This is because I am a people pleaser. Suffice to say, I've started the long hard road to recovery and saying "no" and getting the respect and kindness I feel I should cultivate in my life.

  • Comment Link Guest Thursday, 04 October 2012 22:17 posted by Guest

    I don't want to divorce but...: I'm going to be 50 , oh my gosh, 50 years old. In 3 months. I married5 years ago to a man from Ecuador. We loved eachother so , so much. We married in a vacant room in the Townhall. No engagement ring , no proposal , no big wedding , no one to stand for us and no honeymoon. We go to Ecuador every year and he uses all his days off for that. 6 months after we married and got our apartment, it all started to go downhill. We havent had sex in 3/1/2 years!!! Not once!!! He cares alot of the time for me. We "cuddle" in bed but that's it. He works 11 hour shifts so he says that's why. I really don't believe he's cheeting. I know where he is almost all the time. But he is obsessed with saving money so he can retire to Ecuador. And all the bills are half-and-half. He gets so angry with me if I don't have money to cover my bills. That's always been our biggest problem , money! And what's his is his, and what's mine is mine . were separate and everything. I can't touch his CDs. He has his car I have my car. And if I have a problem with my car , he will not put in a dime. Even if it's unsafe. I know retirement will be the same. he won't share that retirement money. I'm just so unhappy all the time. but I do love him so much. There's just so many times and he's just so cold and so heartless. His excuse would be "because I WANT to". What should I do. ?

  • Comment Link Guest Tuesday, 02 October 2012 22:54 posted by Guest

    it appears he has a problem not you: with all you said, it appears he has a huge problem with something, now for one your not selfish ever or controlling when you ask a question, look at the conversation like this, look and answer him as if he is someone you meant a stranger and how would you respond to them, try to set yourself apart from him , in doing this u will be able ot talk to him as if you just meant and your giving sound advice, now it appears to me you need to take this arguing one more step invite friends over he like and bring up the fact of argument he stated , let him see your not alone, let him see others have the same problems and a lot of times they can help good luck

  • Comment Link Guest Tuesday, 02 October 2012 22:34 posted by Guest

    I don't know what to do: My husband and I have been married for 10 months and together for six years. I'm his second marriage and he's my first which he rarely lets me forget. We moved 12 hrs from his home city about 3 months ago for my job which in all fairness he told me to put in for. Tonight we had one of our normal fights where all I get told is I'm not building enough in roads with his friends and family, I have spent every Sunday with his family for the past two years and at least two or more days a week with his friends in the past year.. Not allowed to tell him how I feel or he tells me I'm being defensive. As normal it ended with how I never should have taken this job, life with me is horrible, dinner with me was horrible as normal etc. I don't know what to do anymore, he seems to truly hate me, I don't know if ge wants a divorce or what, I can't ask him because he'll explode and make me feel even worse..

  • Comment Link Guest Tuesday, 02 October 2012 22:09 posted by Guest

    you r going threw your change lady: yep this is what happens, your going threw your change and the interest you had is leaving because your hormones are changing like a caccon your becoming a teen again, now this is what you do, hang in there it will come back , but i will warn you he will go threw his oh boy and do they ever, now first of all do u have a hobbie get one, then dress up every day go afor a walk or do something every day, to the max, wear yourself out, but you need to find you, but he is staying in there for you so don;t leave him, remember set the example for your kids, do not bail out God hate divorce

  • Comment Link Guest Tuesday, 02 October 2012 22:02 posted by Guest

    its not dead or over: r u for sure hes not going out to meet another girl, r you for sure, , because the thing is he will think less and less of you, check his phone see if any calls were made more then once, if you find he is then time to end it
    now if he is not then you need to find each other again, what was it that attracted you to him, what was it that attracted him o you, ge tit back find each other gain , he has to meet you half way on this and GET GOD IN THE MARRIAGE

  • Comment Link Guest Tuesday, 02 October 2012 21:51 posted by Guest

    sorry for u sweetie: you need to find God a church and listent o the Lord, find a sister in God and have prayer together God can change all this, have you forgiven your husband, and the reason he calls you names is because he feels guilty for what he did, its not your fault , its his he needs to ask your forgiveness and you need to forgive, find peace, it sounds like you still love him and he does you but your both stuck, get the book robert mark altar wrote , Men are Jerks

  • Comment Link Guest Tuesday, 02 October 2012 21:43 posted by Guest

    is your husband having an afair or doing porn on the internet,: this is usually the first sign of separation in a relationship, they r getting their jollies from someone else, they r relating to someone else and byte he time you get home he has already given out his advice and want to rest, try this, first of all see if he is having porn sex on the net , or calling another girl, if not, try these things, first get you a hobby and start fixing yourself up so u look and feel good, never mind he does n;t notice right away, then see if you can spark a point of interest up by learning what he loves,
    next start leaving little lov note around the house, next if lacking money you could start planning for a future to togather even if you know the money won;t be there its still fun to dream

  • Comment Link Guest Tuesday, 02 October 2012 21:28 posted by Guest

    get out start over : one he has an illness prion is an illness he cannot stop unless he really wants to, two his anger will carry over on your child and he or she will be this same way, three if you leave and get help and there is lots of help for young pregnant mom lot of money and free living start asking, get out and if he want to change let him prove it for a few months , there is government housing for you , and free babysitting while you work , and if you cannot find a job there wick food stamps, this is crazy you do not have to stay with him like this make him treat you nice , God said women r to be on a pedestal, men have anger issues , and a lot of issues get the book Robert mark altar wrote men are jerks it so funny you'll both laugh but it will help maybe , but he will not change he can;t he has to come to terms with his illness, and i will warn you now its a long hard nightmare if yu stay together r u ready?

  • Comment Link Guest Tuesday, 02 October 2012 21:17 posted by Guest

    get out now : this ins't love, please your young find a way to leave , go look for another apartment and move out , if its your place pack his bags , you don;t need another kids do u, my daughter has made the same mistake 3 times i told her why don;t you put a sign in the front yard and say , will take any loser that acts shitty to me move right in you don;t have to work you can be mean to my kids and me,
    how many guys do u think would move in, 100s, please move him out or you , there is nice guys look for ones with homes and jobs for long periods and cars , look for chirstian guys please equal yoke or a least someone you can date and get to know

  • Comment Link Guest Tuesday, 02 October 2012 18:19 posted by Guest

    Something to think about: I'm going through something very similar situation and just waiting to see that maybe he is a sex addict. I really would like to leave my husband of 1 yr. I don't think I can financially afford it! I think I might try it it and start off the yr fresh and single. Pitty is what I feel for him. He has hurt me in the same way like talking to other women. It pisses me off thinking about it. I don't think men really change. If they do its for a while not long term. Men will do the right things if they find there true love. I mean I think anyone will be the best once they find the love of there lives. I don't think we are it. So follow you heart! You kid will survive and so will you. Do it while your young! What more prof do you need to find him in bed with his ex. Just saying.

  • Comment Link Guest Tuesday, 02 October 2012 13:13 posted by Guest

    I too feel the same way. We: I too feel the same way. We are supposed to go to our first counceling session tomorrow. i don't want to drag this out and make it more painful for everyone involved. I know i have hurt him doing all of this but i cannot be with him. I have even moved out already. Our daughter already has a seperation schedule set up. I like being on my own. It isn't because of the "free life" or "single life" as he says just making my own decisions and focusing on myself and my daughter for the first time feels nice. I do miss him terribly but not the way you miss your husband. I miss him as a friend and as the person who was always next to me...we decided we wanted...i seperate but he kept asking me why i couldn't try why i couldn't give him one last chance. I think that is the main reason i am doing for him, because i cannot get him to understand how and why i feel the way i do.

