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Guest — Sun, 20 Apr 2008 03:10:11 -0400

yes, my ex-lover told me that the reason he believes now that he fell in love with me was that I was so shamlessly needful. He goes on to write that he felt exalted. I felt that was a sad commentary.

I just feel sad that you

Guest — Sat, 19 Apr 2008 18:28:04 -0400

I just feel sad that you feel that way. No living creature should feel alone. CM

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Alice Brooks — Sat, 19 Apr 2008 16:00:00 -0400

I was re-reading Ursula Hegi's Stones From the River and came across this:

"She thought about him when she was not with him. Sometimes too much, she worried. What if he turned away from her greed for his love?"

It's comforting to know that's common enough, universal enough, to pop up in a novel.

It's funny how you can be secure, for all intents and purposes, in a relationship but still monitor your own behavior. When you feel so much for someone, you constantly worry: Is it too much? Will this frighten him away? Will this bother him?

When you've spent years in a relationship in which the other party is weary of your affection, you learn to hide it. You learn to hold back. You become reluctant to show things. At the same time, you live in constant anticipation, constant wanting.

The worst feeling in the world is knowing you love someone more than they love you. Feeling you're always trailing after them, hoping for a word, a hug, a gesture. Hating your need, hating the kind of woman you're turning into.

When you're with someone who gives affection freely, that greed doesn't stop.

Adopted feral cats and strays can't be left to monitor their own food intake. Apparently, if you keep their bowl full, they'll eat themselves to death. Since, out on their own, they never knew when they might eat again, when they're presented with food they'll eat it all - never confident they'll eat again any time soon.

I feel like that, a lot of the time.

Mike says my relationship-expectation bar is absurdly low, that I should start taking him more for granted.

I wonder how long that will take?

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I just feel sad that you

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