I've left the worst behind in 2008. Yay! That leaves a ton of room for new adventures in 2009. Can it be that I'm finally bridging the gap between "Navigating Divorce" and "Moving Beyond"? Anyway — here's a peek at a few things on the roster for the months to come...
I have to admit, you have been a hard year to live through. I have felt more pain in your 365 days than I have in all other years combined! (Except, perhaps, for 1990… my freshman year in High school.) Although I grew a lot over the past 12 months and have many things to thank you for, I am quite happy to say goodbye to you. In these final days, I hope you don’t mind if I say goodbye to all the things I hope to leave behind as you draw to a close and a young and hopeful 2009 takes your place.
For the last few weeks, my mind has been betrayed by my body. My mind made a decision... my body doesn't really want to follow along. How long will it take for the two to get back into synch again?
Maybe the holiday spirit will show up if I surround myself with holiday things. At the very least, I'll have something pretty to look at for the next few weeks.
I am letting him go. My bed is empty. My hands are empty. My thoughts, for the moment... are blank. Before I can move on to something else, I have to acknowledge the nothing I am left with.
Ahmed and I have drawn a line in the sand. No more intimacy. No sex. No kissing. No staying over on the weekends. Withdrawal is never pretty, so please forgive me if I take a week to get used to the changes. Don't worry, my friends are taking good care of me. I'll be back Thanksgiving Day. Hope to see you then.