  • Comment Link Guest Monday, 01 October 2012 21:58 posted by Guest

    ...: I know it's so hard to make them understand exactly how you feel, today I called my husband and told him that we need to talk. We've both set aside time to talk tomorrow, I'm super nervous, but I'm going to tell him it is done. If we still want to continue on with the marriage counselor this week then I will do it. If the counselor can help put into words what I am feeling and translate that to him, that will be even better. I'm tired of feeling like this everyday, I feel like if I go any longer like this I will go crazy. I need to be happy, he needs to be happy and our child needs to see each one of us happy. I have all the support I need from my friends and family, but I know I'm not as prepared as I think I am when it comes to actually asking for a divorce.... Good luck to you, do what makes you happy, that's what I am doing. I will keep you posted.

  • Comment Link Guest Monday, 01 October 2012 16:07 posted by Guest

    same husband: Hi i just wanted to let you know that you are not alone...everything you described sounds like my husband/marriage. I am in therapy mysrlf and she said for me to really do some soul searching and figure out when and if i have ever been happy (im inclined to say the answer will be no). You need to be happy life is too 29 married for one yr tog for 6 and was about to start a family. My world feels like it is crashing down around me and the thought of telling my loved ones makes me want to vomit. Im here to chat u are welcome to send me a msg. Please just do waht it is will make u happy and believe u cannot change who is it- muly husband chsnged and is now reverting back to his old self and i need to stand up fir mysekf for once. Goodluck

  • Comment Link Guest Monday, 01 October 2012 15:00 posted by Guest

    I feel like I am reading: I feel like I am reading about myself. I've been married for 7 years and been with my husband for a total of 10 years and we have a 3 year old. I know that the spark is gone and keep talking about divorce with my husband, but he thinks that we can reignite it. We tried one marriage therapist and the two sessions that we went to made things worse between us. I have agreed to see try another therapist, but in my heart I know that my feelings are not going to change....

  • Comment Link Guest Monday, 01 October 2012 13:07 posted by Guest

    Done but he's not: Hi everyone I'm in my early twenties and have been married to my husband for almost 6 years, together 7. We have one child together. I have been done for a while, but kept trying to change myself and him to make it work. He is honestly a great guy, as well as a great dad, the only problem is that I'm no longer in love with him. We've had our arguments as everyone has, but it was never anything bad. I started feeling like this after my son was born, our son is now four. We are supposed to go to marriage counseling this week but I really don't think it's gonna work. It is not that I am not open to it, but I feel like we've done everything and no matter what we do no one can magically step in and make my feelings change. I will always love him, but we both deserve to be happy. I feel selfish because he is happy, however, he has told me in the end we both need to be happy. I probably sound ridiculous right now, who wouldn't want a husband that understanding, we are best friends but over these last almost 5 years I feel as if we've been living as roommates (rarely any sex). I honestly just think that a marriage should not feel like ours, to me the flame should still be somewhat flickering?

  • Comment Link Guest Sunday, 30 September 2012 13:14 posted by Guest

    giirlfreind: Been there done that... you are correct in your decision.. GGGGGGGGGGGGGGGEEEEEEEEEETTTTTTTTTTT OOOOOOOOOOOOOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT. before he beats and other family members your self esteem and you will not be able to make a move.. He is the one who is sick.....

  • Comment Link Guest Sunday, 30 September 2012 13:05 posted by Guest

    your sister: get the heck out of there... I get so sick of men that call thier self a man. Little boys in grown up suits, thier toys just cost more... I have been married two times ... they put on a good show, but are liars and users.... kick him to the crub.... put skates on his feet, send him down the road, maybe he can find a Mom.. She and the baby will be better off...

  • Comment Link Guest Tuesday, 25 September 2012 20:17 posted by Guest

    I sadly enough understand: I sadly enough understand where you are coming from. What us women must learn is that we are not saviors and unfortunately these men have to hit rock bottom before they see who they've become. I know you love him, but you've got to love yourself more. Crying everyday is unacceptable. I'd like to say he'll change but only when he's ready, which maybe never. Be strong and do what is best for YOU.

  • Comment Link Guest Tuesday, 25 September 2012 20:07 posted by Guest

    Life is too short. Abuse is: Life is too short. Abuse is where every woman should draw the line. Move on and make yourself and kids happy. Don't worry about what others think. It's not their life.

  • Comment Link KM Tuesday, 25 September 2012 12:31 posted by KM

    Wow: I can relate to your comments above. I am currently married and have been thinking about divorce for years. My New Year's resolution was to make this the year that I either accept the marriage I have and make it work for me or get a divorce. I turned 40 in April and am not getting any younger.

    My 9 yr anniversary is next week and I am dreading it. My husband and I have been having the exact same fights for 4+ yrs (I recently came across emails I have saved from that long ago between us and it is amazing how nothing has changed). We tried counseling 4 yrs ago. Went 4 times then stopped. We didn't like the therapist. At the time, we had one son, and now we have two which does complicate things.

    My husband and I can not agree on anything - I mean almost nothing. He is verbally abusive (does not tell me I'm worthless but feels the need to express every opinion he has of me and tried to tell me what I think and feel) and controlling - although he accuses me of these same things. When we fight he has said some horrible things - down to that he doesn't love me anymore and wants a divorce and then he acts like nothing happened and we never resolve what we were fighting about. I have found out that he makes these comments/threats just to get a reaction because I don't react much anymore.

    We have tried going to a new therapist - a psychologist this time - and have only been 2 times. He immediately shut down and has refused to go back. He thinks if we are just nice and respectful to each other that this will all work out. I can relate to all of the bullets above so why am I staying? Why can't I leave????

    I have gathered information on what to do to plan for a divorce and have talked to an attorney and have taken some of the steps but then I just get paralyzed. I have both of my parents in town for support and most of my friends have wondered why I am still with my husband. Some just are against divorce and refuse to support me, but I am not lacking in support so why can't I leave?? I have a full time job and probably get paid more than average but I am still scared to death. While I don't love my husband as a wife should, I still hate to hurt him - eventhough he has hurt me. I want us to agree on divorce to make it easier but I know he will fight it. He has threatened to tell our boys (ages 7 and 2) that I refused to 'extend the olive branch' and make it work. I have told him that this is not a fair way to bring the kids into our issues. So, maybe I am afraid of him turning them against me one day and them resenting me.

    Maybe I get too caught up in the repurcussions and try to plan for any scenario which is ridiculous. How do I overcome these fears and just do it?

