I have a difficult time weeding through my own bitterness at the situation I'm in. I'm bitter about how I was treated and about how I'm being treated now. I am a very genuine individual, and my ex was not at all genuine to my feelings, wants, desires — and dreams. I feel as though he is making attempts to crush the spirit I have, the person that I am, that he despises so much.
I've mentioned in previous posts that I got married at a young age — 16, to be exact — and through years, I understand that it is normal for people to change. We adapt, our wants and needs shift. I mean, some shifts are negative, but I certainly don't believe that any of mine weren't adequate given the circumstances.
Anyhow, through time and counseling it was made apparent that he just didn't like the person I had changed into. I still feel as if he clings to the person I was when we first met — but I'm just not that person anymore. Time has provided me insight and adaptability. So, I'm dealing with feeling bitter about his inability to understand I've changed and moved on.
I'm bitter about his attempts to diminish my feelings, and to execute any legal advantage that he can gain access to, and mostly just because he has more financial resources than I do. I am bitter about that flaunting, I suppose. I'm most bitter about him attempting to stay in touch with me. I just don't want any part of that.