Fear is more fear than anything else. Take a deep breathe. I bet your two year old is your “everything.” You will live a long and happy life and not be alone. Fear is irrational. Don't listen to your fears. Your future has not been written yet. He does not have your best interest at heart nor your son’s. You have family support. I am sorry he broke his promises to you and is mean to you. It is hardest in the beginning. But it gets easier to navigate and fear becomes less when more is settled. (((Hugs))) honey. It is time for a good long cry and then some action. Your son will need you and that is very nice to have him.