  • Comment Link Guest Saturday, 22 September 2012 23:47 posted by Guest

    Dear Jennie, It it good that: Dear Jennie, It it good that you are being honest with yourself. You have a job now. Don't prolong this decision, go on with your life. A real marriage should be freely chosen. You day you were under duress. I did the same 6 years ago and have regretted that decision ever since, but have tried to hang in there for a lot of reasons, but mainly because of financial. I gave up a stable job and financial health when I was going through a very stressful time. It's going to take me a long time to get myself on financial footing in order to leave. I'm now 44, and life is just too short to live like you are. My husband also does that subtle emotional manipulation like yours, and you are right - he does it to twist your thinking that it's your fault. Be strong, respect yourself, and live sincerely. You can do it. Please pray for me, too, so I can get things in order - like a better job to support myself, so that I can put a bad choice behind me. I have to tell myself that it's okay to leave too. I know my family won't understand. They think I'm finally married to a good Christian man, but he really isn't a believer, but a functional alcoholic who doesn't want sex, doesn't want to work a real job, and is over-all self-centered. I knew that before I married him, but again was so desperate at the time, I kept the blinders on and my family enabled my stupid decision. God loves all of us and wants us to live healthy lives so that we can serve him completely and sincerely. Keep your head up!

  • Comment Link Guest Thursday, 20 September 2012 17:47 posted by Guest

    How can i help my sister?: Hi folks.

    About 4 years ago while I was away I got a call from my parents regarding my sisters marriage. I asked how long she has known him for and i was shocked at the reply i was given. 2 (TWO) Weeks!!! First off he isn't from the US and lived in the US for about 2 years. My dad was the one who found him out thru an online marriage site. He was invited to visit and both my sister and Dad liked the guy.

    i felt as if the marriage was rushed and couldn't find any reason why they couldn't wait. I remember one of the conversation with my sister on relationships, I pleaded with her to at-least date the guy if she likes him. hell they can even move-in together if they like but most of all i advised not to rush it.

    Well both my dad and sister dismissed my plea and set the date, I came back for their wedding but before that i got a chance to meet with the guy. I was not impressed and it seemed he was trying to impress. We hung out a few times and I wanted to see his positive side and his negative side (okay mostly negative side). I remember coming back to my sister and complained that he was full of it.

    So here is where it starts to go down hill.... The night they got married, he had his friend sleep over at their apt. .... there were arguments between my dad and my sisters husband on why a friend is staying over on their newly wed night. My sister supported his decisions because the friend was close and dear to her husband so she didn't mind. Later my sister and her husband went for their so-called honeymoon but when they came back, my sister complained that he wasn't treating her very well making comments on what she wore and how she should dress and told her to put make-up on etc. My sister is a beautiful women and she doesn't need any make-up.

    I suppose one thing good about him was he had a job.. that changed. about half a year after their marriage he spoke to her about his passion about being a dentist and so my sis asked how long would it take him to complete his exams (he was a graduate from a dentist school abroad). he replied and said 3 to 6 months. She supported him along with my dad and he quit his job..

    Fast forward 3 years and still no job, completed one exam (apparently there are 2 you need to take). Now they have a kid (3 months old). He doesn't work and if he tried he'd quit because he didn't like it. They always argue, he puts her down (even witnessed that myself), He tends to hang out with his friends and says that he is studying.... and when she wants both of them to hang out with her friends he comes up with excuses or starts an argument so that he doesn't go with her so she drops the idea completely. He doesn't even talk to my dad or respects him. I lived at their house (belongs to my sister) and even i couldn't stand their arguing, I had a chance to talk to them twice and asked that they not argue and work things out but that didn't help.

    his parents are over and his mom doesn't appreciate my sister. One day my sister was upset and her mom-in law asked if she was alright, so my sister broke down and told the mom her feelings.... That made the mom-in law cry and gave my sis a hug and said she will talk to her son... later that day her husband walks in and said that my sister was trying to show off that she works and he does nothing.. That shocked my sister.

    So... just recently she said that she doesn't like him anymore and wants to confront him (when his parents leave) and ask him to either change or she is leaving.

    about my sister: she is humble and smart, funny and will always support you even if the odds are again'st you. she liked her husband a lot for his smarts and ideas of life.. (at the time she first met him).. now it has changed.

    I know its not right for me to intervene but i want her to do the right thing because of her baby (so young).. and i feel as if he is the type of person that will/can make things worst for her.... any advice guys?

    I apologize for my grammar and spelling errors. Thanks.

  • Comment Link Guest Wednesday, 19 September 2012 15:38 posted by Guest

    Please Help!: I am 19 years old and just got married 2 months ago, and I knew I was making a HUGE mistake. I knew and still do know now that I am not ready for marriage and such a huge commitment, but I let pressure and fear guilt me into going through with the marriage; everything was so rushed (we were only engaged for about 6 or 8 months and had been together for only 2 years before the marriage). I told my husband that I did not want to do it, and he convinced me to go through with everything because he said things would get better after marriage, and he said that it was too late to cancel since everyone expected it now. My feelings for my husband changed way before we actually got married, but I didn't leave because I was so scared to be alone, especially because I did not have a job where I could support myself, and I could not find one for lack of qualifications. Needless to say, I went through with the marriage, and my husband and I have only had sex 2 or 3 times, none of which I wanted to do, and it felt so wrong; I actually went in the bathroom and cried afterwards. I only did it because I didn't want to make him angry. He has a really short temper, and he verbally abused me a lot in the past. This is only his first relationship, and he does not want to leave. He says he loves me, and he says God is telling him to stay and help me; he just won't give up and move on. I don't want to be with him, and I don't want to go to marriage counseling because I didn't want this marriage in the first place, and it just doesn't feel right to me. We lost companionship, and he influenced me in many negative ways. He has been talking to my family, and he has somehow convinced them that I am basing my feelings off of depression and bipolar disorder; I have been diagnosed and treated for depression, but I have never been found to have bipolar disorder, so I believe that he is trying to make himself feel better by suggesting that there is something wrong with me. My family really likes him because he is really devoted to me (since this is only his first relationship), and he refuses to let me go. His family understands where I am coming from, and his mother supports me, even though I have never gotten along with her or anyone on his mother's side of the family. I can't seem to convince them that I am mentally stable because of having depression, so they won't give up thinking that my feelings are temporary and are a side effect of depression; I know they are not. He and my family think that everything was fine and that I was happy, and then all of a sudden, I wanted divorce. That, in fact, is not true; I was not happy with him, and they only saw how he acted toward me in public, not behind closed doors. We are separated now, though living in the same household until I move into an apartment this weekend (I have a full time job now at the Sheriff's Office), but he and my mother are all about religion, religion, religion, so they, of course, think that I am making a huge mistake. I don't feel like I am, and I am doing what is right for me. I honestly wish him well and hope he finds someone else, but he just says he will never find anyone else because he only wants and loves me. I don't know what to say to him. I don't feel the same about him, and I never will again because of how he treated me. He had many opportunities to change for the better, but he never did because he didn't want to. No matter what he says, I am callous and cannot cry or feel sorry for him, and people say and think that they don't know me anymore because I have changed and all that bull. I know they are upset, but they just keep harassing me about my decision and trying to blame it on me being "sick" and "needing medicine and therapy." I don't know what to say to them because no matter what, I am getting this divorce. My decision has nothing to do with depression or bipolar disorder (I am on medicine for depression, anyway), it is how I truly feel, and I wish they would see that and stop always raising their voices with me and saying how bad of a person I am. I made a really big mistake by getting married when I knew it was wrong, and I am suffering the consequences. I figure it is better to get out of it now before there are kids and debt involved than to go years and years before making this exact same decision, anyway, with a lot more involved. I just know that there is someone else out there who I am more compatible with, who is actually responsible, who has a job and does not act like a child, whose idea of compliments are more than "you have nice tits," and who will treat me right all the time, not just in public. I just wish I had more support on my side...PLEASE give me any advice or suggestions you may have.

