I am stuck. I'm scared, stuck. I feel like one of the squirrels in the middle of the highway staring down a car, trying to figure out which way to go; only to remain there frozen with fear praying to God this giant machine doesn't run over me.

Yeah, Levi found out about court. That was fast.

He called me once, and I did answer. He screamed a slew of threats at me. Threats like, "I'm just going to take him from you" and, "You don't even know what you're getting into, you really f%%^ed up this time!"

I hung up on him.

Then his other ex wife (see "My Ex's (Invasive and Obnoxious) Ex"), starts sending me emails on the subject.

I'm not even going to pay any mind to her bullshit.

Then I got an email from Levi.

It goes like this:

"It didn't have to be this way. This time you will truly have no one to blame but yourself.

See you on the other side......."

I'm not really sure how to interpret that. He'll see me on the other side of what, exactly?

Again, I'm not responding.

This is usually the point where I back down, and now I'm remembering why. This is awful. The way these people treat me is totally inhumane, uncalled for and unforgivable. The way they treat my son is even worse.

So, I won't back down, today. I will take this one day at a time, and hopefully, I will see it through.