I feel better everyday.

Rhonda Harris — Sun, 10 Feb 2008 09:03:48 -0500

I feel better everyday. Thank you for your kind words. My father is also battling cancer at this time, You are in my thoughts and prayers.

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Dorotheaa — Thu, 07 Feb 2008 08:41:34 -0500

Rhonda I haven't been around much as I'm facing chemo therapy etc for Ovarian Cancer, and in the tunnel we go to before seeing the light. It's like a blackout, not a nightmare..However, I'm so happy for how peaceful you seem. There is such a difference from when I read your post in November Happy new life...and much success. Dorothy from grammology remember to call your gram http://grammology.com.

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Rhonda Harris — Wed, 06 Feb 2008 10:00:00 -0500

I have been having a good stage in my life lately. I seem to be settling into this new post-divorce self better than I thought I would. I used to be so nervous of what the next day might hold. I seem to be rolling through the days lately and not looking back with any regret, remorse, or unfinished business of any kind.

I hope I am finally seeing the light at the end of this two-year tunnel I have been stuck in.

I certainly am not ready to date or become involved in any way with another male. At least I don't look at myself and wonder if I have made the right decision everyday. I know I made the right decision. I did not rush into anything. I waited two years after the hell began before I ever walked out. I purchased my post-divorce home a year before leaving. (You would have thought he would have taken it seriously after that, but no reaction at all).

I think what may actually be happening is, I have realized this just was not meant to be. I have stopped blaming myself for yet another failed marriage. I felt a huge amount of guilt for not being able to make this work for my families' sake. In some way, I feel as though I am forgiving myself for whatever part I may have played in this.

I am truly happy with the stage I am in now. Whatever the reason, the days are looking much brighter lately.

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I feel better everyday.

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Finally Forgiving Myself