  • Comment Link Guest Saturday, 15 September 2012 19:53 posted by Guest

    Thanks: Thanks for the comment about no alcohol. I am needing to make the difficult decision to divorce and find myself wanting to drink. I have two young boys to take care of, not to mention myself. Thanks for reminding me that that's not going to help! Pray I can stay strong.

  • Comment Link Guest Saturday, 15 September 2012 09:57 posted by Guest

    Hi, I'm 20 years old, my: Hi, I'm 20 years old, my husband is 22, we have been married for 1 yr. we have been thru a lot, we have and 8month old baby and everything started when she was born. We started fighting and arguing for everything. Im not always in the mood for sex and that has harmed the relationship a lot. Right after the baby I found him talking to his exgirlfriend and he told her in one of the texts he wouldn't have married me if she would have stock around well I almost left him that time but he said he loves me and the baby and wouldn't have changed us getting married for nothing in the world. Later on I found out he was a PORN addict! Literally he would do it everyday and it really ticks me off so I got really mad and confronted him and promised he would stop and of purse he didn't. I still stayed with him. We used to have a very good relationship. Laughed all the time enjoyed each others company and just loved each other, but for some reason we are not the same. I found him talking to that same girl again and I left, he called so I came back but we were sleeping in separate rooms. Now he has asked for a divorce and it has been 1 1/2 month since this happened. I have been staying at my moms house for the past 2 weeks and I found myself missing him and wishing he would try going to counseling but I'm also glad we aren't together. What should I do!?. Just really let go!? Or try talking to him and fixing it!?

  • Comment Link Guest Friday, 14 September 2012 21:08 posted by Guest

    Happily Divorced: This article identified all the things that I felt before my marriage eventually ended. My marriage was really over four years before I filed for divorce. Counseling did nothing to help. I'm the one who took full responsibility for what was wrong in the marriage which was not right. There was no infidelity involved. We were just two people with different ideas of what marriage was and we had no common goals. I wanted a partnership and he wanted a doormat. I stayed longer than I should have because of my two daughters. That also was wrong. They saw how we fought and that was not good for them, either. When you get to a point when you realize that there is nothing left, you can't feel guilt or feel like a failure. It takes two to make a marriage work. Sometimes the other person is not willing to do what it takes. That's when you need to recognize it is time for it to end.

  • Comment Link Guest Friday, 14 September 2012 19:05 posted by Guest

    How long I'm I suppose to: How long I'm I suppose to live like this, is it wrong to leave now, since he is getting better. My other car is broke after I paid it off, I've since gotten another car, he takes it. He make me feel so guilty. I had great credit, now I owe everyone. I know this is my fault as well to let this continue. He's jealous of my success, I have a car and he doesn't. By the way.. He still owes taxes, which effects me.

  • Comment Link Guest Friday, 14 September 2012 19:00 posted by Guest

    My husband and I have been: My husband and I have been together for ten years. We have been married for 5 years. 3 kids , 10, 8 and 5; im 31 and he's 33. after we were married, I found out he gambled, he didn't come home, we never lived together before marriage. I was upset and ready to leave, he convinced me he will stop and it's not serious, soon later, he kept not coming home, he would call and from the friends house, they all gambled. Of course he would be so tired , he couldn't get up for work, bills were not getting paid. I've always worked, I am the bread winner. We had two cars in my name. One got repo. So I had to drive him to work. Soon later we would argue about him getting up, he was always late and lost his job. He blamed it on me. I had to take care of everything. It soon effected me and my career but they were understanding. We could no longer afford things, he would take the car, not come back, lights got cut off, water off, we eventually were evicted. We moved with his mom, sister and her children. It was crowded and awful living conditions. I had no family here, and was just in denial about how my life was. I stopped talking to everyone. My husband start getting in trouble with the law, like speeding tickets and things. He had so many tickets, he couldn"t pay, he had no lincense. He eventually we went to jail for 2 weeks. He also wrecked my car after I told him not to drive and it was snowing with no. I can still drive it. Everytime I would something I would play the victim and all I would think about is the kids. They loved his father and would only play with them, and not spend any real quality time cause of gambling. He has since gotten better, years later today. He doesn't play poker that I'm aware of, he still has a job for 9mths now, I still drive him to work, we live so tight we don't have extra money. we still argue. I have expressed to him my deep resentment and now my feelings for him has disappeared in so many words. It's very hard to have sex with him cause theres no feelings left. I have started talking to a friend, I know him for 4 years, always good chemistry, but i had so many issues, and yes theres more to what i told so far with my husband and reckless behavior. I'm happy again after a dark place. Me and my friend fallen deep for each other. I'm confused more than ever and I know it's morally wrong. Help

  • Comment Link Guest Thursday, 13 September 2012 22:52 posted by Guest

    My husband of nearly 15 years: My husband of nearly 15 years has cheated on me for more than half our marriage. He has admitted to only two times. Those times he was forced to tell. The first was a health scare during my pregnancy. The second his best friend told. The other times included Internet cheating and ex girlfriends ( one of whom he slept with). W have two beautiful children. He seems to be a good externally. But, internally I think he has issues. I worry about our young children. My son is ten and can tell something is going on. I feel as if I can't do this anymore because he will never change. I asked him to take a lie detector test or we can move forward with the divorce. He takes all situations and blames everyone for them including me. I do love him. But, my heart is too broken and I have severe trust issues with him now. I do not believe anything he has to say to me. What do I do? I am so conflicted. My mother law and aunt are telling me to possibly give it one last try.

  • Comment Link Guest Thursday, 13 September 2012 22:49 posted by Guest

    My husband of nearly 15 years: My husband of nearly 15 years has cheated on me for more than half our marriage. He has admitted to oly two times. Those times he was forced to tell. The first was a health scare during my pregnancy. The second his best friend told. The other times included Internet cheating and ex girlfriends ( one of whom he slept with). W have two beautiful children. He seems to be a old guy externally. But, internally I think he has issues. I worry about our young children. My son is ten and can tell something is going on. I feel as if I can't do this anymore because he will never change. I asked him to take a lie detector test or we can move forward with the divorce. He takes all situations and blames everyone for them including me. I do love him. But, my heart is too broken and I have severe trust issues with him now. I do not believe anything he has to say to me. What do I do? I am so conflicted. My mother law and aunt are telling me to possibly give it one last try.

  • Comment Link Guest Thursday, 13 September 2012 21:23 posted by Guest

    Hmm.. I'm not sure...: Hubby and I have been together a total of 9 years, married for 2. I was 18 when we met (he was 30), I was fresh out of a long term horrible relationship. Needless to say, being in long relationships at a young age I wasnt able to be a kid. Right after we met, he just went through a bad divorce, and luckly we have no children. He also met his ex wife young and it resulted in her lashing out partying and cheating. Right away with me he was a little possessive and over protective of me but never abusive or mean. I knew I loved him so I rid of all my friends.. especially guy friends (it intimidated him), and after a while I started to resent him for that. I did do things that I shouldnt have done and because of that I left him, it was the right thing to do. During the separation which lasted about a year, I realized that I loved him and missed him as I got older (about age 22ish at that point). We got back together and planned our wedding. Since we have been married we are best friends and hardly fight. But nearing our second year of marriage, it seems that we have been distant and sex has only been about once every two weeks. I am not sure if its because he is now nearing 40 and his testosterone levels are dropping due to age, we also have been trying for children for 6 yrs and I have fertility problems, and he is starting to ask more questions about the negative things I have done in the past and it makes me feel terrible. We promised each other that since we got back together that we will start over completely fresh and ignore the past and move on, no questions asked. Part of me thinks we should quit but another part of me doesnt want that. He is such a wonderful man and is not a cheater, extremely loving. It has just felt "weird" between us and I/we have also lost our sex drive and attraction and I think it's the same for him. Trust me, we have tried new things to spice it up and nothing works, just feels awkward. It feels like we are best friends who cuddle and occasionally hook up. I also work a lot and im the bread winner in the relationship and this may also cause problems with us, espcially since we don't go on dates or actually go out, I want badly to go out but simply can't but im tired of working and being a homebody. Just at a loss.

  • Comment Link Guest Wednesday, 12 September 2012 14:04 posted by Guest

    i want divorce: whatever sign u have told above, i m feeling same way. I dont love him at all because he never done anything for me. he is not able to give mental financial and family satisfaction. i got married in 2006. i have 5 yr kid. i am staying separately with my kid from last 9 months. i have filed for divorce also. but my parents are not ready for divorce for social problems. even my husband is also not ready. he wants me to stay with him for future of kid
    he is not realising the proble. everytime he says sorry and expects that i should forgive him. i am alone taking all the responcibily of my kid. i feel if i dont have feeling, respect and love about him so its better to get divorce. Please help me. Can any one tell me whether i will get divorce or i have to fight throught my life.

  • Comment Link Guest Tuesday, 11 September 2012 21:42 posted by Guest

    Honey, get an annullment.: Honey, get an annullment. It's only been three months. Do it before you feel guilty for letting it go on too long. DO it before you feel guilty for putting your kids through that for so long. THey need a positive influence in their lives, even if you are the only one. It's better than that bullshit. Think of your kids, how do they feel with such a parent treating them that way? You should always put them first, even if it means a divorce. If hes a sex addict, that's a big danger towards your children as well.

  • Comment Link Guest Tuesday, 11 September 2012 09:38 posted by Guest

    I'm facing the same issue as you.: My husband and i have been married for 16 years and we have a 15 year old son. For the first few years as we were busy working and looking after the boy i didnt noticed any abnormalities in the marriage as both of us are rather busy. What i do know was that he never accompany me to the gynae when i was pregnant but i took it in my stride . Understanding that he is a busy man running his own business. As time went on i started to feel like i'm walking on egg shells all the time. Whatever i said or suggest wouldnt pleased him . I loved to gather the family together for lunch or dinner during weekends but he would tell me to go with my son .Asking him why he would'nt want to join us he gave me alot of excuses saying that the weather's too hot , he's too tired and so on. When his friends calls up to invite him for tea , lunch , massage or fishing he never says no to them. When i asked his "permission" to drive out of town he would say no cos the reason he gave me was too dangerous for a woman and a 15 yr old boy gg to another country. Ok , i take it tat he's concerned about us. So another time when i suggested that my son and i would like to take a cruise he said no becos reasons given was sea is unsafe too much pirates roaming around the waters. I felt like a trap bird i wasnt allowed to go any where. Whereas he could just go everywhere he likes.
    Since he retired this year i tried to get to follow me for groceries shopping , having tea together he just refused.
    I've been shopping for groceries alone , eating out alone , having tea alone and even when im sick ive to drive to see the doctor alone.
    I'm fustrated and very tired with him and frankly speaking i'm now considering to initiate a divorce but thinking of my son always held me back.
    I told my son i wish that my next 20 or 30 years down the road to be happy as life is so short. By telling my son that hoping to help him prepared that there is a possibility that i would end the marriage.

  • Comment Link Guest Monday, 10 September 2012 19:27 posted by Guest

    I've been married for 3: I've been married for 3 months, and It's been a road of battles the entire time. About 6 months before our wedding things started to get really busy in my life with graduating college and applying for jobs; while also planning a big myself. I hardly had time for my at the time fiance, because I was so busy living my life and trying to get things that needed to done accomplished. I spent many nights crying to him asking for help and he didn't do anything. I became very frustrated because I felt like I was going at the world alone. He just said that it would get better after we got married and the stress would go away. Boy was he wrong. I worked all summer in a 12-8 job, his job was 8-5 so our hours were a lot different so we didn't get to see eachother a lot. once a week for a month i would stay after work and visit with my friends and have a beer...this became a huge problem. I went to theraphy and would have early sessions in the morning that I would stay with a girlfriend from school. It was great to see friends that i hadn't seen in a while but me going to theraphy ended up being a big trust issue for him--so i quit. We are really struggling. there is no passion in our relationship--we dated for four years before we got engaged and things were ok. he was, with a lack of better words a smart ass 90% of the time; he was always right in every fight and always pinned everything bad that happened on something that i had done in the past. right now we're fighting because i told him i wasn't sure if i wanted to get married or not--we started counseling but i'm not sure if either of us even want this anymore--both of us are so tired of trying to make the other one happy. He says he wants something and then i eventually do it and he still isn't happy and he tells me that that's not what he wanted. I dont' know what to do.

  • Comment Link Guest Monday, 10 September 2012 12:04 posted by Guest

    I Dont know what to do?: I have been married for close to 3 years now, my husband and I got married when I was 20 and he was 22. We have gone through alot these past years. He went to jail for 8 and 1/2 months for drug dealing. It was very dissapointing for me, but I stuck with him through it all. When we first got married my husband use to have serious anger issues but through time he has been able to work on them. We do not have kids at the moment because I have never been ready to commit to kids because of my insecurities about our relationship. I am now at the point that I don't know what to do. I am so confused. The problem that I am dealing with now is the same problem that I have being dealing with since we 1st got married. My husband tells me that he is not happy married and that he feels that he was rushed into marriage. At first when he began telling me these thing he would always say that he was sorry and that he didn't mean what he said. Ever since our marriage he has continued to tell me this over and over and then apologizing right after. I feel like I am dealing with 2 completely different persons. The problem is that I am very tired of this situation. I feel like I just want to give up and leave. It is so frustrating to be married to a person that does not know what he wants. My husband is dealing with major identity problems and he does not know what he wants. I don't know what to do. Can someone please give me some advice! Should I run or stick around?

  • Comment Link Guest Sunday, 09 September 2012 17:16 posted by Guest

    wow: Wow... I really thought I was the only one in this situation. The only difference is this is my first divorce and I have no children. Although he does. He has a 10 yr old daughter he rarely ever sees. He didn't even come with me to buy her birthday present!!! He's diabetic and he's in denial or something. He won't take care of his health, denies that his symptoms (multiple ER trips, constant vomiting and neuropathy) are anything serious. He has a criminal history (shoplifting) so his chances of ever really finding another job (a good one) are very slim. I had to give him my car and buy a new one because he wouldn't make the car payments ($200) for his other car and it was repossessed. He sits around the house all day and watches tv. He will occasionally do some dishes or maybe a load of laundry about once or twice a month. I hate the idea of sex with him. He can't give me a child, something I want more than anything in the world. He's so clingy too. I work all day and night managing a security company and when I come home, he's ALWAYS there. I can't go to the store alone, hell, I can't even go smoke a cigarette outside alone. He eats like crazy so I'm constantly buying groceries. I stopped eating regularly to try to save money and I've lost thirty pounds in one month. I still care about him, although I'm not sure why, but at the same time I absolutely loathe and completely resent him. I don't want to hurt him and I'm afraid of what he may do if I mention divorce or even separation. I'm afraid of the change and feeling like a failure. Our one year wedding anniversary is tomorrow for heavens sake. I don't know what to do. I feel so trapped. My health is declining and I don't know how much longer I can go on like this. But I have NO IDEA how to tell him I want out. Someone please help.

  • Comment Link Guest Saturday, 08 September 2012 05:10 posted by Guest

    Good and bad...: This is my fourth marriage.... and finally I am not in an abusive one. Heres my deal. Hes good to my kids..... but as lazy as a RUG!!! He has has not kept a job over 3 months and when he does have one he calls out all the time. Also when he does work he brings home only 5-10 bucks because his child support takes it all. I could deal with that....however...I work 60 hours a week to make ends meet...HIS truck payment included. He works (on most recent job that hes now quit) 36 hours at most....I come home...the house looks like a tornado has hit it...I have to push mow the yard (3 acres)... I have to make the kids do their chores....he eats, sleeps, watches TV and plays video games. Now his latest excuse is he is sick.... the emergency room doctor saw nothing of emergency. I even told him to go to a DIFFERENT E.R. He sat at home all week and did NOTHING to get treatment for this mysterious ailment. (again.... funny how he gets sick with every job). I am fed up. I absolutely LOATHE him. I only have 2 reasons for staying with him. Hes good to my kids and since I work nights as a nurse hes here at night. Otherwise he has no purpose... nada....zilch. He is completely useless. I dont want yet ANOTHER divorce...but I dont know how long I can keep this up. Hes making life HARDER financially. I even supported my step-son (gladly and with love) and my husband didnt work then. When I met him he was a hard worker. He lost that job so we had to move back to my home state. Since then....its been this way. Also the only reason his child support is SO high is because he didnt work and now hes having to pay BACK child support. I give up on marriage PERIOD!

  • Comment Link Guest Friday, 07 September 2012 22:45 posted by Guest

    email me: You need to email me asap. I'm a
    military wife too. I can help you. amyraewaterman@gmail

  • Comment Link Guest Thursday, 06 September 2012 22:41 posted by Guest


  • Comment Link Guest Thursday, 06 September 2012 14:42 posted by Guest

    Not what I signed up for...: My husband and I have been together 5 years, married for a little over 2. Should mention an age difference, he's 34 and I'm 42.

    The positive: Let me first start by saying that we are best friends, literally. We have an amazing connection and are extremely close and have all the major core points of view in common. We laugh a lot and have a blast together. He is affectionate; frequent "I love you's", kisses, holding hands, cuddling. I had a daughter from a prior marriage who's biological father was a complete absentee deadbeat, and my husband stepped in and raised her like she was his own and is still GREAT with her (she's 20 now and out of the house). She really loves him, and loves us as a family unit. He's the only dad she has ever known.

    Now, the bad. He struggles with many things, clinical depression (he's on meds for this), drug addiction (he is 1 1/2 years sober), anger issues (not directed at me, but others at random times - unpredictable), abandonment issues (his bio father left when he was 3, never to be heard from again, raised by a step-father). I have been extremely sympathetic to his problems and very supportive with all. However, there have been many times (more than I can count) where I've caught him in lies, on sex cruising websites while on business trips, secret communications with other women on Facebook, texting, etc., watching what I consider to be an unreasonable amount of porn on our computer, DVD's and also going to public porn theaters. Every time a new discovery is made, I confront him. He instantly flies into a rage and a major meltdown ensues, which usually escalates to a point of me wanting out of the relationship. Once he realizes this, the panic, apologies and promises to stop the behavior begin. Inevitably he will blame his depression, tell me he's messed up in the head and thinking of suicide, etc. In the beginning I believed him and pressed on, but demanding that he seek counseling to fix these things. He went for therapy for 2 months and then quit. These episodes are still happening, and most recently I found a bottle of Poppers (amyl nitrate) in his backpack...confronted him about it and he vehemently denied sniffing it (or even KNOWING that it was used as a drug at all) and said it was commonly used as ink remover and that he found it somewhere. I didn't believe this for a second, but we moved on largely because after years of dealing with deception and shady activities, I'm actually starting not to care anymore. A couple weeks ago again I found another brand new bottle of poppers, again I confronted him and again...he found this one too, used as ink remover. I didn't even bother fighting about it this time.

    We have other problems as well: sex no more than 1 every six weeks (he blames no sex drive on his depression and side effects of meds - but oddly still has enough drive for all the porn), and he is irresponsible with money and I am constantly bailing us out of financial situations due to his past debts and credit issues that keep cropping up and his current spending. I do care for him a lot, but all of his actions have diminished my love for him and I find myself now wondering if marrying him was the wrong decision. I cry almost every single day and feel anxious and helpless all the time. I suffer from insomnia now, most nights I lay there and think about things, trying to decide what to do. I know divorcing him would devastate my daughter, and I'm afraid he would go back to using drugs, or depression spiral out of control into real suicide.


  • Comment Link Guest Wednesday, 05 September 2012 19:44 posted by Guest

    Confused and Undecided: I have been married now for a year and a half but together for 6. All thoughout my marriage, I have been catching my husband cheating through online conversations with other women. He had a facebook account that he continually meet with women on and also through email. He has been linked to about 7 or 8 different women. I occasionally go through his email and phone because of his cheating ways. I dont like doing it but I have to know that his promises to stop are true. We have done counseling with a pastor and have 2 kids but nothing has stopped him from forming these so called "friendships." About four years ago, he developed a work relationship with a woman who he became emotionally involved with. I learned of the relationship and called the woman who told me she was married (we were not at the time) and that their relationship was nothing but a friendship. I learned through email that she had lied. I was pregnant with our first child during this and couldnt imagine raising the kid alone, so I tried to work on the relationship. Before that, I received emails from some woman before me telling me that they had rekindled their relationship and he was denying me. I took this as jealousy and never put much mind to it. But after everything we have gone through, today he is still meeting women at work and trying to hook up. what do I do? I recently gave birth to our daughter about 5 weeks ago and I am becoming very depressed over this. What do I do? I have a husband that is being unfaithful emotionally.......

  • Comment Link Guest Tuesday, 04 September 2012 21:17 posted by Guest

    I don't know what to do: My husband and I have been married just over 1 year. We have had sex 1 time in the last 9 months or so (maybe longer), and I was asleep for most of it. I woke up in the middle and let him proceed. I was literally sick at my stomach the next day. I don't find myself sexually attracted to him at all, nor do I enjoy physical contact with him (I find myself shying away from his touches and kisses). He mostly annoys me, though we do have good companionship at times.
    Here's the deal... I had a 2 month affair with a married coworker about 5 months ago. At this point, I hadn't had sex with my husband in quite some time, and I was beginning to think there was something wrong with me for not wanting/enjoying sex anymore. I was really down on myself for not fulfilling "wife duties" or whatever. Anyways, a connection developed with my coworker, and we resisted anything for about a month, though it was clear that we were very attracted beyond physically. We fell in love, and it is the most heart-wrenching experience I've ever had. For a couple of months, we texted, we stayed late at work, we stole all kinds of moments, and I was (and still am) head over heels for this guy. We had a business trip for a week that was just the two of us, and that was the last week we were together. He ended things, saying he wouldn't go through divorce again (he's in his second marriage). He cut me off cold, though I have to see him every day and most weekends as all of our friends are mutual. One friend of mine knows because the pressure of hiding such a huge secret eventually cracked me. Otherwise, no one else knows.
    So now, 3 months later, I am considering divorce. Needless to say I considered it long before, but I just couldn't bring myself to think it was the right thing to do. I don't want to hurt him (worse than I already have). I have given myself these 3 months away from the affair before deciding further because I don't want to divorce for the wrong reasons. I do not want this to be a situation of me leaving my new husband for the next shiny thing (however much I may still love said shiny thing, regardless of the fact that he will no longer have anything to do with me).
    I am immensely unhappy and cannot envision myself spending the next 50 years in a marriage without sex, intimacy, or love. I was stupid and young (I just turned 24) and thought he was a nice stable guy who would make a good husband and father. We do not have children, nor shall we ever at this point.
    I know it sounds like I've made up my mind, but I guess I just wondered if anyone had an alternate perspective or agreement or anything. I'm open to all comments, and if I do go through with a divorce, I have no idea how to proceed. We have a lot of debt (a car and some store credit) and share a lease on an apt until May. Our checking acct is joint, as is our savings. It seems like it will be a logistical nightmare on top of an already emotional disaster. I don't know if I'm ready for that.

  • Comment Link Guest Tuesday, 04 September 2012 16:23 posted by Guest

    Conflicted and Confused: You nailed it---you can't love someone you can't trust. You are staying longer because you have the power to stay or leave. That happened to me, and I stayed years too long.

  • Comment Link Guest Tuesday, 04 September 2012 15:15 posted by Guest

    Go back and read what you: Go back and read what you wrote. Now, do you really have to ask what you should do? Run, don't walk!

  • Comment Link Guest Sunday, 02 September 2012 11:06 posted by Guest

    divorce : so my husband and i have been married for a year and 1 month we both have wanted a child well i am now 16 weeks and 5 days. He has been cheating on me and abusing me since i have been pregnant. He didnt start hitting me til he came back from iraq (need i note he went while it was safe and didnt take no fire no anything didnt even get to shoot his weapon just went over there to help clean up and sit in a truck) so its not like he was doing anything to mess up his head. well the beating me started about march he got back from iraq october of last year. we tried for nearly 6 months for a baby but the catch is he cant quit getting on different websites like plenty of fish and crap like that and talking to other woman getting there numbers sending them naked pix of himself and them sending naked pix of themselves and he has dont this now 7 times and we have only been married for 1 year we have only been together for 17 months he would quit talking to them and say we are working it out and then be back to it 2 months later. He is apparently not a one woman man. not to mention while he was out on training he spent all the rest of the money($100) getting on these different websites and that left me (pregnant) with no food. Im over getting treated like this his family is going against me trying to accuse me of different things just to make there o so precious son look better and they think im lying about it all. o yea im lying when i have pix of my bruises and my dogs raw spots from being kicked so hard but im lying ummmm no i dont think so. I also have some of the proof that he has been talking to all these other woman. not to mention he is a mason! He got kicked out of the house on wed this is now sunday and he has left me with no money to get something to eat, no phone(he had them turned off) to get ahold of my drs and things, he has the only vehicle that we had, and the stupid army aint doing nothing about all of this! This is all a bunch of bull crap if you ask me. He knocks me up and then he wants to leave me? He pushes me down stairs while pregnant and denys it even though a friend of mine seen it. So what would you do in a case like mine? He has to pay me until we get a divorce and then he is going to have to pay child support when the child gets here. O and not to mention now that he is out of the house he is not trying to contact me he has a phone that he got and he failed to tell me about it what about me a phone to get a hold of my drs and everyone else? He has been going out with other girls this weekend and not going home til 5-6 am just because he is out with these girls. I mean really dude your still married! You say that you dont even know what you want yet. He says he dont know what he wants as in a divorce or to stay together. I have put forth so much effort to save this marriage for the past 8 months that its not even funny i cant fight any more especially being pregnant. So what do i do?

  • Comment Link Guest Sunday, 02 September 2012 10:56 posted by Guest

    Do they ever really change?: I have been married for almost 18 years, we were very young when we got married. I have put up with alot,when we were married about a year and had a 6 month old he decided he didnt want to work or be a grown up, i took care of everything and worked to support us, he finally grew up some and got a job. Then 4 years into our marriage i got preg with our second child he wanted to separate then and wanted me to have an abortion becauce at the time i know he was talking to another women and i think cheating. I refused to have an abortion and he was horrible to me the entire time, then when i had our second child he did a complete turnaround he begged me to forgive him and stay so i did. We were happy for several years or so i thought. when we had been married for 14 years he started drinking heavily and not coming home some nights. Then i found out about the other women, he told me he did not love me and had not for a long time. He walked out on me and the kids and continued his affair for 9 more months. i begged for his love and went to counseling and he eventually went to and we got back together he said he would stop drinking and that he was so sorry, that he did love me and that he was just messed up in the head after his Dad died. I have tried to make it work and forgive him ever since, he changed some for a while but the last 18 months he started drinking heavily again, he is very mean to me he starts fights with me and says horrible things to me until i am crying uncontrolably he is also mean and nasty to our 2 boys. I begged him to change to go to counseling to stop drinking to go to church he would not. A about a month ago he started screaming at me and cussing at our oldest child and my oldest child (who is very mild and a really good kid) told him to shutup and that he was not going to talk to his mom that way, then my husband attacked him, i called the cops and we left and have not went back. Now my husband is going to church saying how sorry he is and how he has changed and begging us to come back. After everything and all the pain and broken promises should i divorce him? I just don't feel i could ever feel safe again niether could our children.

  • Comment Link Guest Saturday, 01 September 2012 14:36 posted by Guest

    TO Patty posted on 8/30/12 8:28 pm: The same thing happened to me. We went through the adoption preparation classes and attended many hours of meetings. I got the mandated physical to be approved as an adoptive parent. As you know it is a long process to adopt. Anyway, all we really needed to do next was the police background check, the home visits and the deposit of the initial fees. My husband used that point in the process to become open about not having the money to go forward with the process- that our money was needed in other areas of financial obligation. I was hurt that he had led me so far down the path of adoption only to say those things when the money came due. In other words, it seemed the money part scared him off. We did not go forward with the adoption process and focused on financial obligations at that point. It is so heartbreaking to have the love and time and money to raise a child in a nice middle-class home, but to struggle with the adoption fees etc. which are extensive. Your husband most likely does want to be a parent. Especially if he has positive feelings about how he was raised also. He perhaps is trying to resolve some financial issues before adopting. Try to understand his financial concerns. What do you both need to resolve financially before going forward with adoption? Can he give you a calendar date when he will go forward with the adoption application fees? Just as aside, my relatives tried IVF to no success, they also had one adoption fall through because the birth mother changed her mind after the birth, they went with another agency and had a successful adoption. That child brought so much love into their lives that they decided to try and give her a sibling. Later they tried IVF again. This time it worked for them! What a blessing. They had twins. God works in mysterious ways. Another friend who adopted told me her husband lost his job within days of the home visit. They forged ahead even though at the time he was looking for work. Life is full of uncertainties and things not being in order. It is what you do with the uncertainties that sets the course of your life. Best wishes to you and your husband. I hope to hear good news from you again.

  • Comment Link Guest Friday, 31 August 2012 01:16 posted by Guest

    I think you need to ask him: I think you need to ask him to sit with you and work out a budget so you can make the initial payment. If he says yes than you book him in with a day and time. If he says no I think you need to directly ask him if it is what he wants. It may turn out he doesnt really want to do it which can be tricky when applying for adoption as both parents need to be in agreement.
    Sorry you are going through this. You may need professional help.

  • Comment Link Guest Thursday, 30 August 2012 21:28 posted by Guest

    Despeartely want Children, is he stalling me?: I have always wanted to be a mother from the first time I held a child. That feeling has never left me; however wanted to find the right man to spend the rest of my life with. I found him and live him with all my heart. We decided as a married couple in our early 30s we were at a place to start trying to have a family...I am approaching my 40th birthday and have had many fertility issues leaving us childless. We have been discussing adoption however the cost is high and the process is lengthy. He agreed to adoption however recently has been spending our funds in other areas and has been making comments that x x and x need resolved financially before paying our application fee. This has been going on for over a year. I am not sure if he wants children or just doesn't want to adopt. When do I give up? It is causing a division in our marriage that has not ever been there before and I am getting less and less interested in doing activities with him where we were once inseperatable.

  • Comment Link Guest Thursday, 30 August 2012 18:25 posted by Guest

    That is a HORRIBLE thing for: That is a HORRIBLE thing for him to do. A marriage is a partnership!! Just because you are not making money the way he is does not mean you shouldn't have a say in it, especially when it comes to super big purchases!

  • Comment Link Guest Thursday, 30 August 2012 14:17 posted by Guest

    Need some outside advice: My husband and I will be married for 14 years this October (together 15). We met and married in Florida and have been living out in Utah for the last 9 years. Things in our marriage were good (not great but good) in the beginning. We met at work (we worked at a restaurant) and had the same circle of friends. We went out frequently and had fun. Since we have moved to Utah things have changed drastically!! It has become more apparent of how little my husband and I actually have in common. Our differences weren't quite so noticable in Florida. And since we moved out here my husband seems almost CONSTANTLY miserable. He keeps changing jobs because he can't be happy at any of them (which has caused us financial strain in the past). He NEVER wants to do ANYTHING. If he is not working than all he wants to do is sit in the house. I have had MANY talks with him about this. I like to enjoy life...get things. He does not. Everytime I tell him I want to do something (like go for a bike ride or a walk) he tells me...go do them. If I wanted to do everything alone I would have stayed single. And if we do end up doing something together he makes the event miserable. He is a horribly negative short tempered person. He is completely incapable of holding a conversation with me and our sex life is HORRIBLE!! I have a much much higher sex drive than he does and at some points in the marriage we would go months without having sex. Things had gotten so bad that we tried to move back to Florida hoping that would help fix it (but an unexpected surgery kept us out here). I have tried for the last 10 years to try and help my husband become a happier less negative person. With no luck. When I finally hit my breaking point and tell him I can't take it anymore he usually turns things around for about a week or so but then goes back to being his usual horrible miserable self. He even tried counseling but doesn't use ANY of the tools or practices the councelor gave hime. Sometimes I get so depressed that I often dream of running away or try to think of ways to kill myself to make it look like an accident. I can't bear the thought of hurting him but I also cannot bear the thought of staying with him any longer. My mother and my best friend both think I should leave him, but I can't help but to feel like I'm just being selfish. It's not like he's a drug addict or an alcoholic. He doesn't abuse me and he's never cheated on me (he's too lazy to). But I never see myself being able to be happy with can be NOT horrible...but never truly happy. Please give some advice.

  • Comment Link Guest Wednesday, 29 August 2012 13:28 posted by Guest

    What should I do?: I have been married for 26 years. 2 children 23&18. The youngest just left for college, the oldest lives overseas. We put the house up for sale because it was too big and my husband wanted to move closer to his job to save on the winter commute. We have an offer on the house. I had an anxiety attack in signing the papers. I wasn't sure I could deal with all the change. I also recently lost my job in an industry that I had been in for 24 years due to downsizing and technology changes. While I was taking my daughter to college my husband bought a $60,000 car without talking to me about it. I have learned that he actually put a deposit down on it 4 months prior. He makes good money but continually uses money from an account I do not have access to for large ticket purchases. I have been to counseling over this secretive issue but he continually says it his money and he is entitled to do with it what he wants and is angry that I even question it. I feel like an idiot and a victim. Do you think this is a good reason to get a divorce?

  • Comment Link Guest Tuesday, 28 August 2012 23:09 posted by Guest

    I know we're right for each other: My wife and I have been married 12 years in September, together for 14. We have many things in common from religion, politics, to family and finances. We enjoy sailing, biking, hiking, camping, kayaking, scuba diving, adventure travel, etc. We have no money issues, she works part time as a nurse because I want her to have a good life and low stress. We have no kids, and a older dog. We live what most would think is a ideal life with no kids, we travel up to 10 weeks a year to fun places, we have family over to our place. Now enter the problems, soon after our wedding our car was rear ended by a tractor trailer. The car was totaled but she did not walk away without injury like me. She has dealt with pain from the accident since that time. Then there are the expectations of hers that I spend no time with friends or work. That we have too much clutter (mainly our garage) and that she can't trust me, despite not having any real reason to. I love her deeply but she does not feel like the priority in our lives. She says she is happy 50% of the time, but now is at the ultimatum stage where she says if things don't change she wants a divorce. She has been saying things need help for years and I have been making incremental progress.
    I am a social person, but in my mind appropriately so. I like to be social WITH her, not without her, but she would rather stay in most of the time. I have been faithful, don't have any addictions and just want her to be happy. Her own traits are perfectionist, some insecurities, and entitlements for support due to the injuries. I tend to have controlling tendencies and the center of social attention when we are out.
    When we spend time together it is often happy and fun. But we have times of frustration as well. She says she has no energy left to put into the relationship.
    So we have two crisis we are dealing with now. Her chronic pain and her being frustrated with some of my traits. Both are wearing on us both, and although I am an eternal optimist I fear that if I go along with all her demands, I'll be giving up a lot of things that make me who I am. I know in my heart its not over so I'm trying to determine if her ultimatums are pleas for help, or really the end. Thanks for reading my long post!

  • Comment Link Guest Monday, 27 August 2012 07:56 posted by Guest

    need for divorce: am tired of living the anhappy lifefull of lies

  • Comment Link Guest Sunday, 26 August 2012 23:14 posted by Guest

    I did this for a couple: I did this for a couple years. I knew I didn't have feelings. He finally got fed up with my coldness and left me. It was the best thing to happen to me. My kids deserve to see their parents in love. They are much healthier and happier. It was hard at first. I luckily have a very good relationship with my ex. I think that has made it much better for them.

  • Comment Link Guest Sunday, 26 August 2012 23:06 posted by Guest

    The fact that you're even: The fact that you're even asking says a lot. I think we all know the answers deep down, but there are so many factors that make us stay in a dead relationship. My ex left me eight years ago and I still thank him once in awhile. I don't like change and would have
    kept going for much longer.

  • Comment Link Guest Sunday, 26 August 2012 12:59 posted by Guest

    I am just wondering ... if he: I am just wondering ... if he doesn't want any kids, then why doesn't he have a vasectomy. Alternatively, is any birth control being used?

  • Comment Link Guest Thursday, 23 August 2012 09:36